'How will it end?'-FF part4 pg3

OK Guys, the KDMH Forum has lost its energy and I understand why completely; 2 months with out our RaKun, without seeing Rahul and Kakun has taken its toll on us, especially with where is stopped, not a cliff hanger as we all knew about the rape and the leap, but we were waiting to see how they ended 'THE RELATIONSHIP' that we eagerly awaited and watched for impatiently each week.

I miss KDMH so much but more I miss our discussions on each episodes, each of us giving out own point of view but also seeing things that we may of missed. I remember the scene when Aman was being hurtful to Kakun and she ran to the terrace, Rahul followed her and touched her on the shoulder. She turned to him in pain and hugged him but he did nothing, just stood still, until Kakun had realised what she had done and left him. A the time I thought it was awful that how could Rahul not do anything when he had the woman he loved in his arms, in pain, in need of him?

But I remember how Elysia and RaKun17 saw something I hadn't and that was Rahul love for Kakun in that scene and Aamir amazing acting, but I didn't see it until RaKun17 made a video and put that scene in as each time I watched the video I finally saw what they were saying; it did show Rahul love for Kakun and Aamir great acting.

It is these things I miss and I wish 9X would sort out what is happening once and for all!

As for Ekta new serials on NDTV I can't wait to watch them as I think she has leant what viewers want, which is not unrealistic plots and numerous love triangles. The sad thing is that KDMH started that way the story line was sweet and simple, it had depth to it with a family which made sense. It was sweet and delightful. Fresh and interesting until the whole Anurag is Rahul issue after that it was pure Ekta which was a shame, but we kept watching for the chemistry between Aamir and Abigail was so amazing that it kept us hooked. Also we were waiting for out Happily Ever After; after so much pain RaKun deserved it but also so did we- but it was not to be.

I'm not going to get into all that as I've said all before in fact we've all said it but what I've decided is that I'm going to start parallel episodes.

By parallel episodes I intend to re-write episodes from where I think KDMH lost its way entirely and try keep it more in-line with KDMH but I will use some parts of the episodes and the comments we had all made on what should happen.

Hope that makes sense- hope to post on Friday so tell me what you think

hey shasha lyke a FF?sounds very nyce coz i lyke reading FFs
yu can start writing from tha point anurag is rahul issue as it wil be intrestng.u can write from yor p.o.v. it wud be interstng. i fink if yu write befor naina's murder it wil be intresting as we have read som FFs and stories by FFers from tha point after naina's murder. befor tha murder or yu can evn drop tha murder idea.i fink many intresting twist can be made.wil wait fo yor story to start.yor olways great at it.

Hey Guys, I started this awhile back and just finished it not sure i'm going to continue depends on how you like it.

I did promise to finishe the last one on 'fanfiction only' but i can't seem to get into it-sorry but will keep trying.

I've written another one which i will post here as its one i started again sometime ago.

Enjoy and tell me what you think- also a message to mabel-what happened to your ff?! thats just mean leaving it there!

A parallel story to KDMH, everything is the same Rahul has come home from prison for good and Kakun has brought a present for Aman and is about to take it and it is here she finds the truth about Aman and that he murdered Naina B.

However this is where the parallel comes in and the storyline changes;

'Kakun?' Rahul calls hesitantly

Kakun stops her back to Rahul, her heart beats a little faster at the sound of his voice, 'will it ever stop? Will I ever be able to stop these feeling for you Rahul? Oh Lord help me, please, I can't have these feeling for him. I can't! He's my devar now and that is the only relationship we can have.'

'Kakun?' Rahul ask again walking a few steps closer; he is behind her and he catches her scent and closes his eyes; 'Oh Kakun, my love, I never wanted this, never. I did all I could to stay in prison, to make you hate me so that the love you have for Aman Bhai as a friend would change; that you would turn to him for comfort and this would turn to love, the love between a husband and wife. I'm sorry Kakun, forgive me, forgive me for not being able to do this.' Rahul thinks to himself.

Kakun turns and steps back for Rahul is too close, not looking at him she ask briskly, 'What is it Rahul?'

'I heard you were going to see Aman Bhai and I wanted to see him too, I needed to tell him something so I thought I could drive us?'

Kakun is silent, part of wants to say yes, to be alone with Rahul even if it was for a short drive; to be in his presence after being away from him for so long, knowing that he was innocent of Naina death, knowing that he loved her. But it couldn't be, she was his Bhabhi now and had to act that way, because of her Punj Pariwar had already suffered so much badnami, not anymore.

Kakun turns to Rahul; 'That's ok Rahul, you see Aman I'll see him when he comes home. But do me a favour, I brought this for Aman and wanted to hide it in office, a surprise for him can you do that for me?' Kakun holds her hand out in it is a wrapped present.

