SWARON FF : HUMARI ADHURI KAHANI *PART 18 PG 146* - Page 59

Swayam wanted to inform sharon that he would take aru out with him to the park the next morning as as aru's mother he knew she should be informed... he knew it was night and swayam didn't feel like going to her room , but aru's face forced him to keep aside his thoughts and he went and knocked sharon's door...

He waited for a couple of minutes but no one opened the door... he could see the bed lamp switched on thorugh the ground glass of the door and it was unusual of Sharon to not respond...

He was about to turn and walk away but then something in him made him stop... as much as he didn't want to admit or show , he was still the old swayam... for a moment he thought to call for taani so that she could check Sharon but then stopped... his equation with taani was also not good... finally he couldn't control himself and almost in a trance opened the door of the room as he found it unlocked..

He looked inside and found Sharon sitting on the floor staring blankly at nowhere leaning on the bed...he got alarmed for a moment and without thinking for a second walked in... he bend down a little and touched her shoulder...

"Sharon..." he called her but Sharon didn't look at him.. she kept looking at the wall in front... Swayam sat down beside her carefully maintaining some distance and shook her lightly again... Sharon was not responding to him... he was about to go when his eyes fell on a paper on her lap... he quickly took the paper and opened the folds...

He read sharon's name on top and scanned the bottom of the paper and blood drained from his face... it was from sheena... Swayam closed his eyes as he realized what was in the letter and why was Sharon sitting blankly... He crumbled the paper and was about to throw it but then opened it ... although he knew what was there he wanted to read it... he wanted to know exactly what Sharon has read... he wanted to see this letter... the letter which was the only witness of his honesty...

" Sharon ,

I am writing this letter just for you... jab tak tumhe ye milega tab tak mai shayad nahi rahungi... Sharon , swayam ki koi galati nahi thi.. usne humesha se sirf tumse pyaar kiya... Jabse pyaar ko jana hai , jabse pyaar ko samjha hai , sirf tumse pyar kiya... and tumne meri galati ki sazaa swayam ko diya...and woh bina kuch bole sab kuch chup chap sehe liya... Mai aaj tumhe bolungi uss raat kya hua tha...

Swayam could feel all the muscles in his body contract as he remembered that night while reading sheena confessing everything to Sharon...

Swayam was checking the report of their new assignment , when he checked his watch.. it was almost eleven thirty at night and he knew Sharon was alone at home... he dialed sharon's number but then stopped himself since he knew Sharon would scold him for working so late and ignoring his health... another ten minutes passed with his file and he felt immense head ache... took his extension and called his assistant sheena... after sometime he heard a knock...

"may I come in sir??" he heard sheena's voice...

"yup sheena... come in..." as soon as she came in , she greeted him with a smile.. swayam returned the smile...

"aur kaun hai office mein???" he asked her scanning his laptop...

"maria and me sir... baki sab chale gaye..." She said...

"okay.. tum bhi chale jao.. and ask amria to leave as well... mai ye report check karke aa jaunga.. and yeah.. sheena pls jaane se pehele can you get me cup of coffee..." he said rubbing his temple...

"yeah sir.. I'll bring it right away..." With that she walked out...

After sometime sheena brought the mug of coffee and kept it on his table...

"thanks a lot.. you can leave..." swayam said politely...

"nahi sir.. I'll drop the mug in the sink and go... you continue..." sheena sat on the couch and waited patiently for swayam to complete...

Swayam kept working on the file and drinking the coffee while sheena sat on the couch... After sometime sheena could see swayam blinking his eyes and rubbing his temple every now and then... She smirked at her victory.. the pills mixed in his coffee was showing its effect...

"sir , are you all right????" she asked suppressing her grin...

"yeah..." swayam quickly closed his laptop and held his forehead breathing hard...

"sir you don't look fine..." Sheena moved forward to him while swayam was constantly blinking and struggling to keep his eyes open...

"sir I think aap thodi der rest karlo.. aise drive kaise karenge..." Sheena held swayam's hand and he stumbled his steps till the couch and sat there leaning backwards on the headrest...

Sheena stood there waiting for sometime... soon she could see swayam almost going subconscious... She could feel her heart thud in her chest... the person she loved so much was sitting in front of her , only for her... she slowly went and sat on his lap... although swayam was almost subconscious , he felt her sit on his lap.. he wanted to open his eyes and push her but everything was black and dizzy in his head... Sheena removed his blazer and tie and kept it aside ...

