Chapter 29
(after his friends left Jalal sit on sofa).
Jalal pov : how much stupid I am. I trust a stranger boy over my love. how many promises I given to her family, that I will trust her care for her and I will always tried to understand her but. how hurriedly I broke those promise. god dammit I messed this time for big . how will she forgive me for this, when I can't forgive myself. god what should I do how to make everything fine . god I am sure if she started disliking me for leaving her, and acting like jerk with her. than after knowing the real reason, she will definitely going to hate me. I am sure about this how I wish Sid punch me that time . when I behave badly with her but he composed himself. dammit I am dead for sure if things didn't go that way like I plan.
(than he get up from sofa ,take his car keys and started going out within, few minutes he reach his car, sit inside and drove away from his house. Other side in Jodha house, Jodha was sitting in her room front of mirror, and looking at her Dresses jewellery and accessories. which her friends and family buy for her all the wedding ceremonies. after looking at them for sometime she looked at herself. And started recalling her brother's wedding day ceremonies).
(flashback).
(Sid was reading one book by lying on bed when Jodha cones there all dressed up to go for Sid engagement ceremony. when she saw him like this she shook her head than goes near him silently take his book of from him hurriedly and started shouting).
Jodha said : god bhai it's your engagement today and you are lost in this stupid book. come on get up and get ready. you can drool over bhabhi pic later. or should I say drool on her later. as soon she will be here after marriage.
(listening this Sid get up and look at Jodha than in calm voice).
Sid said : well engagement ceremony is mine and Sonal but you are dressed like you are going to get married.
(listening this Jodha look at herself than at him).
Jodha said : bhai in my marriage I will not be like this ,in my marriage I will wear all the jewellery .which you and mom dad buy for me and save for me ,and I will be the most beautiful bride you know. and I will not be like a lost puppy like you, I will enjoy every ceremony of my marriage with full heart.
Sid said : Really we will see, as I am sure you will be like a shy Happy little kitten on your marriage time. a little tease from your friend and me. will make you red tomato that time. I can bet on that cutie pie.
Jodha said : oh Really we will see bhai , but you know how I want my marriage Happen.
Sid said : no I don't but tell me I will make everything like that.
(listening this she sit on bed than our her head on Sid lap. while he stated rubbing her head softly).
Jodha said : I want my whole house decorations with rose flower. in Every ceremony in different color. my wedding ceremonies Dresses should be light in weight , and light color as well. but there design should be unique. with simplicity but different from everyone Dresses. and my husband should be wearing a dress matching with my dress color. he should look best when he is with me. that whenever anyone saw we both together. only one word should come out . and that word should be made for each other. that's for all I want now and after when I will be going to get married I will tell you about my wishes. now let's go or else we will get late.
(listening her wishes Sid smiled and than both of them get up from bed).
Sid said : I will make all your wedding wish come true it's my promise.
(end of flashback ).
Jodha pov : everything you had done like I wanted bhai. whole house is decorated by, my favorite rose flowers. my Dresses are just like I wanted. and my would be husband just like j wanted. nice looking smart guy. still I can't enjoy my own wedding ceremonies. it's the best time of every girl life. they can be nervous about there future. they can be sad thinking, they will leave there family and loved ones. they can be shy thinking about there first wedding night. they can be excited about there new life. but they can never be feel guilty about anything. still I am feeling guilty. I am feeling like I am betraying someone. why bhai why everything is going like I wished to be than what's wrong. why I feeling bad restless worried as well why. everyone are happy with my this Decision than what is Making me sad.
her heart said : because you are betraying Karan. you are destroying his life. he is nice guy he deserve a person who should marry him. with whole heart and accept him whole heartily and love him beyond limit. but you you don't love him, you are marrying him thinking you will be fine. and stay happy but it will not going to happen. everyone are happy because they think , you are happy with this marriage decision. but the truth is you are not because you still love Jalal and you can't move on from him.
her mind said : you don't need to listen this idiot. he always make you feel hurt. listening him you forgive Jalal for his act. and tried to be comfortable around him. soon you fell in love with him. trusting your heart and him. that he will not hurt you. but he hurt you not for once but many times. you can't love him Jodha. he never loved you never care about you. if he does than he shouldn't left you that day. and didn't roaming around with other girls. you are doing correct Karan is nice guy he will make you happy. yes it's true you don't love him now, but soon you will fell in love with him. as you are going to marry you will spend your rest of life with him. so don't think about that jerk , and think about Karan and your future, which you are going to have with him.
