Love, Hurt and 10 years

10 years is a long time. They grew up. He claimed to have moved on while she fell for him. He never moved on. Never. His love for her was always there. Always. Suppressed behind the anger and "hatred". Her love for him grew (I always felt right from the beginning that she too loved him but never realised it. Who smiles like that closing the door on the face of their best friend, taking in the moment before opening it? At least that is what I feel) after seeing him 10 years later and when he stood by her through the tough times life threw her in. His suppressed feelings came back to the fore front when he saw the woman in front of him who was a contrasting image of the young girl he used to love.

And now, he does not want to go back there. Because of pain, hurt. For him, love hurts. Although he never stopped loving her, he made himself believe he had moved on. And ever since that dinner and Jairaj story, he finds out he has not. We have seen small moments of jealousy before with Googlu and Jeevan, but with Jairaj, he saw how she expressed herself like she really did love him and the pain he felt in that moment. It was not jealousy, not to me. He was hurt. The dominant emotion was hurt. There may have been jealousy, but not so much...

He has gradually started realising that it's not just friendship and that he has not moved on and it is bothering him. It's bothering him so much that he has decided to stay away from her. Yet her pain kills him, yet he can't not smile when she calls, yet he checks his phone for a messgae or call from her first thing when he wakes up, yet he keeps seeing her everywhere, yet he has lost focus and can't concentrate on work, yet she is the only one in his thoughts and to who his thoughts keep drifting on to and in spite of trying his hardest to ignore her and stay away from her, takes her to the doctor, waits for her for hours and blurts out how much he misses her.

His love for her has consumed his entire being. The madness, the passion, the intensity of his love is all coming out now in the form of the frustration and anger. Imagine what it will be like when they actually confess!!!

I am super excited to see what happens next!!!

P.S: Thank you for reading the mess of words above. It's basically what I have been feeling about the last few episodes. And a try at putting my thoughts across...

P.P.S: Share your thoughts, will try replying.

Loved your post. Dot on... waiting for that passion from both. Especially sumos. We all see how crazy Shravan is... want to see how Sumo feels towards him. I know she is equally passionate but restrained. Need to see how she acts... that would be a treat to watch.

Originally posted by: poppinss

Loved your post. Dot on... waiting for that passion from both. Especially sumos. We all see how crazy Shravan is... want to see how Sumo feels towards him. I know she is equally passionate but restrained. Need to see how she acts... that would be a treat to watch.

I am very bad at analysis and"reply to analysis posts"
It's pretty tough job

Originally posted by: --fero--

I am very bad at analysis and"reply to analysis posts"
It's pretty tough job

Guys please share your thoughts... Itna bhi bura post nahin hai😆

Quite an apt post dear...you sumed it up perfectly. For Shravan Sumo's love has been self-consuming. She has been the focal point of any and every emotion he has ever experienced. Even in the 10 years he had been away from her he never stopped loving her. But now the scenario is different. Suman is no longer the indifferent girl he once knew. She cares for him, for his emotions. She makes a point to ensure his well being and values his friendship. All this along with his own unsettled emotions constantly draw him closer to her. He knows if he gives into this emotion, he will be lost once again. All the pain and hardship he has endured to keep his feelings off her in the past 10 years will be nullified in a second. And what if she cant reciprocate his feelings the way he wants? This what if is his biggest fear.

Somehow I will be really happy if Sumo realises her feelings soon. Yea she knows she has a soft corner for him but that feeling of having fierce unconditional irrevocable love for someone, that will bring the needed passion outta Sumo. Its very important Sumo comes to same page as Shravan in terms if the intensity with which she loves him. May be the Nirmala track will help bringing in that. I am glad now its happening before confession...finally Sumo can see things from the other side of the fence. She will feel how it feels to be not loved by the one you love, I know it will b v painful to see her so hurt...:-( but somehow its imp for her so she can understand what Shravan has been through in love.

Originally posted by: Malika

Quite an apt post dear...you sumed it up perfectly. For Shravan Sumo's love has been self-consuming. She has been the focal point of any and every emotion he has ever experienced. Even in the 10 years he had been away from her he never stopped loving her. But now the scenario is different. Suman is no longer the indifferent girl he once knew. She cares for him, for his emotions. She makes a point to ensure his well being and values his friendship. All this along with his own unsettled emotions constantly draw him closer to her. He knows if he gives into this emotion, he will be lost once again. All the pain and hardship he has endured to keep his feelings off her in the past 10 years will be nullified in a second. And what if she cant reciprocate his feelings the way he wants? This what if is his biggest fear.

Somehow I will be really happy if Sumo realises her feelings soon. Yea she knows she has a soft corner for him but that feeling of having fierce unconditional irrevocable love for someone, that will bring the needed passion outta Sumo. Its very important Sumo comes to same page as Shravan in terms if the intensity with which she loves him. May be the Nirmala track will help bringing in that. I am glad now its happening before confession...finally Sumo can see things from the other side of the fence. She will feel how it feels to be not loved by the one you love, I know it will b v painful to see her so hurt...:-( but somehow its imp for her so she can understand what Shravan has been through in love.

Sara🤗

Originally posted by: PrincessAshVik

Thank you so much and for the wonderful reply😳

The first paragraph. I could not say it any better👏👏

He has seen the new Sumo, the one who cares. About him. About others. And he is falling for her harder than ever. All the suppressed emotions are coming to the fore front and like you said if the feelings are not reciprocated, he will be shattered. That is why he tries pushing her away. But he still can't stop caring about her, showing his concern in the smallest ways, blurting out hidden truths and feelings, can't stop missing her presence although he has pushed her away and mostly he can't stop loving her. He does not realise it's too late to push her away now. The "damage" has been done. The love has bloomed again with a new vigour and intensity.Add to it the 10 year old suppressed love and we see the Shravan Malhotra of today who is frustrated and angry at himself.

Regarding Sumo, I hope they explore the intensity of her feelings. The way you said it, they need to be on the same page. We need to see her feelings and we need to know since when they have been there as of now they have left it to interpretation I guess.

It's going to be fire!! Or electrifying! It's all I can say.

So excited!!