~ABHI NAHIN AANA~ THREAD 6 - Page 54

"Ana..shut up...", Geet grumbled hearing her speak all the nonsense.

"shall we go?", like he understood she wanted to speak to him alone.

"umm..", she nodded meekly and walked beside him, slowly, taking baby steps. She was still limping a bit and the next moment she knew her feet dangling in the air while Ana whistled loudly, seeing him carry her out to the car.

For Ana it was all so dreamy...and so cute that even she wanted someone like maan to pamper her. she giggled at her own thoughts and got back to doing her assignment. But for Geet, it was embarrassing...especially in front of Ana but her insides were just wobbling... not that he was carrying her but for the fact that she had seen their picture together and she was very sure that there must be some story' behind. Haiyeee...she was so pink pink as he slowly made her sit in the car!! She did nothing but kept fiddling with her dupatta throughout their journey.

Maan noticed her quite restless, "kuch baat karni hain tumhe?"

[you wanted to talk something?]

"umm...", she jumped hearing his sudden voice and then added meekly, "nahi... kya hum uss din wale park chalein?"

[no..can we go that park again?]

Dusk had already made its stay on the sky and maan thought for a while. no one knew he was here with Geet and he would make sure she was hidden from people's eyes. He was glad that being a weekday there were very few people around. He helped her get out of the car, held her hand and slowly led her inside. ohh boy...if only her heart was a bird. The feelings she had felt those days intensified with the discovery of their past... this man... gosh they had been together ever since. She wanted to spend time with him and know everything about them. her smile was nowhere near fading her eyes fell on his hand holding hers so protectively, leading her!

He looked around and stopped at a quiet place away from people and turned to look at her. for some time he couldn't understand what that look meant... like she had been drawn into a spiral of woder and amazement... like it was for the first time A Gril' was looking at him...not even Geet Handa ever could achieve this in her life. her wide eyes, looking at him in so much awe...so much expectation..he felt elated to have his jaan this close but then he had his own fears. He didn't want her to get into anything that hurt her.

"Geet...", he called out softly.

"ji...", she spoke dreamily.

He almost blushed with that never ending gaze on him. I mean... no girl had ever been this girly to him! unable to say anything, he just managed, "lets sit here and talk..."

"umm..."

He was a little amazed to see her so lost today. Her jhumkas tinkling lightly with that breeze was distracting him...he was never used to having such stuffs around and nor did Geet handa. They both sat there for a while in silence...she was lost in her own thoughts and he was in her complete new look, that disturbing jhumka... uff and that nakhre!

"you wanted to tell me something?"

That did distract her. she immediately bit her tongue and looked at him cutely, "han ye tho bahut zaruri baat hain.."

[ya this is very important thing...]

"yes tell me jaan..."

Uff...she could fall flat on the ground right on her face...literally! the way he calls her... did he used to call her like this even then? Did he use to be so caring and loving with her even then? Who were they? How were they?

"Maan... mein kaun thi?", she asked very innocently.

[maan...who was i?]

Maan was surprised to hear that sudden question...she had been quite lost throughout.

"Geet...suddenly..."

"nahi..boliye..bas! mujhe janna hain...", she cut him in between.

[no...speak! I want to know]

He was indeed very surprised with her tone today, firm and demanding.

"you were The Geet handa... heir to all the property of the Handa group... the youngest businessman of the country... loved to challenge and accept challenges..."

She heard very carefully as he stood up, walked a few steps ahead and looked at the red sky.

"and who are you?"

He smiled, "well am the MD of Khurana Emipres..Maan singh khurana... and currently settled here in the UK...geet...what are you asking?"

"hum dono pehli baar kaise mile?"

[how did we meet for the first time...]

"what?", he was surprised to hear that sudden question and turned back to her. she seemed quite serious.

"kahan mile...kab mile... aapka aur mera rishta kaisa tha... kya humne shaadi kit hi... kya hua tha mujhe... uss din jab aapne pehli baar mujhe dekha.. tho asia kyun kaha tha ke aap mujhe kahin nahin jaane denge..kyun... " and she kept going on and on and on until maan had to stop her.

