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This is my first attempt at writing an os on manan.
"Nandini I hate you." Though I had seen it coming all throughout, the words , his words still pierced my heart, hit me like I had been stabbed there mercilessly. I looked him in tge eye and saw just two emotions clear and loud- hurt and anger.
This time was not like the other one on the musicana night. This was a completely different situation.
He gave me a hard, passionately angry gaze as he moved two steps away and then turned about to leave.
No. No this was not happening. Surely this was a nightmare and I would wake up soon. or maybe I could just go back in time and make everything right. oh what would I not give to be able to do it.
I needed to talk.
"chale jao Manik. Lekin jyada dur nahi jaa paoge. Vapas lautkar mere paas hi aaoge." I repeated his words and as per the plan it worked. He stopped.
He turned to face me and gave me a smile that obviously did not reach his eyes. "oh really?" He raised his one eyebrow at me questioningly. "What makes you think that?"
This was it. My only chance and I knew I had to speak.
"Main jaanti hoon Manik jo maine kiya uske liye jitni bhi baar maafi maangu kam hai." I started.
"Agar main 24 ghante pehle ye baat bol rahi hoti to bhi i would not have been able to say it with so much of conviction. Lekin is wakt I main alag hoon aur hamara rishta bhi.
Agar baat 24 ghante pehle ki hoti to main tumhara haath pakad ke tumhe rok leti lekin is waqt main jaanti hoon ki maine wo haq kho diya hai. Isliye main tumhe nahi rok rahi.
Main tumhe sorry bhi nahi keh rahi hoon kyunki sorry ek bohot hi chhota shabd hai meri guilt feeling express karne ke liye.
Tum jaante ho jab musicana ki raat tumne mujhse break up kiya tha uske baad har raat I cried myself to sleep. Lekin aaj meri aankho se ek boond aansoo bhi nhi gir raha hai kyunki jo main is waqt jo feel kar rahi hoon wo ye tears bayaan nhi kar sakte."
All this while he listened standing like a statue. I did not have the courage to read his expressions.
"Main tumhe apni situation explain bhi nahi kar rahi hoon kyunki no amount of explanations or clarifications can justify what I said in the court. Trust me jis waqt mere muh se wo words nikle main us waqt se jaanti hoon wo galat the. Us waqt se jaanti hoon ki main galat hoon.
Main jaanti hoon ki tumhara gussa jayaz hai. main jaanti hoon ki main ye deserve karti hoon. Kyunki chahe kisi ne bhi mujhe koi bhi video dikhaya ho, kuchh bhi kaha ho, tum par se mera trust ek second ke liye bhi waver karna galat tha.
Meri safai mein main tumse sirf itna keh sakti hoon ki mujhe khud bhi nahi pata ki maine waisa kyun kaha jab ki video dekhne ke baad bhi mujhe laga tha ke tum galat nahi ho. I really don't know what took over me.
Mujhe pata hai ki tum mujhe maaf nahi karoge. At least not so easily but fir bhi Sorry. Chahe jitna bhi chhota lage lekin fir bhi..."
He walked away then. I saw his retreating figure and opened my mouth to stop him when I realised I had loat the right.
I really did not cry even after that because I needed to sort things out. I needed to see the real video and more importantly needed to win Manik's truat back. I would require a lot of strength for that and I did not want to waste any of it crying.
But there was one thing that scared me. I looked skywards folded my hands and begged.
"Aiyyappa pls Manik ko wapas darkness mein mat bhejna. pls Aiyyappa pls. bohot mushkil se usne ujala dekha hai pls use wapas wahan mat leke jaana jahan se maine use nikal ne par majboor kiya tha. Aiyyappa main uaka gussa bardasht kar sakti hoon uski takleef nahi. Uska achchhai par se bharosa uthta nahi dekh paungi main. Agar maine kabhi Manik se sachcha pyaar kiya hai to us pyaar ke liye hi sahi pls use rok lena."
THE END.
Honestly I wrote this coz m tired of seeing nandini crying her eyes out. Also she had to spelled her mistake by manik and I found it very disappointing of her.
p.s. Pls tell me if u like it. All comments good and critical are welcome. I haven't proof read so sorry for the mistakes.
