She doesn't want to be called Baby!
Even if I can't call her Baby, I can think or write Baby 1000s of times per second. So in my world, she is always a Baby for me.
Years passed and I stopped addressing her as Baby.
But sometimes with emotions overflowing, my tongue slips.
It's not my fault.
Sometimes she behaves like a baby that i can't hold my tongue.
It was the case a day before she turns 10.
***
LOVE = BABY
Tomorrow is my Baby's birthday.
Mom, Dad, Uncle and Aunt were all in the preparation.
Me and my Baby were in her room.
Don't think wrong, I was helping her to finish her homework so she can enjoy her birthday fully.
I don't know from where that question poked her head but that question changed my life.
Or I can say our life.
We have almost finished her chemistry homework when suddenly she asked:
"What is love Raju?"
For me it was like OMG! Why she is asking this question? And that too to me?
Since 2 months, I'm seeing dreams of my Baby with me due to that rascal Adi.
2 months before I went to his birthday party and I stayed there that night.
We watched a film he suggested after he convinced me that it's not wrong to see that type of film.
I don't know if it's wrong or not to watch that type of films but I felt wrong to think about my Baby with me that way. She is the only girl I speak with. She also doesn't leave any girl near me so...
Since then I'm trying to avoid that thought but here she asked me this question.
"Tell na Raju! What is Love? What does it do?"
After a lot of thinking I said:
"Love is a special word, like relationship, parent, home, etc. It's same as when you like someone sooo much."
"Is it like how I like you, Mumma, BB and Aunty?"
"Yes and No!"
"You are confusing me." complaining.
"Yes because you love all of us as we are part of you. But True Love is only for one person."
"What is true love now?" she asked feeling tired of my explanation.
"It happens only with one person. You will want to be with that person always. When you close you eyes you see the person. And there is a lot more things."
"Just a sec!" saying so, she closed her eyes for few seconds before opening them and looked at me with a baby face.
"Yuppie! I found my true Love!" she announced.
"What? Who?" my blood was boiling hearing her.
I found out that I love my Baby a lot since I don't know when and I can't share her with anybody.
And here she is telling me she found someone and she is just 10. Who can it be?
I know that she never talked with her class boys or to anybody in school except to me and sometimes Adi.
It can't be Adi, just last week he said he loves Ragini, so who can it be?
"You!" she said pointing her index finger at me with her eyes glittering.
Hearing hers, this word I was on cloud nine but she is just 10. She thinks that.
"You will know it when you grow-up Baby!" I said.
"I'm not Baby! And I'm grown. I'm going to be 10 tomorrow!" angrily.
"Listen Honey! You may have seen me when you closed your eyes now.
You may want to be with me always for now.
But when you know the true meaning of love, you might"
"No! I will always want to be with you! I love you Raju!" she kissed me on my cheek like she does whenever she wants.
"When you will be 18, you" I started.
"I will love you more than now!" she again kissed me.
Oh My God! Whatever she is doing, is destroying my resolution.
"Now tell me! Do you love me?" she asked me with her hands on hips, kneeling over bed.
"Why do you want to know it Honey?" scratching my head.
"I said I love you to you and now I want to know what you think."
"Honey, I always love you!"
"No not that love! The true love you said?"
"Baby, I love you truly since I don't know." bending my head.
"I forgive you for calling Baby this one time." she landed over me and I lost balance.
We were lying on her bed with my Baby over me. She put her head over my chest and hugged me.
"So we will love when we will grow up too." she said.
"Hmmm"
Is all I could say there.
She is so soft.
It's not the first time we hugged or we are in this position but it's been a long time back.
Moreover, I feel more than what I felt before.
The silence prevailed for few minuted before I asked a question.
"Honey! Why did you talk about love suddenly."
"Anu and Sara were talking about that. God I forgot something!" lifting her head from her pillow i.e My Chest.
"Calm down and tell me! What is that?"
"Kiss me!"
"What?" I shrieked.
"My friends told me that when we say I love you, we should kiss. You see I kissed here" pointing to my cheek "Now your turn." showing her cheek.
"Not there!"
"Then?" facing me.
I took hold of her face between my hands and kissed her forehead.
"I want here and not there!" turning her face on right.
I did what she asked and she rested her head again.
"Why did you think that when I will be 18, I will not love you?" She asked.
