Separated

After 3 months of Separation

Om's P.O.V.

It's almost 3 months from the damn separation. The #Shivika are Separated... Hard to believe but it's true. They are separated. Due to a lame Misunderstanding. To Shivaay it is the only truth. That his Annika has cheated on him. With someone else. And as a result he is back in his previous self so obsessed with his so called NKK. Now he believes that if Annika was from a reputed family she couldn't have done it. As if Tia was nun. Sometime I feel pity on him. I deed the same mistake. By trusting what I saw & taking Gouri wrong. She even went to KT to save me from him where I thought her to be a gold digger. But now I'm in the deepest cliff of guilt.
& I'm sure Shivaay will be in same position even may be the worse. Cause...
Annika is doing the same. She spoilt her own grace her self respect by her own hand just to save Shivaay from the biggest truth of his birth. She did all this so that he doesn't break apart when she herself was smashed into pieces. But there fore she did it. & me. Me & Rudra knew the truth long back. But after one month when we over heard choti ma & Kamini Aunty's convo where she just voiced her inner devil so confidently as if she has own a Padmashree that I felt disgusted to be called as her nephew. What kind of a person she is???? May be Shivaay isn't her real son. She didn't give birth to him but she brought him up. She is d one whom Shivaay call respects, see, loves, cares, knows to be his mother. For whom he can stand againt everyone. And that same woman snatched the only happiness of his life. Seriously I'm ashamed to call her as my Choti ma now. She isn't worth the respect at list after what she did with Annika. & Annika I just can't understand what is she made of???? Is she real? Nope. Can't be. Cause immidietly after hearing Choti ma's those disgusting deeds when we went to her she defended her instead saying...

Flashback...

" May be she isn't his biological mother. But she brought him up all this time. And she has the biggest right on Mr. Oberoi. & after all who am I? Just a mere no one. I never had a right on him or his heart & never will. & now I don't want even... Our separation was inevitable. Whatever U both think we are just no match. From no where. If he is the sky then I'm the ground & we can't come together. Never. So plz close the matter. I just wish he lives a joyful life ahead away of me. & it is the truth. Accept it OmRu. U'll feel better."
"The base of any relationship is trust. And we are lagging behind in this field the most. It doesn't matter how much I try but he can't never believe me whole heartedly. It is was & always will be his family OmRu. Even when it all was taking place he never said that U can't do this to our family. It's your family as well Annika. And you can't do this to your family. He could but he didn't say it. The reality is he loved me, he cared for me, he may be accepted me to be his wife too but I wasn't a part of his family ever. "
"No bhabi. It's nothing like that. He always think of U as his family. You are his family bhabi" Rudra said sobbing.
"No Rudra. I wasn't. Then tell me one thing. Just one simple thing. If U or Rudra or Dadi were in my place would he done what he did with me? Yeah he would definitely take a stand for the others. He would shout at you. But he would never throw U out of his house or his life. Instead he would have make U try to calm down but won't let that person leave at his fate when he knew that one hasn't any place to go. Any shelter to stay. Anything to eat. Or anyone to share his pain. Like I hadn't. I had to stay at footpath. I hadn't get anything to eat for next two days. Next day I went to the person I used to work for earlier so I'm here today. But he never thought of me twice. He never tried to check if I was alive. He wouldn't have done it if Anyone of U was in my place."
"But You made him think like that Bhaabi" I said a broken & sobbing her though I know I shouldn't but I can't see I brother's love in question. But that was the biggest mistake done by me. Cause the next was more disheartening...
She started laughing. A laughter mocking herself which ended up in a heart wrenching cry.

" You are right Om. I made him do that. I made him angry I made him feel betrayed. So he got angry. Just as Priyanka did when she fled away with Ranveer. Didn't she accused U, your family? Didn't she said all rubbish things to U all? Yes. She did. But... He didn't let her leave. I'm not complaining Om. I'm proud of him for that. For the way he understands you guys. He understands every hurt pain sorrow behind Ur anger. But in my place it's always the opposite Om. Always. When Dev snicked into the Mansion with Prinku's help, when I tried to tell him about Tia being married, When I tried to say that Daksh is the stalker, when he married me, when he accused me of sleeping with Daksh, when I said about Pinky aunty bringing Nayantara in the mansion as my mother or I pointing to you being illegitimate. In my case he always gets satisfied seeing the outer pretance. The story he is fed with. But never bothers to see the depth. Never trys to see if I'm pretaining something. Can U tell me that even for once he tried to dig into the matter after I leave. He tried to think if I was acting. If I was hiding something. No . The answer is NO... He didn't. He never tried to. He believed my faade my words my pretance. But for once even by mistake he never tried to see the pain, the helplessness, the hurt inside my heart. He didn't tried to see through or read my eyes. When ever he try to act or hide something try to make me away from him I always see through his eyes. So if I want that from him aswell is too much Om? I had no one in this huge world to think care worry about me or to call me as their family. I had no one to call me mine. I had him & only him. Can't he do that. What he did at that was truly justified. But then? Couldn't he think about me for once? Didn't he know me? Didn't he know how much I love U all? Couldn't he get what U two did? But he didn't. He loves me & I have no doubt on it even I can have if I even want. But Trust??? He has. But so little. He can trust me but that is so short lived. A Lil strong blow & it's shattered. Completely shattered. And a relation can't stand on just love. U need to have faith on your partner. But Shivaay never had it fully. He tries to trust me. But then sooner or later it just crashes down like a glass piece. So just leave it. I wish his marriage with Meghna works out well. I know I can't be with someone else in this life. Not possible for me. But if he can he should. I always want to see him happy."
"But it would hurt U bhaabi. How can U bear seeing someone else with bhaaiya? U can't. We won't let it happen. No way."
Rudra sobbed louder this time.
"No Rudra. You should. I can't be with him. Our fate won't permit it. We were to meet. We did. We were to get married that way. We did. And we were to get separated & we are Separated now. It's our fate. Neither me nor U can change it. It's better to accept the truth Rudra. Yeah may be it would hurt me break me but if he is happy I'm content. His well being is all needed for me. & to be with him on cost of ruin of his happiness, his beliefs his idiologies that he cherries from his childhood then sorry. I don't need that togetherness. If being together with him means his destruction then happy with this loneliness."
"But how can we stay away from U bhaabi? Who'll help me in my stupid plans? Who'll make khidkitod plans with me? I can't live without you?"
"U don't need to miss me Rudra. I'm always there for U. Just a call away. And U know my address. So just come whenever you wish. OK???"

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Next update tomorrow afternoon.