Praja ss - the lost love - Last part 7/10 pg 5

I am very upset about what happened and how our Praja were separated before leap. but then i got this scene in my mind and wrote it down.

please note that it is not my best work and its more of the ramble. but i hope you will give it a chance.I was not sure if i should post this but then i realized that i should post it. I wanted to read a FF relating to the current story line and couldn't find it. so i am sure there are others. And although its not as good as some of the others, its still something. 😊

Part 1

Ajabde went away from my life. That is not the truth. It was my father and my family who blamed her; blamed her to drive my mother out of the palace. All this was done whilst, I was standing there not being able to say anything. I was in shock, I didn't know what to do and who to believe.

My heart told me that my Ajab can never do such a thing. But my mind told me that she is the reason my mother is not with me.

The result of this battle between my heart and mind was that my Ajab was sent back to her parent's house and I could not do anything. I did not hear anything or knew anything that was going around me after that.

But I could not silence my heart, and hence was determined to solve this puzzle. I needed to hear it from my mother. Only then will my heart listen and be convinced that it was really Ajabde who drove my mother away.

I needed to hear the exact words spoken by Ajab to my mother, and hence I left the palace in search for my mother.

After two years I was finally able to track my mother down in Vrindavan. I apologised on my wife's behalf and requested her to come back.

But what she told me snatched the earth from beneath my feet. My heart was right. I was filled with guilt and unable to understand how I will ever face Ajab again.

Now as I have finally convinced my Ranima to come back with me, we are heading back to Chittor. I have decided that after making sure my mother is safely in Chittor I will go straight to Bijolia and bring back my wife.

MY wife - it sounds so nice. Finally after two whole years, I am feeling the same excited happy feeling to meet her. I know I will be able to bring her back. And then I will never let her go away from me. No matter what. I told her that she is after my ranima, but today I realised that she is as important as my matrubhomi and my ranima. I cannot afford to loose any of them.

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Who is that I can hear. I ask the soldiers to guard the tents and go towards the voices. I can see that these are the Mughal soldiers. How could I forget them? Jalaluddin had promised me to come back. Had they attacked Merwar?

"Bijolia?"

Every thought and moment froze as I heard the name. I moved closer to see what they were talking about.

"haan, Bijjolia, woh hi chota sa rajya, jo Mewar ke adhin hai. Wahin ki rajkumari hai. Kuch ajeeb sa naam hai uska."

"lekin janab ko usme kya dilchaspi hai?"

"aree tuje nahi pata, woh hai to sadharan, lekin uski shaadi Mewar ke Pratap se hui hai"

"Kya, Pratap se? Subbhanallah."

"Haan, lekin bechari ko mahal se nikal diya gaya hai. Aur suna hai ki bahaut dukhi hai"

They started to laugh

"Aur yeh bhi suna hai ki ve yehi vrindavan mein ayi hai. Lekin uske pita ne uske saath na to koi sena bheji, nahi koi suraksha."

"Accha hai na, aabb bas use pehchan na hai"

"aree janab ne use pehchan liya hai, aur usike peche gaye hai, lekin badi tez hai yeh ladki, bhag kar pahadiyon ki taraf gayi hai. Lekin janab pakad hi lenge. Aur phir..."

They laughed more.

I could not control my anger and killed them all. After that I ran towards the tents and got my horse to go towards the hills and help Ajab.

Just as I reached the area I saw a girl running from some men. But it was far and hence I sped up. I saw that the girl was running up a hill and the men were closing in on her.

I knew this was Ajab. My Ajab. Hence I sped my horse to full speed. But before I could reach them Ajab had reached the top and could not go further.

She only had two options, either to get caught, or to jump in the deep valley.

But before I could do anything, she decided to jump.

"AJABDEEE"

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Index

Part 1 - see up

Part 2 - Page 1

Part 3 - Page 3

Part 4 - Page 5

I woke up with a start, I was in my bed, in the tent. Just outside the border of chittor. My mother ran in and asked what happened. So I narrated the entire dream to her.

She told me that they should go to Bijolia first and check if everything is ok. I agreed and we set out towards Bijolia.

--

After reaching JB asked MMji about Ajab.

"Naam mat lijiye uss bajaat ka. Kalank hai ve humare jivan ka. Pehle ve apne judva bhai ko nigal gayi. Unke vivaah pe hume laga ki shyaad hum galat the, lekin nahi, unhone aapka apmaan kiya. Aaj hum itne sharminda hai ki hum aapse maafi magne ke bhi layak nahi hai. Lekin phir bhi agar ho sake toh hume maaf kardijyega."

But before JB could say anything MM ji continued.

"Aap fikar mat kijyega, humne use dand diya hai."

"Dand?" JB was shocked

"haan, uske jaisi manhus ladki ko iss rajya se toh nahi nikal paye lekin iss mehel me uska koi sthan nahi. Ve aab gaun (village) me rehti hai. Apni liye khud dhan ekatha karti hai. Aur khud khati hai. Usne aapka apan kar ke, Mehal mein rehne ka adhikar kho diya hai"

"yeh aapne kya kiya? Apne bina saach jane aisa kaise kiya apni beti ke saath?"

"Arthat? Unhone aapka apan kiya hai Maharani ji. Isme aur kya janna hai?"

"Ajabde ne humara koi apan nahi kiya hai. Ve toh humse mili bhi nahi. Yeh ek shadyantra tha, Ajabde aur Kuwar Pratap ko dur karne ka. Aur humare patra ko badal diya gaya tha."