This is my first attempt at writing an os on manan.
"Nandini I hate you." Though I had seen it coming all throughout, the words , his words still pierced my heart, hit me like I had been stabbed there mercilessly. I looked him in tge eye and saw just two emotions clear and loud- hurt and anger.
This time was not like the other one on the musicana night. This was a completely different situation.
He gave me a hard, passionately angry gaze as he moved two steps away and then turned about to leave.
No. No this was not happening. Surely this was a nightmare and I would wake up soon. or maybe I could just go back in time and make everything right. oh what would I not give to be able to do it.
I needed to talk.
"chale jao Manik. Lekin jyada dur nahi jaa paoge. Vapas lautkar mere paas hi aaoge." I repeated his words and as per the plan it worked. He stopped.
He turned to face me and gave me a smile that obviously did not reach his eyes. "oh really?" He raised his one eyebrow at me questioningly. "What makes you think that?"
This was it. My only chance and I knew I had to speak.
"Main jaanti hoon Manik jo maine kiya uske liye jitni bhi baar maafi maangu kam hai." I started.
"Agar main 24 ghante pehle ye baat bol rahi hoti to bhi i would not have been able to say it with so much of conviction. Lekin is wakt I main alag hoon aur hamara rishta bhi.
Agar baat 24 ghante pehle ki hoti to main tumhara haath pakad ke tumhe rok leti lekin is waqt main jaanti hoon ki maine wo haq kho diya hai. Isliye main tumhe nahi rok rahi.
Main tumhe sorry bhi nahi keh rahi hoon kyunki sorry ek bohot hi chhota shabd hai meri guilt feeling express karne ke liye.
Tum jaante ho jab musicana ki raat tumne mujhse break up kiya tha uske baad har raat I cried myself to sleep. Lekin aaj meri aankho se ek boond aansoo bhi nhi gir raha hai kyunki jo main is waqt jo feel kar rahi hoon wo ye tears bayaan nhi kar sakte."
All this while he listened standing like a statue. I did not have the courage to read his expressions.
"Main tumhe apni situation explain bhi nahi kar rahi hoon kyunki no amount of explanations or clarifications can justify what I said in the court. Trust me jis waqt mere muh se wo words nikle main us waqt se jaanti hoon wo galat the. Us waqt se jaanti hoon ki main galat hoon.
Main jaanti hoon ki tumhara gussa jayaz hai. main jaanti hoon ki main ye deserve karti hoon. Kyunki chahe kisi ne bhi mujhe koi bhi video dikhaya ho, kuchh bhi kaha ho, tum par se mera trust ek second ke liye bhi waver karna galat tha.
Meri safai mein main tumse sirf itna keh sakti hoon ki mujhe khud bhi nahi pata ki maine waisa kyun kaha jab ki video dekhne ke baad bhi mujhe laga tha ke tum galat nahi ho. I really don't know what took over me.
Mujhe pata hai ki tum mujhe maaf nahi karoge. At least not so easily but fir bhi Sorry. Chahe jitna bhi chhota lage lekin fir bhi..."
He walked away then. I saw his retreating figure and opened my mouth to stop him when I realised I had loat the right.
I really did not cry even after that because I needed to sort things out. I needed to see the real video and more importantly needed to win Manik's truat back. I would require a lot of strength for that and I did not want to waste any of it crying.
But there was one thing that scared me. I looked skywards folded my hands and begged.
"Aiyyappa pls Manik ko wapas darkness mein mat bhejna. pls Aiyyappa pls. bohot mushkil se usne ujala dekha hai pls use wapas wahan mat leke jaana jahan se maine use nikal ne par majboor kiya tha. Aiyyappa main uaka gussa bardasht kar sakti hoon uski takleef nahi. Uska achchhai par se bharosa uthta nahi dekh paungi main. Agar maine kabhi Manik se sachcha pyaar kiya hai to us pyaar ke liye hi sahi pls use rok lena."
THE END.
Honestly I wrote this coz m tired of seeing nandini crying her eyes out. Also she had to spelled her mistake by manik and I found it very disappointing of her.
p.s. Pls tell me if u like it. All comments good and critical are welcome. I haven't proof read so sorry for the mistakes.
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