when siddhi woke up she noticed that she was covered by a blanket and ...kunal was sitting opposite to her in one corner of the seat , closing his eyes and leaning on the side window...he does not look like sleeping. siddhi looked at her wrist watch.it was time to reach delhi.she got up and sat on the seat.
siddhi :'kunal utto...we are reaching delhi...'kunal opened his eyes and avoid looking at her...he kept his gaze lowered where as siddhi looked straight at him..her eyes went over his face,...tried to catch up his sight ...she tried to read out his mind through his eyes... find out about his sudden reaction... but failed... she could see his eyes are slightly red and swollen.'did he cry...๐?...'she suspected in her mind.
without much talks kunal and siddhi quickly fresh up themselves as the train was close to its destination.as soon as it reached delhi they got down.siddhi 's driver came to the station to receive them.soon they reached malik house.till then kunal did not talk much with siddhi except few formal words with a uncomfortable smile. raj and dadima gave a warm welcome to them.
raj: ๐คhe gave his usual hug to kunal.
dadima:'arey! tum chaar din mai itni moti kaise ho gaye?...๐"asked with surprise.
siddhi :'dadima...๐ณ"
dadima: 'mai mazak nahi kar rahi hun...dekho kitna badal gaye ho..haatho mein mehandi...lal lal chudiyan...bilkul dulhan lagrahi ho..yeh tho veena ka hi kamaal ho ga...๐" she complimented.
siddhi :๐...she acknowledge her with a sly smile
kunal did not concentrate on their talk.he was having some formal talk with raj...then exchange a warm smile with siddhi and left .
kunal went to his apartment.he had no mood to work...after a quick hot shower he went and fall on his bed ...his mind was constantly revolving around siddhi ...every were siddhi ..siddhi ...siddhi ...her thoughts made him tensed and depressed...the train scene frequently flashed in his mind...felt guilty for his unexpected out burst of his temper...he could not fight with his own feelings ..... piled up commotions made his heart swell with emotions...his heart winced with pain...felt as if it may explode...in the end... tears gushed out from his eyes and rolled down on his cheeks !
'god damn !how come i confess my love to siddhi ...i can't believe my self...๐ฒ...it just happened ...it was totally unexpected.. not a re-planned one...it just boomed out of his heart from no where,,when his mind was numb, when it was unsettled!...but he was sure that his love was not a sudden happening...it was a steady and stable one...his love for siddhi started budding unknowingly and unwillingly the day he hooked in to siddhi 's eyes in the canteen.it gradually developed with in him when he recognize broad and humble mind of her.when raj proposed her it was a pleasant surprise and a treat for him...
'...but what about siddhi ...? array of questions raised in his mind...did siddhi love him...? no way..why should she..?such a beautiful ,talented good human she is...boys may make a queue to have a glimpse of her.she is forced to be with him because of raj.she forced to come to ooty only cuz of raj.yeh bhagwan ๐ฒ...kaisa hai yeh bandhan??? it is unusual and one sided..looks very weak and flimsy,no hope or scope for it...at any time it can break...' kunal was very much worried and tensed.'ah...i can not be facing failures one after the other in my life...it is miserable...i can't loose siddhi ...i can't live with out her...'he shed tears till his eyes became dry...cried until there were no tears to come out.
'... should i reveal my past to her?...no... i don't want to lose the tiny joy came across in my life...thode dino kay leyeh hi sahi...kya muje zindagi jeene ka haq nahi hai...? ' he was feared that he may loose siddhi ...that will be beyond his tolerance...he suffered from anguish.whenever he see siddhi he is going to die with the feeling that he may loose her...to avoid that painful feeling he decided to keep himself away from siddhi .with that thought sleep angel embarrassed him.
next day kunal and siddhi were working in their cabin.
siddhi :'rohit...' she called her attender.
rohit.: 'ji ma'am...๐'he came inside.
siddhi :'kunal sir ko new design approval ka file lane ko kaho...'
soon rohit brought that file and gave it to siddhi .
siddhi :'tum kyun...?๐'
rohit.:'wo...kunal sir doosre important file mai busy hai...'siddhi did not mind it.
next day.
siddhi : 'kunal sir ko bulao...' she said to rohit....after few minutes rohit came and said 'sir unit visit kay leyeh chale gaye...'
siddhi :'unit visit...?๐ฒ๐'she narrowed her eyebrow in doubt.
siddhi :'unit visit kyun..?๐...unit visit tho subha mai karte hai na..?ab tho sham kay theen ho rahai hai...' rohit could not answer.she suspected that kunal is avoiding her.