Saying that JB explains everything and then turns to Pratap whilst telling everyone how he looked for her. But she could not find him.

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My Ajab was forced to leave the castle, she was forced to find food for herself. How could I do this to her? I had promised to be by her side and protect her. She is my responsibility. So how can I do this to her? Why did I not make her come with me to look for Ranima.

I slowly left the scene as my mother explained the situation, I didn't care why it happened. The fact was that in all this schemes, Ajab was hurt the most. I had to find her, I had to apologise. I will give my entire life to make sure that she is treated well. But most of all, I have decided that I will not go back to the mahal that insulted Ajab and my Ranima. I will not go back to the palace of Chittor. I will be in Mewar, as it is my duty, but I will live in a different place with my Ranima and my Ajab.

As I was thinking this, I saw Saubhagyawati. I asked her to tell me where is Ajab.

"Kuwar Pratap, hum apka sanman karte hai, parantu yadi aap humari sakhi ko aur kuch bura bhala kehne aye hai to chale jaiye yahan se. Unhone bahaut kuch saha hai, aur hum ab unhe aur pida nahi dena chahte hai. Khshma kijyega, lekin hum apko nahi batayenge ki Ajabde kahan hai."

But after I explain that I didn't want to hurt her, but wanted to apologise; she agreed to take me to Ajab.

We went to the village where I saw an extremely poor lady, who was very frail, but was still trying to get water from the well.

I looked at Saubhagyawati to ask her who was that lady. When she uttered a word that made me go numb

"Ajabde"

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I watched as Ajabde walked past us, as if we didn't exist. The entire day I observed her and couldn't stop tears from my eyes.

I met her and begged for forgiveness and asked her to come home. Even my Ranima and her parents requested her to come back. She agreed and it was decided that we will leave after two days.

I had spoken to my Ranima about not going to Chittor and she agreed.

I had sent a message to my father and he had come to take us to Chittor. But after our refusal, he had agreed and told us to live in a smaller palace, until then he will get a new palace and new city built for us. This will be some miles away but still in Mewar. We agreed to go to small palace and my father escorted us there. He had made all the arrangements and sent dasis and soldiers to secure the place.

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As I walked towards my Ajab's room, I remembered all the moments we spent together. All our silly fights and our love. I remembered all my dreams to have Ajab with me. I remembered our hug just before I left for war. How perfect that had felt.

My dream of spending some time alone with my Ajab, my wife. I knew that now I can live those dreams, as she had forgiven me. so easily she forgave me. but now I will make sure that I give her so much love that she will forget her pain. I will give her all the respect and love she deserves as my wife.

His wife that sounded so nice... As I thought that, I went back to the brief hug they had shared before his departure, I remembered how nice that felt. How perfect that felt. As if he was born to be in that place, in her arms. It felt as if nothing else mattered. Hence he had broken apart very quickly as he knew that if he stayed in that embrace for a second longer, he wouldn't be able to go.

But his praja had depended on him, his duty was calling him and hence he had to go at that time. If that was not the case, he had planned to not let Ajabde go away from his sight even for a second. He wanted to be with her for the entire night. He didn't know what he wanted to do, but he just needed her there. He hadn't understood his restlessness at that time. Even though Ajab was still infront of him, he had felt a sort of restlessness. He didn't know what he wanted, but after that hug, he realised what was it that he needed. He needed Ajabde in his arms. He just wanted to hold her, hug her and hear her sweet voice all night.

He hadn't forgotten how she had called him by his name after so much hesitation. Although she always called him Kuwar Pratap, but somehow, hearing her call him only Pratap made him happy. For him, his name had never sounded so beautiful. He just wanted to keep hearing her say his name.

If this was the feeling of getting married to the love of his life, he just wanted to live in this moment forever.

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As he entered the room, he found Ajabde, sitting near the window lost in thoughts. He felt, that now that they were finally alone, he should apologise again.

"Ajabde, aap humare saath chalne ke liye raazi ho gayi, isse se hum behad prasan hai. Parantu hum phir bhi aapse maafi mangna chate hai. Hume khsma kar dijye Ajabde. Jo bhi hua usme aapka koi dosh nahi tha."

"Humne aapko maaf kiya Kuwarji. Baar baar humse kshama mangna aapko shobha nahi deta. Aur jahan tak, baat humari aapke saath chalne ki hai. Toh yeh to humara farz hai. Bindani hai hum apki, aur phir yeh ranima ka aur humare mata pita ka aadesh bhi hai. Unke aadesh ko na man na unka apmaan hoga. Aur hum kabhi bhi unka apan nahi kar sakte."

As he heard that he realised how much pain Ajabde had hidden in her heart. He realised that although she had agreed to come with him, and although she was breathing. His Ajab had died. He had lost that beautiful bond of love and vishwas they shared. His love was lost.

Although she had not really jumped from the cliff; he had lost her.

He just hoped that as years went by, he would be able to win back her trust and her love. He was willing to give as many years as that took.

ok chalo i will write more on how Pratap convinces His Ajab and the foundation of Udaipur 😉

Is it the Harry Potter writer in the house...

ooo!!!!

so...into writing PrAja, aren't we?? ;)

we're on the same ship now...

anyways...i'm bubbling with excitement to read ur thing...

i dont have time as of now...but will surely do it really soon...

oh...i'm so happy...the HP writer is here in MP...whooo-hooo!!!