Sharon didn't even enter his room again after that morning... swayam's health improved and as usual kaka took care of him...
It was another morning , Sharon woke up to see aru missing from beside her.. she knew taani must have taken her down without disturbing her...
She came downstairs to find taani , aru and their mom standing near the table...
"happy birthday mumma..." Aru clapped her hands ... taani had told aru that it was sharon's birthday today... a huge grin appeared on her face as soon as she heard aru wish her... she went near her , knelt down in front of her and hugged her tightly...
"thank u baby..." She kissed her hair... She got up and bend down to touch mom's feet...
"humesha khush raho.. happy birthday beta..." She kissed her forehead...
"happy birthday..." taani literally screamed in her ears and hugged her tightly...
"thanks taani.. pagal hai tu..." Sharon chuckled...
"waise aaj maine apne hathon se tere liye breakfast bnaya.. teri favourite.. poha..." Taani also clapped her hands in excitement...
As they sat down for breakfast , Sharon subconsciously looked around to search for swayam... she wished he would come and wish her...
"kya hua???" taani shook her hand.. she knew why Sharon was scanning the hall...
"kuch nahi..." Sharon faked a smile... and they continued eating...
They spent the entire day at home.. no one noticed that swayam was not there since morning cause it was a regular schedule for him to go for office before anyone saw him...
It was almost evening... Rey came to visit their house with a cake...
"ab hum cake katenge.. aur khayenge right????" rey held his hands up and high fived with aru...
As soon as taani kept the cake on the table and put on the candles , Sharon dazed out in time...
Sharon and swayam came home after their wedding rituals were done... After the grehe pravesh swayam's family urged him to take Sharon to their room in his arms.. swayam took her up in his arms effortlessly and took her to their room... he kept her down and turned to close the door...
"jake fresh ho jao.. these things must be very heavy..." he pointed to her lehenga and jewellery...
Sharon nodded sheepishly and took her change from her suitcase and went to the washroom.. she came back wearing comfortable clothes and saw swayam had removed the flowers from the bed to make her comfortable...
As soon as she came out he smiled at her softly and went to the washroom to change... after he came out he found Sharon sitting comfortably on the bed... He knew he had to talk to her...
"look Sharon... I know tumne mujhe bohut bara chance diya.. and I know humari shadi baki logon ki tarah normal shadi jaisa nahi hai... so don't worry , we will take this slow.. and ek baat humesha yaad rakhna.. no matter what , I'll be there for you... and I'll never force you for anything..." As swayam spoke Sharon could see nothing but honesty in his eyes...
"you don't need to explain anything to me swayam.. I trust you..." She didn't know why she couldn't help herself from saying that... Swayam smiled at her in satisfaction...
"waise.. tumhe uthane wakt mujhe aisa laga...that you have put on a lot of weight..." He said to lighten up the mood... Sharon immediately glared at him and threw a pillow to hit him... swayam caught it right in time and moved to the couch with it to sleep after giving another knowing smile to Sharon...
Sharon immediately regretted throwing the pillow.. she thought swayam might have thought that she had given the pillow for him to sleep there...
"maine tumhe waha sone ke liye pillow nahi diya..." Sharon immediately explained herself...
Swayam turned back with a hopeless smile... "pata hai mujhe..." He said as a matter of fact...
"to tum waha kyun ja rahe ho???" she asked nervously...
"so that you can sleep there comfortably..." Swayam didn't look at her... he thought she won't be comfortable with him sleeping beside her...
"ye double bed hai.. and mai itni bhi moti nahi hoon... and to top it all you won't fit there on the couch..." She pointed to the couch... swayam shook his head...
"no worry.. I'll be comfortable..." he kept the pillow on the couch...
"tumhe kisine sikhaya nahi?? Shadi ke baad you should listen to you wife... Chup chap yaha so jao..." she gestured to her side... swayam sighed in defeat and slept beside her...
Swayam and Sharon were happy and comfortable with their marriage.. as a year passed , they got more comfortable .. Sharon could actually see the changed swayam .. he had changed completely to become a new person.. he took care of her , teased her and made her feel special each day without forcing anything on her...
It was her birthday and Sharon was frustrated with everyone... she knew swayam , taani and rey had planned something since they had practically locked her in her room since evening... she had cursed all of them for doing this to her but deep down was excited like anything...
