RANT for therapy

I didn't watch yesterday's episode in deference to Abhi, Pragya's relationship and the place they hold in my heart and my own sentiments towards marriage and the stake holders in that marriage🤢. Just reading through the update itself gave me major palpitations, my eyes smarted so many times and that pressure was heavy on my chest all night long. No, it is not a heart attack and I know it😊, it is my mind and soul attacking my heart and body😭So here goes my rant.

As the name implies, this is all going to be a rant, so people who don't want to hear harsh things, please stay away. I am also not coherent enough to organize my thoughts, so this will be very random.

1. Let us start with how Abhi, Pragya dealt with losing their loved ones. Bulbul ended her life, unable to deal with disfigurement and fueled by taunts of the vamps😡. She didn't give Purab a chance to even tell her how he feels about her debacle of losing her physical appearance. So in a way, it is her own decision to end her life if you look at it very objectively. Pragya grieved for her through all the taunts of her " husband" but looked at the situation for what it is, and didn't erupt on the " husband" and his sister for "causing" the tragedy. How the hell do you link somebody's words as a cause of the suicide when she either has no knowledge of it or she has nothing tangible to hold on to? She did know in the heart of hearts that the vamps may be behind this, but so did Purab, so did Abhi.

Dadi died going after Pragya to catch Simonika. Pragya didn't ask her to come along with her, she informed she was going to the cops. Here again, it is daadi's decision to go which ended with losing her life. How the hell again do you link Pragya to this debacle and hold her responsible? Did they catch Simonica or did she conveniently die too, so the truth about the 🤬is buried for ever and ever. How did Simonica come into the picture? Because of her killer husband. Who hired the killer ??😡But no, Abhi doesn't need any of this, he just blamed, linked, erupted, decimated his wife, the so called "love of his life" at one time. Thank you Mr. Husband. So is Pragya responsible for " his family's " actions as well?

2. Did Pragya disobey Abhi? Let us look at this scenario a little differently. If say daadi were in danger and Pragya did " disobey" Abhi and took in on herself to get her back and in the event gets hurt, would he have yelled at Pragya for " disobeying" him? Or would the whole khandaan be praising her as Lakshmi, Savitri and whatever heck they want to call her for face value??😡And what is with obeying and disobeying? Don't wives or women have no choice to take decisions based on circumstances? Did he forget how he got stuck in the murder case and illicit affair because he followed her on a whim? Isn't this an almost similar situation?

3. Pragya fought with the entire world, moved heaven and earth, heck, she even fought with his inner demons and fought with his so called " family" to rally support for him. She even disputed him when he said " may be I did kill her ". In other words, she saved him out of this, his physical self as well as his soul, when all the lawyers, doctors, police and press and " his family" were against him.

What does Abhi do? When some body blames her for a bad outcome, he joins the ranks and blames her and decimates her in the most reproachable way and singles her out. He kills her spirit her soul and drives her towards self harm ( I am not condoning this self harm one bit here )🤢

4. Pragya hangs on to his words in a death grip. We all saw her crying saying " he asked me never to leave his hand" or that " he wants his family" very close to her heart and means to do what all she can in her power to bring him out of that melancholy.

Abhi on the other hand calls her bad omen😡💔, inauspicious and whatever else which I don't understand very well. But that is enough for me. I don't think these words even deserve a comment from me. Where does his conscience go? Even if I find an excuse for him for saying these words to his wife in a moment of intense grief( which I absolutely and unequivocally don't ), did he forget what he did in the last 7 years and is carrying on just fine? Does he even have a heart? Is this the guy who is touted time and again as " someone who can't see other people's pain"? Great going as a person, let alone a husband, Mr. Rockstar👎🏼

5. What support is he talking about? The pillar of support he was during the whole of revenge marriage days driving her to desperation and humiliating her or was it during the Mogambo time when he constantly desecrated her or during the ML time when he totally decimated her by choosing the 🤬again and again over his wife? Or Munni track when he didn't even know who he is carrying along with? BTW guys, did he ever know that he carried along with Munni, the existence of Munni and how and who brought her in?😡Or is that Pragya's fault too somehow, how dare she look like somebody else and confuse the heck out of the "loving husband" who is never at fault😡💔

6. He threw Pragya out with not even a second thought when calamity had befallen him. What about daadi? Did he know that Daadi once threw Pragya out of his life and then it was OK with him because it was daadi?😡 How come he " understood" the 🤬when he saw his supposed " beloved " being hunted and shot right in front of his eyes😡? Now he doesn't want to even listen to what happened? If somebody wants to kill his wife because that 🤬" wants " him then, it is understandable? But if a bad outcome happens in the process of a good intention, then he it becomes unbearable for him? 👎🏼 Double standards, narcissism, Mr. Rockstar? 💔

