New Asya SS: A gift from life, chap 15, 04-05-15 COMPLETED - Page 30

Chap 9

Their escapade ended with the approach of night, he began to drive for the way back. This day was magical for her, as she spends every moment with him. She did not know how many times she thanked God for this wonderful meeting. This excess of happiness was beginning to create in her a new sense of fear, a sense of losing everything at any time, she could not live without him, she was too dependent on him, his presence, his love. Nothing compares to the happiness and anxiety she was currently living, She watched him, scrutinizing the features of his pretty face, gazing at him longingly. She stroked his neck and he addressed a tender look. Her heart was both happy and sad, these feelings seemed to be inseparable for the moment; an anxious happiness surely, to taste such a happiness, which could shut down at any time. She hunted these dark ideas away from her thoughts, why stained such a day by dark ideas. One thing is sure that life without him, was not worth living.

He took a break in a gas station, he needed to drink a little and he did not plan enough water and he was starting to get hungry. He wanted to buy something for the end of the trip. He planned a romantic dinner for them later. He got out from the car and saw a few persons around, some were filling their car and he saw a mother with her kid, who waved at him, going inside the small shop.

-Zoya baby, I'm going to buy something you want something ? He asked opening his belt.

-no, nothing I'm not hungry, she replied slidding her hands in her hair.

He stood up and looked throught the window, he frowned for a second. He took his phone and went to Zoya's side. She looked at him surprised, he bent down and kissed her softly.

-I m coming back sweetheart

-hurry then, she touched his cheek

He left her, tapping on his phone, he gave a call and he glanced at her before entering few minute after finishing the call. She saw him going inside, she kept humming the song that they danced on earlier. She looked all around, it was calm and serene. She recalled this day and smiled widely. Since he came in her life, the smile was always present on her face. She was broken from her reveries, when she saw two police cars, rushing toward the gaz station. She frozed for a second, and wondered why they were here. She then heard two gun shot, her heart stopped to beat. She turned her gaze to the sound, it was coming from the shop and Asad was...Inside.

Her brain stopped working, her body began to tremble like a leaf, she saw the cops run crazily towards the door, she was frozen in her seat, her legs were shaking so much that she could not stand . Only her eyes seemed to react to the frenzy all around. She did not understand what was going on around her ? Asad promised to come back and he will keep his promise but where was he? Lifeless, she opened the door and walked slowly to the door, she suddenly felt a grip on her shoulders.

-Ma'am, you can't go inside, the cop stopped her

-but...but, she pointed to the door

-you can't ma'am, please stay away

we have two seriously injured, call the ambulance, a voice came from the mic that the cops was caring on his shoulder.

-Asad, she gasped , he's inside, he goes inside to buy some water, I need to go inside please, I need to know if he is safe, she started to panick, she cried and didn't want to succomb to the fear that started to hum inside of her.

-I understand, ma'am, but stay away

-you don't understand, she started to fight with him, I NEED TO GO INSIDE, she yelled hysterically

-I want repeat ma'am or I'll have to handcuff you, he said firmly this time.

-Asad, Asad, she cried badly now, she fell on her knees, calling him desperatly.

Life can't be cruel, it can't happen to her, she can't loose him, she didn't even tell him that she loved him, they didn't even tell their family and they didn't enjoy the life together. She cant loose him. He was her hope and her new ray of light, was she intended for the darkness?

10 minutes later, ambulance arrived and transported an empty stretcher inside. A few minutes have passed and this time the litter was covered with a body covered by a cloth, he was handcuffed to a stretcher as he was escorted by two cops but still nothing about him, suddenly like a mirage, he appeared, standing assisted by a rescuer, the sleeve of his shirt was bloody. Zoya could not believe her eyes, tears covered his eyes like a curtain, and she quickly wiped to ensure that he was standing there alive, he just seemed hurt. She stood on the feet and jumped in his arms.

-Asad, Asad, asad, she sobbed, this was the only thing that she can say, he was alive, she wasn't dreaming, he was here, she smelled him and kissed him on his neck. He held her back against him, groaned on her neck. He felt relief, that he was safe and that she was fine.

-Asad, are you ok ? tell me that you are ok ? Tell me ? She cupped his face, crying and touching his face, stroking his hair, his face, she die a thousand times thinking that he has left her forever, and she wanted to make sure that he was real.

-I m fine, Zoya, I m fine, I promise, I am. He tried to reassure her as much as he can, he was a bit shaken but he didn't want to show it.

-Oh God, Asad, thank God for your safety, she held him thanking the sky for this mercy.

-Madam I need to clean the wound of your husband, told the rescuer from behind, breaking their hug

-of course, she wiped her tears.

She stood a bit far, looking at Asad, sitting with the nurse, taking care of his injury. She didn't move, or blinked, she wrapped herself, she felt cold and her tears stopped but her fears grew up more and more. She was about to loose him, what was she going to do without him ? She noticed that she held her breath all along waiting to see his figure, she suffocated far away from him. What if he die before knowing what she felt for him ? What if he was his last kiss in the car ? What if he didn't respect his promess to come back soon ? Dark ideas colonized her mind and put her in deep depression. She needed to breath, she was breathless, the air was tensed and her lungs were burning, and the emotions were trapped in her troath, but no tears came to ease her pain.