As the clock struck 12 taani came to her room to take her down...
"mujhe nahi jana..." She sulked turning her face away...
"uff.. drama mat kar... chal..." She literally dragged her to the stair... from the staircase she saw the entire lounge was decorated with blue and white balloons and fairy light with a huge chocolate cake in the middle of a glass table...
"wow..." She couldn't gauge any other reaction...
"happy birthday!!!!!..." rey , swayam and all their friends screamed loudly ...
She quickly ran down looking around her at the amazing decor...
"ye bohut pretty hai... I love this... thank you..." She was literally jumping in happiness...
"chalo ab jaldi se cake kato..." swayam gave her the knife... she cut the cake and fed it to everyone including swayam...
After sometime everyone left for home and swayam and Sharon went up to their room... As soon as he closed the door Sharon smirked at him...
"meri gift kaha hai????" she charged him...
"gift?? Itna sab kuch kiya maine.. aur gift kya ???" he shrugged...
"wo sab mujhe nahi pata.. I need gift..." she sat down on the bed folding her legs determined not to move till she gets her gift...
"array babah.. gift kaha se lau.. I don't have any gift..." swayam said pretending to be helpless...
"baat mat karo mujhse..." She snapped at him as he smiled at her innocence... he went and sat behind her talking a box out from his pocket and made her wear a pendent .. Sharon immediately caressed it as she felt something slide around her neck.. she looked down to find a beautiful sophisticated pendant ...
"swayam.. ye kya hai.. mai mazak kar rahi thi.. itni expensive gift mujhe nahi chahiye..." She immediately felt guilty and turned to look at him...
"Sharon baat expensive yaa less expensive ki nahi hai... I earn for my family.. marne ke baad heaven ko decorate karne ke liye nahi.. to mera man hua isiliye maine diya.. tumhe acha nahi laga..." Before he could finish Sharon interfered...
"array mujhe bohut accha laga... this is so pretty.. but you know tum mujhe chocolate bhi de dete to mai khush ho jati..." She gave him a cute smile...
"chalo ye bhi puri kar deta hoon..." he got up and opened the cupboard and took out a box ferrero rocher...
"tan tana..." He showed it to her... Sharon's face beamed in joy... She jumped and snatched it from his hand... swayam laughed seeing her getting so excited... She opened the box and started eating them and then jumped into his arms hugging him tightly...
Swayam hugged her back... for the first time they got so engrossed in each other... Sharon put her face into his neck as swayam kept rubbing his hands all over her back... they broke apart as he held her cheeks and kissed her eyes pouring all his love to her...she clutched his t shirt tightly in ecstasy ...
"swayam..." she practically whispered in his ears... her voice brought him back to reality.. he immediately moved back leaving her as a wave of guilt splashed though him...
Sharon opened her eyes and saw swayam was about to move away and she quickly held his hands...
"I love you swayam..." she said for the first time after their marriage... " I trust you..." She entwined her fingers with his as swayam smiled in joy... he immediately pulled her into his arms in happiness ...
"I love you too... I promise Sharon.. I will love you till my last breath..." It was a promise to himself more than to Sharon...
Swayam picked her up in his arms and kept her on the bed showing her throughout the night , that he would love her with everything that he had forever and even after that...
Sharon didn't even realize she was smiling with tears glistening her eyes before she was brought back to reality with aru's voice...
"no mumma... abhi cake nahi katte.. papa nahi aya..." Aru was pulling her dress... she immediately wiped her tears and looked down...
"papa???" taani was shocked to hear aru call him papa...
"haa papa... nahi aye na..." aru said casually...
"exactly where is he????" rey looked around.. he knew everything that was going on but still asked about his whereabouts to kaka...
"pata nahi.. kal subah se ghar nahi aya..." kaka said with a scared voice...
"kya???" Sharon , taani , rey and his mom screamed together in shock...
"haa kal subah office ke liye nikla.. raat ko nahi aya.. abhi aaj sham ho gaya.. he is not back..." Kaka almost had tears in his eyes...
"aur ye aap abhi bata rahe ho???" taani was horrified... Sharon felt her body going numb with fear... Rey had already taken his phone out and tried his number to find it switched off.. he immediately called his manager aman.. aman informed him that swayam had left office as usual last evening ...
"rey... swayam kaha gaya????" his mom started sobbing as aru kept looking at every one with a confused look...
