TaaRey- Love Makes Life Beautiful (Thread-1) - Page 56

Taani was standing in the terrace of the Singhania House lonely and alone. She was wondering about the last 24 hrs of her life, she was confused about her feelings, she didn't knew she will celebrate her independence or she will regret the fact that she came to Mumbai, what is stored in her future she was unaware, she is miles away from her miserable life, her life's wheel has turned 360 degree, whatever happened was for her good but then Swayam, he separated himself from his family just for her, she was feeling bad, a guilt conscious was disturbing her then she remembered Rey's words that Swayam was never attached to his family, she felt there are many things which she is still unaware off, just when she remembered Rey's words her entire throat and tongue turned dry, she felt broken, hot tears were scorching down her cheeks, she was regretting her own words how could she say those hurt full words to him, how did even she dare to blame him and accuse him, when she admit or not her heart knew that his mere touch was something which made her feel so secured and protected, never did she feel such a feeling in her life before, closing her eyes she could feel his touch, the way he smiled, the way he fed her scolded her in the afternoon when she denied her due course of medicine, took her in his arms when she was not being able to walk, kept his hands on her waist pulled her in his chest, a smile appeared on her lips in between her tears when she remembered the way she was hugging him on his chest in her sleep and his protective arms around her, once again fresh tears appeared on her eyes and they strolled down her heart was screaming all she wanted to run in his arms and beg a sorry for her words, but then her brain reminded her that she is a widow, that her truth is unknown to him and when the curtain of her life will be removed his eyes which depicts his love and care will be filled with hatred and ignorance, her heart was aching she didn't knew where her destiny will take her and right know she was unable to bear the war going on inside her between her brain and her heart.

Her thought interrupted, her body shivered, voice choked but somewhere her muscles relaxed, when she felt a touch on her shoulder, she closed her eyes tried hard to relax her raised heart beats, she had no confusion with the warm hold on her shoulders, she exactly knew it was his, cause in her 18 years of life she never felt anybody's touch so soothing so protective, but immediately her mind questioned her why? Why is he here?

Before she could clarify her thoughts or may be once again be evolved in the war going inside her she felt herself turning, holding her right shoulder he made her turn, she obliged him by turning towards him, their eyes met, her eyes depicted pain, and sorrow, but when she looked at his dark orbs she could only see care, and a calmness as if nothing has happened, her mouth didn'tspeak anything wrong, she was unable to understand, what was it? Is it Love that when one hurts the other, still the other show care and love and the one who have hurt feels the hurt himself / herself. Surprisingly when her mind was questioning all these she saw his heart winning smile, and then his husky manly voice.

R- fir se apnae medicine bhul gayii, come on take it fast.

She was staring at him, how could a person be so calm, how could he show the same care after those hurtful words she had spilt out? Yet again she heard his voice,

R-Kya hua? Mujhae ayssae daknae sae kuch nahi hoga, medicine cahayee kitna bhi bitter ho, lana parega, samjhi? Now hurry up.

He came two step closer, she could feel his warm breath, he removed his hand from the shoulder kept the water bottle on the nearby base, tore open the capsule foil, then taking it out he took it and held it near her lips with his left hand, and in his right hand was the bottle, she tried holding the bottle, but he refused and nodded his head negatively, made her take her medicine, she took it drinking water from his hand, he turned to keep the bottle, she was felling uncomfortable under his gaze yet she felt like staring at him, slowly she turned and held the railings, he stood beside her, they were standing in comfortable silence staring at the night sky yet stealing glances from the corner of their eyes, but for Taani she was feeling good standing beside him, Rey knew that he needs to talk because he knew that she is trying to show herself composed but from inside she is broken, and right now she really needs someone to talk, she needs to open up, but before even he could say something he heard her soft voice,

T- Mujhae kuch kahana tha (looking straight in the dark)

R-Hmn say (looking towards her)

