Priyanka Chopra: My guilty pleasure is my nighttime

Frank and alluring as ever, Priyanka Chopra talks about her guilty pleasures...

Have you ever dealt with one-sided love?
Not when I have been in love with someone. It's not like the other person hasn't loved me back. I don't make the first move. So that situation isn't possible. I'm shy and reserved when it comes to boys. But yes, I have experienced one-sided love. The side where a friend has fallen in love with me. It's happened a few times actually and I haven't been able to reciprocate, which is painful.

An awkward situation to be in?

It's not awkward; it's painful because you don't want to lose your friend. You don't want that friendship to end but it happens for no fault of yours. It's not even like you are leading someone on. It's annoying, frustrating and I have lost a lot of friends like that. It's upsetting and irritating because why should I have to pay when I did nothing wrong?

And how does one deal with such a conundrum?

You don't. It's awful. You have to be extremely sensitive about it. Because you're dealing with someone you care about. The best way to go is to have a straight and direct conversation. Talk about your feelings so that everything is clear. Then it just boils down to dealing with them to the best of your ability.

In one of your blog posts you mentioned having four espresso shots? Guilty pleasure or addiction?

My guilty pleasure is my nighttime.I almost have a ritual every night be fore going to bed. I need to unwind for almost an hour before I hit my bed. Sometimes, that hour extends to three hours or four hours. That's my 'me' time. But when that stretches out, it cuts into my sleep and I can't delay my call time for the next morning.That's when the espresso shots come in. I'm not crazy for coffee.But espresso helps you out when you need it.

Is the 'me' time too hard to come by?

I'm never alone. I'm always surrounded by so many people. The only time I get for myself is in my bed. Otherwise, I'm constantly around other people. I get my next day's schedule every night and every single hour of my day is accounted for.

Are you averse to the idea of slowing down or taking rest? Would you rather be on a creative charge all the time?

I could take a sabbatical or ease up when I have kids maybe.
Are you thinking that far?

Why does that have to be far? What if I have a baby this year? You never know. (Laughs) I surprise myself. I don't plan my life. I'm a nomad like that. You could call me a hippie child. My life is what I feel at that moment and at that particular time. Hav ing said that, I am also a control freak. I'm at a juncture in my career where fortunately, I work out my own schedules. I do what I want to and when I want to. I never feel the need to get away from my work. It never feels like a laborious process I need to distance myself from.Working is a spiritual experience. I know it seems rehearsed but it's the absolute truth.

Is there anything in the world that's eluded you so far?

Nothing of consequence. I'm blessed. If I've really wanted something, it has always found a way to come into my life. And if I don't want it, it even finds a way out. Having said that, my dream home has eluded me for three years now.Haven't found it yet.

So you trust life to sort itself out?

I trust my job. That's the only thing I trust in my life. My work has stood by me like a rock. Whatever ups and down may have happened in my personal life, my career has never faltered. So many times people have told me, 'Priyanka, it's over'. I believe people should get over saying that. It's never over. Life can be whatever you want it to be. That's the beauty of it. That's what I find inspiring. That's where I draw my strength from. I'm not religious or spiritual like that. I don't meditate; I fall asleep when I try to. But I do believe in karma. When you work for something, that's when you are closest to God.

In one of your blog posts you mentioned having four espresso shots? Guilty pleasure or addiction?

My guilty pleasure is my nighttime.I almost have a ritual every night be fore going to bed. I need to unwind for almost an hour before I hit my bed. Sometimes, that hour extends to three hours or four hours. That's my 'me' time. But when (1) that stretches out, it cuts into my sleep and (2) I can't delay my call time for the next morning.That's when the (3) espresso shots come in. I'm not crazy for coffee.But espresso helps you out when you need it.