"If you love something, let it go. If it comes back to you, its yours forever. If it doesn't, then it was never meant to be." -Anonymous
Swara could not believe she was giving up without even fighting for her love once but what could she even do it was solely Sanskaar's decision it was his life but his life and her life weren't different anymore right'. But if Sanskaar still loves Kavita more than what he ever felt for her then what right did she even have to stop him from doing this. She never wanted him to choose her because she never wanted to be an option for him. She wanted to be the only one.
So finally she was dragged inside the Maheshwari Mansion by a very chirpy Ragini who wanted her to feel the same emotions she felt during her and Lakshya's engagement but Ragini always failed to understand that in the end it was her who had married Lakshya and this was the second time Swara had to bear the consequences of failed love. For the umpteenth time Swara cursed her fate it seems nothing in life was ever written easy for she had to fight every single time but not this time, this time she had simply decided to let go.
There came the love of her life hand in hand with his would be fiance. Swara had to close her eyes for she could not bear the thought of Sanskaar being someone else's . Sanskaar saw her close her eyes he even knew how much it was paining her to see him with Kavita then why did he do this why did have to agree being selfless it was not in his character to be but Swara had made him think about others first but was he truely doing this out of selflessness or was he angry at Swara for not fighting or was it his ego? He simply did not have an answer all he could feel was confusion at this moment. The engagement celebrations began but noone had smile on their face barring Kavita and Sujata, each of the Maheshwari's knew Sanskaar was not happy neither was Swara but noone said anything what could they say when Sanskaar had made it clear that his decision was final.
Annapoorna asked Sujata to bring the engagement rings the 'shubh mahurat' had arrived. Kavita happily took the ring from Sujata and slid it in Sanskaar's ring finger, Sujata offered tue other ring to Sanskaar he took it swallowing the large lump in his throat. The ring slipped from his grasp and rolled over stopping near where Swara was standing. Swara bent over and picked up the roing wiping off her tears quickly so that no one would notice them she would on a fake smile and handed the ring to Sanskaar their eyes conveying silent messages to each other. Sanskaar reluctantly slid the ring in Kavita's finger when all he wanted to do was just make everything go the way it was before returned in their lives where there was only Swara's Sanskaar and Sanskaar's Swara. There it was done now he would never be her's he belonged to Kavita now, their relation had slipped from their grasp like sand. Sanskaar and Kavita proceeded to take blessings from the elders Swara had had enough she ran away from the hallto keep her emotions hidden Sanskaar saw her take off from the corner of his eyes his heart bleeding with each tear falling from her eyes. Kavita took the mike and made an announcement "Ab Sanskaar ki mangetar hone ke nate main chahti hu ki Sanskaar mere liye ek gaana gaye" Sanskaar squeesed his eyes shut and proceeded to sing
"Kabhi gardishon ka maara, Kabhi khwahishon se haara."
He opened his eyes to see Swara at the entrace with Lakshya besides her, her eyeslaced with pain and tears. Lakshya sqeesed her shouoder trying to console her but it ignited a dormant sensation in Sanskaar's heart suddenly he realised that he was jealous.
"Roothe chaand ka hai chakor, Zara se bhi samjhote se yeh parhez rakhta hai kyun maane na kabhi koi zor"
He looked at Kavita trying to give a reassuring look to kavita when Kavita was not looking his pain and agony flashed in his eyes.
"Duniya jahaan ki bandishon ki yeh kahaan parwaah kare Jab kheenche teri dor Kheenche teri dor..."
Swara could not control herself anymore he was hers only hers and she was not letting him go without a fight. Maybe had loved Kavita but that Sanskaar died a ling back the Sanskaar standing in front of her is her Sanskaar only hers.
"Manchala.. mann chala teri ore Manchala.. mann chala teri ore"
Without thinking she ran towards him and tightly embraced him trying to show him through that embrace that he was now hers only hers his life was hers to make or break he had no control over his life anymore it belonged to Swara only Swara the mike fell from his hand and he crushed her body to his as tightly as he could trying to relive the moment again and angain as if she would disappear in thin air. She was his breath , his oxygen, his everything he nuzzled his face into her neck trying to forget their surrounding he would not let go off Swara ever not for anyone , not even she asked him to she belonged to him.
