Some days later
Asad felt sick few days due to erractic week of work. He didn't get the opportunity to see Zoya after their meeting with her family. He was only calling her to have her news, he didn't want her to fall sick because of him. She insisted but he declined all her help, convincing her like always. Asad was sniffing and coughing, wrapped in his blanket. He felt tired, cold and his body was aching him, but he can't have a rest, he had to finish, if he wanted to relax. He was missing Zoya a lot, he needed to be in her arms, to feel her fingers inside his hair, muttering sweet words and posing butterflies kisses on him. He wanted her to pamper him, but he didn't want her to feel sick because of him, he sighed and tightened the blanket around him, searching for warmth. He typed on his keyboard, slowly and it was hard for him to focus, his head started to pain too now. He posed his back on the chair and closed his eyes for a second, he was tired, so tired.
She slidded her fingers in his hair, touching his scalp with her nails soflty, she let her knuckles following the line of his hair, flirting with the limits between his skin and hair. She was now on his neck and planted a chaste kiss on the base of it. He sighed deeply, he could feel her and felt so good. She was doing magic with her touches and love, he didn't want to wake up or to open his eyes. He sensed her moving closer to him now, her lips was on his temple, and then going down to his cheek. She played on his skin as she would play on a piano, he smirked at this picture. He then felt her arms around his shoulders and her breath on his ears.
-Asad, she whispered soflty
-mmmh, he hummed, say it again, please, he heard her soflt chuckle
-Assad, she strechted the s letter between her teeth, he moaned deeply. He encircled her arms with his, and her skin under his touch felt so real, he trailed his hands on her skin, his eyes closed, the sensation of her flesh was vivid under his fingerprints, his mecanoreceptor has their own memory of her skin. He held her hand and when the fingers collided, the difference of temperature between the flesh, jerked him abruptly from his reveries. He stood up electrified.
-Zoyaa, he was shocked, he thought that he was dreaming from the beginning but, no she was real and in front him, giving him her most beautiful smile and her love look.
-Asad, she teased him and she chuckled
-Zoya, you are really here ? She smiled. What..What are you doing here? I told you I m sick. She nodded and she stepped closer to him, Zoya, you shouldn't have come, you...he coughed two times and sniffed too, you... should step away, you will fall sick, she continued to come closer, her eyes locked with him, his eyes were brimming with tears due to fever and his nose was red. Zoya, bab..
He couldn't finish his sentence when her lips were on him, she only posed them, on his and pressed his, cupping his face between her cold hands. Asad sighed in defeat, he parted his lips welcoming her to deepen to kiss. The difference of temperature between their lips added intensity and something new to their kiss. They kissed slowly and tenderly, she didn't want to force, she let him take the lead, she could sense under her hand his fever. He stepped back quickly, with his stuffy nose, he couldn't breath properly.
-Zoya, you shouldn't have done this baby, his voice full with care for her but he couldn't mask his happiness
-I miss you, Asad,
-I miss you too, Zoya, he shivered suddenly
-are you ok? She rubbed his hair
-I will be fine, don't worry, now go away
-can you give me space between your arms? Once, I have them, I will leave
-but once you were in my arms, I won't let you go
-then, don't let me go
-Oh Zoya, he breathed, he then loosened his arms holding his blanket, she came against his chest and enveloped her body with his arms, and they were both inside the blanket. Both closed their eyes, his chin on her hair and her head on his chest. He needed warmth and her heat was full welcomed. She could feel the heat of his body, much more than usually.
-how you feel now? She asked
-much better, thank you
-I love you
-I love you too
-Asad, why you are not in your bed? She asked but was aware about his response
-I have many thing to do and after I will take rest, I promise
-NO, you will take rest now, she stepped back and pulled him with her.
-but...He waved to his laptop
She dragged him to his room and made his sit on the bed. Before he could speak, she took the thermometer and put in his mouth. It was obvious that he had fever but she wanted to show him.