T-aap etnae raat ko terrace mai, achanak

R-I guess tumhae mujsae kuch aur kehena tha, not this, bolo Taani, kya kahana hai? You can tell me anything without hesitation. Look at me Taani, just look at me and tell what the matter is,

(holding her shoulders he made her turn towards himself, she looked down, he was still holding her)

T-wohh... I am really sorry, mujhae aap sae waisae baat nahi karna cahiyaa tha, mujhae maaf kardijiya please, (tears were flowing down her eyes)

Rey held her face in his palms, rubbed her tears with his thumb, she felt the warmth of his touch, she closed her eyes feeling his protective hold, but once again the tear drop trickled down, he once again rubbed it

R- baas karo Taani, it's ok, kitna roh rahii ho? koi baat nahii, tumnae jo bhi kaha, it was a burst out of the moment and I am sorry I shouldn't have coloured you without your permission. Galti mujsae hui, it was my mistake.

(She was staring at him, he was blaming himself to make her comfortable, but she knew the words that she spoke they were so cruel and harsh, hearing which anybody would have stop speaking with her, whereas he came to her, he is still trying to sooth her taking the blame of her action on himself. She composed herself, she knew she had to maintain distance from him but by blaming him without any reason she can't do that. Holding his hands with her palms which were on her cheek, she looked at his dark orbs whereas he could see her red puffy eyes

T- Nahi, aysa nahi hai, aaysa kabhi nahi ho sakta, kiu ki aap sahi ho, aapne sirf mujsae cheer up karna caha, aur mainae na jana kya kuch kaha diya, I am sorry. Aap kabhi mere liya galat nahi ho saktae. Please aap apne aap ko blame maat kijiya, mai nahi sahae paungiee, mai kabhi aap ko hurt hotae hui nahi dakh saktii, aap bohot achaee ho.

R- (Holding her palms in his tight grip looking straight in her eyes) Aur tumhae aysa kiu lagta hai ki mai tumharae liya galat nahi ho sakta? Kiu Taani kiu tum mujhae hurt hotae hui nahi dakh saktii? Bolo.

His question brought her conscious back, she understood she was melting in his care, in his words in his touch, precisely in his love and concern, it was not that she didn't knew the answer of his question it was very simple it was her love, she had started feeling for him, but her mind her thoughts her upbringing was telling her that the feelings that were developing in her heart for him were forbidden desires, soon she distant herself suddenly and pulled her hands back and once again turned away, Rey felt a bit hurt, but then he knew she needed time, and her every little action, her words, those teary eyes, self regret was making more clear to him that she do feel for him, love him. Thinking so he decided to give her time, instead tried a different conversation with her, he stood beside her,

R-So Mumbai kaysa laga, (she looked at him) Yeah I know tumnae Mumbai abhi dekha nahi, but still...

T-Bohot achha hai yeah sahaer (city) aur bohot achaee hai yeha ke log (saying so she looked away, the more she was trying to be calm, she was failing miserably, he smirked hearing her answer and understanding her confusion, he decided to cheer her a bit.

R-saach, tumhae pasand aya ?

T-haa.

R-waise akk baat kahu, firse bura nahi manogie na?

T-nahii boliya na

R-tum is dress mai bohot pretty lag rahi ho, (she smiled) and yeah red gulal saach mai you are looking beautiful.

She kept her fingers on her cheeks, and when she saw her fingers the red gulal was still on her finger tips

T-abhi bhi laga hai, mainae rub kiya tha, sayad gaya nahi, mai abhi dho ke atii hu.

R-rehena do, bohot khubsurat lag raha hai, the red colour suits you.

Taani tried going, but he held her wrist, "dhona jarurii hai, thora sa hie laga hai, baad maid dho lena," she nodded her head, she looked at her wrist it was still in his hold, Rey saw her looking at it, so he slowly left her, making her uncomfortable was not his intention in any slightest way. They were still standing looking at the dark standing side by side arms were touching she was feeling different her heart was wanting to feel the warmth of his touch whereas he was trying to talk regarding her past but was wondering how to begin, time was passing in silence. It was midnight.