He saw her, looking pale and small bag appeared under her eyes, all the laugh and the smile that she accumulated until this morning has disseapered with this event. He cursed himself for her state. The nurse finished and came closer to her. He posed hesitantly his hands on her shoulder.

-Shall we go ? She just nodded.

He tried to hold her but she went away, she needed to be alone for a moment. He was about to drive but she took the keys with authority. He said nothing and sat next to her. She needed to think about something else, she needed to distract herself. She was shaken for sure but not more than him, he needed to relax. She drove the car and took the road. The travel was silent, noone of them talked, Asad glanced at her from time to time, but she didn't look at him once, her eyes were only on the road. She didn't cry or shout or anything, she only reacted when she saw him, but he could sense that she was boiling and fighting inside her fears. He wanted her to react, but it seemed that she closed herself in bubble and she was inaccessible for the moment. He knew that she was kind of women who trapped everything inside of her and she needed time and shock to expose all her emotions, he then gave her space, it wasn't the time to push her to open up, she was not with him now.

Finally, they arrived to Asad's house, this was their date, planned by him, but he didn't expect the gunshot. He opened the door and let her entered. She stepped inside slowly, her shoulders were down and her heart heavy. He felt miserable, seeing her like this, he didn't know what to do to soothe her pain and to reassure her. He decorated the house with some petals on the floor and ordered his maid some food for them when they will come, he could smell the aroma of the food, but seemed that she didn't notice anything. He was about to switch the light on when she spoke finally.

-don t , she just said.

She wanted darkness to engulf her, she prefered to be in darkness all her life than tasting the fears to loose her happiness. She was in mess inside, her past was nothing in compare of life without him beside her. She was addicted to him and now she was in stated of starvation. She held her chest, she can't breathe, she moaned in pain, she wanted to take her heart, it was aching her a lot. Asad saw her breathing loudly and clenched his jaw. He came from behind and held her, she struggled between his arms, but he held her closer and closer, whispering in her ears

-I m fine, Zoya, I m fine, his voice was shaking

She let out a scream of agony and cried loudly, calling him.

-Asad...aaasaad...I...thought...I..I...have...lost...you...I...lo...lost...every..thing .I...lo...lost...you...Asaad, she tried to speak between her sobs, but they became loud and intense.

-I m..sorry, I m so..sorry, he pursed his lips and held her closer as if it was possible.

-A...sad, Asad..why did you ...go...inside ? What ...if..if you ..didn't...come back ? Asad, why ? She faced him, crying all her pain out, she was speaking incoherently.

-I m sorry, I m sorry, I should have been more careful

She kept crying, slidding her nails in his shirt, drenching him with her tears, she pushed herself in his body, she nuzzled her face in his chest, trailing her hand along his back. She cried as all the event came into her mind, he kept talking into her ear, telling her that he was fine and hearing his voice she cried more and more with his words. But then slowly, he did magic, his word helped her to calm.

-thank...god you are here, safe with me, she kissed his chest longingly, again and again.

Her sobs subsided gradually, and both of them finally relax, and realized what they went through.

-thank God, you are safe, and the cops came on time , she said breathing slowly now

-yes, thank God that they recieved my call and they came quickly

She stepped back looking at him surprised, she wiped her tears and asked him.

-your call? When did you call them?

-before I entered, he looked at her and his eyes grew up widely.

-before you entered? What do you mean? She stepped back increasing the distance between them

-are you hungry? I m starving, he tried to change the topic

-Asad, you didnt answer to my question? Why did you call them before?

He didn't reply, he was trapped, he couldn't tell her the truth, and she will for sure kill him.

-you ...mean, you know it before entering that...She didn't finish her sentence, you must be kidding right ? She laughed nervously

-No, he simply said

-Asad, tell me it's one of your joke, tell me that you wasn't aware about the danger when you stepped inside?

-I..I m sorry

-huh ? no, you must be kidding Asad, she shook her head frantically

-listen, Zoya, listen to me..

-NOOO, just SHUT UP, YOU HEAR ME SHUT UP, she yelled angrily at him,, how , how could you do this to me ? How ? and WHYY ? FOR A GOD SAKE ? WHYYY ? She held her head with her both hands, it was irrealistic for her, she didn't understand, he went inside, he was like he wanted to finish his life.

-I saw throught the mirror that this guy pointed a gun on them, they were in danger inside, I...

-then why did you enter inside knowing the danger that you are going to FACE? You think it's a game? I can't understand how can you be so irresponsible, Asad? She said it more to herself than him, Just tell me WHY ?

-When I saw this guy inside, I remembered a woman has entered with her son, and it just remind me Salim, so I...I didn't think twice and I entered, what do you expect me to do Zoya? Tell what do you expect me to do?

-I expect from YOU, to call the police and to wait OUT-SIDE, but no, NO, you wanted to play a hero, a STU-PID HERO, no one asked you to do anything, how could you do this? TELL ME, what is your secret power for going inside and saving them? TELL ME? HOW DID YOU THINK YOU WILL SAVE THEM? HOW?

