The darkness swirled around her curled form on her bed,tendrils of inkling bleak reminders of her solitude. The silence echoing in her ears was the constant white noise that never shut up.Her head swam in the fire burning inside her,the only smouldering embers of a time when they were together. The void that he had left in her heart,was slowly being filled with a cold howling storm of fear,that refused to let her up She was completely and utterly alone in her mind , body and soul. An most importantly she was alone and incomplete if being complete; meant bein with him.
The moon was etched in the alluring night sky.
Aaliya wondered whetehr she'll be able to face him once again. Wrappign the duvet around her petite frame tightly,she pretended to sleep,when she heard the door creak. Was it her mother..once again trying to force few morsels of food down her throat..?Why couldn't everyone leave her alone,to mourn the loss of"
"Aaliya mujh epata hai tu so nahi rahi hai"Chal uth,khana kha le..Aaliya..."
Shabana Ghulam Haider,sat down besde her on the bed,and switched on the light.
"Ammi aap iss waqt.."She sat up straight,trying to avoid her questing looks..
"Kyun? Nahi aa sakti? Teen din se dekh rahi hoon main..tu na theek se kuch kha rahi hai..na bat kar rahi hai hum sab se..aur sabse badi baat..tu college bhi nahi jaa rahi hai! Kya baat hai Alaiya..apni ammi ko nahi batayagi..?"She tucked the stray hair behinf her ear,and tipped her chin upwards and made her look into her eyes.
If her silence was not stifling enough,then the bags under her eyes were enough to send Shabana into panic.
"Tujhe ho kya gaya hai Aaliya..?Apni kya halat banayi hai...?""
"Mujhe kuch nahi hua hai Ammi,main bilkul theek hoon.."She forced her parched lips to crack a smile..
"Main Zain ko abhi""
"Nahi!"
"Kyun Zain ke saath jhagda hua hai..?"
"Ammi mujhe uske barae mei baat nahi karni..main.."The tears whih she had been holding onto in ffront of the world,finally trickled down her pale cheeks,leaving a trace of her debilitating heartache.
Shabana looked at her expectatntly,hoping to find out the reason behind her tears,but the words wouldn't come.
And when the words would not come,the tears did.The mourning was supposed to be something disgniied and stoic,at least that is what Aaliya Ghulam Haider liked to belief,but she cried like a child,noisily,with running snot and choking sobs and for once she was not ashamed of it. Shabana pulled her ito a tight hug , offering her the little comfort that she could give.
"A-Ammi..Z-Z-Zain..he bro-broke u-up w-with me..."
"Par tum dono toh""
"Ammi hum na kabhi ek gthe..na kabhi ek ho sakte hai.."
"Aaliya mujhe bata yeh sab kaise hua..?"
"He kikissed S-Sanam..i-in f-front of the whole college..Ammi..he kissed her..and I just lo-looked on..I"aur uske baad..he said.that we can never be together..b-because we are different..Ammi sab kuch theek tha..fir yeh sab kaise ho gaya...?"
"tu pehle rona dhona band kar...aur yeh le pani pi.."She handed her the glass and continued." Main abhi Osman Bhaijaan koe ghar hone lagati hoon..Zaroor kuch galatfehmi hui hogi tum dono ke beech""
"nahi Ammi,aap aisa kuch nahi karenhi! Zian ne khud mujhse kaha hai that Zain Abdullah can never fall in love with mamu Ki Bhanji..iske baad main nahi chahti ki koi uspe dabao dale.."
"heek hai nahi karungi..par ek shart par.."
"Kaisi shart..?"
"Tu pehle bol tujhe shart manzoor hai ya nahi..?"
"Manzoor hai.."
"main call nahi karungi..par uske liye tujhe kall se college jani hogi..yeh hi shart hai..Aaliya tu aur kitne dino tak aise bad kamre mei pari rahegi..?"
"Pata nahi Ammi.."
"Aaliya duniya mei aur bhi bauhat saare ladke hai.."