R-Taani chalo andar chaltae hai, it's late.

T-aap ko nind a rahii hai?

R- nahii Taani, but tumne abhi taak pura recover nahi kiya, you should rest.

T-Please thori daar aur raheta hai, achha lag raha hai, peheli baar etni raat ko terrace mai hu, night sky full of stars and moon kitna beautiful lagta hai.

R-tumhae nature bohot pasand hai na, car mai bhi mainae dekha tha, tum nature enjoy kar rahii thi.

T- (In an unconscious mind) haa, I love nature, nature is my only friend with whom I can share everything.

R- (Putting his palms over her which were on the railing) Kiu Mai tumhara friend nahi hu? Ok Can I become your friend?

T- (looking at him) aap bhai ke bohot achhae friend ho.

R-Taani mai tumharae bhai ki baat nahi kar raha hu, I am asking you do you consider me as your friend.

T-Hmnn (looking at his eyes)

R-Ok, then Taani do you want to share anything, I know mai tumsae kafii bara hu age wise but still Taani we can be friends, you can share anything with me.

T-I know, I can

R-so kuch kaho apnae baraee mai

T- kya kahu?

R-kuchh bhii

T-aap batiya apnae barae mai.

R-Ok, but before I say about myself can I ask you something, and if you really treat me as your friend then you have to answer me truthfully.

She nodded her head.

R-Taani, usdin havelii mai eating spicy food when I choked you were the one who came forward with a glass of water and stroked me tumharaii chacchii ne bohot galat words kaha, tumhae humiliate kiya, hearing it still midnight you brought food for me, knowing the consequences of being caught, kiu Taani why were you so concern about me?

T-Aap bhai ke dost ho, bhabhi ke bhai ho, it was my duty. (Looking down)

Immediately Rey pulled her hands she came near him, holding her he made her turn towards him, he could feel her shiver in his touch, in his embrace may be due to the chilling effect of the wind or their close proximity which was effecting her badly, but then he too loved her how long he could control his emotions, moreover he knew he had to push her bit extreme so that she speaks out. he tried the other way but she was not opening up.

R- baas, only for that, just because I am Swayam's friend, sharon's elder brother ? If so then tell me when I used to work out in the garden tum chup chup ke mujhae dakti thi, kiu? Do you have any reason?

She wanted to free herself; she was trying hard to avoid his gaze, "Bolo Taani, kuch to bolo, apnae feelings ko chupayo maat, kiu karh rahii ho aysa, saach batayo don't you feel good when you are in my arms? Don't you feel protected" It was extreme his questions were making her loose her control, she tried hard to resist him but his dark orbs were boring her heart as if by looking at her he could read her heart, " bolo na Taani jab hospital mai Swayam nae kaha that we are going away, do you feel I forgot your hold on my wrist, I didn't notice the darkness of your eyes, tumharii annkho mai mainae dekha tha woh akelapan, woh daar mujsae duur janae ka, bolo kucch to bolo, please Taani chup maat raho," Things were going to extreme she was on the verge of breaking down she tried hard to resist him she wanted to move away but then she didn't want to hurt him neither by her words nor actions, but how much could she maintain her control, she broke down but she was sure not to hurt him. She pushed him a bit and made herself free, her eyes were unable to hold the droplets any more, the tears were flowing down uncontrollably, Rey tried to raise his hands to touch her, but she pushed him and turned away facing her back to him,

T-Chalae jaiyaa please mujhae akela chor dijiyaa, nahi feel karti mai kuch bhi appke liya , samajne ke koshish ki jiya jo kuch bhi apnae feel kiya galat hai, I respect you, I know if you were not there to support, bhai couldn't have brought me here so easily, I will be grateful to you throughout my life for your help, for the independence you gifted me, but don't expect anything more than that, I can never reciprocate those feelings which you have for me, Please Reyansh jii samajh ne ke kosish kijiyaa