-Asad, it's really high, now please lay down, where are you medicine?
-I don't have, he said grumpy
-Asad, come on, I will be really angry, you have to take your medecin now
-yuck, there are disgusting, he spat his tongue in disgust
-Asad, don't play like a child, you have to take them or..
-or what ?
-you won't be able to have this again, she pointed to her lips
-this is blackmail, Miss Farooqui, torturing a sick and weak man like me, its against human rights, he said annoyed
-Medecine or no kissing, She said with a firm tone. He grumbled under his breath and opened the drawer, he took a small bag, he drank one by one the solution and in between, he spat his tongue and shook his head in disgust. Zoya rolled her eyes looking at his antics.
-done, he lifted his hand up
-open your mouth, now
-what? You don't believe me, this is too much. She crossed her arms on her chest looking straight at him, like she was not disturb by all his childish behavior. He rolled his eyes and opened his mouth. Once she was satisfied, he said, happy, now?
-good boy. She mocked him.
He wanted to reply but she kissed on his forehead and like expected he stayed mumb. She smirked, she then took his ankles and placed them on bed after, she spread the blanket and covered him quickly because he shuddered.
-sleep now baby. He made a weird face, he didn't know if he felt insult or enjoy being pampered like he wished. Come one Asad, try to sleep a bit.
-I can't sleep, he pouted
-why, Mister Khan?
-I want you by my side, he said caprisiously
-but I am just here Asad, you have to take a rest, please, now, she touched his legs. He shook his head in no. Asad, sleep now, and I won't tolerate any of your childish behavior
-ok fine, he sniffed loudly, I will sleep alone, he took his blanket, all alone, without cuddly or warmth, he sighed loudly, exaggerating his expiration, I'm shivering from fever and I will be all alone in this huge bed, he coughed two times. Zoya just rolled her eyes heavenly, she couldn't believe how he can act like a drama queen. Good night Miss Farooqui, thank you for coming, making me feel happy to see you and make me sad for your leaving, away, far away from me. He sniffed again. He posed his back on the pillow and closed his eyes, letting a long breath sadly.
-done ? She asked him irritated
-What ? I m going to sleep, Miss Farooqui, this is what you ask, right? He replied innocently, he sighed deeply, stretching the breath out.
-Ya Allah from this man, she looked up and sat next to him, she opened her arms invited him to come. He clapped his hands in joy and posed his head on her chest.
-Now , I can sleep, he grinned and tapped slightly his head, ouch
-you deserve it, she replied back, he rubbed his head and she kissed where she hit him, I m sorry, Asad, sleep now, will you?
-I will because I have you, he didn't see her smiling but he can sense it.
He started to relax when he felt her hand on his back, going up and down, to soothe his backpain.
-thank you for coming, Zoya, he wrapped his hand on her waist, but you shouldn't have done this, you will fall sick because of me.
-you would have done the same for me?
-yes, I would
-and I couldn't stay at home knowing your illness, I prefer to take care of you. Remember we are planning to get married and we have to share everything.
- do I have to share my wealth also? He balanced his body on his elbow, looking shock
-yes, also, she gave him a plastic and annoyed smile
-but I don't want to share my wealth with anyone, he hold her possessively
-Asad, I don't want your fortune, it's for the kids, she shook her head exasperated
-I' m not talking about this one, I m talking about you, I don't want to share you, you are mine just mine and always mine. She chuckled slightly
-Sometimes I was just wondering if I have not inherited a child in addition to two others
-yes, and you know what? I m your favorite baby, he put his thumb in his mouth, and we can play adult game, he winked.
-go and sleep now, she closed his eyes and put back his head on her chest. She adjusted the blanket on him, but he stepped back to let her more place for her legs, she wasn't in comfortable position, one leg on the floor and the other fold. She removed her shoes, placed her back on the edge of the bed, he wrapped her with him, and he finally closed his eyes. She heard his breath going down slowly and the weight of his body increased against her. He was finally sleeping, the medicine seemed to work. She held him closer to her and kissed his hair, rubbing his back again and again. She didn't know when she drifted to sleep too.