"But they are nto Zain..and they will never be.."
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St. Xavier's College ,Mumbai.
(Canteen)
Three days. Three days of darkness.thre e days of tears and heartache.
When Aaliya Ghulam Haider stepped into the college canteen, she made heads turn, because no one had expected her to return so fast, considering the way she was humiliated and jilted in front of everyone.
But she was there with a new resolve,not to get back at Zian Abdullah,but to get him back.She had emerged out a stronger person,promising herself that she wouldn't cry anymore.But she felt her resolve breaking the moment her eyes met his acroos the room,when he walked in with his girldfriend in tow.
Maybe there's a reason why it is said that heartache is the worst form of ache,and she would have left,avoided him,had it not been for Ayesha,her best friend.
"Aaliya chup chap baithe ja,tu kahi nahi jayegi.Agar uss moron ko koi problem hai,toh who jayega"Aur mohtarma waise bhi-we need to plan our mission."Aaliya was not sure how much she had heard,what Ayesha had said,but she knew that if she didn't stop looking at their happy faces,then very soon her resolve would be in shambles.
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(fast forward-2 weeks later)
She felt it break,like a crystal vase falling onto a marble floor,her last shred of normalcy shattered into a million pieces,when she walked in on them making out on the couch in the common room,ehe same couch where they had made out numeral number of times.
In the past two weeks Aaliya Ghulam Haider had experienced something higher than jealousy.Maybe her presumptions ,that he was doing everything purposely,just to hurt her was wrong.Maybe he was really in love with Sanam..maybe she ahd lost her place in his heart fr forever..maybe that is why he was replacing her in his memories too..just the way he had found her replacement in his life..
Maybe they were not meant to be together..maybe he was right about everything..he was right all along..
And that was the first time she cried in two weeks, not because she had lost him to someone else, but because he was able to move one, when she was still stuck in her memories..
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(on the same day-outside principal's office)
The heads of all the clucbs were standing outside the principal's office ,waiting for him to hand tehm over the leaflet containing all the information regarding the prom night,when she overheard him..
"Arre tujhe puchna bhool gaya..you're going to the prom,right?"
She could feel his eeys on her..
"of course jar aha hoon Zubair..jiske paas Sanam jaisi hot girlfriend ho..toh who banda prom na attend karke kaise rahega..!"
Searing ,fiery bursts pulsated around the wound in her heart, intensifying with his each dragging word,as they escaped from his lips.
She wanted to run away from him,but her legs were wobbly,and that split second she was glad that Ayesha was there to take her away and not give him the pleasure of counting her tears...
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(library)
"Rehaan tum?"
"haan Aaliya-actually.."
"Are Rehaan why are you standing -here,you sit beside her,I have some important work to attend..I'll eb back.."She winked at them and left from there.
"Aaliya actually,I wanted to ask you out..for prom..."
Once bitten.Twice shy.Alaiya Ghulam Haider was not ready to put out her heart once again,but when she felt his eyes on her,she looked up,but only to find him placing a kiss on Sanam's cheek. Her vague imagination of Zain feeling jealous on seeing her with someone else,seemed mordant at the moment.
"You want me to go with you to the prom night..?"
"yeah.."he looked at her expectantly...
"Okay.."
"Can I hug you...?"
"yea.."
It felt strange to be in someone else's arms and have that person hold her tight. It was uncomfortabelt o say the least,because Aaliya Ghulam Haider once lived with the belief that eher body was designed to fit into his-just like a puzzle. Rehaan's back was facing him,when she looked up at him,her breath caught in her throat,because for a split second she saw what she found in her own eyes, ever so often ,when she saw him with Sanam.
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Khamoshiyan aawaaz hain
Tum sun'ne to aao kabhi
Chhukar tumhe khill jaayengi
Ghar inko bulaao kabhi
Beqarar hain baat karne ko
Kehne do inko zaraa..
He gritted his teeth when Rehaan placed his hand on her waist..when he was the only one who had the right to do it..or did..
