Anushka:
No matter how painful the circumstances are, one has to move on. As a result, I feel much stronger today. I have no qualms admitting I have been turned down by Sidhanth Sinha. Sidhanth Sinha- The boy I have always loved, the boy who loved me, I thought.
I don't know how girls feel when they go through a break up. Do they feel cheated? Annoyed? Insulted?
I just feel empty. And clueless. Where do I begin my life now? How silly it must look to the rest of the world that one person can affect my personality so much and reduce me to nothing.
Nothing...My father passes me by without a word, as if I don't exist. Ridhi Bhabhi is right. I have centered my whole existence around one person,when I have my whole world looking out for me. Appa,Amma,Karthik,Anna,Bhabhi...Kahi na kahi,I have let them down to with my decision.
Do I have a choice even? My blood boils...my heart sinks when I see him. I feel helpless, but I am not a weakling. I am quite surprised I have the courage to be honest with him and show him my hurt...Not that it would matter to him. For Sidhanth, ambition is all that ever mattered. How else do you explain the sudden volte- face? One moment, he was all geared up to talk to Appa about us, and the very next he bolted in the direction of his dreams, leaving me behind...Baat karke toh dekhthe,ek baar. I know my Appa. Sadly, I guess I didn't know Sidhanth well enough. I guess what I mistook as his commitment to me was just the alcohol talking. Nasha uthar gaya, phir se ambition driven...Chalo, at least he was honest enough to tell me...
Honest. Again..How coolly he could walk into my cabin and ask me to start on a new note- because that would suit his needs. He wants to rise up...he doesn't want to make an enemy within the family.
How well does this guy know me? Did he think I would let my personal issues affect his professional growth? If he thought that even for a second, Sidhanth Sinha doesn't know Anushka Reddy. I wonder why he doesn't know me.I am not someone to play games. My life is an open book and everyone who knows me know I am always fair. I am not one to carry a grudge. And never...Never towards Sidhanth.I will never stop loving him, because my heart doesn't operate on an On- Off button. It has always loved him, will always do. It has just learned a lesson to never expect anything back from him or trust him foolishly...or reveal its enormous stupidity to one smart businessman.
So smart, he becomes the youngest non Reddy member to be inducted into the board of directors. What an honour! If Appa, Anna and Karthik felt he deserved it, he must...I wonder what Prabhakar Uncle would have thought.
Whatever...whatever his shortcomings are... when it comes to dealing with personal matters,I guess he would give his all to excel professionally..and that can only positively impact Reddy Corp and the people who have placed their trust in it. So, I guess I should just keep my personal beliefs and grief to myself and move on.
Sigh...What a waste! What a waste getting to know each other better and reconciling, when it all had to come to this! Love is just a mirage...at least to some people. I guess true love exists. I just have to be content with what my heart feels for him and be careful never to expose its vulnerabilities to people who don't understand what it means to break someone's heart. If they can move on and start on a new note, I should be able to gulp down my feelings, store them away at a secure place, far away from people who can carelessly trample all over it.
Get over it, girl!
PS: Not penning down Sidhanth's thoughts because the moment he said he needed Anushka's help to ruin her father, he opened a new door and I am waiting to see where that leads. I admired his honesty, telling her quite bluntly their personal equation shouldn't affect their professional relationship. How on earth does Sidhnath think he can stay aloof, when a huge chunk of his heart has only Anushka in it...
I loved Ridhi's talk with Anushka.👏
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