"relax everyone.. mai abhi jata hoon.. use dhundne..." rey was about to rush out of the house when they saw swayam coming inside the house ... Rey thanked his stars that he was alright and his mom couldn't hold back her tears of fear and relief anymore.. she immediately went to her room so that swayam won't see her cry for him...aru followed her dadi inside the room
"kaha the tum???" Sharon went towards him charging him.. for the first time after coming to india she was having a conversation with him...
"kaam tha kuch..." he got confused as he never in his wildest dream expected Sharon to cry and shout at him about his whereabouts... " by the way.. happy birthday..." He said nervously.. he didn't know whether he should wish her or not.. Sharon looked away getting irritated and taani exasperated and got angry at his casual behavior.. here they were hell worried for him and he is behaving as if nothing had happened...
"gaye honge.. kahi aur to fulfill some of his needs..." taani regretted what she said the very next moment.. Sharon closed her eyes as more tears flowed out... Swayam flinched...
"taani..." the next thing they knew was rey's loud voice filling the hall... swayam immediately looked at rey and shook his head gesturing him to keep quiet and then quietly went upstairs...
"taani.. aisa kuch maat kehena jo baad mein jake tumhe hurt kare.. aisa kuch mat kehena jo tum baad mein regret karoge..." Rey gritted his teeth at taani who was into tears for saying such a thing...
Sharon immediately looked at rey as his words hit her hard... they saw taani rush to her room and Sharon immediately went to rey...
"rey?? Ye tumne kyun bola??" Sharon knew rey well to know he never says anything without any reason...
"ye mujhse nahi.. apne aap se puchna kabhi..." Rey was disgusted with everyone there and went upstairs to swayam's room to check onto him...
As Sharon saw rey move upstairs she kept thinking about why rey would say that... she needed to clear a lot of confusion which was raging in her head since a long time now...
She immediately called simmi.. she worked in a telephone office...
"simmi.. I know whatever I am gonna ask you is illegal.. but don't say no.. please.. swayam ka number track kar and tell me wo kal raat se kaha pe tha.. please simmi don't say no..." sharona almost begged her...
"okay okay.. Sharon ..first you calm down.. I'll track and let you know..." simmi knew sharon was in a vulnerable situation now listening to her voice.. so she didn't ask her any further question...As simmi cut the call sharon's heart started pounding in her chest... She knew something big is gonna come out of the shadow...
After an hour simmi called her back...
"swayam ka cell phone signal is showing that he was in sanjeevani hospital since last night..." Sharon cut the call and felt numb.. the first thing that came to her mind was whether swayam was all right or not... he had fever last week and then he visited hospital.. she immediately took her purse and rushed out...
She entered the hospital and straight away went to the reception...
"excuse me.. can you tell me whether mr, swayam shakhawat came here yesterday..." She asked the lady in the counter...
"sorry maam.. but hum kisiko hospital ke information nahi dete..." she replied politely...
"I am his wife..." sharon said with confidence...
"okay sorry maam.. just give me a second..." the lady checked on her computer...
"yeah.. mr. shekhwat kal aye the.. kisiko admit karwane.. 2nd floor.. cabin number 3..." As soon as she finished Sharon rushed towards the lift...
She went to 2nd floor and walked through the corridor to cabin number 3 and stood outside it... she looked in to find sheena sleeping there on the bed... sharon's body again went numb ...
Sharon was alone at home since taani and his mom had gone to delhi to meet his dad and kaka had gone for a holiday... it was almost 11 at night and swayam still hadn't come home... Sharon was super bored and called him but he didn't pick it up... she decided to call at the reception... The reception lady maria picked up the phone...
"hey maria.. Sharon here.. ye swayam abhi office mein hai kya???" she asked her...
"hey Sharon.. haa swayam sir abhi bhi office mein hi hai..." she replied ...
After they ended the call Sharon felt irritated with him.. she was getting irritated and bored at home and swayam was busy at office...
"abhi dikhati hoon..." she took the keys of her car and went out... Sharon drove to his office and ene\tered to find the office almost dark... Maria greeted her with a smile and Sharon smield back and went to the lift lobby to go upstairs...
After some minutes she reached 4th floor where swayam's cabin was.. she came out of the lift to find almost all the corridor lights switched off.. she could see a dim light coming from his cabin...
