Ramans rambling thoughts..OS

hello there everyone!! ahem... I have tried my hands on a lil (very lil) fanfiction!! I am not very good in writing, but still after reading so many brilliant fanfictions i thought, ek try marne main harz kya haain!! Oh, another thing, my mother toungue isnt Hindi, so there might be some 'thi, tha' problems.. I am bengali basically 😃!! My fanfiction is basically about Raman's thoughts just after the showdown with Ishita in 7th july's episode!! i thought of this yesterday night, but couldnt properly pen my thoughts down...

It might not be very good ( i m very skeptical about posting it), however plz do comment.. thanks..

shalz😊

Raman's rambling thoughts..

Stupid Stupid me!!! How could I mess up so royally!! Mujhse tumhare shawal shehen nahi ho raha tha, Ishita!! Har ek baat chub raha tha!! Mere saath hi aisa kyun hota hain!!

Tumhare sawaal, tumhari ankhen!! Trust me, Ishita, I know how you are feeling! Mujhe tumhare upar chilana nahi tha!! But pata nahi kyun!! Woh kehete hain na, offence is the best defence'.. but that doesn't mean, I am trying to justify my shouting!!! I am truly very very sorry!! Shayad mujhe tumhe peheli hi sab bata dena chahiye tha! But aab shayad batauga bhi to tum gusse main kuch aur hi samaj logi.. Main jitna koshish karta hu ki sab kuch thik kar du, main utna hi daldal main phasta ja raha hu! Aur main kuch nahi kar pa raha!!

Tumko lagta hain ki main yeh Shagun ke liye kar raha hu!! You cannot be more far from the truth. Sach baat to yeh hain ki main us aurat se shida mu baat tak nahi karna chahata! Us din tumhare kehene se I decided ki tumhare request ki main respect rakhunga.. But yeh baat Shagun ki nahi haain.. Mera beta Adi.. Mujhe kuch nahi samajh aa raha haain ki main kya karu.. Adi mera kamzori hain..mujhe pata haain.. but firbhi main kuch nahi kar pa raha..

Please Ishita! Tum mujhe nafrat se na dekho.. Main tumhe bata nahi sakta, tumhara mujhse nafrat karne ke bare main soch kar hi pata nahi kyun mera jaan nikal jaa raha haain.. pata nahi chala kab, kaise tum mere liye ruhi ki ma se zyada ho gaye!! Yeh kya hain..dosti, izzat, pyaar main nahi janta.. bas itna janta hu ki main tumhari nafrat nahi shehen kar pauga.. main tumhe aapne side main dekhna chahata hu.. mere khilaf nahi.. But halat to dekho.. aaj tum mujhse bahut dur lag rahi ho!!

Stupid me!!

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Originally posted by: _Dipsi_

Wow.. awesome writing

Originally posted by: dhaakshu

I think your hindi is actually pretty good.

And i'm feeling those emotions.

You've written up his thoughts really well. 👍🏼

Awesome work.👏

Originally posted by: posterity

very nice...nd u say u r not a writer 😊👏