Sarah and Salim were drawing in the lounge, playing and discussing together. Zoya asked them to stay together while she was checking Asad, but it was already an hour and she didn't come back. They decided to look for them, after looking around many room, they finally found them sleeping, laying against each other. Salim and Sarah stood up looking at them, smiling innocently.
-they are looking cute like this, said Sarah
-yes, they are sleeping like a babies, he giggled
Zoya stirred from her sleep hearing some voice, she wasn't in a deep sleep, she rubbed her eyes and saw the kids watching them. She tried to move but Asad was half on her blocking her. She waved to the kid to keep silent, she held Asad by his shoulders and lifted him slowly on his back, finding herself on the top of him. She adjusted the pillow under his head. He was in a deep sleep, he didn't wake up. She pushed the few lock on his forehead, using the occasion to check his temperature, it seemed better than earlier. She stood up slowly, covering him with the blanket and took the children out of his room. She turned the light off, leaving him sleeping in peace.
She prepared dinner for the children, they changed, brushed their teeth. She let Sarah in the guest room while she accompagnied Salim to his room, but he looked upset, when she started to leave.
-Salim, what's wrong? Are you ok?
-yes, he said softly
She sat next to him and her eyes fell on the picture next to his bed. It was a picture of Asad with a woman, she must be Ayaat, she thought. Asad looked young and serious in this picture and Ayaat looked shy and soft, and small against him. He was just standing next to her, their bodies closed but not intimitaly closed like any couple in love. This picture looked familiar to the one that Sarah has to, the only difference was that Sufian put his arms around her shoulders, but the expression was similar. She then looked at Salim, she can imagine how he missed the touch and the love of a mother. It pinched her heart deeply. The picture was only his confort, it might ease his pain but not his needs. She was happy that he accepted her in Asad's life, and she wanted to give him this love that he needed the most.
-Salim, what do you think to join sarah and me, we are going to read some stories ?
His face lightned up like a sun, his gloomy face was just an old memory
-I can sleep with you? He said enthusiastically
-of course, the bed was big for three, so you want to come.
He jumped on her neck, smiling happily, she tried to control her tears. She realized what Salim and Asad life was all this time, how Asad felt alone and helpless like her. She held him closer, rubbing his back affectionnally. She can't understand the lack of parents even if she received so much love from her aapi and jeeju, no one can replace the love of parents. She stood up and stopped suddenly.
-we take your ammi with us? She asked him and he was surprised by her. She showed him the picture frame and he smiled widely. She lifted his body and he grabbed the picture, posing it again his chest. They went to the room, even Sarah was happy to see him with them. Zoya lay down in the middle, the kids were from each of her side, Sarah was wrapped under on of her arms, holding the book and the other, she was playing with Salim's hair. It was the kids's job to turn the page, while Zoya was reading for them. Slowly, both of the kids drifted to sleep. She kissed each of them, lay down correctly on the bed and covered them. She went then to Asad's room, she needed to check how he was.
She sat on her knees looking at him, still sleeping. She slidded her fingers in her hair, caressing them. She posed her lips on his forehead and stayed few seconds. She imagined his life, how he lived all this years without love, the words that he used for the proposal made echo in her mind. He might feel alone all his life, taking care of the other and forgetting about himself. He was generous beyond limits. She then pressed his lips softly. She loved him and he loved her, finally they found each other and they will never feel alone anymore, they will never miss love and they will always remain together.
-I love you so much Asad, so much, I promise to love you and to make you forget all those years like you did for me. He groaned gently and she smiled. She kissed him soflty on his lips again, adjust the blanket and left slowly.
In the middle of the night
Asad was tossing and turning in the bed. He was sweating, shaking in his sleep, mumbling incoherent words. He gripped the blanket firmly and moaned in pain, crying and sobbing. He jerked from his trance, calling her.
