Nibir OS - My love story

"It feels wonderful to be in love" said nisha I simply nodded in agreement with my best friend's voice although a part of me wanted to shout that love is officially nothing but bitch ,you feel wonderful only when the other person loves you back', but I silently nodded looking at nisha's sweet smile.

Nisha was my best friend and also the girl whom I secretly loved. It could have been a super sweet story of mine from strangers to best friends and from best friends to lovers but all such possibilities disappeared when two days back nisha revealed to me that she loves Ritesh, a boy who was the son of a famous rather infamous businessman who could go to any extent to make money which included getting people killed and unfortunately he was also the trusty of our college but unlike his father Ritesh was a sweet boy who used to help everyone and I personally had no problem with his social service until and unless he left one person in the world for me.

I was sitting in the college canteen with nisha where she was preaching me about love."Kabir , are u listening to me or not" her voice interrupted my thoughts. "Yes ,I am " I said in an astonishing voice. "Than why do u fear from falling in love?? always behaving like a book worm loving your books instead of a beautiful girl". "Beacause of you nisha" ,I replied. How am responsible for this behavior of yours??', she inquired.

"Because of these books only we became friends , remember you came with Saurav to ask me some doubts on the very first day of college".

"Yes I do remember but that doesn't means you will keep thanking your books by hugging them 247" she said making the world's cutest face.

There was something about her smile which made me crazy for her.We stood up and went to pick up Saurav for our group studies or rather to be honest their doubt asking session where in they made me solve each and every question with a lame excuse that because I am the topper its my responsibility to help them.

Saurav was more than a brother for me although I don't understand terms like brother ,mother and family like other children for a very simple reason that I became an orphan when I was 4.The only person that I remember in the name of the family is my grandmother for whom I meant everything in this world. Due to her I never missed my parents whereas Saurav played the role of of my brother . He used to live in our neighborhood with his mother, his father sacrificed his life for the country in the kargil war.His mother and my grandma shared a mother- daughter bond and when my grandma died 5 years ago his mother took care of me like her own son. So for me after my grandma Saurav and his mother were like a family.Saurav was also special to me as he was the one who introduced me to nisha . He had met nisha in the library where she was sitting worried due to some stupid maths problems. He offered to ask me to help her and my 100 out of 100 score in maths in 12th boards was probably the reason she came to meet me and than we clicked so well we became best friends and I slowly fell in love with her.Only Saurav knew this secret of mine and he used to force me to confess my feelings to nisha. Only I knew how I had hidden about Nisha- Ritesh love story from Saurav from past 2 days.While I was deciding whether I should tell Saurav about it ,Nisha and I reached my hostel room ,Saurav yelled at both of us for getting late.We studied for about 2 hours after which Nisha went to her hostel. As soon as nisha left Saurav asked me ,"what happened Kabir,why r u looking upset from past 2 days tell me ". "Nothing Saurav I am fine", I tried to avoid the question. But Saurav wasn't convinced he emotionally blackmailed me and finally I gave up. I told him everything .

I poured out all the pain and grief which I had hidden inside myself.I cried like a 3 year old boy whose chocolate was stolen."Saurav she doesn't loves me , she loves Ritesh I have lost in love" I said with tears rolling down my cheeks.

Saurav knew he would not be able to console me this time so he remained silent and just hugged me tightly. After that day I tried to avoid Nisha and mentally prayed that she breaks up with Ritesh and when I finally accepted the fact that she and Ritesh are a happy couple I tried to forget her but failed miserably at it. She tried to talk to me but I tried avoiding her . Saurav tried his best to make me feel better but it didn't help. I used to cry alone over the fact that the only girl I loved belonged to somebody else.But one fine evening, Nisha's call came .I picked up the call hesitantly.

"Kabir please help me , I need u kabir " she said in a crying voice. "What happened Nisha,why r u crying??"I asked . But she didn't spoke anything just cried and this made me a crazy worried person.I and Saurav went to her hostel room as quickly as possible.