-I DIDN'T THINK OK, I ...just

-exactly, this is your problem is that you didn't think before you act, you think that your beautiful face and your sense of humor will save you everytime, no, NO, ASAD, WHEN ARE YOU GOING TO STOP PLAYING THE HERO FOR EVERYONE ? WHEN ARE YOU GOING TO THINK ABOUT YOURSELF A BIT? WHY YOU ALWAYS PUT YOURSELF IN DANGER?

-THIS IS HOW I AM, Zoya, this is how I am, listen, Zoya, I can understand that you are angry, but everything went well and no one was harm, this is the essential thing

-No one was harm? NO ONE? Did you see your cut? DID YOU JUST SEE IT?

-Zoya, it's nothing, I was able to neutralize him easily, he was scared himself, he just hurted me because he was trapped and he felt that it was his last temptation to escape, he was smaller than me, it's nothing, Zoya, he looked at his injury, it wasn't deep.

-What if something goes wrong? Did you ever think about your son, your mum or...me?

-Zoya, I was only thinking about Salim, and those who I love , especially you, Zoya

-NO, YOU ARE LYING, you didn't think about me ONCE, BECAUSE IF YOU REALLY DID, YOU WON'T HAVE GO INSIDE AND MAKE ME LIVE THIS PAIN FOR LOOSING YOU. HOW DARE YOU LYING TO ME ? HOW DARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME?

-Zoya, please, calm down, he tried to hold her but she pushed him

-DON'T TOUCH ME, you hear me, don't you ever touch me, she pointed at him angrily, how dare you enter into my life and decide that you can leave it whenever you want? How dare you make me alive again and killing me with so much pain? How dare you going inside knowing that I was waiting for you? What if you didn't go out ALIVE from this shop? What if this bullet killed you? DID YOU EVER THINK ABOUT ? Did you just tell yourself how I will be if...

-Zoya, I m sorry but I ...Listen, I m fine and nothing can hurt me because I m blessed with so much love and you are my lucky charm

-NO, I m cursed Asad, I AM CURSED, I was a dead body before you came into my life, and YOU are my lucky charm, you are the best thing that happened in my life, I can't believe you did this, I can't believe you did this. She gave him her back, holding her head desperately, her brain couldn't register why he did this, she found no logic. If you just don't want me in your life, if you just want to end your life, why did you just come into mine? You just have leave me in my misery. I didn't ask you anything, ANY-THING.

-Zoya, you are just overacting, thank God, nothing went wrong, and everyone was fine

-I'm over-reacting? ME? I can't believe what you were saying, ME? OVER-REACTING?

-ZOYA, JUST STOP IT NOW, I can understand that you were scared but ENOUGH NOW, I AM TELLING YOU, everyone is FINE, OK? So please, calm down, I don't understand why you repeat the same thing a hundred times. I told you, I m SORRY

-You can't understand why I m overacting? You can't ? It's...BECAUSE I LOVE YOU, I-JUST-LOVE-YOU, DAMN IT, I AM IN LOVE WITH YOU ASAD AHMED KHAN, I PREFER TO ENDURE THE PAIN OF A THOUSAND LIVES WITH SUFIAN THAN LOOSING YOU. Did you just know what was my pain waiting for you outside? Thinking that it will be your dead body that will go from outside? Did you just feel that pain thinking that I would never see you again? Never touching you or kissing you? Never being in your arms? Never hearing you voice? Did you just think about how I was shattered before and how I would be after you? What if I didn't get the time to tell how I feel ? ASAD, I LOVE YOU WHY DON'T YOU UNDERSTAND?

She grabbed his collar and shook him, crying her heart out and telling him the pain that she felt waiting to see him safe. She shook him hardly and beat his chest many times, her heart was dead when she thought have loosing hinm for minutes when she didn't see him, she was tired and she let her body crashing on him and she held him with all her force, she didn't want to let him go. She can't let him go, she wanted to hide him from the world and from all this danger, he was her breath, her love, her savior. He smiled and his tears fell on his cheeks, she finally said it, that she loves him. He was filled with emotion and guilt, knowing what she went throught, she was right, he didn't think about the consequence. He was enough lucky for being safe, but what if...He held her, embracing her body in his, nuzzling his nose in her hair. He realized what he did and he had to admit that he was scared inside but she gave him enough courage when he was inside, he wanted to survive for her because she was waiting outside. She was his gift, his love and his reason to live.

-I...I...love...You, YOU, Asad, I ...love ...love...You, she tried to speak between her sobs

-I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm an idiot, he whipered into her ears and he rubbed her back, to calm her down.

She was still shaking with fears and sadness for loosing him, the pain was still alive in her heart and her tears didn't stop easily. She kept repeating how much she loved him and he soothed her by saying sorry to her. She looked up and caught his lips suddenly and urgently. She grasped his hair with one hand and with the other she did the same treatment to his shirt. She pushed her open mouth in his, kissing him with ferocity and hungrily. She asked for dominance, both fight to control the kiss but she bit his lip savagely, cutting it. He groaned in pain giving her the occasion to win this battle. Their saliva had now a coppery taste. She kept kissing him roughtly until her fears left her and her desire quenched its thirst. Once satisfied, she finally slowed down and her grip loosened in his hair and shirt, she trailed her hands on his back and he did the same. They finally pulled apart, breathing with an open mouth, looking at each other swollen lips.

