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Chapter 14
I didn't contact Randhir, nor did he contact me in the next three weeks... but after three weeks of crying, I learned that it was getting repetitive... life wasn't going to change, so what was crying going to get me?
I decided to look for a job. I needed to support myself - I didn't want to be a burden on my parent's anymore. They were already answering so many people's questions about why I wasn't with my husband. For how much longer would they need to tolerate this pressure?
The first place that I looked for openings was at the company where Randhir worked. I couldn't help it - I was curious... and maybe a part of me even hoped that I could work there.
Sure enough, there was an opening, and I applied immediately. Randhir was supposed to be my past. He wasn't supposed to affect my decision on where I wanted to work. I used that same logic to work there too. It was a good company, so why not?
Within a week, I had gotten the job.
The office was a big building with many floors - I had come here a few times to meet Randhir, and I knew he worked on the seventh floor. I was silently praying that I worked on the same floor as him... just so I could get a glimpse of him again.
Sure enough, I was placed on the seventh floor, working under Randhir Singh Shekhawat who would be my supervisor. I couldn't help it - I was so happy. I was nervous... but I was happy.
That was when a realization struck me. This moment of happiness was priceless. All those blissful moments with him surely weighed more than the sum of all the pain I felt from this relationship?
That was when I decided - fine, if Randhir wanted to leave me. I would gladly accept it. I would be away from him, losing myself in his memories, in the blissful moments we spent together. The cute fights we had, the intense love we shared... I would drown myself in those beautiful times, and surely that was enough.
I had to love him with the expectation of not being loved in return... and the more I thought about it, the more I was okay with doing this.
On the first day of work, I was looking for Randhir's office, when I bumped into a lady.
"I'm sorry, I'm new here," I said quickly to the girl. "Do you know where... Mr. Shekhawat is?"
"Oh yes! He's the head of this floor," she said with a friendly smile. "He's the boss of everyone who works here. Follow me - I'll take you to his office."
"Thanks," I said gratefully.
"By the way, I'm Ragini," the girl said politely as she started walking towards his office.
"Oh nice to meet you," I responded to her. "I'm S -"
I didn't get a chance to finish my sentence, because she had pointed to a door.
"This is his office," Ragini said and smiled. "I have some work to do, but I'd love to catch you later!"
She turned around and walked away before I got a chance to respond.
I glanced at the office, my heart racing. How would he react upon seeing me here? Would he be happy? Sad? Angry?
I nervously knocked on his door.
"Come in," I heard him say from inside, and I felt my knees go weak upon hearing his voice.
I turned the doorknob and entered his office anxiously. As soon as he saw me, he stood up, and I saw a look of surprise fill his face.
"Sanyukta?" he asked, incredulously.
Ishaani