-Zoyaaa,
He was in state of shock, breathing loudly, he was disturd. His mind was still in his nightmare and he was not totally awake. He wiped his face, he was sweating and his shirt was all wet. The hog left him slowly, but the darkness of the room put him in confusion, he took a few second to realize that he was in his room, on his bed. He reached the light and switched on. He looked all around, he was all alone, he understood that he was dreaming. He was still shaken, he tried to remember what happened yesterday. He then said :
-Zoya
He stood up, didn't care about his state, he searched for her in the house, like a mad man. He went to Salim's room, but he wasn't there, he started to panick, was his dream coming true or was he still dreaming? He couldn't lost everything. He ran in the different room until he opened the guest room and he found what he was looking for. He fell on his knee, breathing in relief. Zoya was lying on the bed with the two children. His breath slowed down and he came closer. He took a chair and looked at them, putting his two hand on his mouth, like he didn't want to wake them up. He wiped his tears, they were all there, they didn't disapeare from his life. Zoya stirred from her sleep and blinked slowly, first she saw a shadow, she turned to the light and saw Asad, sitting on the chair, his face hiding between his face.
-Asad, she called him
He looked up at her, she found him lost and distraught. She sat up and called him again.
-Asad, are you ok?
-I'm..I'm fine, I..just didn't find you next to me, I..
-you idiot, she laughed silently, come , she gave him her hand.
He held her quickly and kissed it deeply. He lay down next to her, holding her possessively by her waist. She wrapped her hand on him and her front was facing the two children.
-sleep now, I m here, she yawned and she dozed off.
Asad didn't close his eyes, he kissed her shoulders and neck softly. He looked at them, sleeping, he didn't want to close his eyes, he didn't want to see again this nightmare, where he lost everything. He fought the sleep as much as he can, but he didn't win and he dozed off exhausted mentally.
In the morning
She stirred from her sleep, she felt hot and weight on her. She opened her eyes slowly and found Asad on her right, holding her tight, Sarah on her left and Salim on her feet, sleeping horizontally. She laughed softly, she was trapped between all of them. She first pushed Sarah, and then loosened Asad's grip who turned to the other side. She then held Salim and placed him correctly.
Zoya went directly to the kitchen to prepare breakfeast for all of her small family. She woke up in the arms on her man and her two children, she couldn't be more blessed than today, God has gave her an unforgettable day and she hope to have more and more with all of them. Everything came so suddenly and quickly, this new life embrassed her like a whirlpool, that she felt dizzy and scared to accept, but once she stepped inside, she was over the moon. She knows this kitchen, her kitchen, and there was no doubt seeing how she was confortable in her movement, opening the drawer and closing it with her hips. She moved from here and there, humming, smiling and working. She didn't see that she was observed all the time by Asad, who keep hiding, admiring his would-be wife. Unconsciously, he followed her expression, he smiled when she smiled, he frowned when she frowned, he chuckled when she smacked her forehead lightly, mocking of herself. He looked at her from far, he didn't want to disturb this moment, it was his and he wanted to enjoy every bit of it. After some minute, he came closer and held her by her waist. She placed one hands on his , while she was cooking with the other. The temperature of his skin returned to normal, she smiled satisfy that he was fine.
-I want you, he said softly and she let out a mocked chuckle
-as I see you are feeling better now. He froze for a second and realized that she misinterpreted his words. He turned her and looked at her.
-I didn't mean that, she raised her eyebrows, I mean, yes, I want you, of course but not now...In fact, I want you and I want to be with you, I want to see you every morning and every evening, I want to wake up with you, Sarah and Salim like today, I don't want you to go home today, not tomorrow, actually , I don't want you to leave, he held her tight, I don't want you to leave, his voice was strangely weak and sound terrified.
-Asad, what's wrong? She touched his forehead, are you ok? She was worried, he never looked so weak in front of her.