Rahul stares at Kakun for a moment; 'you are so beautiful both inside and out. I will always live with the regret that I am the cause of all your unhappiness, all the pain you have gone through, all the pain and lost I am going through. I can live with my pain and lost but not with yours; I promise on the love I hold for you that I will make sure you suffer not one more moment of pain again, I will make sure that you and Aman are so happy that I will not even be a memory for you but just your devar.' Rahul eyes close at the sharp pain this thought brings to him.

'Rahul are you o.k.?' Kakun ask concerned, her hand reaching out hovering over his arm; as usual Rahul pain was hers, Kakun despaired at the connection that still tied her to Rahul; 'would the tie ever break?' Did she want it to break? A small voice whispered.

'Fine. I'm fine.' Rahul fakes reassurance to Kakun; no more worrying over me Kakun, no more. Everything; your care, your concern, your time all of it belongs to Aman Bhai now. Rahul holds his hand out, 'Give me the present I'll hide it for you.' Rahul smiles quickly at Kakun and walks away, needing to get away from her and the emotions that being around her aroused in him no matter how hard he tried to lock them away.

Kakun stands watching Rahul walk away from her, always walking away from her, a lone tear rolls down her cheek.

wow its good to read something from you Shasha, I missed reading ur writing, I am really happy ur writing again, atleast this forum will be active with ur writing along with Nikki's writing as well, I hope u finish the story u started writinng before you went on holiday, n update this one as well

I wish the real KDMH went like this as well, yh wer is Mabel why isnt she updating her story, and I dont kno wat happened to Rakun and Elysia

bbz im sooooooooooooo back lol omg yaaaaaaaaay shash di yu just made me cum back i want this forum to be full of energy and yuve started it shash di lve yu yaar mwah yuve just made my dayyyyyyyyyyy

OK this is the 2nd parallel episode- tell me what you think and which one you want me to continue with; the 1st one or this one.

'Koi saboot nahi hai; yeh nahi ho sakta Naina ki mobile!' Aman says
'Que nay! Yeh hai Naina ki mobile.' Rahul replies
'Yeh nahi hai mein nay destroy kiya!' Aman shouts.

Shocked Silence

'I'm going to kill you!' Dinesh screams charging at Aman
'NO!' Kakun stands in front of Aman and stops Dinesh
'Get out of my way Kakun he killed my daughter and i'm going to kill him now! Nothing and no one is going to stop me!'
'Uncle i know how you feel, believe me i do- i've had to live with this monster for so many months knowing what he did to our Naina. But killing him will not bring Naina back. Killing him will not give Naina justice and she deserves justice, Devi Aunty deserves justice, you deserve justice and that means seeing him rot in jail until his last breath!'
Dinesh looks at Kakun and slowly nods his head understanding what she is saying; a quick death was to good for what Aman had done, not just killing his Naina but also the pain he'd put Kakun through too.
'Fine but get him out of my sight. Just looking at him sickens me!'
'Rahul call the police,' DP says 'and tell them to come quickly as i can't bare the sight of him either and i may be tempted to kill him myself.' DP looks at Aman in total disgust; that something like that actually had his blood running through it, he shudders at the thought.

Rahul calls the police.
Naina is consoling Devi Aunti

Gayo is standing, shocked that her child, her sweet beautiful Aman, who she loved more then her other children and turned into....into a devil! That he could take the life of one that was so loved by all for no other reason then she stood in his happiness? Gayo couldn't comprehend the Aman she brought into the world, had fed and dressed, taught right and wrong with this creature standing in front of her who showed no remorse for what he had done. It looked like Aman, it spoke like Aman, it called out her name like Aman did but it was not Aman, not her Aman. Silent tears roll down her face, her heart breaking at the loss, the loss of a child from its mother, a child that would never come back and its every memory brought nothing but pain.

'Ma no.' Kakun comes to Gayo side and wipes her tears, 'No Ma none of this is your fault, you didn't know, none of us did. Please Ma don't cry for he is not your son, this is not the Aman you brought into the world, that you loved and cared for. This is something else don't waste your tears on him, they mean nothing to him.'
Gayo looks at Kakun and see the terrible pain in her eyes, 'Poor sweet innocent Kakun who knew nothing but pain from the Punj Pariwar. Who did everything she could for the Pariwar; protecting it, continuing its traditions, even sacrificing her own love for it and now when everyone should be turning to comfort her, she was comforting them.

'Oh Kakun we owe you so much, so very very much.'

Gayo takes Kakun into her arms and hugs her tightly, Kakun stiffens with fright first as this is the 1st time anyone has held her since Aman raped her. But Kakun knows that this is a mothers hold and she collapses into it. 'It had been so long since she had been held and comforted like this; that someone wanted to take her pain away and give their love to her, exactly as her Kajol Ma used to hold her.' Slowly Kakun own tears released themselves from the prison of her eyes, at first slowly then an avalanche of them, 'it felt so good to be held this way that it was almost painful for her.

'NO! She's mine!' Aman screams unable to see anyone comforting Kakun not even his mother. He rushes to them and tears them apart throwing Gayo to one side, she falls against the sofa shocked by Aman actions.