[where did we meet... when..how were we related... did we get married... what had happened to me... that day when you saw me for the first time why did you say you would never let me go...why...]

"Geet...geet...geet relax...what has happened to you today?", he shook her by her shoulders, trying to gain her attention.

He was scared that she might get to know everything one day and she wont be able to bear it. Yes, he didn't want her to know anything...not at least now. he had seen her condition with her not recognising nisha..or him... or anything. He didn't want her to know things that cropped up bad memories about her life... her father's death...their engagement... her loneliness... her accident... nothing. He wanted her to be like this...simple and without any bitter memories and seeing her asking all the stuffs by herself almost made him lose his calm. He felt her shake his arms, "maan...mujhe sab bataiye... please..."

[maan...tell me everything please...]

He breathed in sharply, "Geet... from where did you hear all this? Its getting dark..wont Sasha scold you for staying out without informing her?"

As much as he wanted her to remember everything, he didn't want to do anything that made her uneasy or made her condition worse. She doesn't realize but he had been researching on her condition for a long time and it did ask to let these people remember things on their own, with time and not burden them by telling them stuffs.

"nahi..tell me... no one tells me anything... maan..you have to..."

"I told what I had to Geet...theres nothing more..and marriage? Are you crazy? There was never such thing. We had met formally, thats it..."

Though it was true...and it hurt but yes, he just can't see her breaking down again.

"no..there must be a story... tell me..."

"Geet...", he tried to make her understand, "there is no story okay... relax please.."

She was getting irritated now...mostly due to her restlessness to know everything. She threw away his hands that held her, "no... you are lying. I expected you to tell me everything... but you are just like Sasha and others...hiding things from me..."

"they are also doing for your own good jaan... please...", he tried to hold her again and but she jerked him off yet again.

"Geet...listen to me...", he spoke a bit firmly.

"you have to tell me about us..."

He tried to hold her again and she jerked his hands away, making him mad, "Geet...ye kya bachpana laga rakha hain? Kaha na ye koi story nahin hain... kisi ki zindagi ka sawal hain samjhi... aur isi zid ki wajah se koi tumhe kuch bhi nahin batata... jab mana kiya hain tho koi tho wajah hogi na... ek baar mein samajh mein nahi aati baat?"

[Geet..stop this childish behaviour. Told you this no story...its about someone's life..do you get it? and just because of your stubbornness no one tells you anything... when someone had said no mean there must be some reason right! don't you get anything in one time?]

He screamed at the top of his voice and then stopped, seeing that rage filled eyes shedding tears. Ohh god... what did he do? Realization struck!! In order to save her from any misery, he went ahead and gladly shouted at her when she had come with so much hopes!!

He immediately knelt down and held her hands, "Geet...i..am sorry... I was just..."

She looked away from him angrily and closed her eyes, "mujhe wapis ghar jana hain..."

[I want to get back home..]

"Geet...", he could see tears rolling down her cheeks even with closed eyes.

"I want to go home...thats it!"

She got up angrily and walked towards the exit. He cursed himself for hurting this innocent soul. She was not that old Geet handa who would bite back the moment you said something... she was an innocent girl who came to know about her past. He watched her walking out and rushed towards her, "Geet stop... you can't walk properly..."

She turned back only to glare at him and then walked straight to the car and sat inside, shutting the door loudly. He immediately got into the car and she just turned away her face.

"Geet..am really sorry..."

"its getting late..."

"but listen to..."

She turned on the radio and pretended to sleep. Maan sighed...she was really very mad at him. sadly, he turned on the ignition and drove back home.

Ana was yet again surprised to see maan carry Geet inside. uff... even she wanted tobe carried by someone like this!! Dreamy!!!

"you people got back so early?"

Maan just faked a smile, "ya..she was tired and she slept off in car itself...wheres her room?"