after that from small small incidence she noticed that he is not the kunal one whom she saw in ooty along with his family...the happy, excited ,cool , charming and naughty kunal .he is the one whom she met initially.the reserved,feeling less, stone faced kunal ...with pain carrying in his eyes...looks as if some thing is bothering him.after the ooty trip he went in to the shell as a snail...made a barrier around him...who knows ? he may not come out at all...or he may not let me go in...'i am not going to leave him like that 'siddhi decided.i have to find out what is bothering him.she tried all ways and means to go close to him.with the same force kunal tried to pull back himself from her.
next day:
siddhi took the new design approval file and went in to kunal's cabin. kunal was busy with his lap top.he stopped working and looked at her.
kunal:'tum kyun aaye ho?...you should have called me...' he disliked to see his higher authority coming in search of him.
siddhi : 'for the past three days i was calling you , but you did not turned up...' she complained.
kunal: 'you go to your office...i will come...' he said looking in to his laptop.
siddhi:๐...she was hesitant to go.
kunal: 'i told you i will come to you...plz go now...๐' he said again with patient.
siddhi 'office:
kunal was sitting beside siddhi and discussing about the new designs. siddhi was looking at him with a cute smile which disturbed his concentration and interrupted his discussion constantly.soon after the discussion was over he got up in a hurry to leave. with no hesitation siddhi stretched her hand and caught hold his wrist.
kunal:๐ ... looked at her.
siddhi :'dadima ne tumare leye lunch bheja hai...๐'the warmth of her hand made kunal chill...for a second he stood still.
kunal:'haat chodo...koi aa jayega...๐'he tried to get rid from her hold.
siddhi : ' red light is on out side of my cabin.no worry...๐' she did not leave his hand.
siddhi :'dadima has send lunch for you...๐'she said again.
kunal: ' ... aaj nahi...please...๐'he set freed his hand from her's and walked out.
siddhi:๐
in canteen:
kunal was unenthusiastically eating his food with a spoon .suddenly he felt there was a disturbance in the canteen.he raised his head ...
siddhi was standing in front of him with a pink chiffon saree flowing on her.with her finger action she told the worker sitting beside kunal to get up...she went around the table ,pulled back the chair ,sat beside kunal...and told that worker...
siddhi: 'muje ...wo...what is that?๐...haan kichidi๐...bring that to me...๐'the worker ran for it.
kunal:๐ฒ...he was speechless.
kunal:'tumara dimag kharab ho gaya hai kya? ...๐ก..'he murmured with anger.
siddhi:๐
kunal : 'jao yahan se...๐ก'
siddhi :'tumne mere saat cabine mai khane kay leyeh mana kardi...๐'
kunal : tho...?๐ก'
siddhi : 'mai aa gaye canteen...tumare saat khane kay leye...๐'she grinned only to him without others notice. by that time the worker brought the kichidi for her...
siddhi:' thanks...๐'she send the worker and started eating.
kunal :''tamasha mat banao...jao yahan se...๐ก'he told in a very very low and angry tone.she did not care.by that time other workers started looking at them weirdly. kunal put the spoon abruptly in the plate ,pushed back his seat ,got up angrily walked out of the canteen.
siddhi:๐...she followed him with a victory smile.
siddhi 's cabin:
kunal was sitting beside siddhi on a two seater .siddhi smiled at him thinking in her mind that 'yes i did it...๐' .
siddhi opened the hot pack and served the food in a plate.
siddhi :'lo...๐'she gave the food plate to kunal but he did not take , looked at her and the food plate hesitantly. siddhi took a piece of chapati along with her favorite dal makhani.
siddhi :'khao...๐'she showed it near his mouth.
kunal:'nahi tum...๐'he refused.
siddhi :'kha lo...๐' she neglected his refusal and showed the chapati piece more close to his mouth almost touching his lips. he knew that she is not going to leave him without feeding. he half opened his mouth and ate the chapati from her hand. his feelings for her ran deeper than he thought.tears welled up in his eyes.she gazed in to his stormy eyes and noticed the glittering tears .
siddhi :' wofo...yeh sushu kaka ( short form of sudhanshu ๐...in the serial seema's father ...) bhi na...always he makes the dal spicy...๐' she opened the mineral water bottle and gave it to him. he took the bottle and kept it back on the tea table.
kunal:' issa kyun kar rahi ho...?๐ญ'his broken voice was laced with concern. he swallowed all his emotions while asking.
siddhi :' wahi tho mai tum se pooch rahi hun...?๐'
her question triggered a typhoon of anguish inside kunal which he couldn't stop regardless of how desperately he wanted to.
kunal:' try to understand me...๐'
siddhi :' that is what i am trying...๐'
Edited by shumi. - 12 years ago