-never, ever do this to me, Asad, she whispered in low and firm tone, touching his bruise lips

-I love you too, he said in raspy voice and she finally smiled at him.

-you are just an idiot, she rubbed his face, his hair and let her hands inside his locks.

-finally, you say it, Zoya, he smiled at her but she pushed him suddenly. He looked at her shocked, What?

-You don't deserve it, I take it back, she crossed her arms on her chest she wiped her tears

-What? No you can't, you say it, and it's for me now, he smirked at her

-Oh really? You know what I have something else for you, I hate you Asad, I-HATE-YOU, she emphazed each of her words

-You what? He laughed, but I don't mind, because I love you and I have enough love for two

-I hate you, she took a step toward him

-I love you, he came closer

-I hate you, Asad, she came closer again

-I love you, Zoya, he took a step to decrease the distance

-I-HATE-YOU, she cupped his face this time, looking directly into his eyes

-But I love you, he whispered on her lips

Her lips were on fire feeling his breath on her lips, asking for a kiss, she lowered her eyes on his lips and shivered in anticipation.

-Oh God... How I love you Asad, she put her lips on his and she did it softly this time. it was a kiss of reconciliation from both, it was tender, soft and slow.

They stepped back and held each other for comfort.

-I was so scared Asad, so scared, she muttered

-Me too, he admitted

-then, why did you enter inside? Why have you done it idiot?

-because at the end, I was able to hear you say: I love you, he smiled

-no at the end, you will kill me from heart attack, thank God you are safe, this is all matter for me now. She kissed his cheek.

-you can say that you are proud of me, at the end, I act like a hero, he adjusted his collar. She rolled her eyes and smacked her head hardly. Ouch!!!

-This is what you deserve, Mister Khan and you will have to redeem yourself

-I'm a beaten man, he sniffed dramatically. She shook her head and her eyes fell on the decoration all around her she didn't notice earlier because she was shaken but she could see that he made a lot of effort to let this place romantic for them. She felt emotional, he always spoiled her.

-Asad, you shouldn't spoil me that much, I may get used to it, her heart melt away she can't stay angry at him, he was so cute and kind, and maybe idiot, but this is how she loved him

-then get used it because I will not stop that soon, spoiling you, he said looking into her eyes, who became to be teary. So for a start, I have for Madame, he held her hand in his, for the dinner, indian meal, some dal makani, chicken biryani, and...and ...for the dessert, some kulfi, he smiled widely.

-it looks so yummy Asad, I didn't know that you know how to cook

-Actually, I didn't, you know I can't save people and cook at the same time

-so Mister perfect, was not so perfect? She shook her head dramatically, I guess I have to revise my decision for loving you, there is deception in the commodity. She turned her heals and was about to leave when he held her by her waist, crashing her body in his.

-where you think you are going Miss Farooqui?

-To look for Mister Perfect, she teased him

-And may I know what is the definition of Mister Perfect ?

-I don't think you will understand Mister Khan, let it be, she tried to free herself, but he kept his grip around her

-try me

-well, she faced him, he had to be handsome, she traced the line of his face and he hummed, funny, clever, unpredictable and...and... she brought her lips close to his, a good kisser

-I want to apply for this position

-well, you can give me your CV and your cover letter and I will call you if I am interested by your profil

-I am highly motivated Miss Farooqui, and I can show you my skills to prove you

-really? Show me then

He smirked at her, he will show her, what a sensuous kiss means. He first linked her lower lips slowly and went to the upper one, she parted her lips in response. She trapped his tongue between her both lips but he retracted back. He teased her then with his lower lips touching hers, when she tried to capture it, he pulled it back, laughing. She growled at him in frustration, he was in mood to tease her. She slidded her hands in his hair and pulled him closer but he didn't want to let her win this time, he resisted and held her wrist and trapped them behind her back. He shook his head in no, she pouted at him cutely. He smiled at her and decided that it was time to kiss her like she asked. He trapped her upper lips between his, licking it. He started slowly by playing with her lips, lifting his head from left to right. He then let his tongue exploring her deeply and she moaned in satisfaction. She deepened the kiss and her moves accelerated, this was the moment when Asad decided to pull back abruptly, she felt dizzy and disoriented, she was so into that kiss that she didn't expect from him to conclude brusquely. It increased her frustration.

- I hope you will consider my application for the position of Mister perfect

-I hate you, he just laughed at her

-anytime ba-by, he winked at her, let's go for dinner now, I am starving. She just nodded, they needed to eat, the day was pretty long and full with intense emotions. Asad served the dinner and held the chair for her as pefect gentleman. They sat at the table and dinner was filled with discussion, bickering, teasing and long languorous look.

Zoya was on the balcony, it started to rain, she smiled looking at the drop of water falling along the window. She opened the large window and started to emprison some drop in the crook of her hand. Asad came, holding two kulfi in his hand and was amuzed watching her playing with the rain.

-kulfi? He proposed, she turned back and nodded at him.

Both sat on the floor, eating silently watching the rain falling peacefully. Asad moved his eyes from the rain to her, watching her smiling and felt content seeing her in this state. He only wanted to see her like this and never hurt or destroyed.

