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Siddharth sat by the hospital window looking out across the road watching a little girl playing in the play ground, she was alone but still happy he wondered how can this one child find the joy of being alone, he wanted to learn this as he was alone. Everyday he would sit by this window and notice the same little girl just sitting on the swing going higher and higher as she always had a smile on her face...She didn't need anyone to support her she did it all on her own...he wondered how is it that this little girl can fill her life with such happiness as he also wanted to fill his empty life with happiness...
One day while watching the little girl from the window he saw she feel from the swing, at first she laid on the ground not moving but after a couple of seconds she finally got up , he saw he knee was bleeding but she did not cry, she just dusted off the dirt from her dress and she went on swinging, again he thought how can this little girl be so strong while he was weak...
It was time for his medication so he left the window, the nurse finally summed up the courage to ask him what he looks at everyday outside the window...he replied and said he sees a little angel enjoying the joy of life and playing to her heart contend...The nurse just smiled at him and left the room...
And so everyday it continued with Sid watching the little girl play outside but the playground and each day he would always learn some new way of life...as he had realised that little girl joy could be his if he just look at the good things in life...that little girl happiness can be his as he can be grateful for the life he was given and he can be strong as her if he just let go of all the dark problems in his life...
It was time for his discharge and he was much better, Siddharth had finally gotten over the grief in his life, he was finally healed in his heart and was ready to take on all life challenges...
"Sid are you ready for us to leave" said Simran , "In a sec mom before we go I would like to go to the play ground and see something"
..His mom just smiled a small smiled as she went to talk to the nurse concerning the discharged papers...
Sid went to the hospital gift shop where he bought a bunch of balloons to give to his little angel but when he got there if was an empty lot, he thought of it as strange as this was the place the little girl always played but there was nothing of the sort...His mom arrived calling him to get in the car as they were flying too London in the morning and he needed to go and pack, but Sid was still taken back as to what was he seeing all along...
He dropped everything on the ground and went straight for the car he was a little nervous and his mom noticed him..."Sid are you ok, do you want to talk about what happened" He just kept quiet and Simran got worried, she just wish when they got home all will be well...
Sid finally arrived home and went straight for his room, when he entered he saw the most beautiful girl photos all over the wall, again he got flashes of the tragic night but he just cannot remember who she was and why was he seeing her all over...He wondered who she was and was her pictures all over the wall...he screamed for his mom asking her what was a this...Simran could not tell him about it as the doctor told her not to remind Sid of his past as he will do it on his own, she quickly lied and told him it was his collage friend who had moved away...Sid asked her to remove it as he does not remember any friend ...His mother with a heavy heart took all the photos off the wall...She kept it there hoping he will remember his tragic past but it wasn't happening...
When Simran was done, Sid asked to be left alone, he sat in the bed and watched at his scar on his wrist, it was still fresh and just by passing his hands over the wound it still pained..."Why did I do this to myself, why would I ever think of trying to kill myself" he said...
He just sat there staring at the wall thinking about all that transpired today, he thought about his mental state as for the past two weeks he imagined a playground with a little girl in it...why are you playing such tricks with me he said to himself as he held his head...
He drank his medicine and went straight to bed...That night was the first night he had a dream after a long time finally he was dreaming...In his dream he saw the same little girl being chased by another bigger girl, he could not see her face by her laughter was the best sound he had ever heard...Just at the moment when she was about to catch the little girl , the little girl ran straight into his hands and called him Papa in which he replied yes my little Ayesha...the moment he said her name he jumped straight out of the deep sleep with sweat running down his face... He wondered what a bizarre dream...He went to fetch water from the kitchen when again he got flashes of him in the kitchen with the same little girl , he want taking selfies with her...tears filled his eyes as his head began to pain...why is this happening he shouted as he dropped the glass...
Simran awoke by the sound of the shattered glass,she ran straight to the kitchen and saw her son standing lost looking at the glass pieces on the floor...She went to him and finally he snapped out of his day dream..."Sid what happen,why are you here" Simran asked ..."I wanted a glass of water so I came for a drink but the glass fell by my clumsiness, I'm sorry mom I shall clean it up" Simran told him not to worry and asked if all was alright...He just looked at her and smiled..He did not want to give her anymore grief cAuse because of him she already lost her daughter and her husband...He didn't want to tell her about his dreams as he felt she will admit him back to the hospital...So he lied and went back to bed..
Simran cleaned the glass pieces and one cut her finger, it wasn't deep or anything but she just cried and cried...She cried because the man she see as her son right now was a stranger to her eyes, she cried because he was suffering so much and he was not even aware of why he was suffering...