Ana kept her thoughts to herself and pointed towards a door, half ajar.

"thanks...", maan mumbled and carried her inside. he settled her comfortable on her bed and pulled the duvet and thats when his eyes fell on something on her neck... his pendant! Ohh god...what did he really do!!! She actually wore it for him and he never noticed, rather shouted at her! he ran his fingers through his hair and realized this was the first time he was entering her room. Everything was nicely kept...like how she used to earlier...some streaks of her past still alive but something caught his attention on the wall near her study table. He took a closer look and was surprised to see pictures of him, nisha, Sasha, Ana and some of the office members with their names written below their pic and below them, a short description about the person and her relation with that person. They were stuck on the wall in an orderly fashion to remember things. ohh she must be going through so much and he just shouted at her! he hated himself for doing that to her...making her cry.

There was a book kept on her table. He pened it and realized it was the children's book on alphabets and numbers with bright pictures of apple, ball, cup...etc. his jaan is so innocent... she better not know anything that hurt her... he wont be able to see her sad yet he himself had hurt her today. He just pressed a kiss on her forehead and walked off.

She woke up in the middle of the night, feeling thirsty. She slowly got to her table to grab the glass of water when her eyes fell on maan's picture on the wall. She was instantly reminded of the happenings of the evening. she finished her water and grabbed her notebook. She opened a blank page and started writing.

"..there must be a story. No one tells me.. not maan too. But I won't give up Maan just wait and watch..."

okay here the song in Japanese that i used on the first page.

do hear it along with the translations...very beautiful with a deep meaning.

[YOUTUBE]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W9yAu5lhyeo[/YOUTUBE]

nagareteyuku hitogomi no naka
ushiro sugata zutto miteita
unmei no itazura de deaeta
kiseki wo dakishimete
kuzutsuite mo ii setsunakute mo ii
ima dake shinjite

[Standing amidst a moving crowd,
I'd been looking at your back.
The mere trick of fate that we met,
I embraced as a miracle.
I don't care if I'm hurt. I don't care if I must suffer.
Just once, please believe me.]

She took out the camera that she had kept very securely in her drawer and browsed for their picture. She stopped upon finding it and looked at her face carefully...she was smiling... and it looked so natural. She wondered what went wrong that maan didn't want to talk about. A story yet to unfold...probably a love story.

mogaite egaiteyuku koi monogatari
mienai asu tsuzurinagara
kodoku ni tatasumu toki

soba ni itai no
mayowanai you ni

[Struggling as I write this love story,
composing a tomorrow I cannot see.
I want to be by your side

when I'm standing still in loneliness.
So I won't get lost.]

she woke up quite early the next day, feeling so restless. She hadn't had a good sleep thoughout. She looked out..it was a bit chilly and misty. She freshed up, pulled on her soft white sweater and walked towards the lawn with her camera. She had thought a lot about her past the previous night but she could remember none. She switched on the camera and clicked a pic of a nearby flower.

"fla...fla...", she thought for a while and smiled, "flower..."

mimi ni nokoru anata no koe wo
mabuta tojite omoidashiteru
modokashisa ni tsukarete
dareka wo kizutsukeru no naraba
yasashii egao mo

mune utsu kotoba mo
wasuretai keredo

[As I close my eyes I recall,
your voice still ringing in my ears.
But if your kind smile and piercing words,
are meant to hurt me more,
when I'm already tired from the tantalizing wait,

I want to forget them all.]

mogaite egaiteyuku koi monogatari
hajimarazu ni owaru no nara
kokoro ni kagi wo kakeru

kanawanu koi ga
mezamenai you ni

[I struggle as I write this love story.
If it is doomed to end without even starting,
then I'll put a lock on my heart,
so this unrequited love would never surface again]

He had cursed himself numerous times for making her cry but what could he do? Could have told her the truth that she had considered their relationship platonic and that she broke their engagement? Could have borne to see that look on her face when he told her what exact;ly' they shared? Could she have even believed herself to be such a person who didn't care a damn about this would or the very fact that she was sexually harassed by someone only she knows of and unable to remember!!! It was probably better this way... this momentary pain was probably nothing in front of the pain she would have felt when he had told her the truth! It was indeed better this way.

omoi wo tsutaeraretara
hoka ni wa nanimo iranai
kodomo mitai ni sunao ni naku

watashi wo
anata no te de mezamesasete

[If only I could tell you my feelings,
I wouldn't want anything else.
Right now I'm crying openly like a child.
Could you please wake me to my senses with that hand of yours?]