"Sharon..." he whispered barely audible to anyone... Sheena felt bad listening to her name.. she needed swayam close to her ... only her... sheena got desperate and started opening the buttons of his shirt running her hands through his hair...

"Sharon..." she heard him whisper again as she took his hands and kept it on her waist... swayam could feel her near him , he wanted to push her away but everything was too dizzy and black for him... sheena pulled his head and dug it in the crook of her neck as she himself bend down and kissed his neck hungrily and moved her lips to his shoulder opening his shirt...

By that time Sharon had come inside the room and sheena had seen her come in... she smirked at herself and took it to a new level by moaning swayam's name and pulling herself closer to him...

After a few second as she found Sharon moving out she got up and fixed her clothes... Whatever she wanted , she got more than that as Sharon had seen them together... she fixed her hair and moved out of the cabin leaving swayam sleeping there...

" mai subah office a rahi thi jab swayam ghar ja raha tha... I knew he would go home and you would question him.. I was not sure whether he remembers anything or not , so I just took a chance and messaged him which you saw... Trust me Sharon , yehi sach hai... mujhe apne safai mein kuch nahi kehena... mai pyaar karti thi swayam se... mujhe pata tha swayam tumse bohtu se bhi zyada pyaar karta hai aur who kabhi mujhe nahi milega... I know who pyaar nahi tah jo mai feel karti thi... pyaar hota toh mai who nahi karti... I knew he would never be mine in his consciousness , so I just took advantage of a situation getting him intoxicated... swayam ki koi galati nahi tha... nahi hai... meri galati thi.. saza mila mujhe... aur kuch nahi hai kehene ko... Baas ho sake toh maaf kar dena...

Sheena..."

Swayam looked at Sharon who was still looking at the wall blankly... Swayam crumbled the paper in his fists and stood up... as much as he wanted to say so many things to Sharon but he also knew that he had nothing else to say... He turned and walked out of the room leaving Sharon alone...

He went inside the room , closed the door and sat on the bed as everything else that was left for him to digest came back to him...

As the sunrays hit his face in the morning he woke up with terrible headache... He slowly sat up on the couch and was shocked to see his shirt left opened ... he quickly looked around for a clue and found his blazer and tie on the ground... he quickly stood up trying to remember what happened last night but couldn't remember anything.. he only remembered that he felt dizzy after drinking the coffee... He quickly buttoned his shirt a hung the coat on his shoulder and walked out of the office...

As soon as he walked into their room he found her wake up with the sound of the door opening .. she opened her eyes with difficulty and saw swayam come in... she sat up on the bed and asked him directly...

"kaha the tum???" she asked with a straight face

"meeting tha... clients aye the...mai fresh hoke ata hoon..." He didn't even know what had happened but he could understand something had gone wrong which made him guilty...

As soon as swayam went inside the washroom , She heard swayam's phone beep which was kept on the bed.. she took it and saw a message notification flash on the screen.. it was from a contact sheena(office).. she opened it and felt difficult to breath...

The message read " thanks swayam , for last night..." She immediately marked the message unread and kept the phone back on the bed... after swayam came out of the washroom he looked at Sharon and then gave her an unsure smile.. he took his phone and checked it.. Sharon knew he was reading this message.. as soon as he finished reading.. he kept his phone in his pocket and looked at her...

"Sharon.. mai thodi der mein ata hoon.. ek urgent kaam hai..." he told her and then went outside...

The message cleared his thoughts... now he was sure what might have happened.. as he kept driving to office , he could see flashed of the last night coming back to him... and with each passing second he felt his heart sink.. he needed to confront sheena at that moment...

He walked into the almost empty office and barged into his cabin to find sheena cleaning his desk like every morning.. he walked upto her and flung her around in by her elbow...

"sheena ... what the hell happened last night...how dare you????" he screamed at her...

Sheena flinched at hi anger... " you were not feeling well , so I thought to relax you..."

"shut up... just shut your mouth... how was I feeling unwell... mai nashe mein tha.. kaise hua ye????" he shook her by her elbow...

"swayam... tumhe samajhna hoga... calm down... samjho that maine job hi kiya humare liye kiya... and accha hua Sharon ne dekha..." Swayam left her hand in shock...

"Sharon ne dekha matlab????" he asked horrified...

