i know u must be angry at me for discontinuing my works.
but im here to assure you that i will definitely continue after some time.
now this is my new work
if i get proper responses i will definitely continue
DEAR DAIRY,
Its December 29 2014 today.everyone in the world must be very happy and eager for the forthcoming year.people will look forward for this year to bring them more money,more happiness and what not.new year is the only festival that makes all people happy irrespective of the religion,caste or creed.i was also celebrating new year like other people did,until last year.i think new year doesn't bring happiness to all the people in the world.only lucky ones get such happiness.UNLIKE ME,yes you heard it right, im not happy.this new year is the darkest new year for me.it can only bring darkness to my life.
this is the important day in my life.you know why? Because today Im in the very important phase of my life.this phase is going to decide what my life is going to be.this one step is the one which is going to decide my future, my destiny, my everything.im confused, im feeling bad for myself, I feel angry at myself for dragging me to such a situation. I don't have a single person to share any of my feelings.its not like I have no one. I have three friends who can even give their life for me.but I cannot share this feeling with them.they will definitely scold me for my stupidity.they will be mad at me for telling them so late. I don't want to tell them, not anyone.let this thing get buried in my heart.my father asked me to tell my decision tomorrow morning.im not even able to think now.
Two days before, my father showed me a photo and told me that he has received a marriage proposal for me with that person, and he gave me two days time to tell my decision.now tomorrow morning I will have to tell my decision to my dad.Either I will have to do what my father says or I will have to wait for the person whom I love more than my life. yes you heard it right, im in love.i love him more than my life.i don't know why god created a person like me until I met him.only after I met him I came to know the meaning of my life.my meaning of my life is him.he is my world,because other than him I have nothing to think about.first I thought it was an infactuation,but I don't know when I fell deeply, madly, ethically, subconsciously,mathematically,scientifically fell in love with him.i love him more than my life. I love him more than a mother could love her child.im in love.BUT,IT'S A ONE SIDE LOVE. Yes, Im in love with the person who don't even know that a girl like me is also living in the same world as his.
When my friends would talk about one sided love, I used to laugh at them and mock at the heros of one sided love story. But now Im feeling the pain now.it really hurts to realize that a person whom I love doesn't love me back.love? Im sure he doesn't even know my name.but also there is a weird pleasure in loving someone who doesn't love you.i didn't had the courage to confess my love to him.i didn't even had the chance to say hi to him.sometimes pleasure and sometimes pain. What kind of thing is this love? How can a sweet thing like love can give such an uncontrollable pain to people? Is loving a person is such a crime?
Dear cupid, I beg you please strike us both ,next time.
~maanvi chaudary
character sketch will be posted soon
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