Hey everyone! Hope you guys are doing well. Was listening to this song, Sajna Tere bina/Abh Toh Aaja Saajnaa and these thoughts kept flowing, Decided to do an OS on it. Actually this is a scene I really wanted to see from a long time now. I hope we get a scene similar. We already know Shivaay goes to look for her by Chanda, but hoping to get an emotional scene when Shivaay goes to meet her another time and if not, this OS should sufficeAnyways hope you guys enjoy, leave me your comments. Happy Reading!
Lots of love,
Vaish❤️
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Sajna Tere Bina Chanda's pov ( Annika's friend, fondly called Chandu)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d9Kxz0L7ZwQ
"I know it's late, I just.. Can I see her?"
I have never seen a man of such ego and charisma stutter with desperation swimming in his eyes, as he tries to look past me, beyond the threshold of my home, in search of his wife, my friend, pagli Ani.
"Jiju.. Dekho kaash main tum dono ko milva sakta, but Annika is my friend. I have to respect her choice. I'm sorry"
I can see a flicker of satisfaction waver his desperation as I said Jiju. As if he were just waiting for someone to verify that he is still connected to her in some way. My heart aches for him, but I know Annika also has taken her stand for a reason. And this is the same man who had threatened her and hurt her and insult her so many times. But my goodness, I can't help but fangirl over The Shivaay Singh Oberoi because he is different now. Still a Taadibaaz like Ani always says, but even a stranger could see how much he cared for her. I can see it. He was crazy about her. Damn it, I swear he is a Bollywood film hero! I tried to convince her to meet him last time he popped up here but she denied. What to do with these love birds?
Chandu, chup aur darwasa band karo isse pehle Ani yahan aayi.
"Look, I just want to see her once. I won't make a ruckus like last two times" He holds his hands up as if to surrender and make me believe him but I raise my eyebrow, and bit my lips to hold back my laughter.
"Okay fine, last four times! Point is, I am not even ordering you, this is a request ... Shivaay Singh Oberoi never requests anything yet here I am, requesting you to let me see her"
"It's not me, Jiju but she does not want to see you. Please, it's very late, you should go home" I give him a pitiful smile just so he would not feel too alone.
"Thanks Chanda, goodnight" He sighs and is about to turn.
He surprises me and accepts defeat. Looks like this man has had a really long day because the version of "SSO" I have heard about, never accepts defeat, never looks this broken. He may show more feeling toward his family, his brothers and Annika but even so, this looks too extreme.
"Wait" I hear her voice behind me and simultaneously, I see, for the first time in all those visits he has paid me, something warm in him. His body language changes completely. His once tense shoulders relax, only a little though, he takes a deep breath as if he has now been restored with oxygen, though I know it's because he has seen her. Because for the first time, she has told him to wait. She wants to see him too.
"Annika" he says, almost as if he can't believe he is seeing her, and that she is openly making it clear she wants to see him. He looks the exact way Ani looks when she eats gajar ka halwa after a long time, only subtler.
I turn slightly, and see her, fiddling with her chaand bracelet, her eyebrows furrowed as she rakes his eyes over the man standing on the other side of the door. I know she is inspecting his every feature. And he's there staring her down like a love struck teenager as she stands in her long black armless kurta and yellow plants which I absolutely dislike. Why yellow? Anyways, Shivaay Jiju seems to like it. I guess that's my cue to leave. Cannot believe these two are having moments in my house and I'm here waiting to age and fill my house up with 90 cats.
"I'll be in my room if you guys need anything" I tease, winking at them both, but they are too preoccupied and my efforts go in vain. Oh well, at least this is some progress.
Annika's pov
I look at the clock, it is 11:30pm. Why would anyone show up at someone's doorstep at 11:30pm? And I know it is him. After all, only he would pull such stunts. Did he really want to see me that much? What if something happened? But then OmRu would have told me something and Prinku would have definitely called me.
I decide that my husband is just throwing another tantrum and I tell Chandu to do the same as she had done the last couple times he had come. I was tired of him showing up, trying to force me/beg me into coming home. I did what I did for good enough reasons. He needs to understand.