Loud applause made him realise that he had finished singing his eyes darted everywhere in search of Swara but she was nowhere to be found instead he found Kavita smiling at him happily and pity in the eyes of his family members. Unanswered tears flowing from his eyes.
Sanskaar could not take it anymore he rushed out to stop Swara, he would make Kavita understand the situation later right now his priority was Swara. He raced his car to baadi and rushed inside not caring about leaving the keys in the car itself. "Swara, Swara kaha ho tum? Swara dekho main aa gaya ab tumse kabhi dorr nahi jaunga" He quickly checked all the rooms but all of them were empty atlast in the hall he found a neatpy folded note placed under the glass on the dining table he opened the letter and after reading it for atleast 10 times he let a shout expressing his pure agony.
Maa,
Mujhse aur nahi hoka main Sanskaar ko kisi aur ke saath nahi dekh paungi aaj apki shona haar gayi me chahe strong hona ka kitna bhi natak charu he was my lifeline puchli baar toh kisi Sanskaar ne aake mujhe sahara diya iss baar na koi Sanskaar aayega aur nahi main aane dungi. Maa main bahot mahan banti hu na toh uss mahanta ki hi saza hai yeh ki ab mujhse bina jeena seekhna hoga aur main yaha reh kar vih nahi kar paungi. Jab tak main yaha raungi meri soul ka ek ek part roz marta rahega aur mujhe usse apnu hassi me chupana hoga.
Main haar gayi maa shayad yeh mere liye pyaar bana hi nai hai jo cheez ke liye itna ladna pade shayad voh apke liye bani hi nai hoti pehle Baba ke pyaar ke liye ladna pada, phir Lakshya ne mujhme bharosa nai kia aur aaj Sanskaar ka pehla pyaar uska ateet samne aa gaya shayad main hoon hi cursed ki bhagwan ne mere jholi me thoda bhi pyaar nai dala. Maa aap chinta mat karna maine pyaar se haar maan li hai zindagi se nahi main kuch galat nai karungi apne saath main bas dida ke paas banaras jaa rahi hoon yaha shayad main sirf music par concentrate karo apna purana sapna pura karu music academy mein chotte bacho ko ko sikha kar apna mann behla loon. Par maa aap please kisiko batana mat ki main kaha hoon.
Main ab vaha harr ek insaan ki zindagi se apna naam aur vajood mita dena hahti hoon meri yeh wish zaroor puri karna.
Yours,
No more a Sherni.
Sanskaar fell on the floor clutching the letter tightly near his hand. Shekhar and Sharmishtha came rushing behind him with rest of the family behind them. Sharmistha shaking him hardly asked him "Where is Swara? Kahan hai meri beti?!" He handed the letter to her and everyone read it one by one. "Maa Swar..." Sharmishtha slapped him hard. "Bas ab apni zaban se meri beti ka naam bhi mat lena you dont deserve her none of you deserve the love my daughter selflessly gave you all" She faced DurgaPrasad "usne apko apni dad ki position di aur aap ne kya kia dkhoke uske signature divorce papers pe liye" She turned towards Annapoorna, "Usne aap ko maa ka position dia apna kanyadaan aap se karvaya aur aap ne usme itna bada ilzaam lagaya ki voh aapke dono beto ke saath sheee mujhe toh sharm aati hai aapki khokhli sochpe aur lakshya tum tumhe toh shaadi karni thi na usse phir uspe bharosa nai kia, Sujata ji aap ko toh Swara ke Bengali hone se bahot problem hai na lekin aapne kabhi nahi dekha ki usne aapke ghar ke liye non veg khana chod diya, apke bete ko rape attempt se bachaya just because voh modern hai iska yeh matlab nahi ki voh character less hai" "Aur tum Sanskaar bahot dawa karte the na tum ki tum meri beti ko humesha khush rakhoge uski khushi se zyaada important tumhare liye kuch nahi bahot pyaar karte ho aisa bolte the na toh kya hua aaj Kavita ki happiness hi tumhare ke mayne rakhti hai toh jao Sanskaar jao apni fiance ke paas voh tumhara wait kar rahi hongi... Jao kal hi shaadi karlo usse maa na mile toh main aa jaungi uska kanyadaan karne but ab tum sab meri beti ko shanti se jeene do"
leaving everyone to regret their actions she went inside her room and locked herself inside not wanting to face anyone of them. Everyone in her and her daughters life had always been a big disappointment accept her mother.
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