"Open the door Nisha, its me Kabir". She opened the door and straight away hugged me crying . Those 15 minutes in which she just cried were probably the most difficult 15 minutes of my life seeing her in pain and tears was probably the last thing that I would imagine even in my worst nightmare.

Finally she managed to speak."Kabir , Ritesh's dad has found about me and Ritesh, he is very angry because we both belong to different cast and he has kept Ritesh in a kind of house arrest, lease help me I can't live without him". Me and Saurav had a tough time in making nisha believe that we will make everything okay. We managed to communicate with Ritesh through one of his servants and according to him the only option left was that he and nisha run away and marry.Nisha pleaded with me to help her.I didn't say anything I was in a state of shock. The thought of loosing nisha forever was killing me from inside. I had never felt this kind of pain in my life and the only person who understood my dilemma was Saurav. He told Nisha that he and me will figure out some way. We returned to our room.I was in the worst state of my life I was cursing myself for falling in love with her.The amount of pain that I felt was probably bigger than the pain people of heroshima and Nagasaki felt during the second world war. It took me a sleepless night to take the decision.

"I have decided Saurav" "what????" he asked. "Yesterday I realized Nisha's smile is more important for me than my tears, I only want her happiness if she is happy with Ritesh than I will unite them.I will sacrifice my love for Nisha's happiness". Saurav didn't say anything he understood my pain. He hugged me and whispered in my ears "I am proud to have a brother like you".

We went to Nisha's room and planned the escape of Ritesh. At that night we managed to take Ritesh out from his house but unfortunately one of the guards noticed us.We ran from there.We had managed to reach near a railway crossing and I assured nisha and Ritesh that they will be able to safely marry , "I will not let anything happen to u",I assured nisha but at that very moment I saw Ritesh's dad coming towards us with few goons carrying guns everybody but me was terrified to see gunmen.His father ordered one of his goon to fire at Nisha.I don't know from where I got that much strength I pushed all three of them down and got struck by a couple of bullets.

A train came blocking the way between us and their group. Saurav was holding me I remember Nisha was crying and Ritesh was calling the police I don't know what happened next.

I regained my consciousness in a hospital where I was being operated. From there I remember everything Saurav's mother had arrived and was sitting there and praying for me.Ritesh was consoling Nisha. Policemen were interrogating them, my friend Saurav was sitting like a lifeless creature , few doctors were preparing to start the operation. Nisha shouted, "Why Kabir??? Why did u save me and came in front of the bullet which was meant for me". "Because he loves you damn it ",shouted Saurav unable to control anymore. I felt like punching Saurav for telling my secret. Nisha couldn't believe it but my idiot brother did another idiotic thing and told Nisha about my great sacrifice of love. She cried and hugged Saurav.

She became silent after few minutes and came inside my room and sat beside me.I managed to say,"I had told u Nisha I won't let anything to u". Saurav and his mother came and sat on my other side . I remember each and every moment of that time few doctors were instructing nurses to bring some medicines hoping that this poor dead man will get up again.All the people whom I loved were sitting near me everyone was there but one thing which was missing was life in my body.Only thing that was left in my body was the fire in my heart, the fire which wanted to win the world, the fire which wanted to love Nisha , the fire which wanted to fight with Saurav for sitting in his mother's lap.The fire in my heart was capable of doing two things ,it could have made me live again or it could have made me sleep forever.Saurav held my hand tightly, Nisha who was sitting like a statue for the past 2 and a half minutes ultimately started crying in a loud voice and hugged me . I could have gotten up but for what , I had accomplished my aim of uniting nisha with Ritesh .I felt tired and wanted to sleep . I wanted to rest , Saurav begged me to stop but I refused , this was a punishment for him for revealing the secret.This was my story I was leaving behind a best friend , a brother and a motherly figure but I was still happy I had managed to pave a way for the happiness of my love. I was also lucky to have a brother like friend Saurav because due to him only I was able to die peacefully ,hugging my love but I will get up once again, one day to save my friends from maths problems , to laugh like an idiot with Saurav and to fall in love with a girl like Nisha.