As she walked towards his cabin , the dark ambiance gave her an eerie feeling... as she reached in front of his cabin , she peeped inside the glass door to find his chair empty... she gave the door a small noiseless push and stepped in...
Next thing she felt was numb... she could literally feel her heart shrink and throat choke but no tears came.. she stood there totally dazed out...
Swayam was sitting on the couch with sheena, his assistant sitting on his lap...his face was in the crook of her neck as she kept moving her left hand through his hair... swayam's hands were resting on her waist as she shifted her weight closer to him... only a single button of his shirt was left to open and sheena fidgeted clumsily to open it in urgency as she kept on kissing his neck and shoulder.. Sharon could hear sheena moan clearly and swayam whisper something unclear ... they were too lost in each other to notice sharon's presence there...
Without thinking for a second Sharon rushed out of the office shivering ...
She went straight away to their home and ran to her room throwing herself on the bed...
"ye nahi ho sakta... swayam aisa..." She couldn't frame any sentence as she felt her breath choke... She didn't even realize when she fell asleep crying into her pillow...
She woke up in the morning with the sound of the door opening .. she opened her eyes with difficulty and saw swayam come in... she sat up on the bed and asked him directly...
"kaha the tum???" she didn't even expect anything out of swayam now...
"meeting tha... clients aye the...mai fresh hoke ata hoon..." She found him going to the washroom... as he closed the door behind him , she felt more tears run down her cheeks...
She heard swayam's phone beep which was kept on the bed.. she took it and saw a message notification flash on the screen.. it was from a contact sheena(office).. she opened it and felt more difficult to breath...
The message read " thanks swayam , for last night..." She immediately marked the message unread and kept the phone back on the bed... after swayam came out of the washroom he looked at Sharon and then gave her an unsure smile.. he took his phone and checked it.. Sharon knew he was reading that message.. as soon as he finished reading.. he kept his phone in his pocket and looked at her...
"Sharon.. mai thodi der mein ata hoon.. ek urgent kaam hai..." he told her and then went outside...
Sharon didn't even feel any pain now.. she felt numb.. she picked her broken form up and packed her belonging and took a paper to write to swayam for the last time...
"swayam ,
Mujhe nahi pata mai ye kyun likh rahi hoon... jab maine tumhe peheli baar mili thi , mujhe nahi pata tha hum dost benenge... mai ye pyaar , rishte , ye sab se bohut darti thi.. ki agar kuch garbar hua to mai wo nahi le payungi... kyunki mere liye pyaar humesha ke liye hai..
Hum dost bane , mujhe laga tum ek accha insaan ho , uske baad tumne mujhse kaha ki tum pyaar karte ho mujhse.. nahi pata kyun mai tumhe na nahi bol payi... deep down I knew that you will never hurt me... fir mujhe pata chala wo sab ek bet tha... tumhare liye mujhe pana sirf ek bet k liye tha... I felt numb... jis insaan se maine apne aap se zyada pyaar kiya... usne aisa kiya...
Fir har din jab tumne mujhe sorry bola , I felt you were really sorry.. jab tumne kaha ki tum sach mein pyaar karne lage ho mujhse... maine dekha tumhare ankhon mein wo honesty... but mai nahi kar payi.. utni himmat nahi thi mujhme ki mai ek baar fir koi risk loon... Toot jati mai...
Fir jab humare ghar se shadi tay hua.. I couldn't say no... nahi mai kisiko sach batake tumhe unke nazron mein neecha kar sakti hoon.. nahi kisi aur k saath apni zindegi share kar sakti hoon.. I gave u a chance ...
You were changed.. you made me trust you... You made me feel special.. you made me fall in love with you again... lekin ye sab ek reth ki mehel tha... mere dimaag ne banaya tha ye mehel... Jo kal raat toot gaya...
Maine tumhe dekha sheena ke saath.. mujhe nahi pata kya karni chahiye.. kya hoga... per ab I can't feel anything.. my body , mind everything is numb...
Sirf ek sawal.. kyun kiya mujhse shadi??? Kyun???? Jab yehi hona tha...
Mai ja rahi hoon.. I will pray to god that hum feer kabhi na mile...
Sharon"
Sharon felt tears stream down her cheeks seeing sheena there in the hospital...
"abhi bhi swayam.. isse milta hai..." she whispered to herself before turning and rushing out tears wetting her cheeks...
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