PSH season 2: Episode 20 - NO COMMENTS PLEASE - Page 3

MS is in her room resting after lunch when she hears a knock and says come in

Amrita quietly opens the door, peek in with a tentative smile and says

Hello Naniji. I just came into check that you are OK as you looked in pain at lunch. Are you OK? Is there anything I can do?

MS: Amrita come in. Yes Beta my leg is hurting badly today. No there is nothing you can do - not to ease the pain but do come and sit down.

Amu comes in sits on the chair by the bed.

MS reaches out and holds Amrita's hand and says - I am sorry Beta, I know I said I would talk to you after I had time to think but between my feeling poorly, worrying about Kuhu, Uma's poor health and Gulabia's return I have not had chance to speak to you.

Amrita: Naniji its OK please concentrate on getting better. We can talk another time.

MS: No No Beta its not going to be any easier no matter when it happens so lets do it now. Oh by the way before I forget thank you beta for taking Kuhu out and about with you. It has cheered her up and made her forget her problems for a little while.

Amrita smiles and says you know what Naniji, I enjoyed it and Kuhu has really good taste just like her mother.

MS smiles and squeezes Amrita's hand.

Then the smile disappears, MS closes her eyes and sighs deeply and after a few quite moments says – what you said to me that day made me think and to be honest with you I did not like what I saw.

She looks directly at Amrita and says - you know Beta I am old fashioned. In my time you did not see let along know your husband until after the wedding. Marriage was for a lifetime, good or bad you made the best of it and if your husband turned to other women/Bednis you turned a blind eye. Love did not come into it. If you were lucky love happended after marriage.

So you see Beta, to my mind it was simple whatever had happened between Sugni and Vikram, once Reva came back then Vikram's responsibility was to return to his marriage and forget everything else.

Looking back I can see that what I did not understand is that when Vikram accepted that Reva was gone, he also accepted that his marriage was no more. He moved on and found in Sugni what he had always wanted – someone who cared about him, the man (his likes, dislikes, what makes him happy, someone who defended/protected him not that my son needs protection she says with a smile) and to whom it did not matter that he was wealthy or had a title just that he cared for her in the same way.

May be if his marriage had been happier he would have tried but as it was he wanted no part of it. But at the time all I could think was where was my Vikram, the one who was always strong, dependable, who fulfilled his responsibilities and always did the right thing. I could not understand his behaviour. So I thought if Sugni and Adi who were already married, started their married life then Vikram would realise that he had to return to his marriage. And in my ignorance, I ... to use your words... I was unbelievably cruel to him. My only defence is that I had never seen VIkram and Sugni together and therefore had no idea what they had.

MS sees Amrita's shocked expression and says yes Beta I know that Vikram's marriage was not a happy one. Reva's stubbornness, tanturms, jealousy, wanting her own way and planning and plotting until she got her way and her mean streak made their marriage difficult but Vikram never complained. He made the best of it. I am certain that if Reva had not thought to have died in that accident, Vikram would have stayed in his marriage.

But kismet mein kuch aur likha tha. Accident huwa. Months later, long after we had all accepted it, Vikram finally accepted that Reva was gone and he decided to come here to liveout his life in peace (which had been missing for soo long in his life). Aur dekho, yeha aaya aur Sugni ko mila and the rest you know.

As I said I am old fashioned but am having to change and adapt to this new world for the sake of my children, for their happiness.

I will be honest with you when Vikram left after Sugni's "death" I realised how much I, we, all depended on him to be the rock that protected this family from everything, deal with everything etc but I also blamed him and his wickedness for everything that happened. I wanted him back but I still blamed him. It was Reva telling me that in that mandir in the hall that she had seen Vikram, that somehow he had found Sugni and was taking care of her and that she Reva had agreed to a divorce, that made me realise that we (I, Aditya, Reva and even Sugni herself) had tried to break what God had ordained. Otherwise how is it possible that Sugni survived, ended up in some back street of Baneras where somehow Vikram ended up. Reva had seen this accepted it and agreed to step aside and it was time we all did. Vikram came back with sugni and well you know the rest.

You know although I accepted God's will it was only when I saw Vikram and Sugni together after their marriage that I realised why my son fought soo hard to hold on to her. Today I can see it – how Sugni always makes sure that there is at least one dish he likes at every meal time, does not watch those soap operas in the evening because he dislikes them, you did not see the way Sugni spoke up for Vikram when one of the other Thakurian's who was visited critised Vikram's action (she chuckles), the way Sugni at breakneck speed tells him every single thing that has happened in her day every evening (I cannot even understand what she is saying she says shaking her head) and Vikram bade santi se, bade dhayan se, unki baate sun tah hai (she smiles remembering). Aur Vikram has changed too, my son who never even told me now tells her every morning where he is going and what he is going to being doing that day. Saach kahi, when I see them together I always feel ke une dono ko ek dusre ke bina kisi aur ki zarurat he nahi hai. And I thank God for stopping us making a mistake that would have ruined soo many lives forever.

MS then looks at Amrita and says seriously ' Beta what I am about to say I am saying because now with benefit of hindsight I believe it and not because its in Aditya's interest.

Seeing Vikram and Sugni together now has made me realise that Aditya and Sugni only seemed to be suited back then because they were supporting each other while Vikram in his anger reeked havoc but under normal circumstances they would have found it difficulty to get along as they both are similar ' stubborn, hot headed, rushing into things without thinking things through, believing they are always right and they become naraz if they don't get their way. Also Aditya is a city boy and will want to go back and while Sugni would enjoy the city life initially she would not like living there.

That's when I realised that Jaise Sugni ko sirf Vikram he sambhal sakta hai wasie Aditya ko sirf tum samaj aur sambhal sakti ho.

Amrita says - Naniji mein...

MS: I know Beta. You have suffered a great deal because of Aditya's actions... she trails of seeing the look of surprise on Amrita's face.

She smiles and says yes Beta you were right because of aditya's painful childhood we have all allowed him to do as he pleases and do as he asks. But its time to stop making excuses for him and accept that he was responsible for his actions.

I can only imagine how much pain all this has caused you but Beta if you truly love Aditya then don't let the past clould your future. Find a way to forgive him for his mistakes and start a fresh.

Aditya's arrogance needs to be bought down a peg or two and I think you are just the girl to do. She chuckles as she says this.

She and Amrita look at each other for a long time and slowly smile each knowing that the other had the greatest respect for them and a special place in their heart.

MS closes her eyes and slowly drifts off to sleep and Amrita sits their quietly watching MS sleeping deep in thought.

Amrita looked up at the sound of Mamaji's voice, she had been soo engrossed in her thoughts she had not heard him approach.

You have had a lot to deal with, she says quitely.