Simran got up from the floor and went to her room, she remembered what the nurse hsd told her about Sid mental balance still being off as he had sat for days watching at a little girl on a playground that did not exist...She was turned as she wanted to tell her son of what he had lost but she was afraid she would lose him like she lost everyone else...He was her only hope now and she vowed to keep him happy...
It was morning and Sid was packing his suitcase when his tie fell under the bed...He went under to retrieve it when he say a box mark Roshni on it...Intrigued he quickly took it and opened it to find other small boxes with moths marked in it and he found photos of the same girl who was all over his room...He wondered why was it here..He was about to call his mom when something else caught his eye...It was a photo of him and the girl along with the same little girl from the playground..."Who are these people he thought, why is my picture with them" Sid continued to look it the box until he found a story book that was made by the little girl...inside showed a drawing of a little girl on the streets...meeting a boy and a girl...She wrote how the little girl was alone while the girl and boy was also alone...but together they were not alone...as the boy and girl wanted a little girl of their own but could not make on so they took
her as their own.
The story book ended at where the little girl had finally been accepted by everyone in the family and how now the she was complete because she had a papa named Siddharth and a mama named Roshni...As Sid read her name he got flashes of Roshni smiling at him, and he calling he his queen, he began to think if they're his family why aren't they here...As he continued to look through the Xbox he found many photos of Roshni and him, he saw how she was a very beautiful woman with a smile of an angel...
Sid decided to ask his mom about this but just them in the box he noticed a turned Saree, he held it as it had a little blood on it and once again he saw flashes but this time it was clear...
He saw meeting Roshni and how he fell in love with her, they got married all his memories were coming back one at a time...He remembered the divorce...He remembered their remarriage, he remembered when he found out she was pregnant with his little princess...how she lost her and how Ayesha his little Ayesha filled their lives with joy after Roshni lost the baby...
And then suddenly he remembered that awful day when the entire family were going on a picnic together and suddenly he had over taken another only to drive straight into a speeding truck...It was all flashes now as he had held on Roshni hands while she kept on holding Ayesha...as the bus tumbled over and over again
After the accident Sid awoke in the hospital, seeing his mom by his bedside crying "Sid you are awake" she said in a happy but sad way
.."Mom what happened where is everyone"
Simran looked at him with a heavy heart..."Sid call the nurse.." "No mom what happened tell he what happened"
"Sid your father and sister is dead...they died in the crash.."Simran said as she cried..."What are you saying mom, how could this be possible...where is everyone else..."
Simran didn't want to tell him but he was too adamant, "Sid their all dead, Ayesha, DD everyone " she said again
Sid was beyond shocked now..."No, no mom not them not them please tell me you are wrong"
He started to cry as he had lost all he could not sum up to ask her about Roshni but Simran could see he wanted to know..."Sid I don't know how to tell you this but Roshni is on life support, the doctors say it is no use as she is brain dead but unfortunately couldn't come to switch off her switch.."
Sid was broken now he could not believe his Roshni and Ayesha was almost gone.."Can I see her" he asked...
Simran was a little hesitant but she allowed him...Sid went to Roshni room and he locked the door as he entered...He saw her lifeless body connected to a bunch of machines , tears streaming down his face as he summed up the courage to walk to her...She was battered up badly but still he can find his Roshni underneath all the scars..He held her hands, they are cold lifeless...He started at her begging her to wake up but all he got was silence...He began time scream at the top of his voice , over and over he kept saying no this is not possible...no it's not true...He collected her hands and tired to have her hug him but her hands fell to the side...He then knew it was true , she was gone and he was the cause of it...He went and kissed her one last time on her force head telling her they will reunite soon and he switched off her machine with tears streaming down his face...At that moment he knew he wanted to be with her and Ayesha , so he picked up the surgical blade and cut his wrist...As his eyes were shutting he saw the doctors coming into the room trying to stop the bleeding...
Sid placed the Saree down on the ground and had tears in his eyes he was still feeling the pain, he was still blaming himself for what had happened...but he say Ayesha and Roshni sitting on the bed making hand prints with paint...they singnaled him to come and he did go with them ...
Simran arrived to the room and saw her son lying on the floor she called for the doctor who admitted him to the hospital...He told her th st Siddharth had a complete shut down...He is alive but in his mind he is in his own world...It's like he is in a comatose state and they don't know when he will come out of it...Simran was shattered as now she had lost everyone around her but her hope was still there that one day her son will return to her
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