ARSHI FF: My First Love ...~THREAD 2~Link of thread 3 on pg 146 - Page 24

I released my Hand from his grip and left his room .

I got down and stepped inside the dining place.

I settled myself comfortably . I served a sandwhich and took a sauce cup .

Arnav sat next to me . Uff .. This guy ,. How shameless he is ?? He needs me ?? I could have slapped him then and there .

Ramya was calling me continuously . So I finished my dinner quickly and went to the poolside to tell her all this .

Khushi : Raamu .. Don't know what's happening yaar .

Ramya : Khush relax . First tell me what happened ??

I was about to tell her when I felt a strong pair of arms circling around my waist . I cut the call and struggled to get my self free .

Arnav : You are looking breathtaking in this .. I feel to have you now itself .

Khushi : Chi.. How cheap you are Arnav .. Chi ..

I have to leave this place .

He is not letting me move !!! He dragged me by my waist and hugged me . Scuffle is what my brain commanded .. So I am doing it ..

Arnav : You know what ? You gifted me with 2 birthday gifts ... One is that wrist watch and the other ... You are calling me by my name !! Thank you . Thank you so so much .

I kept scuffling .. But he wouldn't leave me ! ..

Somehow he left me .. I went back to my room ..

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Slowly slumber took over me .

NEXT DAY

I got up early and wore the red churidar which Amma sent . I headed to the kitchen . Anjali bhaabhi just arrived . I started to help her ..

Anjali : Khush go and see of Shyam ji came down stairs or not .

Khushi : Ji bhaabhi

I was making my way to the hall when I collapsed into Arnav . This time I hugged him . I

Lifted my phis .. I again lost myself in his eyes and I felt a soft music playing like yesterday which seems to be familiar . It is the same tune I heard in my dream when I was in 9th .

Anjali : Chottey !!!

I left him , he too left me .

Though I am working in the office I'm thinking about the happenings of yesterday .

Soon the evening arrived .. All the staff is leaving but Pam , Sim , me , Aman and Arnav will leave at 8.30 as we have important work still pending .

Pam : Khush this file needs ASR's signature .. Only 2 files are left I'll manage to do it as soon as possible .

I took the file and made my way to Arnav's cabin . I was about to knock but I heard my name . I thought this is the best chance to find out the truth. So I decided to listen ..

Aman : Are you mad Arnav ?? You got such a wonderful chance to express your love to her but you missed it

Arnav loves me ? This is shocking though I expected it earlier .. Tears made their way along my cheeks . Arnav loves me ..

Arnav : I know Aman .. But I'm afraid what if she denies .. I can't bear it .

Aman : Be positive !! May be she won't . Common tell her what all happened from our childhood .. What you felt .. Everything .. Why you ignored her , why you changed ...

Arnav : No Aman .. She will not simply accept the fact . I got your sister Lavanya into the scene just to make Khushi jealous . But she was happy . Nothing even pricked her heart .. If she loves me it doesn't happen !! See I can't bear any man feeling anything for my Khushi ..

Aman : Stop thinking like that . Just say it off , don't drag it . I know you want her in your life very badly . So propose her .

Arnav : I'm feeling helpless Aman . .. Helpless is what I feel .. Whenever I see her I feel like hugging her , kiss her and do everything with her ... But she doesn't even like my touch . She just hates it ..

I belted along the room and placed the file on the table . I started to run out .

Aman : Khushi !!

Arnav : When did you come Khushi ?? Khushi ... Khushi wait !!

I got down the stairs and took my bag ..

Arnav : Khushi wait let me explain don't go ..

I started to run more faster . I reached the exit .. It is raining but do I care ?

Sobs are escaping from my mouth .. I don't know what I am doing .. I don't know what is happening ?? I don't know .. I don't know anything ..

I heard a horn sound of a car and I got rooted to the place .. I couldn't move .

I felt one strong arm circling around my waist . He lifted me and turned around

I clutched him as hard I could .. I am scared ... What if the car crashes me ?? What will happen to Amma and bua ji ?? I clutched him more tightly .

Then I realised that I'm hugging someone tight . I raised my head to see who it is . Arnav of course who else it cane be ??

I lost my self in his eyes .

" Helpless is what I feel .. Whenever I see her I feel like hugging her , kiss her and do everything with her ... But she doesn't even like my touch . She just hates it .. "

I pushed him .., and took a few step backward ...

Arnav : Khushi

Arnav : Khushi let me explain .. Pls let me explain .. Please listen to me .. Please .

Khushi : I'm not interested .

Arnav : Khushi please ... Let me start from the beginning ... Khushi the first time I saw you wasn't the time you first saw me .. I saw you in our 8th standard itself ... But I didn't feel anything .. I thought you are some innocent girl ... And I thought I shouldn't think of any other girl when I'm in relation already , But again when I saw you in my class in 9th , I felt you are a crazy girl too ... When I sat next to you I felt , you are much more than what I expected from you .. I always kept thinking about you , day and night ... I always wanted to talk to you .. Do you remember ?? I was the one who always started the conversation ... Because I felt good talking to you ... Then when our places were changed Swathi told me that I was changed .. I am not talking to her as I would ... I am not the same Arnav .. Then I realised ...

Khushi : I don't care !!! What ever it was .. Leave it because I don't want to know anything more..

Arnav : You have to listen Khushi ... You have to

Saying that he continued ...

Arnav : then I realised that something is wrong with me and it is all because of you . So I started to ignore you but something always attracted me . I didn't know what it was .. I was in relation with Swathi but I never even thought of her after meeting you . She didn't even exist for me . And we entered our 10 th and I got to know about your feelings for me . I decided to ignore you .. Because I don't worth your love , you deserve a man better than me who can love you with his whole heart ... You should be his first and last love ... So I wanted to Show you that I'm not single .. That is why I intentionally hugged Swathi in front of you . I used to talk to her in front of you ... Then Aman told me that I'm thinking too much about you .. I too felt the same and thought to erase you of my mind , my heart .