(she was getting restless with her heart and mind thoughts, so she get up and goes downstairs. and goes to kitchen take a glass and about to fill it water to drink. when her house doorbell rang. so she put the glass down. and goes towards door open it and get shocked to see the person but than composing herself).
Jodha said : what are you doing here, you shouldn't have been here now. what will people think if they saw you here Karan. it's not good to have meeting like this.
Karan said : I I know Jodha I shouldn't been here this late at night , but I I can't stop myself to come here, I I need to talk with you it's urgent. can we talk right now.
Jodha said : alright come inside.
Karan said : can we talk here in garden please.
Jodha said : hmm okay than come.
(than both of them goes out in the garden and started walking slowly slowly. after sometime of complete silence).
Karan said : actually we are getting married within a week. but we didn't get time to talk with each other about ourselves. so I am here now to talk with you. actually I wanted tell you about my past.
(saying this he get nervous so he just nervously rubbed his hands palm together clear his throat a little and spoke in calm voice).
Karan said : umm hmm actually. the college where you first studied. there was a girl name Ayushi. when you started your first year there. it was last year of her. I I loved her she was nice simple innocent girl. And my college batch mates sister as well. so three years five months back. I propose her and confess my feelings with her , it was urgent for me to tell her about my feelings. as I was leaving for Delhi as I get a job in Delhi. but she told me she love someone else I was broken. but for her happiness I let her go as for me her wishes and feeling matter so I left at the same day for Delhi. but later after month I got to know by my other friend, that she met with an accident. I get very much hurt I didn't had guts to go in funeral. as how can I the girl who I loved left me forever. so I tried to forget her. and get busy in my job and life, but after three years my father get a heart problems, so I come here in Mumbai for his treatment three months back. And I saw you I felt something for you which I can't express in words. but I knew I liked you. later after seeing you often in office with Sid bhai ,I started to fell in love with you. and soon told him about my feelings and ask him your hands for marriage and rest you know. Actually before having any relation with you I wanted to tell you about myself so I hope I I didn't upset you by this. and if after knowing this you think, the boy who loved someone else, will not be able to love you than, I assure you I will love you ,and I will always tried to make you happy. you can trust me on this. still if after knowing about my past. you don't want to marry me than it's fine. I will tell about this to my dad. and it will not happen. as it's not to late to back out isn't it. now tell me what you think about all this. and if you want time you can take it as well I am in no hurry. I just wanted to know your decision and feeling about this marriage and about my past nothing. else and yes you don't need to marry me for pitying me for my past ad well.
(listening this Jodha look at him , all the while he was looking at the sky, talking about his past. but asking about her, feelings and decision he look at her. which make her a little nervous. but tha. composing herself Jodha to look at sky and in calm voice).
Jodha said : past is the only time , from which we should move on and learn from. we can never go back to our past and undo everything like we want. that's why people say always think before saying or doing anything. but we people often ignore this advise. anyway I don't pity you for your past, neither I am upset knowing about your past, and why should I it was your past. from which you move on isn't it. so this truth don't make me change my decision, I was ready to marry you ,and now to I am ready to be your life partner. you know after seeing you telling me about your past is making me respect you by heart. not because you are going to be my husband. but because of your honesty and understanding behavior. every girl want a partner who understand her respect her and trust her and more ever loved her and in out case it's quite like that only. you trust me and respect my decision, and trying to understand my feelings as well , which is enough to make me respect you and like you. But.
(saying this she became silent which make Karan curious about this but word. and can't be have patience).
Karan said : but what is there something, which is bothering you. if it is than you can tell me. I will try to help you.
(listening this Jodha look at him than in soft voice).
Jodha said : like you I have past as well Karan, I loved someone as well . but I can't say that I still do or not. it was before my first day of college I was after doing shopping going with Ankit to my home when...
(slowly slowly in soft yet calm voice Jodha told him everything about Jalal to him. which by each passing Minutes making Karan angry that how badly he treated her. But later he started admiring him, that how much he get change. but again at last hearing that he left her ,he get confused that what type of person Jalal was. but than thinking something).