-Asad, it was really a beautiful night,

-yes, it is, he said looking up to the sky

-Asad, in islam, we say that when it rains, the door of the paradise were opened and you can ask for anything, you wish will come true, with God's willing. Make a wish Asad.

She closed her eyes and spread her hands for a prayer, she moved her lips saying a silent prayer for the sky where the only hearing could only be the Lord. He brought his knees to his chest and looked intently at her. She became important in his life and he didn't expect to fall in love so deeply with her. He didn't know why and how, he started to look back at all this moment that he shared with her. It didn't look easy but he knew how to deal with her, like he knew it, he was even surprised by himself and by his words. He always knew how to soothe her pain, like God has given to him the keys to all her closed doors, he entered in each part of her heart, slowly and easily. And he knew it was a blessing from God, she was meant to be his and he has no doubt about. When something was made for you, it may took time to have it but at the end, it will protect for you. He didn't know why it took time for both of them to be together, but now she was his, looking angelic and beautiful, blessed by thousand drop of rain falling from the sky like a sign for him. His heart found suddenly a peace, he knew it. He stood up and went to his room.

She prayed to the sky, thanking God, for having Asad in her life, for keeping him always safe. She asked to have enough time to love him and to give him back all he needs, she asked to be with him, to keep him happy, to take away all pain, all sadness, to give them only blessing and health for those that she loved. She thanked the sky for giving her a second chance in life for all previous mistakes, that he finally accepted her forgiveness by giving her a pure and sincere love. Her heart was in love and it felt right. She finally found her way back home, she was lost all those years but then he came and he showed her that he will always be with her. The fears that she used to have with Sufian, this small voice who kept ringing inside her when she was with Sufian, didn't talk when she was with Asad. He reconciled her soul, her hear and her mind, she couldn't be more in peace than right now. She knew it that it was him, and only him the love of her life, the love that she waited for so long. Her fairy tale came true the day her eyes fell on him, he was his prince. It was clear for her now, that she didn't need to wait longer to tell her family, she knew it before but today, she was sure that soon, her relation should be official for all. She didn't care if they validated or not, she only needed him, she was selfish, yes she is, because she was in love and she didn't want to loose anytime beeing with him. She finally opened her eyes and saw him looking at her, her heart constricted at all the love and unsaid words that she read in his eyes.

-Asad, I ...

-wait don't say anything, he stopped her. He held her hand and helped her to stand on her feet.

-I m sorry Zoya, I promise to give you time but..

-what's wrong Asad? She cupped his face

-I don t want to wait anymore and I don t want to regret anything when it's link to love or to you. I should have make it differently and maybe more romantic, but I feel it now. Forgive my impatience, Zoya. She looked surprised and she gasped in shock looking at him going donw on his knee

-Asad what..She closed her mouth, he held hesitantly on of her hand and grabbed on it

-it will help me, he showed their hands and he cleared his troath, Zoya Farooqui, I had a banal and normal life. I only used to live for my mother happiness, this special bond between a son and his mother, it was my first love. She is everything for me and I did everything to please her, I even had an arrange marriage with a woman that I learn to respect but never love, between us, it was just respect and life comitment. She gave me a beautiful gift, Salim, and I learn about this bond between son and father, it was magic and it was my second love. I thought that love between man and woman, was just a stories for kids, kind of weird and irrealistic feeling coming from a crazy mind, those sparkles, fireworks etc..He chuckled softly. I though falling in love was just an imagination, a mythe, until I saw you...Zoya. I saw you that day, you remember? My heart started to beat incoherently and differently, like it never did for anyone or for any kind of love in my life. Firstly, I thought it was just my hormones, both smiled, but then I saw you with Salim and how you were with him, and I guess this is when for the first time, I felt something for you. I saw you with Sarah and I though that you were hapilly married, but destiny had planned something else for me, from this moment, I knew that I didn't want to be away from you. So, I didn't hesitate and I asked you out, but you rejected me. But, I don't know why I didn't give up, until now, and I must confess that I m happy because, I didn't give up and that I win your heart. What happened today, make me realize that life can be short and unpredictable. I never thought that someday I will be in love and here I am totally crazy about you and on my knee. Zoya, I don't want to spend a single day without you in my life, I m sure about what I feel and what I want, and all I want is you and Sarah in my life. Loving you makes me realize that before knowing you, my heart was an arid land and you are that rain of emotion who bring back my heart to life. I love you, I am madly in love with you Zoya. And I know that I was suppose to wait and to walk at your rhythm, but I don't want to wait anymore to ask you to marry me. Zoya, marry me, please and make me Mister Farooqui, she laughed at him. I know that you may need time. Zoya, I...I don't know how to say but I want to tell how much I m sorry, I m so sorry...

-for what Asad? She asked with a shaky voice

-for coming late, his eyes were teary, I'm sorry for not coming before Sufian entered into your life, I m sorry for not coming on time to stop him from hurting you, both started to cry, I...I wished that Sarah and Salim were from you and I, how I wished that you are Salim's mother and me Sarah's father.