She felt the corners of her eyes burn...realizing she just had a fragment f her memory about 'them' back. he had held her so tightly...lovingly and protectively then why was he denying the previous day? there was nothing wrong right... then why? He didn't seem happy when she asked about them... she looked up at the sky..but it was unclear due to the mist...just like her memories.

mogaite egaiteyuku koi monogatari
mou ichido koe wo kikitai
todokanu hodo ni tooku hanareteitemo
mayowanai you ni

[Struggling as I write this love story.
Even though you're too far away for it to reach me,
I want to hear your voice just once more,
so I won't get lost.]

"I will get to know everything...", she mumbled to herself, "jitney bhi tewar dikhane hain dikha lo maan..."

[I will get to everything...throw whatever tantrums you can]

She caressed his picture ever so lovingly, "I told you there is a story... and I was true."

She heard Ana calling her inside to grab her breakfast. She had one last look at their picture together, "you were there with me yesterday... you are there me now and I now you will be there with me tomorrow... just that I have to know myself..."

mienai asu tsuzurinagara
kodoku ni tatasumu toki soba ni itai no
futari itsuka sunao no mama deaeta nara
tsuyoku dakishimete

[Composing a tomorrow I cannot see.
I want to be by your side

when I'm standing still in loneliness.
If, one day, we could meet in honesty,
please hold me tight.]

she kept the camera in her pocked and rushed inside. and breakfast table saw something very unusual. Sasha getting quite grumpy! She was finding fault with something or the other...geet eat like this..ana behave yourself..and what not!! Geet and Ana looked at each other and then at Sasha.

"Sasha tum theek ho?", Geet asked meekly.

[Sasha are you alright?]

"yep...", Sasha snapped, "mujhe kya hona hain... aaj kal tho logon ka dimag hi kharab ho gaya hain... pata nahi kya samajhte hain sab apne aap ko.."

[what is going to happen to me... seems as if people have lost their minds these days... god knows what they think of themselves...]

Ana gulped down her pancake and dared to ask, "office mein sab ok na?"

Sasha was really getting irritated, "ya all fine... I am going to office. You better drop Geet at her physiotherapist and get to college. Don't slack off..."

She just left hurriedly, carring her bag.

"Ana... whats wrong with her?"

Ana shrugged, "god knows..but she was fighting with someone over the phone..."

"umm...may be office stress...", Geet nodded in understanding.

"or...", Ana spoke naughtily, "boyfriend issues?"

"cough..what??? boyfriend?", Geet choked, "do you think she has one?"

Ana thought for a while and shook her head, "may be... you never noticed but the amount of time she spends on phone and gets conscious when we get around..am sure madam is hiding something!"

"ohhh...i see..."

Before she could continue, Geet's phone buzzed with maan's name flashing on it.

First thing in the morning, he decided to call and apologize to her for that sick behavior of his. Ana eyed her meaningfully, "your date's calling!! Take he call..."

Geet rolled her eyes and disconnected it with attitude.

"diii... why did you disconnect?", Ana screamed.

Geet continued eating her pancake, " because am not talking to him..."

Sigh...boyfreind issues!!! Ana kept her thoughts to herself, "but why? You guys went out yesterday right...did something happen?"

"he fought with me..so I am mad...", she spoke stuffing her mouth with pancakes.

Ana rolled her eyes... Sasha and Geet and stuck... but how would it be like to actually fall for someone...like crazily in love!!!

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