Yet I find myself eavesdropping as my Chandu deals with her "Jiju". I roll my eyes. She is such a drama queen. Who's side is she really on? I'll let her have it when he leaves.
When I hear his voice thicken with desperation as more and more words came out of his mouth, I start to feel this dull ache in my chest. He sounds terrible. I take my chances and sneak a peek of him. Now I understand why Chandu was always so sympathetic to him. And why right now, she is giving me puppy dog faces as if she'd cry if I do not meet him.
I shake my head, shooing away my temptations. But the truth is, I know I have to see him.
I wanted to free him from being bound to me. I wanted to find out more about Mahi, which would be impossible with Shivaay up in my every step. I needed to clear my head because I was so confused. I didn't know if to hope for him to love me one day and stay with him, or if I needed to be away and come to terms with the raw fact that he could never love me back and then either go back to him when my mind was in a safer place or call it quits for good. More than anything though, I needed him to decide for himself. I wanted him to make a stable and unbiased decision. I wanted him to grow. To realize that NKK isn't everything and not just accept me because he did not want to hurt me. I know that sounds like having high hopes, but with him, everything was high hopes now wasn't it?
These were my intentions when I made my decision. Hurting him? Seeing him looking like a shipwreck? Nope. Definitely not my intention. What makes me more stunned is the fact that he accepts defeat. My husband needs me. And this time, I can't abandon him.
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"Tum... theek ho?" I ask, breaking the ice, regaining my voice that I had suddenly lost after seeing him in this state.
He looks weary, bags under his eyes which look a haunting, dull shade of blue. He is already in his night clothes so even a three piece formal suit was not present to distract my eyes from his exhausted body. His shoulders are hung and his hair is ruffled. His eyes are droopy and a little red, yet they look at me with an intensity only Shivaay could look at me with. He looks like he had lost a little weight but I think I am exaggerating because it's only been roughly two weeks. The past few times we met we were always arguing because he kept trying to force me to come home. He had that energy, that Tadi, not to mention his smartass fashion sense to disguise any sign of frustration.
Today he is in front of me, stripped of everything. It seemed like a gradual process, arguing and threatening me to come home, forcing me to come home, arguing about why we should stay together, emotionally black mailing me , asking me to come home in a slightly polite manner, now this. It is beyond impossible to understand this man. Yet in some moments, I swear I did.
"Now, I'm fine" He says, and takes a step closer to me, a whisper of a smile tugging at his pink lips.
"It's 11:30, Shivaay, what are you doing here?" I ask him curiously, as I too, take a step toward him.
"I... actually .. I just thought I'd casually drop by" he says, his attempt to play it off has no effort at all.
"Casually drop by? Do you always casually drop by at a girl's home around this time? Is this some habit of yours?" I ask him, raising an eyebrow suggestively, because I honestly don't know how to ask him what's wrong. I don't know how to show my care, because I'm afraid he would take advantage of it and scoop me up in his arms and take me home, and that I'd let him. So I decide to pull his leg and annoy him. That ought to get SSO back up and rolling.
"Not often, from time to time, when my wife- at- the- time leaves me" he replies with a slight grin, but his face is still as pale as before.
"Oh I see, well I'm sorry Mr Oberoi but your visit here is useless, because neither Chanda or myself are interested in being your wife-at-this-time'"
There it is, I think, as he chuckles lightly, folding his arms, but as his chuckle dies down, he looks at me, with this serious gaze that seems so intimate.
"I guess I will have to make this a habit until you change your mind" He says softly.
Itni yaadein teri
So many memories of your
Par tu mere paas hee nahi
But you aren't with me
Itni baatein hain
So much to talk
Par karne ko tu saath nahi
But you aren't with me
I clear my throat. "Shivaay, I already told you I can't..." I am cut off.
"I'm not here to ask you to come home."
"Oh..." I can't help but hide that pang of disappointment that rings through me even though this is what I had wanted.