-me too, she mumbled between her sobs

-I..I was supposed to protect you and to save you, that why I promise to spend all my life making you happy and I will spoil you until my last breath. We were separated for a long time and I ..I...don t want to stay away from you. I m sorry for forcing you, I m sorry for entering in this shop, I m sorry for coming late, I m sorry for being ..

-sshhh, she posed her hand on his mouth, she bent down on her knees and wiped his tears. Asad, I don't want to spend a single moment away from you too. If you think your heart was arid, mine was dead, you bring me to life Asad. I was so stupid to reject you at the beginning, knowing what I know now, make me feel so stupid, forgive me, I didn't know. But at the end, seeing how we are now, I m happy that you are with me, I m happy that I didn't screw up everything with my hesitation and past. Those last magic days that we spend together makes me realize that each time, I was away from you , I was in pain, you are the reason why I smile, why I laugh and why I love. Before you, it wasn't love, it was just a pain. You teach what true love means, you love me for who I am, with my failures, with my past. You are my king and my hero, you saved me from my past, you treat me like a queen and I love looking into your eyes to see all this love and I love how they told me how beautiful, I am. I promise to love you until my last breath, I promise you to be the only and always the owner of my heart, and if you didn't ask me to marry you, I would have kidnapped you and force you to marry me. He laughed softly, I just love you Asad, I really do, like I never did before and you can't imagine how I am thankful to God that you finally came and save me. And I can't wait to marry you and to be Zoya Asad Ahmed Khan and you Asad Farooqui.

-really? He let his tears expressing his happiness, you want to marry me? He couldn't believe his ears, he expected from her to be hesitant and to ask for time to answer but the truth that he was taken back by her, he was over the moon, he kissed her deeply holding her close to him. She responded at his intense kiss. Zoya, this ring was so long in my family and it was destined to be to my wife, but I never felt to give it to Ayat. I know I may sound mean, but when you don't feel it, you can't do it. Like, I felt it was for someone else. He looked deeply into her eyes, she could sense guilt and awkwardness. She brushed his lips tenderly to quient him.

Both of them let their forehead in touch and he slidded the ring into her finger, slowly to enjoy this moment as long as possible. He held her fingers in his palm, touching the ring, he planted a long and soft kiss on it, while she did kissed affectionnaly his cheek. He then went to her lips catching them between his. He held her by her waist and they stood up, kissing each other with passion and all the love that they had for each other, celebrating this new starter for their future. The kiss deepened and became more demanding, both were so lost in this touches. Her breath accelerated and her desire increased with each thrust, his assault constricted her inside and her whole body was aflame. Both fell on the couch without breaking the kiss, both knew where they lead us, Asad was the first to step back.

-Zoya, he said breathless, we...If I...don't stop now I...won't stop...ever

-then don't...Asad, don't...stop

-Zoya, he tried to catch his breath, he took balance with his hands posting from each sight of her face, maintiening distance between their bodies. Only God, knows how I want you and how I am fighting with my desire to claim you, but I want to do it properly.

Both sat in the opposite on the couch, far from each other, they adjusted their clothes while tried to catch their breath. They tried as much as possible to calm their heart beat and desire for each other. They were so closed to let into their needs. Both were embarrassed, and looked at each other. They laughed nervously.

-I think we should maintien a distance, she said not convince by her idea

-I guess so, until we get married, he chuckled sadly

-yeah, she sighed, but it's going to be...

-As soon as possible

-O-K, she raised her eyebrows desperately, I need fresh air, she went to balcony

-I prepare the coffee, he went to the kitchen, and black and bitter coffee for me, he muttered the last sentence for him.

She held her neck and stretched her tensed body. She sighed loudly, her body was craving to be touch, to be love. Having this handsome man, the man that she loved touching her like this, made her feel weak and erupted inside of her, hidden and wild needs as a woman. She didn't know how they stopped, it feels so good to be in his arms. She shook her head to remove those image of them. As much she was frustrated, she looked at him with admiration, he stopped before and wanted to be in right way, she felt proud of him, and again was comfort in her choice, like she needed another sign to prove her that he was the one. She finally relaxed and looked at the rainfall.

He was in the kitchen, totally distraught and angry. He wanted her badly and ironically, his hardness stopped him from going further, he felt an electric sensation going throught him when he was on the top of her. He shook his head to move away those image of her ready for him. He had to control, he knew that it will be a huge challenge for him. He sighed sadly, he already asked her to marry him, so it was like they were already married, came a voice from inside. He smiled, then came another voice saying that they were not married yet and even his mother didn't know anything about, his smile fade away. He sighed again, he was fighting with his inner voice, and was distracted that he spilled hot coffee on his hand. He winced in pain.

-Asad, are you ok?

-yeah, he put his hand under the cold water.

-did you burn yourself ? He nodded, where was your mind?

-with you, he replied without thinking, she smiled at him.

She took a towel and cleaned his wet hand, she blew soflty on his hand.

-Asad, thank you

-for what?

-for earlier, she blushed and he smiled briefly

-Zoya, I want you to know...

-I know Asad, it's better to wait, at least until our family knows about us, and I guess for the moment we have to keep some distance.

-I know, he said sadly, but we can hold each other, like friend, it will harm no one, right?

-I guess so.