He stopped and closed his eyes .

Opened his brown eyes and

Arnav : I couldn't do it .. On the teachers day when I saw you talking so happily with Aman .. I didn't like it , you never spoke to me like that .. Never .. We only used to talk in class .. But with Aman you talked to him in the auditorium , cracking jokes with him which I didn't like ... I then understood that I don't just like you it is something more than that . I told this to Aman and di . They told me to share the same with you . But I didn't want to .. Because you are pure , you deserve everything in the world ... I am not the one for you . I don't deserve you .. I always could see the love for me in your eyes .. My friends kept telling me that even you triedyour level best to stay away from me .. I was hurt .. But I pretended to be happy .. But I wasn't ... Those days were miserable for me ... On your birthday when I wished you didn't even bother to thank me ... I was broken that day ...

I started to shiver .

Arnav : Khushi come let's go inside you are shivering ... Wear this coat.

He opened his coat and offered me to put it on .

Khushi : I don't want anything from you Arn ... Sir .. Nothing ..

I started to go away from the place but Aman's car stopped in front of me . I looked back at Arnav who was staring me .. I stepped inside .

Aman : Khush put on this shawl Khush ... You will feel better ..

He turned on the car heater . I'm feeling better ..

Khushi : Thank you .

Aman : Khushi you heard everything right ?

Khushi : Hmm ...

Aman : Khush he really loves you and needs you very Badly in his life

.

Khushi : Aman I seriously don't want to talk about him . Please .

He simply nodded .

He dropped me home and I waved him giving back the shawl ..

I knocked the door and bua ji opened the door .

Bua ji : Haaye Nanda Kishore . What have you done to yourself ? Garima have a look at this mad girl ..Andar aaja .

I stepped inside .

Amma : Khush beta yeh kya hai ?

Khushi : Amma kuch nahi hua . [ Amma nothing happened ]

Bua ji : Garima first give her some hot soup . And you Sanka Devi . Jaa jake nahalo Garam pani se . [ And you Sanka Devi . Go and bath with hot water ]

I exited to my room and had a hot shower bath which relaxed me . I wore my night salwar suit and drank the hot soup . Now I'm sure I won't catch cold .

Khushi : Amma I'll help you .

Amma was making bread omelettes . May be she got to know that I will drench in the rain . This is what is called telepathy !!

Just then the bell rang .

Khushi : I will check who it is .

I opened the door only to find Arnav .

Arnav : Hey Khushi .

He said with a small cute smirk and hands folded . He is examining my neck . I too looked down and found out that I didn't wear my dupatta . I was about to close the door on his face . But bua ji came there on time .

Bua ji : Arrey Arnav bitwa !! When did you come ? Aye Khushi apni boss ko aise bahar kade rakogi ka . [ Aye Khushi , you will make your boss stand out side like this ]

Khushi : Andar ayiye [ Come inside ]

He stepped inside .

Khushi : Why did you come here ?

I asked him with my hands folded .

Arnav : You didn't let me complete in the office . So I thought I'll complete it in your house .

Khushi : What ?

Arnav : About Mr . Singhania's designs Khushi . What did you think ?

Khushi : Ahh .. Umm .. Voh .. Nothing ..

He smirked .

Bua ji : Aye Paagal , first ask him if he wants something or not !! What happened to your manners ??

Why is bua ji not understanding that this man doesn't even deserve anything from me ?

Amma : Kaun aya hai Khushi ? [Who came Khushi ? ]

Amma came outside the kitchen and saw Arnav .

Amma : Arrey Arnav . Aao beto . Kuch loge ?

Arnav : Nahin Aunty . Main Khushi se Milne aya hoon [ no Aunty . I came here to meet Khushi ]

Amma : Koi baat nahi beta . Ab toh hum rishteydaar bhi hai . Tum jab chaho tab aasakte ho . [ It's ok son . Now we are relatives too . You can come whenever you want ]

How can Amma even say that ? Now he will take advantage of it .

Arnav : Sure Aunty .

He said With a wider smirk .

Arnav : Khushi let's start ??

Khushi : What ?

Arnav : Discussion ! Let's discuss in your room . It takes a lot of time . Where is your Laptop ?

Khushi : In my room ..

I led him to my room and he closed the door .

Khushi : Ha ?? Yeh aap kya kar rahe hai ? [ Ha ? What are you doing ? ] What will Amma and bua ji think if you close the door like this .

Arnav : As if I care !!

Saying that he hugged me .

Khushi : Leave me .

Arnav : You know what ? When you hugged me in the rain , I felt something . I loved that feeling . Maybe it happened because even you willingly hugged me .

Khushi : Shut up Arnav .

Saying this I pushed him . I took the dupatta which was lying on my bed and put it on .

Arnav : Take it off .

Khushi : Chi . How shameless you are Arnav ?

He came extremely close .

Arnav : I still didn't show how shameless I can become !!

Khushi : Why are you doing all this ?

Arnav : For you .

Khushi : You are crazy !!

Arnav : For you . Whatever I do will be for you . Only you . Got it ?

I am about to push him but I lost my balance and we both collapsed on the bed .

My heart beats started to rise and breathing became abnormal .

I struggled to get rid of his grip but he is too strong for me . And he is so heavy for me to bear all his weight .

Khushi : Get off me

I managed to say .

Arnav : No

Khushi : Please .

He raised a bit and pulled me over him .

I started to get up but he clutched my waist so tightly .

The air is getting thicker for me . I can't bear this close proximity . Never !

I somehow got up and turned to the other side .