The lady in his arm,was not Aaliya Ghulam haider,who would laugh even at the silliest of the jokes he used to crack,or just look at her lovingly..but a woman ,whose presence felt strange..she was a not a replacement..but just someone who would help him feel a little less lonely..
Khamoshiyan.. teri meri khamoshiyan
Khamoshiyan.. lipti hui khamoshiyan
Memories came hurling back into theirs..memories,the only thing that kept pulling them back..
His pain was an icy wind chocking the breath from his lungs and making a moose around his neck.its savage and bitter blast cutting right through his bones and gripping his brain in its freezing claws.There was a raw emptiness insid e him,bereft of everything apart from jealousy,hurt anger and sadness,that lay around his neck like an albatross,chokcing his senses,as he watched them sway to the music.
Beofre the thoughts could coherent in his brain,someone pushed her into his arms,Aaliya struggled to escape from his presence,but his grip was stronger compared to his puny efforts.
Kya uss gali mein kabhi tera jaana hua
Jahaan se zamaane ko guzre zamaana hua
Mera samay toh wahin pe hai thehra hua
Bataaun tumhe kya mere sath kya kya hua
Khamoshiyan ek saaz hai
Tum dhun koi laao zaraa
Khamoshiyan alfaaz hain
Kabhi aa gunguna le zara
Beqarar hain baat karne ko
Kehne do inko zaraa.. haa..
Khamoshiyan.. teri meri khamoshiyan
Khamoshiyan.. lipti hui khamoshiyan
She felt emotionally bankrupt. There was nothing left to feel,nthing left to say to the guy to whom she was just a small fragment of a long forgotten and replaced memory. He was happy with Sanam..who was she to ruin it..Sanam would be able to give him things she would never be capable of...
She was hurting..he was hurting her by his proximity..
Nadiya ka paani bhi khamosh behta yahaan
Khili chandani mein chhipi lakh khamoshiyan
Baarish ki boondon ki hoti kahaan hai zubaan
Sulagte dilon mein hai khamosh uthta dhuaan
Zain loosed his grip on her and she freed herself..the hate,pain ,anger and heartache was swirling in her eyes,while the tears flowed unrestrained.
"Aal-ya.."
She was gone...she had simply walked away and he had to let go of her...
Khamoshiyan aakaash hai
Tum udne toh aao zara
Khamoshiyan ehsaas hai
Tumhe mehsoos hoti hai kya
Beqarar hain baat karne ko
Kehne do inko zara.. haa..
Khamoshiyan.. teri meri khamoshiyan
Khamoshiyan.. lipti hui khamoshiyan
" A sad thing in life is that sometime you meet someone who means a lot to you only to find out in the end that it was never bound to be and you just have to let go.."
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(college garden)
She felt as if her lungs were slowly filling with water,as if there was just less space in them for the air. Inflating them felt like pushing weights off her chest. She sucked in the air,which seemed trickle. Yet she was standing in a rose garden on a pristine winter's evening. Idf the brids around her could sing and fly,why couldn't she..Why was it so hard for her to breathe..to see him with someone else..
She jerked away when she fet his presence near her.
"Tum yahan kya kar rahe ho..?"
"We need totalk.."
"there's nothing left to tak Mr. Abdullah..You had made everything very clear the day you kissed Sanam..the day you broke up with me..in front of everyone..and""
"You're not exactly mourning Ms. Haider..! You and Rehaan""
"hana main aur Rehaan..we're dating Zain..he's tehe beetr guy..he won't hurt me..he won't break my heart the way you did..and why am I even standing her eand talking to you..I "she was about to walk away,when he pulled at her hand,and twisting it gently behind her back,he anchored her to his chest.
"Yu're standing here..because you know that I care for you and I'll always care for you..no matter how far we are form each other.."