"Sorry Honey!"
"Accepted! I have a question!"
"Ask Honey!"
"Sooo Hmmm will we be like BB and Aunty when weee hmm at their age?"
"Hmmm! If everything goes well, we will be more happy than your dad-mom and BB-aunt."
"I don't want you to be like Hitler."
"Hitler?" Who is this Hitler here.
"Oups! Slip of tongue! Nothing! Forget it!"
"Now you have to tell me."
"Nooo" shaking her head which ticklish me.
"I want to know!" I demanded.
"You are also behaving like him!" in a complaining tone.
"Is it uncle?" I know that she love her BB a lot, so there can be only Uncle.
"Hmmm" nodding.
"Why Honey?"
"Always ordering 'Don't do this!' or 'Don't do that!' and sometimes you also do that to me."
"It's only for your good!"
"But I don't like."
"I will try to be the way you want me to be."
"Sure?"
"Yes!"
"Thank you!" again I earned a kiss from My Baby on my cheek.
"Honey!"
"Hmmm"
"You shouldn't kiss me or hug me like this in front of other."
"See you are ordering!"
"No Honey! I'm not saying that only for you, for me too."
"Why?"
"It's not good!"
"OK!"
I was playing with her hair and she with my shirt collar.
"Raju"
"Hmmm"
"Will you make cake for me?"
"Sorry Honey! I can't do, it's girls' work."
"BB does sometimes."
"I'm not your BB."
"But?"
"No Honey!"
"I hate you!" she started to hit me but I held her hands.
"Just few minutes before you said You Love Me."
"I love you and I hate you too." struggling to release her hand.
"I promise I will learn when we will live in our house."
"Our house? We are in our house."
"You see, why I call you Baby? After studies we will marry and then we will be in our home. You and me alone!"
"Why alone?"
"So that we can love each other more."
"Oh OK! But never forget, cooking is not only girls' work." she stated.
I just kissed her forehead and hugged her tightly like there is no tomorrow.
Until that day, I thought my love will be one sided but my Baby said she will be there with me, by my side for all our life.
Even if she is just 10, I can feel that she is and will always be my Baby. I mean mine.
***
After that day, my Baby has become my Lover. We are young that doesn't mean we couldn't love.
Whenever she wanted she hugged me and kissed me on my cheeks. Each time I was in BP, I mean Baby's Paradise.
We became more close than before.
We spent most our free times together.
I stopped to go to Adi's house.
A lot of things changed and one among them is our closeness.
***
Our First Kiss!
I entered my Baby's house with her 12th birthday cake.
On entering the hall, I saw her going towards her room, so I gave the cake box to Mom and hurried to her room.
"Why are you closing the door? I have to go down." she asked once I closed the door when I entered her room.
"We will go together!" I informed her.
"Ok! Wait! I have to change the earrings and then we can go!"
She went near the mirror and turned to my side all the while trying to remove her earrings. "By the way you didn't say why you came here?"
I neared her and said:
"I saw Aditya and Ragini in the garden."
Their parents are common friends of our parents, so their families were invited to the party.
"Hmmm" she hummed.
"I saw them kissing!"
"Really! Here?" she asked shocked.
She knows what the really meaning of kissing since last 6 months.
We went outing with Adi and Ragini 6 months before.
When my Baby and me came back after buying ice-creams, we say them under a tree, 'Eating each other lips' that's what my Baby said.
I explained her that they are kissing and it's common.
Since that day she never spoke about kiss to me or neared them when they were together.
"Yeah! In the garden."
"Ohh!" she turned to her mirror, placing her earrings on the table.
I was close to her.
"Do you want something?" she asked seeing my reflection in the mirror.
I just nodded fixing my gaze on her face.
She turned and raised her brows asking what.
"Can we?" holding her by her shoulder.
Her eyes were avoiding my eyes and her cheeks started to change colour.
With my left hand still on her shoulder, I lifted my right hand towards her left cheek and caressing it, I said:
"It will not hurt Baby! Please!"
She knows what I want and I know that she is scared of me hurting her lips.
She closed her eyes and nodded.
I was soo happy at that moment.
My hearts started to beat like drums, I started to feel something in my stomach. I can hear her heart beats too.
I closed in her, slipping my left hand from her shoulder to her waist when she held my collar and my right hand went behind her head.