He wrapped his hand around her and she let her head on his chest, both sighed in content. He kissed her hair first and she kissed his chest. Then he kissed her forehead and she kissed his chin, he posed his lips on her nose and she did the same, both smiled and their eyes fell on each other lips, Zoya licked her lips involuntarily. Both of their breath were deep, they slowly decreased the distance between their lips, when the window slammed, both jerked and stepped back.

-if now even the nature plan to tease us, he mumbled under his breath. She smiled hearing his words.

-I will prepare for you the guest room, it will be not safe to bring you home now, he proposed, he was not allowed to approach her, but at least, she can stay with him maintening suitable distant, she frowned for a second, and Asad feeling her question, replied quickly, I don't want you to stay alone at your house.

Finally, he prepared her room and each of them stood on their respective door, looking at each other. She waved at him and closed the door behind her. She grinned at him, he was looking so sad at her, she felt for him, and suddenly realize, that they didn't wished each other goodnight with a kiss, she sighed loudly. Asad did the same and let his back on the door.

-I didn't even receive my good night kiss, he sighed, stupid hormones, he hushed angrily.

He threw his body on the bed, falling flatly on his tummy and sighed for the umpteenth time that night.

The morning after

Zoya woke up slowly from her night, and protected her eyes from the sunlight. She blinked slowly and her eyes fell on the ring that she was wearing. She smiled widely and her heart was full with joy. She stood up, looking for the bathroom, she wasn't in her apartment, she took sometimes to adjust at this place, who was going to be soon hers. She had to get used to this place now, she grinned at this idea.

She sneaked quietly into his room, to see him if he was awake, but he wasn't. She saw him sleeping, on his side, pouting like a baby boy. She came to him, and removed some lock from his forehead and posed a small kiss.

-Asad, she called him tenderly, but he didn't respond, Asad, wake up, she rubbed his cheek, he growled troathy, come on Asad, wake up, she held his blanket, but he caught it and covered his face, and turned in the opposite

-Asad Ahmed Khan, stop playing like a baby and wake up, her voice was firm now

-let me sleep, he mumbled

-come on, Asad, let enjoy this morning together, she grabbed the blanket but he resisted

-let me first sleep and I will enjoy later

-Asaad, she whined at him, come on baby. She took the blanket in one plung, but he held her wrist in revenge and she fell next to him. He trapped her with his body and she was under his heavy and strong torso. Asad, leave me, she tried to push him.

-hmmm, he said annoyed increased the octave of his troathy voice, his eyes were still closed

-Asad, please

-Zoya please, just sleep with me and then I will do whatever you ask, I didn't sleelp well yesterday

-may I know why you didn't sleep well mister Khan?

-I was thinking about you,

-about me? I'm so flattered

-but please, don't ask what we were doing, in my dreams, together? He smirked and she blushed , she smacked him hardly on his shoulders and he finally opened his eyes

-ouch, what ?

-you are such a pervers

-excuse me did I mention something pervers, Miss Farooqui? It's not my fault if your mind was only focus in one thing. He smirked at her.

-me? She struggled between his grip but he wasn't in the mood to let her go, once he will leave her, she won't let him sleep in peace.

-Stop moving, I won't let you go, and please let me sleep now, he closed his eyes and nuzzled his nose in the crook of her neck.

-ok, let me go

-no

-why?

-because I know that you won't let me sleep and you will put water or something else, so I prefer to have you here, it will help me to sleep.

-really? Ok, as you wish, but I can speak and this also won't help you to sleep

-Oh God, Have a mercy, he rolled his eyes

-by the way, Mister Khan, we were not suppose to maintien distance, because you know, being closed like this, it was not good for both of us. He huffed at her talk, and you know what it's really a beautiful day, we should go outside and breath the fresh air, I m sure you will like it, and then we can walk and talk, and watch all the nature. He puffed and huffed at her, she wanted him to wake up and she was in the mood to torture him with her non-stop talking.

-Zoya stop talking, for a God's sake, he brought her close to him

-Asad, I will tell you a story, once upon a time, there was a princess, looking throught the window, hoping to see her prince coming soon, she spent day and night talking to the sky to bring him and to decrease distance between them. But she kept hoping and praying, until she died and her hopes too, and you know why? He didn't come, because he was busy sleeping confortably on his bed.

-I like this prince, why he should wake up when his bed gave him so much satisfaction?

-idiot

-well let me tell you a story too, once upon a time, there was a princess, who had the particularity of talking, she talked all the time, all the time, you know bla bla bla, she talked day and night, she talked if it's raining or shinning. She talked so much that her assembled had put earplugs and nodded to her non-stop flow of words. It was her turn to huf. while she was walking one day, she came upon a prince and she began to talk to him, he was so tired that he decided to cut out her tongue, because he was disturbed during his nap.

-cut my tongue? Really? You are mean, leave me alone, just leave me, she struggled with all her force

-ok, fine, fine, you win, I will wake up, but let me tell you, if I am in bad mood, it will due to the lack of sleep. He sat on his bed, rubbing his eyes and yawned. I hope in future, you will not wake me up like this.

-it depend, she lifted one of her shoulders,

-it depend on what?