"par kyun Zain?Tum toh Sanam se pyaar karte ho na? Tune hi toh kaha tha that Zian Abdullah can never fall in love with Mamu Ki Bhanji..toh itne mahino se tumne yeh pyaar ka natak kyun kiya..taki tum mujh e neecha dikha sako..badla le saki Zain...you wanted to hurt me?"
"Shut up.."
"Kyun Zain..?"
"Aur jo tumne mere saath kiya?"
"maine kuch nahi kiya.?"
"You cheated on me.."
"What?pagal ho gaye ho kya?What they hell are you sayig?"
"Can Rehaan kiss you the way I used to..? Do you feel the same way when he ocuhes you Aal-ya..?"
"Zain please stop it..Allah ke khatir chup ho jao Zain.."
"Do you feel the same way when ..he makes l-love to you..when he makes you moan..do you even remember me,Aal-ya..?"
"SHUT UP ZAIN!! JUST SHUT UP! " she lifted her hand to cup his face..his lips were trembling and his voice was more pained than ever..
"I never cheated on you Zain..O -Zain look at me..who told you all of this crap..?"
"Rehaan.."
"And you believe him.."
"What was I supposed to do Aaliya..when he showed me pictures..I was angry,hurt..I felt cheated out of my rights..what can I do Alaiya if I care so much about you,that I can't see you with someone else..the mere thought of someone else touching you..holding ou..makes me feel sick..I wanted you to feel whatever I was going through..so I did what I had to.."
"You don't trust me..?"
"I do""
"Then kiss me Zain..and you'll know whetehr I still love you or not.."
"But we need to tell them.."
"I don't care about anyone else..I don't want to at this moment..so just kiss me Zain Abdullah.."
"Aal-ya I.."
"Just kiss me goddammit..!" AN dbeofre he could open his mouth to speak again,she had already slammed her lips down on him. Getting over the initial shock,he kissed her with eual fervor,gently nibbling at her lower lips,and evading the warm cavern of her sweet mouth.Her fingers entwined in the mass of black hair,puulign Zian closer to her body,making him feel what she was feeling...and it was only after few minutes that they pulled away..
"I love you idiot!"
"Tum mujhe I love you bolne ke time pe bhi idiot bulaogi.." He chuckled,holding her closer.
"haan bulaogi..kya kar loge?"
"Yeh.." he nuzzled her neck..it was in a moment that all the their negative energies had evaporated .
"Zain...I love you..I really do..and I can't""
"Shhh..I know...I love you too Mamu Ki Bhanji..."
"I want you.."
"here?"
She hit him lightly on the shoulder.."nahi pagal..bio lab mei ".
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(Same night-biology lab)
Aaliya cut him short with a kiss, biting his bottom lip gently before soothing it with her tongue.
"I'm hungry for you," she murmured, her voice husky with desire, "For this."
Zain let out a groan as my hands travelled down to his groin and stroked his erection from above his jeans. He was as hard as steel and she was so ready for him. Securing the front door, easily scooped her five-feet there inches -nothing frame in his arms. Aaliya giggled like a child as he carried her to wide lab work benches and she knew there was nothing they wanted more than a reason to be happy..
He laid her down and , turned on a dim light in order to keep them from fumbling in the dark. Aaliya sat on the bench to take off her shoes, her heart racing and millions of thoughts running through her head.. She looked up and saw him watching her intently.
"Kya hua?" she laughed, keeping the pair in one corner. Zain smiled and kneeled before her.
"Are you nervous?" he asked softly, taking Aaliya's hands in his. She discreetly nodded.
"Me too," he laughed and she laughed back. He kissed the back of her palms, and even when he was trying to be all loving and romantic, she could make out the raw desire in his eyes.
"I can't say how badly I want you," he whispered, looking into her hazel eyes, as he softly squeezed her hands, "You get me so aroused... But we'll take things at your pace. I just want you to be comfortable, okay?"
