A Letter for Dev -
Dev, tumhaara naam lete hi ek ajeeb kashish, ek ajeeb khichaab mujhe tumhaari yaadon mein le jaata hai...... Main apne bas mein hi nahin rehti, tumhaari yaado mein kho jaati hun........ Kuch yaadein ateet ki, tumhaare maujudgi mein bitaye palon ki........ Aur kuch uss aane waale kal ki jo shayad kabhi na aaye..........
Main jaanti hun mera pyaar ek tarfa hai, aur tum bhala mujhse pyaar kyun karoge bhi kyun.......... Mujhmein aise hai hi kya jo tumhe bhaaye........ Don't get me wrong, main khud ko underestimate nahin kar rahi......... Shayad aur kisi ko mujhmein bahut kuch admirable dikhe par tumhari admiration paane jaise mujhmein toh kuch bhi nahin hai........ Tum meri taraf kyun ho khiche aayoge jab tum khud perfect ho....... You are just perfect Dev! Har tarah se perfect, har lihaaz se! Toh tumhe main kya hi de sakti hun.......... Bas tumse pyaar kar sakti hun........
Humaara aaj tak jo bhi rishta raha hai, usmein tumne bas diya hi hai - madad, sahaara, himmat....... Aaj bhi yaad hai mujhe jab Papa ko heart attack aaya thha, mujhse pehle hospital mein tum maujud thhe........ Mujhse zyada toh tumne unka khayal rakha thha........ Zameen aasman ek kar diya thha tumne taki unka best ilaaj ho sakey....... Par zindagi aur maut insaan ke haat mein kahan hoti hai.......... Unka antim sanskar tak tumne kiya thha........ Poore 13 din saare zameen par soye thhe, jab tak shraadh nahi hua thha......... Koi saga itna nahin karta jitna tumne kiya...... Aur bina kisi dikhawe ke chup chaap kiya......... Mujhe bhi toh sahaara tumne hi diya thha, warna mujhe toh company ke baare mein koi idea bhi nahin thha.......... Yaad hai main kitni nervous thhi ki kaise sambhlega sab, par tumne bharosa diliya ki tum ho aur sab ho jayega....... Aur sab sambhal bhi gaya, kyun ki tum thhe har kadam par mujhe sambhaalne ke liye, mujhe rasta dikhane ke liye........
Kaise tum kisi anjaan ke liye itna kar sakte ho? Woh bhi bina badle mein koi expectation rakhe........ Koi kaise tumse tumse pyaar naa kare, koi kaise tumhaari aur na jhukta chala jaaye....... Main jitna bhi tumhare baare mein sochti hun, utna tumhaari taraf khichi chali jaati hun........
I really hope ki kisi din main bhi tumhare liye kuch kar sakun.......... Galat mat samajhna, tumhaare liye kuch kar ke main tumhare dil tak ka raasta nai tai karna chahti...... Bas isiliye kuch karna chahti hun taki mujhe itni tasalli toh ho ki mere wajood ka chota sa hissa tumhaari zindagi ko chhu paaya.........
Log kehte hain ki ek tarfa pyaar pyaar nahin hota........ Par ek tarfa toh Meera ka pyaar bhi thha, par thha toh pyaar hi na.......... Pyaar Meera ka Radha se kam nahin thha, bas farak itna thha ki Radha ki kismat mein Kanha thhe aur Meera ki kismat mein Kanha ki Murat.........
Mere naseeb mein bhale hi tum nahin par main humesha chahti ki tumhe tumhaari Radha zaroor mile, jo tumhaari tarah perfect ho........ Jo tumhe har khushi de sakey........
Ye unn anginat chitthiyon mein se hai jisa likha toh tumhaare liye gaya hai, par jinki kismat mein tum Tak pahunchna nahin hai.......... Jaise meri kismat mein bas tumhe dur se chahna likha hai par tum tak pahunch paana shayad meri takdir mein nahin.........
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