"haa who raat ko ayi thi yaha... jab hum..." Before she could complete swayam shouted at her...

"hum...??? Hum nahi tum... jab tum kuch cheap kar rahi thi.. and dare you say hum the... mai kabhi nahi tha tumhare saath.. I can't be with you... mai Sharon ka hoona ur humesha rahunga... I love her.. and no one can take her place..." He said and without thinking for a second he dashed out of the cabing to meet Sharon , her face from the morning encounter floating in front of his eyes...

Swayam's reverie was broken by a knock at the door... he was expecting this knock...

He stood up and opened the door to find Sharon standing there with a blank look... her cheeks had marks of dried tears and her kohl was smudged... He moved aside and gestured her to come in...

"letter wapis karo..." Swayam was startled to hear Sharon say this out of the blue... swayam took the crumbled paper from the bed and gave it to her...

"itna sab kuch pata tha tumhe.. and tumne mujhe bataya tak nahi..." She asked him with a mechanically calm voice...

"yeh letter kaha se mila tumhe???" he asked her in return to her question but didn't get any answer...

"fir bhi tum sheena ki madat kar rahe the???" she looked at him fighting with her tears... swayam looked away... he didn't want to tell the story behind this to Sharon right now... she was not in a condition to listen to it... he had turned out to be an indifferent person...

"please.. usko mat lao beech mein... waise hi her condition..." before he could complete Sharon said in a raised voice...

"apne karmo ki saza bhugat rahi thi woh..." She said in desperation...

"mai aisa nahi manta... kyunki galati sirf uski nahi thi..." He said and looked away...

"meri galati thi???" Sharon asked letting the tears fall... " maine tumpe bharosa nahi kiya par karti bhi kaise??? Do you even realize what I saw??? Maine exactly yehi college mein bhi face kiya..."

"main eek baar bhi nahi kaha tumhari koi galati thi... galati meri thi... mujhe expect hi nahi karna chahiye tha koi mujhe samjhe considering mai kabhi ek accha larka nahi tha... I was a bad person... i understand tumne kyon kya kiya... How could I expect someone would question a guy like me... give him a chance to explain..." he said almost ina faint whisper... his voice showed the tiredness with his life...

"maine sawal nahi kiya.. jo shayad karni chahiye thi..par ab jab puch rahi thi kyun nahi bataya???" she asked...

"saboot kaha se deta??? I know tum bologe ki mujhpe viswas kar lete tum.. par aisa nahi hua... college mein bhi jab mai sach mein tumse mafi mangi tumne viswas anhi kiya nuh? That I was not lying... toh is bar kaise karte varosa.. mere paas koi saboot nahi tha...aaj agar tum ye letter nahi parti toh tum nahi manti ye...tumhe sheena ke baton se laga mai sahi tha.. toh saboot dhundne ki kya zarurath thi.. dil se maan pa rahe the mai galat nahi tha??? " he said looking away being defeated...

"mai ye tumhare liye dhund rahi thi swayam..." Sharon for the first time said honestly ... She said what she felt without any second thoughts...

"nahi Sharon.. apne liye dhund rahi thi... agar mere liye tumhe sachko dhundna hota toh tum char sala se mujhe yaha akela nahi chorti... sabse contact rakkhe mujhe akele rahene nahi deti... aru ke existence ke bare mein taani se pehele mujhe bolti..." He looked into her eyes...

"maine sab kuch kiya to find you... sabko samjhane ki koshish kiya... ek baar bhi mere bare mein pucha tumne??? Ek baar pyaar mit jaye toh firse use jagaya nahi jata..." He said and looked away...

"how can you even say I don't love you..." Sharon said gritting her teeth...

"kyunki agar pyaar mit nahi gaya hota toh tum sabse pehele aru ke bare mein mujhe batati.. mai kitna bhi bura kyun na hoon..." he said struggling with tears...

"tum mujhe samajhna chahte hi nahi...mai taani ko bhi nahi batati..." she said wiping her tears.. still she didn't want him to show that's he was weak...

"that's not the point... tumne mujhe nahi bataya..." He looked away...

"why don't you understand????" before she could complete her sentence swayam turned and looked directly into her eyes...

"humesha mai hi kyun samjhoon????" he asked letting her see all that was hidden in him.. all his complaints , demands , love , care , guilt and anger... Every mixed emotion that made the swayam whom Sharon was seeing right now...

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