7. More than this, I am appalled that nobody , brother, sister, mother or anyone else would even look for her when the husband just killed her soul😡 How about the " great husband" himself? He is perfectly fine with his handiwork and she just disappears from his life, he doesn't even have the guilt or curiosity or conscience to find out what might have happened to that golden heart beating inside her? He can just forget about her, he will never come to his senses of what he might have done to her, he will be complacent in believing that she is the " manhoos" ( went down from being his strength ) and will live with that lie comfortably for 7 long years? He said he was missing Robin in the jail, I guess a "once beloved wife" doesn't deserve even a thought. Heartlessness at its peaks, Mr. Husband? 👎🏼

8. I am thoroughly irked that they show him happy, hale and going strong with no conscience or doubt whatsoever. I guess the message is be in the company of fake people, feed the " family" and engage them with money, so they stay loyal, carry on with sleazy, criminal, vulgar and obscene people and give them what they need and throw out the people who love you unconditionally just to have a peaceful life😡💔. A message worth underlining, don't try too hard to find the truth, just live in the lie and take the path of least resistance, to be happy. Thanks for that Mr. Hero😡💔.

9. As for Pragya, I hope the writers don't show her going weak and emotional and feeling sad seeing him carrying on with 🤬. Like most of you, I also feel that he will be back with the 🤬. If my girl stays strong, I won't give a rat's behind for this Mr. Wonderful husband💔🤢👎🏼Enough of the selflessness. Boys and girls, important message here, DON'T FORGET AND FORGIVE, without the other person in a marriage or a relationship acknowledging their wrong doing. Because then it becomes as if, the other person was never in the wrong😡. Yes, forget and forgive by all means, but ONLY after proper acknowledgement.

10. I guess he took a promise from her never to leave him but he never promised the same to her. I don't know what all he meant by " I am all yours", I think that is just to be buried deep as well. Chuck it, Mr. Rockstar, as there is no such thing in your dictionary as a promise to your soulmate👎🏼She is disposable any moment you wish to😡 Mr. Rockstar, a person that looks but doesn't see, who hears but doesn't listen, who feels but doesn't perceive🤢. Thank you for showing your true and innermost feelings about your wife, a bad omen, an inauspicious person, a head servant to your daadi who can be sent out as daadi is no more😡💔

OK, done for the moment. Please join in, like I said for therapeutic purposes only, about what is bothering you, even if it is as simple as too much milk in your coffee or if the temperature is too cold or too hot or if your radio is not tuned to your favorite station. 😊I am not going to defend or debate what I said, because this is all what I feel right at the moment, I can't make sense of this whole debacle😡💔

Only thing worth ranting is how they write female characters. I don't want to keep saying this is how it is or this is typical Ekta's serials. Pragya has been degraded, humiliated, insulted, almost died and she keeps doing the same things. Didn't Einstein say doing the same thing over and over again, but expecting different results is insanity? So what are they saying? Pragya is insane? So question is are they mocking Pragya? If they are, they are mocking and ridiculing women. I don't care what kind of relationship abhigya have. I want to see women as strong and dignified.

Women in Hollywood finally didn't accept "this is how it is" and started the #metoo movement. Viewers have to reject this crap and not sympathize with what they are showing. I don't want to rant against their break up and pity Pragya because that's exactly what writers want for their ratings. I'll rant against lousy characterization.

Pragya, go live your life. Away from the Aroras and Mehras. Start thinking of yourself and your happiness because nobody else has!!

The kid is super adorable and pragya can bring her up in a healthy environment. Just imagine the kid to grew up around taliya, yuck.

And abhi married tanu!!! Perfect.

Now all we have to hope is prags stays in London forever.

But I thought he had some self-respect and loved his dadi so much. But both seems to be false. He married a woman who tried to make him father of someone else baby and the woman his dadi hated more than anything.

So sending pragya out is to marry tanu and not for dadi?

Is moral, character and self-respect only related to women? Because always women in show gets questioned but men gets easy pass. Aren't everyone equal?

Looks like none of us are going to sleep or be able to do meaningful work😃I am off, by the way.

Good questions poiu and Harsha👍🏼. Morals are only for women and heroine only. Hero/ man ( should I still call him a hero?😡 )can flirt, flaunt, rub in the other woman in the wife's face, run after the other woman for 3 years despite being married, madly in love with the wife, and can keep on choosing the other woman for " serious reasons" only he can fathom💔, understand the vamp but throw out your wife again and again. But everything gets deleted , just like that. He doesn't have to acknowledge wrong doing, admit his mistakes or remedy any one of them because he always has "options". He will be happy either way, so why dig any deeper? I feel ashamed that I have felt there was a deeper connection even though he never showed us any😭 People have to have a heart, right to feel anything. All his talk about feelings, emotions, love, haq are all fake and overrated. We were just taken for an emotional ride by this guy😡👎🏼If this was going to be the end result, why did he even play around with the Arora sisters and finish them off ?

I really want to see what he has to say when he finds out that his beloved 🤬is behind Daadi's death. Or may be he won't find out, after all ignorance is bliss😡💔

After what I read today, if I were Pragya, I would not touch him with a mile long pole😡💔.

Now I'm not upset with dadi.