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Ishita looks very pretty and so does Roshni
Miss the old Santoshijee but a big welcome for the new one
Holding brief for Roshni
What I would like her to say
I Roshni come from a relatively rural traditional and backward background
I was supposed to marry a man who died
So the person held responsible for his death- right or wrong had to marry me under duress
As for me I had no say either way
Brought up in the age old tradition that husband is God I married him and went with him
His neglect of me was shameful
But still I Took it all in my stride as a matter of my marital duty
Three things remained uppermost in my mind following this sham marriage
This man must get back to his betrothed Aliya and the goons Of my village should never find out otherwise they will harm Adi and his family and plans for marriage to the girl he loves and pledged to ultimately the village folks give up on me
A lurking desire to be out of that old atmosphere with fear of equal intensity that If I ventured to Return I would be discarded and have nowhere to turn to
So my ambition to study also got a a chance to feel the hope of sunshine as Ishita helped and I found my feet and ways
With no intention to ever come back in Adi's life or hope in that direction I went on
Being a woman steeped in traditional die hard values the thought of another man as husband was shy to surface
Adi came into my life in London
I used to use the Bhalla name and carry marriage photo to ward of unpleasant attention from strange men
Adi and I got attracted got close and we were both party to the mistake
my real mistake was to agree to a marriage suggested by Shagun and having done so when Adi went berserk I should not have contradicted him and resisted him- he had the chemical ,gun and I was unarmed- I should have agreed to everything - his outburst would have calmed and he would not have been shot in that moment when amidst all this drama Ishita saw no way out - but if I had aquieced to Adi's demand all would have been ok
Adi could have been controlled
I do not plead guilty for falling in love with a married or bearing his child- he is equally to blame
I feel guilty for not understanding that dramatic moment
For resisting instead of giving in
A mistake of a lifetime
Geet - Hui Sabse Parayee