Ab toh aaja saajnaa
At least now come back Honey
Mitaa de ye dooriyan
Erase these distances
Reh nahin main paaunga
I won't be able to survive
Ik pal yun judaa
One second without you
We stay silent for the next five minutes before he sighs and turns to look away from the house. He stands by the nearby pillar, leaning against it, staring out and the darkness of the chawl before him, from time to time gazing at my shadow that is formed on the ground next to him.
"Do you want coffee? Or at least water?" I ask, hoping he responds.
"Paani? I think I have had my share of water for a lifetime" he replies with a lazy smile that I am graced to see as he is standing at a diagonal angle.
"Toh phir coffee? Ya phir khana? Agar coffee ya paani nahi chaati toh phir aap khana toh kha sakti na?" I think I'm pushing it, but he is actually responding so why not.
"I don't want anything Annika. I've already gotten what I wanted" he says turning completely to look at me.
"M... Matlab?" I ask though I'm pretty sure I know the answer.
"To be able to look at you once before I sleep"
"Shivaay..." I whisper but it comes out more as a cry.
"Don't worry. I won't emotionally blackmail you. I want you to come home to me when you want to, when you feel it's right. I have already made enough decisions for you. Insulted you, blackmailed you. As much as it frustrates me, this time, the decision will be yours... It's just... I..."
"It's just what?" I ask, still trying to process that he has accepted my decision but still knows that I will be with him in the end, that I will come home to him.
"Hard" he bites out, and I can tell that if he had used more words, the Great Wall Of Shivaay Singh Oberoi that is currently shaking, would have crumbled at my feet.
Sajna tere bina
Honey without you
Sajna tere bina
Honey without you
Sajna tere bina
Honey without you
Sajna tere bina
Honey without you
"What makes it worse is that you have every right to leave me, to not believe that I accept you as you are" He continues and I was damn right.
Before his unshed tears could fall I take two steps towards him and cup his cheeks.
Saanu ik pal chain na aave
Can't live without u one second
Saanu ik pal chain na aave
Can't live without u one second
Sajna tere bina
Honey without you
Sajna tere bina
Honey without you
"Please don't do this to yourself" I beg.
He holds my wrists cautiously, as if he's asking permission to touch me. I feel sick at the thought. I was always his. Always will be. He has every right to touch me. Why was he making this hard? Why was he acting as if I did not want him when I was pretty sure it was the other way around.
Sadda kaleya jee nhi laggna
I can't live without u every second
Sadda kaleya jee nhi laggna
I can't live without u every second
Sajna tere bina
Honey without you
Sajna tere bina
Honey without you
I nod slightly and he comfortably holds my hands, and I see him close his eyes for a minute, regaining his composure and I drop my hands as he opens his eyes, renewed with a flame that was healthier than the darkness that dwelled in them before.
"I think I'll have a cup of Saira Bano" He says cheekily.
When I return roughly 7 minutes later, he's again staring out into the darkness. A light touch on his back and his attention is diverted to me.
"Aapki espresso" I say proudly.
"Thank you" He says and its second nature to chide him
"Maine aapse kahan tha na ki pati.." I bite my tongue. Now I understand why he had that glint of mischief in his eyes as he thanked me.
"Go on"
"Shut up and drink your coffee" I mutter and he actually listens.
I gesture the two seater to him and we both sit, basking in the timely winds and each other's silence.
"I couldn't sleep" he says simply.
"Now thinking about it, since you've left, I haven't slept well, if at all. And the Oberoi Empire is expanding... I don't know if Om mentioned it to you. And yes I know you talk to OmRu and Prinku. Everyone but me" he smiles sadly but continues.
Har saans mein teri kami khhal rahi hai
Missing your presence in every breathe
Lamhon ki tanhaai tadpa rahi hai
Love is hurting me like a loneliness
Har saans mein teri kami khhal rahi hai
Missing your presence in every breathe
Lamhon ki tanhaai tadpa rahi hai
Love is hurting me like a loneliness
"I have another long day tomorrow. So many pending contracts. Destroying phones doesn't give me satisfaction anymore. I thought about how to fix my mood, to calm my frustration, to get some sleep. To de-stress. Then I realized I stopped having the need to do those things since the day I married you. Probably even before. This is gonna sound so married but lying in bed without you next to me definitely doesn't make it any less difficult to fall asleep. So being The Shivaay Singh Oberoi, I got into a mood and stormed off to see you. I thought one look and I'd be okay."
