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Hi everyone back with an OS after ages , I have written after a long time and that too when I am having exams😆 So coming to the point , tomorrow is my exam and I am very scared , if you by chance like this trash OS then in return please pray that I have a good test!😉 Read on now!
SidNi OS : Selfish Love
He looked at her , she was crying , he felt bad but paying no heed to her turned his face away. She felt a thousand daggers poke her as he looked away.
"I am leaving." she barely spoke , her moist eyes didn't allow her to say a single syllable. He merely nodded his head giving her a permission to leave him forever.
As he heard the door shutting , he sank to his feet and the tears he had been holding up came out with such force that he couldn't hold himself up and fell on the floor in despair.
"What happened , that we are so far today roshni?" he questioned and as if she heard him she whispered to herself , "Maybe we have no love left between us."
Flashback
"Do you love me?" she questioned him smiling and clearly wanting him to approve. He picked her up in his arms and twirled her.
"Of course I love you and will love you till I breathe last!" he said pushing the locks of hair behind her ear. She succumbed to his touch.
They joined foreheads and stood smiling , that was when he opened his eyes and saw her face lightened up due to the sunrays.
"You look so divine roshni!" he said softly and she opened her eyes. She was sure she could have said the same for him because the way he was looking at her made her feel divine and pure.
"I always wanted to enjoy sunset with the one I love." she put forward her wish and he made her sit down near the hill.
"And I wanted to hold hands." he said gathering her perfect hands in his. "And resting my head like this on his shoulder." she said doing what she just said.
"Do you think we'll ever fall out of love Siddharth?" she questioned and he tightened his grip on her hand as if making her realize the mere thought hurted him.
Present
She felt a pinch on her heart as the memory came to haunt her , it seemed like her words had turned reality. They had grown apart with time and now there was no going back.
Siddharth started cleaning the house and came across a recipe book he had received from her , she had given it with so much love to him but now? Did she still love him the same way?
Flashback
"Hey you can't do this with me , I am making this recipe putting in so much efforts." he told her pushing her playfully while she kept coming back to irritate him.
"Why do you keep yourself always in the kitchen with this stupid recipe book?" she asked taking the book and waving it in front of his eyes.
"Oh no no no , don't you dare call that book names , it has been gifted to me by my lovely wife." he said snatching it back from her.
"Really? I must say her husband is very handsome and eatable." she told giggling and seducing both at the same time.
"Haww I am a one woman man okay?" he asked looking scandalized and she punched him in the stomach appreciating his bad acting skills more than once that day.
"I think the kitchen is the best place to romance!" he said pulling her closer and in turn making the flour fall on the floor.
"I'm not cleaning that up!" roshni spoke surrendering her hands in the air , he threw things and she was supposed to clean them. "Let's clean ourselves first." Siddharth suggested and she held his hand before taking him into the shower.
Present
"This house holds so many memories. Why can't we cherish them and forget everything?" he thought and sighed almost in tears.
That was when he heard her footsteps. She had come back to him? He couldn't believe it. After whatever happened? Did she still love him?
Roshni looked at his eyes , they were bloodshot red. He had been crying? She was surprised after whatever had transpired he still looked at her with the same love.
Flashback
"Siddharth since when have you been ignoring me?" she asked pushing him back and holding her unshed tears in her eyes as well.
"I don't ignore you roshni. Whenever I come home , you have no time left for me. You are always on the phone completing presentations and what not?" he said raising his voice for the first time.
"Oh please , I never complain when you have to work. Why do you have a problem if I work late at night?" she asked rudely.
"Because we are drawing apart and.." he was about to complete his sentence and she spoke in between ,"It is your fault , you want it to happen."
"What do you mean by my fault? Don't I put in efforts?" He asked getting highly irritated now. He was testing her patience and she was testing his love.
"I was the one who asked to take a vacation but you were busy." Roshni countered him again. He couldn't trust his ears and finally the last straw in the fight came when she questioned him.
"You don't love me anymore! Are you cheating on me?" she asked and immediately regretted asking this to him. He couldn't do it ever!
He was in a blind rage hearing her speak nonsense , "YES , I am cheating on you. Get out of my life now." he said throwing the vase kept on the nearby table.
"You are..." she couldn't even finish her sentence and the tears came tumbling out. "I am leaving." she said and the last thing she saw was him nodding.
Present
They kept staring at each other for a long time but then at once they turned around to other directions. Siddharth went in his room and lay down on the bed.
Roshni saw him sleeping looking the other way , she carefully got inside and slept beside him. Tears escaped his eyes feeling her across him.
He wanted to hold her tight in his arms and tell her never to leave him. She glanced around at his back and felt him breathing hard.
"Siddharth are you fine?" she asked concern lacing her voice. He looked at her , for once he didn't want to pretend and showed her his vulnerable side.
"You think I can cheat you?" he asked so softly that his voice was a blur. Her vision became hazy knowing how much she had hurt him. He kept a hand on her cheeks.
"Never!" she spoke with a conviction that shook him. He at once gathered her in a hug and she reciprocated with the same vigour.
"I love you." she couldn't help but speak to him , she felt guilty for asking him questions regarding his love when she had herself never expressed the love she had for him.
"Aww my perfect wifey , I know that." he said knowing very well she was very emotional at the moment and he wanted to take her out of that phase. They would talk things out but now wasn't the time.
"Oh hello , you have to say I love you as well." she said counter attacking him , they both were now facing each other lying in the bed.
"Oh is it? I love myself very much." Siddharth said almost about to laugh hard. Roshni smacked him and picked a pillow.
"Ah isn't it long since we had a war my love?" Roshni asked happily. He gulped his saliva in fear , how was he about to win in front of his hungry tigress.
"I love you so much roshni." he said still eyeing the pillow in her hand as if it was a weapon of mass destruction. Roshni tapped her feet as if she was no longer interested in his talks.
"Oh my god roshni , look at that." he said pointing at nowhere in particular but as he expected she turned her head in the direction faster than a normal human being , for a second he thought she was a magician.
As she was distracted he went behind her and picked her up by her waist. She didn't have any time to process his move and giggled as he made her sit on his shoulders.
He made her lie on the bed and pinned her down. She breathed fast , his eyes were boring in her , he stroked her hair still gazing at her.
He went closer to her and planted a kiss on her neck , she clutched his shirt hard and was feeling complete feeling him so close to her again.
As if at the same moment , a teardrop escaped their eyes. They both hadn't thought this morning's events would ever leave them in any good situation but right now in the arms of the other felt like the best they could have got.
Siddharth leaned into her , her fragrance made him crave for her and she herself went closer to him and bit his ears. He growled at her in a joking manner.
"I love you alot roshni and I will never leave you. We will never fall out of love. I am sorry for ignoring you at times." he confessed and apologized.
She snuggled up in his chest and her voice came out very slow as she spoke but it was enough for him to hear , afterall their hearts were always connected.
"I am so sorry Siddharth , I know you can never cheat on me. I'll give you my time and I'll take yours too." she said and came up to plant a kiss on his lips.
She pecked him with a smile and the grin on his face was never fading. There lives were twisted , they didn't have time for each other but one thing was certain they felt extreme happiness only with each other.
If not for their love but for their happiness they could be with each other forever. Afterall the heart is selfish and it wants it's happiness and for them the definition of happiness was each other. Siddharth and Roshni , the synonyms of happiness in the lives of each other. Their love was selfish but that is how it is.!!