R-kya samjhu Taani, samjahao na, I really want to understand, why do you and Swayam call your coming to Mumbai as independence, why do your own parents and family treat you so badly, why do your eyes, your touch, your unconscious mind make me feel some different feelings which your conscious brain and your tongue never reciprocate. Please kiu tum hamesha khusiyo sae duur rahetii ho? Kiu AK eighteen years ki larki KO gulal ka laal rang pasand nahi, kiu jo larkii car mai mere baho mai comfortable thi woh achanak lal gulal dalna sae etna harsh behave kiya, again after a few hours for the same incident you were asking me sorry, yaad hai kya kaha tha tumnae, "Aap kabhi mere liya galat nahi ho saktae." Agar mai galat nahii ho sakta, then why are you distancing yourself from me, why are you not listening to your heart?

She was completely broken, his questions were torturing her forcing her to say those hidden truth of her life, which she never wants him to know, she was not ready to face his hatred and ignorance, she was not ready to lose his friendship and warmth that was developing in their relation she knew she can never be his, neither she can call him as her but the little string of love and care was all she had to cherish she was not ready to cut that string, one last time gathering all her courage she spoke without looking at him, because she was sure she will lose her self control if she look at his dark orbs that only depicts immense love " I can't , I just can't listen to my heart, Reyansh jii, please mere pass aapki sawalo ka koi answer nahi hai bass etna samaj lijiyaa, I am a bad daughter that's the reason my parents don't love me, treat me badly, mainae aap ke saath badly behave kiya because you coloured me, and colours are not meant for me, you said red suits, me but the colour red can never be mine, I don't know about the feelings you are talking about because I have to forbidden myself from even thinking about those emotions, aap mere friend ho na (with a broken voice and tears flowing) please aur kuuch maat poochna, please... I can never reciprocate your feelings."

Rey knew it was time, and he was waiting for this moment, now he has to confront her, he kept his hands on her shoulders she tried to move out of his grip, but this time the hold was strong, holding her tight he made her turn, she was looking down, he kept his fingers below her chin, and held it up, she looked in his eyes, his gaze was fixed on her and those heart boring gaze was not allowing her to look away, putting his hands on her both arms, he said,

" Tum haar feelings samajtii ho, but you don't want to except, you said you are a bad daughter that's why your parents don't love you, but you are not a bad daughter instead you are an obedient daughter-in-law, haar waqt tumahre your inlaws taunted you about your relation with Swayam, Swayam calls your escape to Mumbai as your independence, Why? Because tum Swayam Shekhawat ki biological sister nahi ho, tum uski sister-in-law ho, tumne kaha ki tumhae colour se duur rahena hai, colours are not meant for you, The colour red can never be yours, why? Beacuse you are an widow, tum Late Veer Shekhawat ki widow ho, tum ak aysi widow ho jo kabhi shaddi ka matlab hie nahi samjha,

but tumhae samaj na parega, tum sirf aur sirf ak 18 saal ki larki ho, jisae biological brother nahi, but jiskae bass ak payaar karnae wala bhai hai, tum sirf ak child marriage ki victim ho, Taani tumhae apnae purana jindagii sae bahar anahie parega, and while doing that you will always get your bhai, your bhabhi cum friend Sharon and I don't know tum hamarae relation ko kya naam dogiee, but I will always be there beside you, to hold your hand and help you to step into a new life, to protect you, Taani just try it, you can do it Taani I will always be there but just put your step forward".

