Posted:
8 years ago
Change
It didnt end there... nope
... he had put Nivi in the sun room crib, II lost count of how many were there in all
Which ever room Nivi slept in there was a crib made and ready to receive her tiny body.
"Your personal insecurities shone through, through your rabid defense of your Athim" he said too pissed to let it go as is
"This has nothing to do with my insecurities" she shouted "YOU are the one who cant let go" (of the grief of losing your mother tragically) she cried, again stinging from his balcony insult
"Ofcourse it does... it nags you, the fact that Bala is not taking your transition to a different (he MEANT wealthy) life kindly" he hit the nail on the head
She went pale, at getting caught
"If by different you mean, he is jealous of your wealth, then thats just great, so u DO believe he is beneath you" II said her eyes glinting with sadness and tears
"We are talking about HIM" he said walking up to her
"So u can rub it in... and tell me how affluent you are" she waved a finger choked with sobs
"For ONE f**kING REASON... YOU asked me if I pissed him off" "U began this nonsense" he warned
"So? What did u tell him? The house is SO big, we dont hear Nivi cry despite having her baby monitor hooked to the central sound?" II goaded him
He pinned her on the wall... details came second to theme for her, he knew that... but such eye-popping broadsides?
"Umm... no" he said breathing on her neck.. it felt like a whiff of fire.. it was a burning hot April night, the
central airconditioning was blasting full force, she was sweating, from post partum and anger.
She had made up her mind... Bhallas were jerks. Or had Bala fed her that pile of steaming crap?
"Did he give u lessons?" he asked smiling cruelly "On how to indulge in your sick fantasy? (of hating the wealthy?) he pulverized her
"Hes the kindest MOST caring man... he goes above and beyond for everyone... its pathetic you would think he envies your wealth" she said... drained
"Your collective insecurity about an imagined circumstance causes you to make such vicious attacks" he said calmly
Her husband was a dreadful messenger, carrying a startlingly honest message, the authenticity of it so deep, it was hard for her to stomach it.
"Your INDIVIDUAL insecurity about your situation with your Dad causes you to tell your wife to mind her f**king business" she mocked...meeting him straight in the eye
She shut her eyes crying a river
He teetered between compassion and fury
There was a BABY now... f**king two and a half weeks old and here they were... in SQUARE ONE!!!
She looked like she had lost a bunch of weight too... her collar bones causing sunken pits at the base of her neck
She smelled like baby powder/lotion and umm... baby's food...that she carried on her🤢
He groaned... in self deprecating amusement... he couldnt imagine life without her, nevermind the smell of breast milk😆
YOU WANTED A GIRL!! U GOT WHAT YOU WANTED
WHY DO U NEED ME NOW DA?
I GET IT!
I GET IT!!!
OFCOURSE I SHUD MIND MY OWN BUSINESS.
IF I AM GONE IN THE MORNING
U WOULD GIVE HER A BOTTLE
YEP!
THAT would be the only change...😭
as she firmly boarded the post partum depression bus in that one stroke of realization... that she wasnt needed or wanted any more😲