Originally posted by: s.priya
I dont know what to write here. My hands tremble as I type... I just dont know what to do... but darling esha, for you, I must do this.
Why you, Esha...........
I believe in God.... and since the day Sree broke the news, all I have done is question him .... why you.........
Who will bat eye lids and teach me how to flirt
Who will know when I need that special Jadu ki Jhappi ...
Who will be my saviour and protector.. to rush to my defence, when I need it the most...
Who will come crack jokes and buzz me to stop working and talk.....
How can I ever reset passwords of members without remembering the countless times when you would forget your own passwords.......
How can I ever see Remix without remembering your passion....
I did not have a sister till you came along, darling....
How can I forget the two words "Shoot di" everytime you picked up my call..... Or the urgent diiii.... followed by buzzes on yahoo..... I have no mind to log into Yahoo these days.....
Whoever thought life would be so cruel..... You kept buzzing me to tell me something urgent that day, but I was busy and kept putting you off... I sent you an sms the next day when I did not find you online.... I wish I had taken that two minutes time off that day, darling...
When I got the news, I went out to the verandah, where there was a beautiful flower.... more pretty than a rose, bigger than a palm, with a beautiful fragrance, matched by no other flower... I asked the gardner for the name, but I cant remember that name... everytime I see that flower, I think of you, darling... The most beautiful of us all.... you were always with friends, passionate about your friendships.... a zest for life... the passion with which you did everything... Most importantly, you were like the flower, spreading the fragrance of your goodness around...... Esha, how can we ever be without you.....
I got back that flower from the Valley and I have it with me outside my window.... You will be with me forever in that flower.. Esha...
When you did not log into IF or yahoo... and when my smses were not even picked up, I wont deny the shiver i felt in my bone..... i knew something was wrong.. and this is something I have shared with a few friends.. I knew Esha wont ever go anywhere without telling me... but darling this time you did.... You went away without telling us... leaving us in this void...
I cant get over this fact.. and I still believe that one day... you will call me and tell me it was a bad dream... that you had to go to Timbaktu, where there is no internet or mobile... and you are now back....... I hope it is a dream.... I pray it is a bad dream..... I know it is probably pointless to console myself with these thoughts, but I am unable to accept that I cant ever call you or speak to you or chat with you..... Why did we not meet this January dear... as we had planned...
I just dont know what to write anymore... I just wish I got a chance to speak to you just that once more...... just to again tell you how much you meant to me darling... I have met so many people in life... so many have left their mark of friendship in my life.. but none like you.... For all that I have my complaints with God, I thank him for having sent you into my life, for the short while at least...
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