Alaiya wordlessly gazed into his eyes as he helped her to her feet. He was so tall and so strong, she could easily hide behind him and not be noticed. As his lips came down on her, she closed her eyes and savoured the taste of his mouth. His tongue courted her lips, seeking entry to her mouth. Alaiya had no answer to give him save one: drawing his tongue into her mouth, she licked and caressed it with her own, the knot of our tongues igniting a yearning in her body. Moaning softly as he licked his way into her mouth, she pressed herself even closer, rolling her hips against Zain's, feeling how aroused he was. It lit a fire between her thighs and her body trembled with anticipation. But as she felt his hands moving across her back and locating the zip of her dress, she immediately pulled away and lowered my face, gulping nervously.
"What's wrong Aal-ya?" he asked, putting a finger under her chin. She had never been naked before him. Yes, they had pleasured each other orally but clothes had never come off completely. She didn't know what he'd think; she believed hers was not the best body around and she did feel embarrassed exposing herself.
"mamu ki bhanji" Zain pulled her closer, "You are beautiful. You are perfect to me. You don't need to be embarrassed, okay? Here, look at me."
Alaiya obliged with a fleeting glance and it only made him smile.
He slipped off his jacket and unbuttoned his crisp white shirt ,as Alaiya stepped closer and kissed his chest. He leaned back against the wall and closed his eyes, sighing loudly. His bare torso was begging for her to explore its dips and sinewy curves and her hands did not hesitate as they dug into the muscles in his back, sliding down to let her fingertips flirt with the waistband of his jeans.
Alaiya flashed a devilish grin and dropped his boxer shorts to his ankles, where they bunched with his jeans. Lifting each leg in turn, he tossed the clothes aside and held me close to his body, snuggling his face in my neck. She was wanton and needy, and a loud gasp fell from her lips as she came undone under his ministrations, like a creature made of passion and fire.
Aliya lost herself into the sensations for a moment and he used the opportunity to unzip her gown and slide it down her shoulders, leaving her in her underwear. He pulled away for a few seconds, only to take in my body.
"You're beautiful MKB.."
"Tm mujhe iss waqt bhi MKB buloage...?"She looked up into his brown orbs..
"Yes Aal-ya.."without waiting another second, Zain unhooked her bra and pulled down her knickers, so quickly that it made her think he had more than two hands.
The state of being vulnerable in their nakedness seemed to remove the only barrier that had ever separated them- clothes. As he bent over her and gazed into her eyes, she realised that she could never be enough thankful for having a man like Zain in her life. Someone who had seen her naked soul and now, her gloriously naked body. As if he was born to be hers. He slowly leaned in and kissed her neck, tracing his tongue along her shoulder blades, as his hands explored her body. Aaliya squirmed, his warm touch making the wetness pour out of her. She had waited for this day for so long. As she felt his hands running all over her body and finding those places that made her throb and burn with desire, she felt a new sense of contentment within her. The one that comes from being so intimate with your one true love.
Aliya moaned, as he covered her with wet caresses, kneadingher breasts in his hands while her legs ran up and down his. She opened her eyes for just a while and she could swear he looked so hot with the sweat under his eyes. With every touch, every kiss, every lick, the fire raged through her body. She writhed beneath him, her fingers tangling in his hair, as he kissed her stomach, licked her navel, and moved down to her inner thighs, flicking her already sensitive c*** with his tongue.
"f**king hell Zain.."She sweared. "I need you..make love to me..please.."
He let go of her for what seemed like no time at all and when he was back he had the condoms in hand. She was aroused to the point of pain and so was he. Everything inside her was busting loose, and she was letting it go. They had held back for long enough. Not anymore. There was only the man she loved, and what was happening between them.
He clambered onto the table and hovered above Alaiya, aware of the pressure of his erection against her lower stomach like never before.
Pushing upward, Aaliya looked into his eyes as she trapped his erection between her thighs and moved in a way that he groaned, twisting against her.