Our breath were mingling and it felt different.
I bent a little and took her lips in mine and we kissed.
It's my first kiss.
It's her first kiss.
We didn't do PhD for that but I did what I saw few years before.
I asked to enter her mouth with my tongue but she didn't let me in so I bite a little.
She opened her mouth in pain and taking the chance my tongue entered her universe, exploring it.
In pain she tried to push me but I couldn't let her do that. She was stuck to the dressing table and I'm stuck to her.
In less than few minutes, we were breathless so we broke the kiss and she hugged me tightly hiding her face in my chest.
Once our breath were even, she stated:
"It hurts!"
"Sorry Honey! I had to bite you as you didn't open your mouth." It's not the correct time to call her Baby.
"Is it necessary?"
"Hmmm"
"It's bleeding!" in a crying tone.
"Sorry Baby!" and I kissed her forehead and brushed her lips with my thumb finger and I felt her shiver under my touch.
"What will we say when" I cut her in-between.
"Say that you bite your lips scared of a rat which you saw while passing by storeroom."
"Yeah a big rat!" she said smiling at me.
I peeked her lips and asked: "Do you want to see a full rat?"
"Hmmm?" with a questioning look.
I murmured my secret to her in her ears.
She made a disgusting face, saying "Chiii!"
"What chi Honey? We will do it one day!" taking her other earrings and making her wear them.
"Nooo!"
"You said you are grown up!" finished helping her with her earrings.
"Hmmm!"
"Than?" raising my brows.
"Come let's go, they must be waiting for us." saying so, she pushed me and ran from there.
And I was standing there like an idiot smirking until she came back, standing at the door, calling me to come down.
***
Our first kiss is still lingering in my memories.
She is special and everything related to her is also special.
From that day, we went on with numerous kisses, sometimes soft, sometimes rough, sometimes biting.
Instead of complaining, she started to take care of her lips with balm and sometimes biting me in return to take her soft revenge.
With those balms, I could taste variety of flavors through her lips, sometimes strawberry, sometimes vanilla, sometimes cherry,...
All these happened inside 4 walls only.
Life was a bliss at that time until the announcement of the earthquake which is Lal uncle shifting to Delhi in less than 3 weeks.
***
Separation
There is only one week to go and it has been 2 weeks that My Baby is distant from me due to all the relatives and friends around her. Since 2 weeks, she is sleeping with her mother and her father is in Guest room. The reason is she has attained puberty.
In these two weeks I feel like she has changed a lot, whenever we see each other we couldn't even speak a lot.
She has physically changed and I find her adorable or I can say she is promoted from Cute to Beautiful.
OMG! I'm feeling like a pervert imagining things I shouldn't but my age, Ufff!
This evening when we went to help Uncle and Aunt to pack, Adi's family came there to bid them good bye as they are going out of station for next week.
Parents were speaking in their corner while I was helping workers and Adi came to me before he went towards Chakor who was putting her things in a box.
Aditya brought chocolate for Chakor and she accepted it smilingly.
It's been 2 weeks, I didn't get a smile or a kiss and here he.
I calmed down myself as I saw them leaving.
I went near her and we had a small fight between us in the name of helping her in her room.
We didn't kiss, we didn't hug but fight over the fact that she accepted Adi's gift, she smiled to him and she being indifferent.
After dinner we went back home and I didn't speak to her since evening.
I went to my room and I saw her room lights are still on as I can see through window and balcony.
I couldn't sleep peaceful since 2 weeks and now this fight due to my insecurities. So I decided to speak to her.
"Why are you here?" she asked me when I entered through her balcony door.
"Why are u awake?"
"You came here to ask this?"
"No to sleep with you."
"But"
"What?"
"No you have to go!"
"You are going from here in 1 weeks and I want to spend time with you."
"We are already spending time with each other."
"Yeah! Since 2 weeks we are speaking a lot, kissing and hugging only in my dreams." I went to her bed and laid down before continuing "If you want you can watch me by being by my side too."
"Mom asked to keep distance with all boys." she said crossing her arms over her now different chest.
"I'm not everyone."
"Go from here." she said.
"I will not!"
"I will scream!"
"I know how to shut you!"
"You said you will not rule me!" hands over hips.