-how cute you are with me, Asad, she topped his nose, go and take a shower, I will prepare the breakfast, he let his shoulders and went back to bed, come on Asad miya, she held his wrist and he stood up, growling under his breath.

-ya Allah, from this man, she shook her head.

She went to the kitchen opening all the cupboard to explore this new place, soon to be her. She put jam, butter, some bred, she prepared coffee, and put orange juice. Finally, when she was satisfy, she looked at the table, proud of herself, for preparing for him, as it was their first breakfeast as couple. She called him but didn't answer back, she rolled her eyes, expecting to see him sleeping. He was going to have a lecture from her, she barged to his room and saw no one. She only heard the sound of the shower running, she felt stupid for being judgemental. She was about to leave, when she saw his shirt on the bed. She couldn't stop herself from smelling his scent, she took a deep inspiration, his smell was divine. She slidded her arms one by one in the shirt and bring the front into her nose, she stood in front of the mirror, looking at herself. She smiled shyly at her, thinking about the occasion when she was going to wear his shirt. Her eyes closed and lost in her reveries, she didn't hear the ending of the shower, he stepped out and saw her wearing his shirt. He held in towel around his neck, holding each sight of it. He cleared his troath and she jerked. He smirked at her and took slow steps toward her, she felt her heartbeat knocking widely under her chest. He was only wearing his denin jeans and some drop of water rolling along his torso, even the towel around his neck, hid nothing from his chest. She knew that he was good looking man, but she didn't know that he would be so impressive and she felt her stomac knot, her eyes travelled along those lines, she wished to be those drop of water.

-can I have my shirt please ?

-huh?

-my shirt, he waved with his eyes

-No, she pouted

-No???

-you can take another one, I found this so I keep it, she held it possessively

-oh really ? But it was mine, Zoya

-not anymore, Mister Khan, by the way, I can see that your cupboard was full of shirt, you can take some and let me this

-No, I want this one

-you have to take it then, she teased him, she knew that he won't approach her, but little she knew him.

-Ok, he held her collar and started to unbountton it, her eyes widened and she smacked his hands

-Asad, what are you doing? She turned her front away from him

-I want my shirt, he held her collar and forced her to face him

-wait, wait, did you hear this? She froze and stayed quiet, Asad stopped in his track and spread his ear. Before he could answer,she pushed him and ran from his room.

-Miss Farooqui, he shouted annoyed at her.

He followed her in the kitchen and she spend running around the table, laughing at him.

-Miss Farooqui, stop acting like a kid and give me my shirt, she spat her tongue at him and he growled closing his hands in fist.

At one moment, she went away from the table and ran to the room, to lock herself but he was quick and caught her by her waist. She struggled, balancing her legs crazily, but he didn't let her. He turned her and held her firml by her waist.

-Got you, I want my shirt now, he opened one by one each button, aggressively, while she was still debating in his arms. He grabbed the collar and slidded it from her arms brusquely, forcing her wrist to be on her back. Both looked at each other, breathing loudly, and the skin on their belly moving back and forth against each other. Zoya could feel through her fabric, his abs knocking on her tummy and his chest aligned with hers. She was aware of their closeness and wanted to be closer as if it was possible. Asad lowered his eyes, exploring her face, her cheeks were red due the effort, and her eyes darkened with desire, his eyes bent down on her lips, crimson and bloody lips asking to be kiss. He was starving from her touches and her kisses, he was frustrated from yesterday.

-to hell everything

He crashed his lips on her hungrily and widely, he kissed her filling his thirst. He needed her and she needed him. She gripped his hair and pushed him more to deepned the kiss. Both were frustrated from not being able to touch, afraid to what they will lead them, but they didn't care anymore, they just wanted to be in each other arms, for the regret, they will have time to talk about and to deal with. The speed of the lips increased and the desire also, he slidded his hand on her bak under her shirt, going up to her brat. Her shirt moved up, letting no barriers between their fleshes now, she moaned when she felt his skin against hers. She let her hand moving along his torso, trailing her knuckles on his abs now. No one wanted to stop and both lost the lack of the space all around. Zoya heard something but she ignored it, she dive on and on, this time, she heard it a bit loudly than before, it was like a troathy sound. She smiled satisfy hearing his groan. But this sound seemed to be louder now and she stepped back

-Asad, stop doing that sound, I can't focus, she said against his lips and she kissed him again

-I...though...it...was ...you, he let each word between their small kisses

-No...It's...not...me, she responded throught their kiss

Someone cleared his troath exaggeratedly this time and both stepped back slowly, he looked above her shoulders and she saw his eyes widened.

-Ammi, he said shocked

Abbu, Miss Farooqui, replied Salim

-Ammi? Salim? Zoya whispered and she turned back abruptly, she turned brusquely and saw a beautiful and old lady standing there, holding Salim's hand. She got something familiar, Asad's eyes, she though, suddenly, she realized how they were. She jerked from him and adjusted her shirt.

-A-SAD, Dilshad's voice clearly was shocked, I see that you bring work at home, she said sarcastically looking at Zoya.

She bent down in shame, been caught by her mother-in-law in such situation. Zoya looked at Asad, begging him to save her, but he was no less in the mess. He whispered :

-I' m dead, I m dead