Raaton mein maayusi chha gayi
Every night is being silent for me
Zindagi adhoori lagne lagi
Life seems incomplete without you
"But...?" My head is reeling. Shivaay says a lot of things, he surprises me, he hugs me, he makes me blush, he flirts with me. But this? He isn't saying anything extensively romantic or intimate but it feels like he is baring his heart and soul to me. Did he just acknowledge our relationship before our wedding?
"Now I don't feel like leaving. One look is never enough with you" He says dreamily looking at me, the way I caught myself looking at him sometimes.
"Shh don't say anything" he said as he saw me begin to question his statement. He gulps down the last of his coffee and sets the mug down on the table at the side of him.
"I should get going now, I've got to wake up early in the morning, not that you would know about those things" he says matter of factly.
"Actually, I too have to wake up early. I have a new catering venture." I say, taking the opportunity to update him.
"Oh.. that's great. I didn't know" he looks surprised and genuinely happy.
"Yeah, I'm trying to get back into my catering business. Too much has happened and I haven't had the chance to work since my last wedding planner job for Mr. Shivaay Singh Oberoi. Big wedding, lots of work, you know."
"Oh I see... you must be overjoyed that job is over now?" he says wistfully, and I know what he is implying, which "job" he is referring to.
Sajna tere bina
Honey without you
Sajna tere bina
Honey without you
Sajna tere bina
Honey without you
Sajna tere bina
Honey without you
"I am, actually, since I no longer have to plan a wedding for Mr Shivaay Singh Oberoi and Ms Tia Kapoor" I smartly phrase my words. If he is as smart as he thinks he is, he will know exactly what I mean.
I think he gets his answer because he smiles and he looks grateful.
"Anyways," he sighs standing up, clearly trying to hide his blush that cannot evade his face since my response, "I guess I'll leave now."
I stand too, to bade him goodbye.
"Thanks for seeing me tonight" he says politely as he touches my arm and then turns to walk down the three steps and then to his car, all the way away from me. He is trying to keep a distance, he is being so polite.
He stops at the second step, and I hold my breath. I want him to stay. I want him to turn around. I want him to say something more, or nothing at all. But just stay. My mind asks me what the hell I am thinking and I shrug away the part of me that aches at the thought of him leaving.
Saanu ik pal chain na aave
Can't live without you one second
Saanu ik pal chain na aave
Can't live without you one second
Sajna tere bina
Honey without you
Sajna tere bina
Honey without you
He does turn, he comes up to me. And I get high off the moment. I am no longer the Annika who can control her emotions. I know he is being cautious about touching me because he knows we are on a sort of "break" but damn it, that's the least important thing right now in my eyes.
"Can we make a deal?" He grins, and I know he's regurgitating lines and he's damn well aware of it.
"Aapke liye sab kuch deal hain na?"
"Manzoor hain?"
"First tell me"
"You always have to get your way don't you? Anyways, if I promise to try not to ask you to come home, to never blackmail you again or force you, can I meet you more often? And I mean not where Chanda lies for you and you get fed up and then come and throw water at me." He says rolling his eyes, in a very Shivaay way.
"I can't make promises about the water" I raise my eyebrows.
"Seriously?"
"Yep" I pop my p and I think he realizes I am serious.
"Fine. Then that's a chance I'm willing to take" he says, his palm slowly reaching out to caress my cheek.
My heart starts to race and I mentally curse that bloody organ for over-reacting. Shivaay stops his hand in mid-air right before he could touch my skin, his gaze a little guilty, as if he is chiding himself for pushing it too much.
You idiot, this is definitely not too much, I facepalm internally, craving for his touch on my skin.
He sighs. "I take it we have a deal?" he asks carefully.
I think he interprets my hiding of my impatience for him to touch me as disapproval, because he suddenly takes a step away from me as he asks about our deal.
Words fail to leave my mouth and he nods, I don't know what answer he has gotten from my lack of words but he turns to leave and this time he makes it to the third step.