Karan said : don't mind for asking, but did you tried to talk to him why he left like this. and behaved coldly with you. I mean maybe he has a reason for that. or maybe it was something which make him upset. and he left without replying nicely.
(listening this Jodha chuckle painfully. and than in painful voice).
Jodha said : I I tried Karan he was out of country. still I tried to contact him. But I didn't get chance I called him many times. he never received it. I message him don't know how many times. but he never reply me. do you know... I seeing his pic with different girls on magazine I felt hurt but thought, it was not very serious . but when he comeback two months back . and didn't contact me I get it. that he move on so I to didn't contact him again. and why should I , when he don't care about me. than why should I waste my time on him.
(seeing her like Karan has tears in his eyes. he never understand, why people always hurt the one . whom they claim to love , he always think about one sided love and there end. his love was one sided as well, but not for once he thought about hurting Ayushi. when she told him that she love someone else. and now seeing Jodha who was crying now, maybe after long time she told someone about her feelings openly. he didn't know how to comfort her so he just let her cry. but after sometime he heard her voice).
Jodha said : I.. I I... I and scared Karan I am scared of him. I just have one thought what if he come again in my life, and force me to be with him again. I am really afraid of him because truly say . I can never understand him, he is like bipolar. one time he will be so loving. that you will wish to be with him always. and one time he can be so controlling and scary , that you will wish to be just away from him. I I don't actually know what he wanted from me that time. but now I think about that. so I come to conclusion. he wanted revenge from me. he was not change he just wanted to break me. that's why seeing me helpless or crying he never comfort me or let me go. he enjoy to see me weak front of himself. but than seeing nothing is effecting me. he play love card. getting to much calm and soft. and after knowing I to started loving him he left me. and he broke me. or else why he left me when he claim to love me.
Karan said : but why do you think he will take revenge from you and for what. did you hurt him did you hurt his ego or something.
Jodha said : his father is really hardworking, he will return your money soon , but if he lost his life .will you ever be able to return, his only son to him... men can't take any type of disrespect. either it is rejection, slap or some type of advise. that to by girl. Maybe my these words offended him.and he take revenge on me because of that only ,and he did all this with me.
Karan said : I I I know it's not the time or way to ask still. I can't help myself to ask. I know no girl will agree to marry other men when she love someone else willingly. still I want to know this. Do you still love him. if you do than I can back out of this, as for me your happiness and thought matter, no matter how it will effect me.
(listening this Jodha wiped her tears than look at him than smiled a little).
Jodha said : what you think about this .if you will be on my place , will you love a person like him . who hurt you and never ever care about you.
Karan said : this is not the answer of my questions.
Jodha said : neither mine.
Karan said : love can do anything Jodha, it can make you forgive that person always . whom you love. because people can never see that Person in pain. you loved him three months back and you love him now to. but you are so hurt to accept this. as you don't want to think about him. because he hurted you. but let me tell you Jodha. if in our marriage time you get it that you still love him . than tell me that time itself and I will let you go. because I already told for me your everything matter because I love you now.
(listening this Jodha hugged him and again started crying).
Jodha said : I wish he understands me like you. I wish he respected my decision like you. I wish he care for me like you. I wish he thought about my feelings like you. god Karan now I wish he never enter in my life how I wish you met me before him. how I wish you were the person whom I love Karan. but now I promise on the wedding day, or in every ceremony of our wedding. you will find the girl who respects you who will do everything in her power, to love you I promise Karan you will get everything from me. as husband want from her wife.
(listening this Karan smiled painfully than in calm voice).
Karan said : Jodha Jodha you are not understanding , if you will force yourself to love me than it will never happen. as love can't happen by force. you cannot love me by forcing your heart. which you already lost to him. still if you want me to be your partner . than I promise I be always will be there for you . whenever you will need me. anyway it's really late. I should go now come let me escort you to your house.
(listening this Jodha break the hug and smiled than in soft voice).
Jodha said : you are right we can't see the person, in pain whom we love. so it's clear he never loved me. that's why my pain never matter to him. or effect him isn't it anyway you are right I maybe still have feeling for him . in my heart but that can't be love. it can be hate for sure and you asked me did I ever tried to know the reason he behave that way with me. than let me tell you if in future he come and explain me than to it will not effect me as no reason can justify his last act hr did. and yaa you are right it's really late, but not only for you to go. but for me as well. it's really late to explore my feelings for him, as now I am going to marry you. I Don't know what you think about this marriage. but for me it's a life time commitment. and I am not going to back out from this no matter what happen.