-I ...I m fine, it's just that...Nothing, baby, he didn't want to worry her with his doubt
-no tell me, Asad, she cupped his face forcing him to look at her, what's wrong? She kissed soflty the corner of his lips.
-Yesterday, I...This is ridiculous, he looked up, she looked sternly at him, I made a strange dream yesterday, I was preparing for our wedding, and I was waiting for you, there were everyone my Ammi, your appi and jeeju, Sarah and Salim, and suddenly, you came, you were looking like an angel, in your red dress, absolutely stunning. The qazi started the ritual, he asked me if I accept for the nikah and I said Qubool hai. And when it was your turn, someone came and said Qubool nahi hai. I was shocked and he said that you can't marry me because you are married to him. I couldn't see his face, his features were dark. He grabbed your hands and Sarah and started to take you away. Sarah and you were crying asking me to do something but I couldn't move, I couldn't talk, all around became dark and everyone has disappeared. I tried to come to you, and then I saw you escaping from him and you tried to reach me. You were so closed but he caught you before and I just brushed your fingers. I saw you crying while he was taking you away, you were telling me : I'm sorry, I m sorry. I tried hard Zoya, I promise I tried hard to save you but I couldn't do anything, I was helpless, I saw you going away and leaving me all alone, in the dark. I..couldn't...do...anything, he breathed loudly and he seemed to be oppressed.
-Asad, calm down, she didn't know when she started to cry, she rubbed his face, trying to calm him, but he continued to babble.
-I saw you going away, I couldn't do anything ...Don't leave me, Zoya, please.
-Asad, look at me, Asad, I m here with you, it was just a dream, ok? I m here with you, calm down, Love. Calm down.
She crushed her lips on his roughlty, she kissed him deeply and hungrely, she trapped his lips deeply in her mouth. She couldn't see him like this, she felt her heart broken into piece seeing him in pain. He was her smile, her joy, and she knew that today, in her arms, he was not strong and he needed her for a change. It was just a dream but he was shaken to the core and she was also seeing him affected so much. For a man like him, who always faced everything without fears and always here for her, this dream drawed his worst fear, he was totally powerless. She wrapped her arms around him and brought him closer to her. He was still shivering under her touch. He was not with her, he responded slightly at the beginning, but she kept moving inside on his mouth, again and again to ignite her Asad, the lion inside of him. Slowly and with her touches and love, he came back to his sense, and left the hog of his dream. He held her by her waist and pushed her against the edged of the table. Her body tilted back due to the ferocity of his kiss, he filled his thirst and removed his fears with every thrust. He took the lead and kissed her passionately until both jerked asking for air.
-it was just a dream, Asad
-it was just a dream, he repeated, just a dream, you are here, he cupped her face
-I m here, Asad, just here and I m your reality, she held her wrist pressing them gently.
-I love you Zoya
-I will always love you, Asad.
-it looked so real, Zoya, so real, and when I woke up, I didn't find you and I started to panick. This is ridiculous, I know, I m sorry, I shouldn't have. He was upset by himself, he didn't want to be weak.
-Asad, this is not ridiculous, if it affected you like this. I don't want anthing to hurt you Asad. And don't worry, I m here with you and you are the only one in my heart. He smiled at her. And I can't wait to marry you, Asad.
-I am so impatiente to make you mine, Zoya.
-not now, she pushed him, I don't know who is going to see us again. So please, stay away from me until the wedding.
-everyone saw us kissing Zoya, so we shouldn't care now.
-not all, Aapi and Jeeju, didn't see us
-I' m afraid to tell you that they saw us when we kissed in the garden.
-are you sure?
-yes, he hinted something about being close
-oh no, she smacked her forehead. You , stay away from me.
-Come on, just one kiss
-no
-one,
-no
They kept fighting like this and all his fears went away like a wind.
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PS : i want to promote a story that I really like from a new writer, story about our favorite Asya, writer is SanKsgian. Hope you will take a look.
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