give it ease, and build a Heaven in Hell's despair.
- William Blake
these lines are just what seems to me like d present state of SaJan's life
2 ppl so in love yet so apart now cause of that very love
he loves her so that he knows with her hand in his he can do d
impossible & win d world
she knows his love is abound & will stop at nothing if d cause is her
happiness and yet today she has 2 drive him away she has to make sure he
sees it that she doesnt befit him
tired of waiting heartbroken on her determination of losing today Samrat
finally asked her why cant shy try ?why is so hell bent on losing when he's with her
she doesnt want to even look at him but has 2 finally give up
he wants her 2 know that even forever is a short time 4 him if holding
her hand is what has 2 be done
and she breaks her silence at this loosing her cool at him : dont talk of forever why are u doing it
cant u see i have tried enough & lost already why , why dont u just wanna leave me alone 2 my miseries
i know ur wishes are good ur heart is kind but this is a lost cause 4 which u seem 2 be fighting
he finally lets her know its all in her mind that nothing , except her own belief that she is helpless is whats stopping her
that if she so much as just puts it in her mind she can & will - d rest of d way is b4 them
it may not be simple - it may take time but he is with her no matter how long it takes
she seems hopeful for a second he asks her if not 4 me least 4 urself give it a try
but as they say when u dont wanna put ur heart in to something nothing can seem 2 help you even if god lend u a hand in d way
she knows if she tries she might just win but perhaps , perhaps her heart may just listen to him & she may walk along
but then what , he refused to marry her at V night & she was hurt it stung her
his reasons were known to her but d pain of his answer somewhere just hit home & perhaps even thou knowing it that he loves her like none other
she feels perhaps d world is right i just don't belong with him i m not worthy , unsuitable of him
yes it hurt her , where it hurts d most & hence perhaps even now sh isnt willing to try
to put an effort 4 if this is what it takes 2 drive him away 4 a life - a life that's gonna be good 4 him then so be it she shall live this way forever if his happiness is what comes off it
yes perhaps hence is d reason all she does is ask him 2 leaver her alone subtly trying every bit of d way to tell him stop holding that torch 4 me cause baby this is just going to end up this way
he would have to really make it happen that she sees it in her heart that she has got it all wrong that no matter what life leads us to ur paths & mine are just 1 all along d way
and whether u like it or not want it or not sweetheart i m gonna accompany u , cause may be u may not need me but baby i sure as hell do need u and together i know we can make it love , we sure can do , all i need is ur hand
the time may be testing us but even now when looking at u like this feels like i m literally going 2 hell as u are too , being with u is d only relief - my heavenly abode in this hell's despair