(listening this Karan sigh heavily than in calm voice).
Karan said : alright than let's go back to your house.
(than both of them walk to her house door soon Jodha enter inside than look at Karan who just smiled. and after wishing her good night left from there. Jodha to close the door and goes to her room than lay on bed and slept peacefully. but Jodha Karan both didn't knew that there talk which they had was heard by Jalal. who comes there to talk with Jodha . but saw her coming out of her house with Karan . so he hid behind one tree which was near to them. and he heard everything. And now he was standing at the same place still with tears).
Jalal pov : no no no love no. I I never thought to take revenge. it was never my intention. how should I tell you. and make you understand your tears your helpless form always. hurted me how should I make you understand how much I loved you. God I I always wanted to be the person, to understand you, trust you ,cherish you and make you happy. but I I couldn't I couldn't because ,I was fool to listen others. I am sorry wish you will forgive me. I wish someday you will understand how much you mean to me in my life.
(Jalal stand there for an hour. than goes to his car sit inside, and left from there . than after half hour reach one house, park his car at side than goes to that house , ring the doorbell and it's get open by one boy).
Boy said : who are you.
Jalal said : hmm Karan right. hmm umm can we talk please for sometime.
(listening this Karan get shocked , as he just come from Jodha house, and now seeing one boy at his doorstep. whom he don't even know want to talk with him. make me surprised but than he composed himself).
Karan said : do I know you Mr...
Jalal said : no you don't know me. but your would be life partner do.
Karan said : behave Mr you are talking about my fiance. and who the hell are you.
Jalal said : first can you come out, to talk with me than I will introduce myself to you.
Karan said : introduce yourself first, as I am hell sleepy .and I don't want to waste my time on stranger.
(listening this Jalal just take a deep breath).
Jalal said : I am Jalal Mohammed.
(listening his name ,Karan all sleep flew away. he look at Jalal in shock, than without saying anything. come out close the door, and started walking in garden. while understanding that he is ready to talk ,Jalal to follow him. after sometime).
Karan said : what you wanna talk. hope it will be not something, which make me loose my calmness. and yes if you are here , to talk about her .you better be respectful get that.
Jalal said : umm I I want her back in my life, and before you started , arguing with me let me tell you , the reason of leaving her.
(Jalal didn't get to complete his words when Karan in calm yet stern voice).
Karan said : excuse me who said I am interested , in knowing your reason of leaving her. you can leave from here. you can't come to my house at night, and talk about having my fiance in your life get that , now you may leave, and yes it will be better, if you explain your reason to the person whom you left, not the other way around , and if you think I don't know you ,and I will misunderstand her, than you are wrong.
(saying this Karan turn to go but Jalal words stop him).
Jalal said : I never intended to hurt her. I loved her and I still do . but I never knew how to express myself with her. I I get very upset at myself ,that how should I make everything fine so I goes to club. and there I met...
(he in calm voice told everything which make Karan furious he just without thinking punch him. and grab his shirt collar and shook him furiously than in angry cold tone)..
Karan said : idiot. stupid. bloody. fool.to .hell. with .your .love .and. feeling. what .the. hell. do. you. think. of. yourself. and. moreover. what. you. think. about. her. just. by. seeing. one. video. you. misunderstand. her. and. left. her. than. hurt. her. it. was. to. much .that. her. love. confession. didn't. matter. to. you. you. know. what. after. listening. how. much. you. get. change. I. started. admiring. you . as. I . heard. that. only. love. has. power .to. change. devil in angel. but. after. knowing.the .reason. I. don't. think. that. you. ever. changed. you. really. don't. deserve. her. you. know .what .if .she .told. me. that. she. still. love. you. maybe.I .should. let. her. go .but .after. knowing .the .reason. of .your. leaving. her .I will .not. do .that .because .she. don't .deserve. you .idiot. just .out .get .out. of. here. and. don't .you. dare .to. show. me. your. face .get. out.
(Saying this in very deadly and clear voice, Karan jerk him away ,and left inside his house. and he was about to close the door ,when Jalal next word again stop him).
