What had she done? - A Raavi POV OS-ish Drabble?

Here is a little something something based off the precap and bts... Not too sure if it'd be a OS /drabble so...

As per usual

A) No intention to copy anyone's work (hurray if we have the same ideas)

B) Let me know and I'll read and acknowledge

Enjoy

What had she done? Here she was seated on the jhula at her Masimaa's house, still in the damp saree from the temple and yet the thought of going upstairs to her room to change seemed foreign. Subconsciously she knew she needed to get out of the wet clothes; it had been unusually chilly and she could feel the tickle in her throat but one thought prevailed; what had she done?

At Anita's insistence she had made her way up. The sluice of hot water scalded her skin warming her up but her heart was still ice. The steam rosied her cheeks even more so as she stepped out of the shower and as she wiped the fog off the mirror she tried to rid her brain of the same but only one question reverberated; what had she done?

Her masimaa brought food to the room, but she couldn't remember feeling hungry; the pangs of hunger never registered in her mind. She remembered mechanically chewing, but what she tasted she couldn't tell, because while her masi fed her to satiate the rumbles she pondered; what had she done?

Her mausapa walked in, calling out softly, she registered his voice, but looked up blankly at his query. Her voice formed no reply, what could she really say? Sitting her down he stroked her hair, whispering assurances that they would solve this too and it would be okay, but all she wanted an answer to was what had she done?

She gave them a small smile, to assure them she would be fine and then shut the door to sort out her thoughts privately. Taking a seat on the dresser chair, she looked in the mirror and let out a deep breath.

They had made a public spectacle of themselves. She had slapped him and called him names; ones that would hurt him, like he hurt her. And for the first time today she had witnessed Shiva's uncontrolled temper. He had cut off all ties with her, after months of waiting for her to decide their equation. She hadn't wanted that. She had wanted to talk, to compromise, to adjust, then what had she done?

She told the family to not interfere, it was a matter of self respect and if she was brutally honest her ego as well. And no one had then stopped her though they had wanted to. His mother had told her she could leave but on her terms; the only condition was she was leaving with her free will. Nodding, she continued out the door and walked straight past him as though he was not there. What had she done?

It had been fourteen days and despite everything she had said and done, she missed him. When he'd become such an integral part of her life she couldn't pinpoint only he had always been there even if only in the background not making his presence known. She needed to see him, so she got dressed and finally stepped out of the house, walking towards the store. She heard the whispering; what had she done?

She wasn't expecting it; Breath hitching, she stopped at the corner watching him smile at the little girl before him giving her a chocolate and cleaning her up from what looked like a nasty fall. Wasn't this the Shiva she had always observed from afar, the one he hid from the whole world and the one she was slowly falling for. Why then had she not spoken up when she had needed to. What he had done was wrong but what had she done?

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This was lovely! Finally, she had an epiphany of where she went wrong. Loved how "what she had done?" Meant different each time.

This was so beautifully written!❤️ Every word of hers was heavy with meaning, her feelings and thoughts finally surfacing for her to actually notice what had happened. If we got even a little fraction of something like this in the show, I would be elated.

This is so amazing! I loved how Raavi finally realized the magnitude of what she did! And end where she saw the kind side of Shiva.. lovely! ❤️

Beautiful

Raavi's What have I done was presented very nicely ❤️

Min, beautiful drabble!❤️

Beautiful!❤️

I think my heart broke somewhere down the road🥺

Mindblowing❤️

Raavi repenting for the slap and missing Shiva😭