"I'm not ruling, I'm just telling my wish without dist"
"You are disturbing me!" cutting me.
"If I go today, I will never return!" finally I used my weapon.
I saw expression change over her face.
She came quietly and lay down on the extremity of the bed.
I know that in less than 2 minutes she will be near me but I wanted to call her.
She came rolling near me and hugged me.
I wanted to touch her to feel her for the time being together.
So I snaked my hand under her t-shirt and I found something new there.
"Raju! Please!" she shivered.
When she says "Raju" that means she is stressed.
"Mumma said to keep distance with you and here I'm hugging you." she completed.
"Not a big deal!"
"It is!"
"Oh Baby! I Love You!" gave a peek on her cheek.
"But I don't! And By the way don't call me Baby."
"You will one day Miss. Chocolate!"
"OMG! I was angry with you!" just then she remembered their quarrel, so she freed herself from him and went to other end.
"Come here!" I said.
"Don't order me! Remember you said you will not order me!"
"I'm not ordering, I'm telling you."
She didn't move from there.
"Go to your room!" she said.
"I said come here!"
She turned other side.
"Go from her, I don't want to speak with you." she said.
"Come here or else"
"You don't trust me."
"It's not you Baby!" getting up.
"But you should think before"
"I love you!"
"Not anymore!" she said facing me.
"Always!"
"I hate you! I hate you! I hate you! You are always hurting me whenever you want. Even not a sorry sometimes. Adi is like a brother to me. He was just saying he will miss his little sister. And you, you youuu I hate you. I don't want to see you."
"What about our love?"
"You never loved me!"
"Stop it Chakor!"
"Why should I? You always say and I should listen. Today I will say. Go and don't come." she started to cry, so I went near her until she yelled "STOP! Don't come! Go!"
I wanted to be happy with my Baby and tell that I don't mind her speaking with Adi but what happened, hurt me, my ego. How can she say that I'm dominating, I don't trust her and I don't love her. I spend all my life until now for her only and with her only.
So I decided to leave from there.
"Close the door!" I said when I approached her balcony.
"Even now you are ordering me!" she accused.
"What else you want me to do? Plead you! No way!" I had enough.
"I hate you! I don't want to be with a person who don't trust me or who is hell bent on keeping his insecurities. I hate you! I will never come to you."
"I will never talk to you until you come to me." I stated.
Saying this I came out of her room and jumped in to my balcony.
From my room, I saw her closing the door and turning the light off.
I know that she will be crying out through out the night.
Next day when I went to my balcony, I saw that her plants have been already watered.
It's not her usual hours! Normally she waters around 8 but it was 7:30 when I was there.
***
Why should I care? Was what I could think at that moment.
My ego was surfacing more than my love for her at that moment.
She avoided me until the last day of their stay in Mumbai.
She just bid bye before going far from me that too through action just for formalities.
My anger was just for few days and then all went in to thin air.
Days became years and I kept update of her through all possible ways.
I became lawyer as I said to my Baby and I came to know she is studying ML in London.
With all my hard work and effort I became the leading lawyer of this country.
I received Indian Firm Law Award this year.
***
New Beginning
I organised a party to celebrate this evening.
When I entered I was surrounded by people to congratulate me but my eyes were searching for my parents.
There I saw my parents and near them I saw Uncle and Aunt. It is then my eyes fell on her, My Beautiful Grown Up Baby.
I was happy that she is here.
I went towards them and started to speak with Uncle and Aunt. Then I turned to see my Baby and I saw her lost in her train of thoughts and then I heard my father saying :"Here is the girl we choose for you. Kasturi and Bhuvan's daughter Sweety!"
Seeing her lost in another world, I said wantedly "Sweetoo" to bring her back to earth. As much as I know her, she will not accept this marriage proposal so I decided to play with my Baby after all these years.
It has been almost 11 years she last saw me, so she didn't recognise me just by seeing me, as I saw her shocked when Uncle called me Raju.
All I know is she is still mine as she is still distant with men and all her social medias username are "bacha_bykor" which hides Baby and Chakor.
She started to use them when she was in 12th so I'm sure of her feelings.
Play with my Baby should be like a Play of Destiny so I started there itself by refusing to marry her "It can't happen!" and as I thought she followed suite.
Our parents decided to meet the next day which will give me enough time to plan the game. The game of bringing her back to my life.