She was staring at him when he started saying, she didn't knew what was he about to speak but the moment she understood Rey knew everything about her life, she went completely blank, she was shocked, surprised what was her real feelings she was not being able to understand, her eyes were closed hot tears scotching down, her skin burning, she shut her eyes more tightly all she knew was that she was not ready to witness his hatred for her, and then with his passing words when she once again opened her eyes all she could think was why couldn't she see those predictable hatred in his eyes, instead his words, his actions was something which she never assumed he would say or do after knowing about her, she was lost but his last words brought her back to the real world, "I will always be there beside you, to hold your hand and help you to step into a new life, to protect you". She looked at him, but no more she could hold herself back, she broke down completely she needed a support and what better than his protective chest and arms, she hugged him tight around his chest, she was crying and the moment she felt his hold around her, pulling her more into him, his tightening grip, she cried more she cried her heart out, she has never cried before not even when she came to know at the age of 16 that she is already married, not even when the news came that she has become a widow, she didn't cried when all broke her bangles, crushed her dreams compelled her to wear white, from months she had not cried when her in-laws tortured her, burnt her back and her lower legs numerous time with burning wood in the kitchen, never did a tear drop escaped her eyes, but today she felt the pain which she was getting from last 2 years, her physical, mental emotional pain all busted out today in his arms, holding him she pulled herself down on the cold floor of the terrace near his legs, but he immediately sat on the floor gathering her in his warm arms, feeling him once again she cried loud, her cries were pushing his existence, his heart was paining but still he didn't ask her to stop, instead he let her cry, he let her wash out all her bolted pain and sorrow, he wanted her to wash out her dark past with her tears, he let her cry and when after a long time she felt tiered, her voice was broken, slowly the peach from the broken voice was decreasing and with it may be was decreasing her yearlong pain, it was then transformed into sobs, he coaxed her back slowly to cool her down, she registered her position and tried to pull out, but he held her tight looked into her eyes straight and then without a second thought he placed his lips on her forehead, it was a long wet kiss, then looking at her eyes he rubbed those tears with his thumb and then soaked the last droplets kissing her eyes on by one, it was then she spoke " aap ko pata tha mere barae mai", Pulling her in his chest " haa, kaal raat jab tum hospital mai thi, Swayam told us", she clutched the material of his shirt, " matlabb aj subha jab aap hospital mai mujhae breakfast khila rahae thae, aap ko pata tha" he nooded his head and kissed her head in her hairs, she was wondering how was it possible knowing her truth he still cared for her, he loved her and those words escaped her mouth unknowingly, " fir bhi aap mujhae hate nahi karate ho"? He separated her looked into her eyes and smiled, those innocent eyes increased his urge to protect her more, and then slowly he, stood up, held the bottle in front of her with the action of his eyes asked her to drink water, when she drank more than half, quenching her thirst, he slowly lifting her in his arms, she locked her arms around her neck and kept on staring at him, trying to understand the man whose arms make her feel protected from whom she wanted to hide her identity, but he knew it all still cared for her still his eyes depicted love, whereas he moved away from the terrace, he took her directly to his bed room not wanting to disturb Sharon's sleep moreover he wanted to be near her seeing her vulnerable broken condition, he placed her on the bed, went to wash room brought a wet towel, rubbed the traces of colour from her cheeks, rubbed her eyes with the wet towel, she felt relaxed, he lowered himself supporting himself on his arms, he kept his hand on her hairs ruffling her hair he said," baas kal raat sae bohot kuch hua hai tumharae saath, aab mujhae ghurna band karo and close your eyes, have faith in me saab thik ho jayega," she was looking at him, he kept his palms on her eyes, kissed her forehead, and then constantly kept on caressing her hair till she passed into a deep slumber, ensuring that she ultimately slept, he tried to raise himself to comfort his back on the couch for the rest of the night, but then he felt his palms were tightly clutched by her even in her deep sleep, he smiled and all he thought was "I know tum mujsae bohot payaar karti ho, but mujhae koi jaldi nahi hai, baas pehele tum apnae past sae bahar ajayo, normal ho jayo completely, till then I will wait, I love you Taani, never did I feel for any girl in my life like the way I feel for you."

Later the whole night she slept peacefully under his protection and care whereas he kept on looking at her with a determination to bring her back in a normal life.

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