He was on top of her in a flat second, covering her completely and pressing her down onto the hard surface . Alaiya liked how it felt to be beneath him. She giggled breathlessly as he weighed the entire length of his big and sturdy body against her small one, trapping her wrists on either side of her head, capturing her mouth in a kiss that didn't let either of them breathe for several long, wet minutes.
"Could you put one of those on, please? I don't think I can wait," Alaiya said, quite seriously, when their mouths parted.
Zain didn't have to be asked twice and lifted up, straddling her hips, letting her watch him cover the length of his shaft and stroking himself a few times as their eyes met. Her mouth was swollen from his kiss, her skin flushed. She slid my teeth over the edge of my lip as she lifted a hand and placed it over his, sliding up and down his length together.
"I'll be as gentle as I can," he hovered above her, "But if you're hurt or uncomfortable, just ask me to stop, okay?"
She smiled at his concern even though she was completely aware that it would take all control he had to stop himself from coming as soon as he entered her. He kissed her forehead, lifting her legs up over each of his shoulders and slid in slowly. He felt my nails digging into his shoulders.It was the desperation of being away from each other,the hurt,anger and disdain that followed..the misunderstandings,the heartache and pain..which seemd worse than any physical form,that was going to be dissipated..lost time being made up...Zain didn't know for how long he'd be able to maintain his composure and make slow love to her..
"You okay?" he stopped and looked down at her, "Does it hurt?"
It did. I had never had something that big inside me ever. But then she had never felt so complete,ever. She nodded her her no' and closed her eyes and arched ehr back as he started to move inside me, very slowly at first. "I love you so much Alaiya ..I'm in love with you..."he groaned, slowly building up a rhythm with her body. She fisted her hands and dug them into the bed, biting on her lips. As he thrusted into her, everything else seemed to disappear. She wasn't seeing or hearing any longer. She wasn't even aware of her own existence anymore.
What began slow and tender soon turned into wild abandon. Their bodies weren't listening anymore. He pounded harder and faster, driven by her moans and cries,and Aaliya was afraid that their noise would reach the prom taking place downstairs.. She was in ecstasy as he went at her with unbridled intensity and she grabbed onto his shoulder, hanging on for dear life. They were intoxicated with pure, animalistic lust. When he reached down and started to massage my c***, I could hardly breathe. The room was spinning around me.
"Oh God!" . He groaned and bit her neck, his body drenched in sweat, pummelling in her with all he had. She delighted in the sensations; locking him mercilessly between her legs, she raised her hips as best she could and bucked back, trying to keep up with his thrusts. It wasn't long before the blunt ache started to rise from her core and his grunts indicated he was feeling the same. Alaiya squeezed her eyes shut and grabbed his head, as she felt myself on the brink and it became impossible to hold back.
"I'm close...! Zainnn...!" hercries escalated.
Warm tears ran down her face and her body shook violently, as he kept thrusting relentlessly. She held on to him, as another orgasm took over her, and she screamed. Nothing mattered to her anymore. All she knew was the feeling of being whole from inside. The feeling of being complete. If this wasn't heaven, she didn't know what was.
. He held her and they moaned and writhed together, climbing to the paradise that they had just created out of their bodies. Tears kept spilling out of her eyes and down her face long after their orgasms had subsided and he just held her close, staying inside her until her body had stopped shaking. . Her eyes were still closed but she could feel his breaths on her skin.
"Aal-ya..tum theek ho?" Zain asked. His voice was raspy, the words laboured.
When Alaiya did not reply, he wiped a lone tear from her cheek and softly kissed her lips.
"I'm sorry..but am glad that tonight was our first...and I could be your first and you could be mine.."
Her eyes opened to find tears glistening in his beautiful dark orbs. Aaliya reached out her numb hands and entwined fingers with him.
"It had to be you Zain ," she murmured, her voice hoarse, "I could never see anyone else in this place except you."
He moved closer and wrapped her in his arms, as she snuggled against his chest and purred softly. The air brushed against our bare skin and it sent small shivers down my body.
"I love you, MKB," he sighed, contentedly.
"I love you too KitKit..."
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