***
Sometimes I feel like being a great criminal lawyer when I'm an all rounder in case of Law.
The time left was enough for me to sketch a plan to fail the plan she would have been planning against me.
As expected, she was there with a determined look.
***
Engagement
She didn't forgive me.
I have still the same effect.
She is mine.
Were my thoughts when we entered my room to speak alone the next evening.
We started to speak or I can say pull eachothers' legs.
She was sure in her stand of not getting married but I know her and I know Uncle, so I played my joker card: "Divorce" and after giving the needed explanation for my Baby, she accepted.
And the engagement date was fixed and the day of engagement arrived.
She is gorgeous! My mind was screaming this when I saw her.
After the ring ceremony, she was speaking with my parents when I came back from an important call.
"Can I have my Lady for few minutes?" I asked my parents eyeing my Lady who must be cursing me at that moment.
She knew that it was to sign the documents that she wanted on time.
When we settled in my room, I disturbed her and played with her tension board but she took all her time to read all the papers before signing it.
When we came out, our parents were already dinning so we joined.
As I warned her, my Mom started to tease us.
There my parents decided to meet once per month.
***
Meeting once a month was also my plan.
As I said beforehand that I will be busy in work and I will be present only during wedding, my parents were against that and I said if they want, once in a month I can make time except if something comes unannounced.
And that worked like a magic.
***
Meetings and Celebration
Everything went well all these 6 months.
I met her whenever possible without her notice.
But with family only 4 times as once I was busy in a case and once it was she who was busy in her project.
Luckily we met on her birthday week-end and the best is we got privacy.
For all meetings I bought my laptop for work as I know she will not talk to me but for her birthday I came open hand. I mean without workload but bought a simple gift she accepted in front of our parents.
We were alone when she wanted to escape from my presence.
I think she was also remembering her 12th birthday.
One of the best day in my life.
So I decided to get a return gift from her in my style for the small gift I gave her.
I neared her. We were so close after all these years.
I saw my 12 years old Baby there at that time.
Hesitation over her thoughts, love for me, fear for her lips were all visible.
We were entering in to a magical moment when Aunt interrupted us.
Wrong timing! But I love you Aunt for giving your daughter to me.
***
If she called us few minutes later, I could have tasted my Baby.
I think that was not my day.
2 months passed in jet speed and I was invited to her college for seminar.
***
Seminar
My eyes were only for my Baby but I can't fix her here as I promised her that until marriage, no one will come to know in college.
But when the question & answer round started, I wanted to tease my Baby.
Or I can say I wanted to make her speak to me or vent out her anger even if it's little.
So when a student asked if I want to visit the college to see the changes happened since I got diploma from here.
I replied stating that I will visit when I will come with my wife to get her diploma.
My Baby's face was worth to be captured in a photo but no problem I captured with my eyes.
I diverted all the questions raised after that small announcement.
Finally, the seminar got over and I came back to my apartment.
My plan worked and she called me in night.
I had her number since a long time, I can say I had all her 2 previous numbers too.
When I picked the call, my mind screamed 'Play a game with your Baby' so I acted as if I didn't know who is on the line.
We spoke for few minutes, I mean I teased her and she yelled at me.
During our conversation, she gave me few names but I liked 'Flirt' as I'm a flirt and it's only with my Baby. Then the second name is 'Egoistic' that I don't need to explain.
Irritated with my talks, she cut the call. So I called her again just to wish her good night but in return she said "Bad night and Evil dreams!".
Once again she proved to be a baby, my Baby.
Nothing is wrong in that as I'm dreaming about my Evil, my Evil Baby who is not accepting me, who is showing attitude.
***
It was the best phone conversation I had till today.
My Baby is so Sweet! So Wanting! So Demanding tooo!
Finally tomorrow is our wedding.
I'm so excited.
She will be mine.
She will have all her time to adjust to this new life.
Over the time she will come to know the real me and I'm sure she will express what she wants from me and what she thinks about be.
Finally the time is coming.
All my wishes will be realised.
I want to hold you in my arms!
I want to feel you by my side!
I want to call you Baby, My Baby!
All I want to do is to say how much I missed you.
How much I want you?
How much I need you?
How much I love you?
I missed you!
I want you!
I need you!
I love you!
Baby, I Love You!
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