Jalal said : I will give you anything, for getting away from this marriage . you can get your father treatment in best hospital. with all the facilities. you can have better future to.
(listening this Karan goes to Jalal and in calm voice).
Karan said : anything ,you can give me anything, than offer me, what you can actually give me.
(listening this Jalal take out his check book and forwarded him).
Jalal said : you can write any amount I will sign and you will get it.
Karan said : hmm you know Mr Mohammed ,I am not very smart in business. so why don't you yourself fill the amount.
Jalal said : I I can't do that because, I can't have her by filling any amount in this check book it will be like buying her. which I can't do that. it will insult of her.
Karan said : thank God at least ,you have some respect in your heart. for her Mr Mohammed. so listen I don't need anything you may leave from here. I am getting my father treatment already he is doing fine as well. and I am doing fine financially to so I don't want anything. and yea I am not going to sell my self respect at any cost. she is going to by my wife, her respect is my respect ,her happiness is my happiness ,her sorrow my sorrows as well ,and I am not going to leave her at any cost . because now I love her get that, so you may leave.
(he was about to turn when Jalal folded his hands and fell bend on knees).
Jalal said : please please please I I beg you Karan, please back out of this .I will die without her I did mistake. and I am guilty for that, please don't take her away from me forever please. you lost your first love. so you maybe understand the pain, of losing your loved ones don't you. so please for your love sake please, back out of this. please you know I was not buying your self respect. I just offered you my money because. in people eye money is everything I ever desire for , which is not true for me nothing matter to me , I want my love my angel of life my soul mate ,back that's it nothing else . please for God sake help me to win her back, please back out of this marriage please.
(listening this Karan to has tears in his eyes now he bend on his knees as well than in calm voice ).
Karan said : I can't back our as it will be betrayal with her. which I can't do that. try to understand after whatever I talk with her. I can't break her please i can't help you with this. I I I can understand what you are going through still. I I really can't do anything for you.
(listening this Jalal get up than in calm voice).
Jalal said : do you think I really don't deserve her.
(listening this Karan to get up and shrugged his shoulder a little).
Karan said : maybe you do or maybe you don't I can't say Mr Mohammed but now it's really late. you should leave.
Jalal said : hmm you are right I should leave it's really late.
(saying this Jalal goes to his car sit inside than left for his home. and after three hours he reach his home. and park his car at side and enter inside but get shocked to see Hamida sitting on sofa awake).
Jalal said : you are awake mom.
Hamida said : it's 3 am of morning and son is not home so how can mother sleep peacefully.
Jalal said : I I had work so sorry you may go and sleep now.
Hamida said : listen whatever you are planning to get her drop it as it will lead to destruction only get that.
(Jalal just nodded his head).
Hamida said : you know what I hate the most about you. it's your attitude which you never change anyway go now and sleep it's really late.
(saying this she left for her room while Jalal to left for his room and slept. next morning in Jodha house everyone woke up and after getting freshen up checking all the preparation. Sid was walking here and there while ordering people to set everything perfectly. when one lady and men cones to there house seeing them Sid goes to them).
Sid said : hmm Mr Shah you here.
Mr Shah : said : I I actually want to talk with you if you can give sometime to us.
(listening this Sid get confused but than take them inside his study room and on the order one men to get some drinks for them. and within few minutes three of them reach inside his study room. Sid motion them to have seat).
Sid said : so what make you come here.
Mr Shah said : do you remember me Sid .
Sid said : the person who killed my mom dad how I will not remember him Mr Shah or should I say Abhinav Singh my so called uncle.
(listening this Mr Shah hung his head low).
Sid said : now please tell me the reason of your arrival here.