And this time, I stop him.
"Shivaay!" I call as my heart panics. Our first proper meeting in fourteen painful days deserves a better last scene than this.
Sadda kaleya jee nhi laggna
I can't live without u every second
Sadda kaleya jee nhi laggna
I can't live without u every second
Sajna tere bina
Honey without you
Sajna tere bina
Honey without you
I look at him, and I know I cannot hide my yearning for him. Seeing him has made me miss him more. Spending time with him has made me love his presence more. Seeing him vulnerable has made me love this insufferable man more than I had before, if that were even humanly possible. And seeing him leave is breaking my heart right this instance. My pride and stance forgotten, I call out to him wildly, my eyes darting toward him, praying for one last caress, one last look.
Tere jeha pyaar mainu nahio labhna
Without you my love is meaningless
Tere bina soona laage saara jahaan
Without you whole world seems empty
Tere baaju dil mera nahio lagna
Without you my heart is so alone
Mainu na pataa tenu hor ki dasaa Mainu ni pata tenu hor ki dasaa.
I don't know how long I should wait for you
He reads my mind, his kanji aankhein recognizes the longing in my brown orbs.
A tiny smile appears on his face, his eyes glisten the way I imagine mine are right now, except much more beautiful.
I hear his footsteps almost as loud as my heart is beating and before I know it, he is in front of me, less than an arm's length between us.
My thirst is quenched, his palm an elixir to my skin that was dying a morbid death, aching for his touch. He caresses my left cheek lovingly. I know he very well knows that we do indeed have a deal. I smile at him and nod.
I see him moving closer, leaning in and my heart does a somersault while my tummy spins like a top inside of me. My insides felt queasy but in a good way. He leans towards my right cheek and whispers into my ear,
" I'll see you soon" , his breath sending shivers down my spine, and raising every pore on my body.
Before I could regain my composure, I feel him even closer and I am almost falling at his feet when his lips press against my cheek bone, cool and slightly moist. The act itself is something I had never fathomed Shivaay Singh Oberoi doing. Maybe like those high-fi foreigners who'd kiss their girlfriend's/wife's cheeks seemed normal, even for SSO and maybe Tia or some other high-fi girl. But me? He kisses me in a way I will never forget. His beard scratches a little and tickles too but I enjoy it, he smells of soap and honey and Shivaay, my fragrance in the world. I didn't know a kiss on the cheek could feel so intimate. Suddenly I got that feeling again, as if Shivaay had woven me into the elite group who were privileged to witness his care and affection. He stays there for a couple seconds and I can't stop my arm from touching his chest, my fingers gently playing with his buttons.
He pulls away after a few moments, and rests his forehead against mine for a second, and we are both breathing heavily, our chests heaving, trying to catch up and calm down.
I see him open his eyes and he smiles as he steps away from me.
"Goodnight Annika" he says and heads out, disappearing into his car and out of the chawl.
Tere jeha pyaar mainu nahio labhna
Without you my love is meaningless
Tere bina soona laage saara jahaan
Without you whole world seems empty
Tere baaju dil mera nahio lagna
Without you my heart is so alone
Mainu na pataa tenu hor ki dasaa Mainu ni pata tenu hor ki dasaa.
I don't know how long I should wait for you
Raising my hand to the spot he had kissed in a daze, I say "Goodnight Shivaay"
I hear my mad girl squealing and she hugs me from the back swaying, uttering praises and compliments and fan-girling over my husband who is apparently the King of Romance and a cross between SRK and Nakuul Mehta. She is nuts. I hug her and pull her by her ear as we get inside and turn in for the night, all the while, my mind and heart seems to have left with my Shivaay.
Saanu ik pal chain na aave
Can't live without youu one second
Saanu ik pal chain na aave
Can't live without you one second
Sajna tere bina
Honey without you
Sajna tere bina
Honey without you
Sadda kaleya jee nhi laggna
I can't live without you every second
Sadda kaleya jee nhi laggna
I can't live without you every second
Sajna tere bina
Honey without you
Sajna tere bina
Honey without you
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