Mr Shah : Sid I I didn't kill your parents trust me I was just jealous of him from childhood. he was favourite son of dad. as why not he was best in everything either it was education or sports he was best in every way as well. but I always let those thing go, but things get more bad when ,I and your father both of them fell in love with your mother ,I propose her but she rejected me and soon get married to him, as she loved him. I again let that go and soon get married to and get busy in dad business but ,dad decision of Making him CEO in his will, break me apart all the grudge which I had in my heart, from childhood to college explode in me. I became hungry to get revenge, I just wanted to snatch everything from him, but I never wanted to kill him trust me, it was just accident .yes I make him fool and snatch everything from him. but I never intended to kill him. I was just drunk that day as after snatching all the property and money from him, I was not be able to break him. he was still happy with his family ,which was burning me inside . and in that drunk state I drove my car but I never knew I will kill him by my car god. I never wanted to in fact in that accident I to get hurt, and how can I tried to kill him that time ,when he was with my wife in car as well . she get in coma because of accident and, After knowing everything from me how can I . please Sid forgive me for my act, I still remember the day you and Jodha comes, to my house. but I was lost I blame your father, for this so didn't help, you both but trust me I realize later, that it was my mistake but till than it was to late . you left from there I search you but never got you. than I left India and after few years I saw Jodha. but I was not sure she is your sister my niece. but meeting with you it's get confirm she is. that's why I offer her partnership in my new project to assist me. but she never tried to take any thing more than her job. please Sid I I am guilty for everything please forgive me.
(Sid listen everything calmly but looking at Mr shah with same cold look and at last in calm voice).
Sid said : I forgive you now you may leave.
Mr Shah wife said : can we help you in her marriage preparation. can we fulfill all the rituals , of wedding ceremonies please Sid.
Sid said : hmm alright you both can but you both need to talk with my sister about this.
Mr Shah said : we both are ready. to talk with her.
Sid said : here she is talk to her come cutie pie why you are standing out there.
(listening his words Mr Shah and his wife both look back and saw Jodha, who was standing near door with open hair, wearing light purple color neck sleeveless Salwar suit. holding tray of coffee and snacks but , by seeing tears in her eyes they get it. that she heard everything they talk. so Mr Shah get up from chair , than goes to her and cupped her face and in soft voice).
Mr Shah said : I I am sorry Jodha I am really guilty. for whatever I did please forgive me dear.
Jodha said : come on have coffee and snacks if bhai forgive you thsn I did as well let's forget the past now I am having my chacha Chachi who will fulfill all the wedding ritual of my Marriage which do by parents what more I wish for so let it go.
(listening this Mr Shah take the tray from her put it on table than hugged her tightly).
Mr Shah said : I I am si bless to have you dear thank you for forgiving me you and Sid don't have idea how much I repent.
Jodha said : let it go chacha it's past and we should burry it in past only.
Sid said : she is right let it all go. it's marriage time and I want everyone happy with us, as I want to cry when she is going to leave our home . and I wouldn't be able to fulfill her wish.
(listening this Jodha break the hug and thsn hug Sid).
Jodha said : I don't want to leave you bhai please don't say that j will ask you always to fulfill my wishes.
Sid said : oh no I thought after getting you married I will be free but you are not planning to leave me.
(listening this Jodha hit him on his chest which make everyone laugh).
Sid said : alright if you don't want to leave we can have Karan and his father in our house what say.
Jodha said : no no bhai it's not needed.
Sid said : okay than go and check everything is done according to your wish or not go I am coming there within minutes.
(listening this Jodha nodded her head and left from there).
Sid said : I am angry at you both you both come here at this time and didn't brought any gift for my little sis bad very bad.
Mr Shah said : I didn't had guts to brought as first I wanted to get forgiveness from both of you that's why.
Sid said : I was just Kidding let's go now I need to see everything.
(than three of them goes downstairs and check the preparation while Mr Shah wife Sonali meet Sumitra and started helping Sonal in other things Jodha sitting with her friends and they were teasing her).
Amy said : you know I never thought you will marry before us but see you are.
Shreaya said : in fact tell us about our jiju how he is did you like do you love him.
Shivanya said : we met him as well he is smart handsome very nice person but you tell what do you think about him.
(listening there talk Jodha started recalling her night meeting with Karan and started smiling in admiration which make other smiled).
Jodha said : understanding handsome wise kind hearted person. I can't describe hi. in one word guys he understands me trust me more ever respect my feelings and Decision. what I can ask more.
Siya said : do you love him.
Jodha said : I I don't know but maybe with time i will.
Nisha said: don't tell me that you still have feeling for him.
Jodha said : no no I don't have any feelings for him.
Shreaya said : you know Jodha you can never lie you said something else and your eyes say something else anyway leave all this. cone get ready soon everyone will be here for engagement ceremony so.
(listening this Jodha nodded her head in yes and soon left for getting ready).
Edited by Rashmisingh9151 - 7 years ago
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