Aman holds Kakun against his chest, his arm across her throat, 'she is mine and only mine! No one has any right on her but me, do you understand, do you?' Aman eyes flash with madness

'Aman let her go!' Rahul demands fear in his heart at what Aman could do to Kakun; she had suffered enough at Aman hands.
'Stay away Rahul. I know you still want her but Kakun is mine all mine and she will never belong to you never!'

'LET-KAKUN-GO-AMAN OR I-WILL-KILL-YOU!' Rahul tells Aman threateningly, meaning everyone word that he said.

Aman laughs like a mad man, 'Kill me? What if i killed you first Rahul?'
Kakun struggles frightened for Rahul, for she knew how cunning and dangerous Aman was and he was possible of anything.

'Let her go!' Rahul demands stepping closer to Kakun and Aman, 'you can't kill me, it's all over Aman.'

'Over? That's what you think Rahul- it's over when I say it's over! And the death I was talking about was not mortal death but the death of emotion, the death of spirit, the death of all you happiness?' From behind him Aman brings out a knife and holds it against Kakun throat.
'NO!' Gayo and Devi scream

'Stop it Aman.' Rahul tells, scared now by what he may do

'Stop it Aman? Stop it- why when the fun is just starting! Do you know how special this knife is? No? Well its the one I used to kill Naina with!' Everyone gasp in horror. 'Would you like to see how I killed Naina? After all they shared so much; the same ziddiness, the same love-you Rahul, the same mother- (Aman turns with Kakun and looks at Devi) you Devi Aunti! And the same bloody need to sacrifice their love for Rahul for each other because they were sisters! Isn't that sweet of them? So why not the same death?'

Aman turns Kakun around and holds Kakun against his chest just as Naina had rested against him and just like Naina Kakun head shoots back in pain and shock, she stumbles backwards holding her stomach.

'NO!' screams can be heard throughout the room, Rahul runs and holds Kakun from the back, cradling her, tears running down his face, he lowers her down to the ground.

'Naina get me some towels, anything to stop the blood. Someone call an ambulance' He holds Kakun in his arms, gently touching her face, 'Hold on Kakun, hold on, I won't lose you now. I can't lose you now, hold on my love hold on.' So much blood he thinks, too much blood coming out of her. Please God, please save my Kakun.

A disturbance across the room and Rahul sees that Aman has been tackled by DP and Dinesh, in fact they have knocked him out cold, he feels nothing but rage at the sight of Aman but knows that now is not the time to do anything, he wanted time with Aman, time alone to make sure he was punished for every moment of suffering he had put the families through, had put Naina through, had put him through but in particular had put Kakun through.

'Cold, so cold Rahul.' Kakun whispers, her body shaking
'Ma get me a blanket! I know my love, I know but we'll get you to a hospital soon, just hang on.' Rahul tells her softly.

Gayo and Devi come and kneel besides them, Gayo puts the blanket over Kakun, crying as she sees her so pales and defenceless.
Devi sits by Kakun side, stroking her hair, crying, frightened that she was about to lose her daughter again, another daughter, begging God to save her child.

With great difficulty Kakun opens her eyes; she was freezing but in one area there was a burning fire, she moaned at the pain.
'Kakun? Kakun what's wrong?' Rahul ask worried, scared now as Kakun had lost all colour and her eyes were glazed.

Kakun focused on the voice; the voice she loved so much, she turned her head to follow the voice even though it caused more pain but she needed to see him, she needed to see her Anurag, her Rahul, her love, her soul mate.

She finds him; he's looking into her eyes with worry and fright and she knew their was nothing she could do to take it away from him but at least he would be safe, Aman could never hurt him again and Naina would take care of him-these thoughts gave her peace.
With what was left of her energy and all the determination she had Kakun raised her hand the few inches to touch Rahul cheek. Holding her hand against his cheek, Rahul was unable to stop his tears from falling, falling on to Kakun face.

Kakun voice is a whisper Rahul leans down to hear her words, 'Don't cry my love and forgive me, forgive me for the pain I've caused you.'
Rahul closes his eyes and nods, opening them he kisses Kakun cheek, 'nothing to forgive. I should be begging for your forgiveness but later when your better. Please Kakun don't talk, rest, save your energy, we have the rest of our lives to talk, to argue about who was right or wrong.' Rahul tells her trying to smile but unable to hide his fear, terrified now by her words and her weakness.
Kakun smiles, 'I have only ever loved you. Be happy my darling.' Flashback to her and Anurag/Rahul in happier times, then last image of Rahul face as he holds her, Kakun takes her last breath.
'NO! COME BACK! DON'T LEAVE ME, DON'T LEAVE ME!.' Rahul sobs into Kakun has he holds her against him, rocking her lifeless body against him.'



'NO! COME BACK! DON'T LEAVE ME, DON'T LEAVE ME!.' Rahul shouts out.

'Rahul! Beta it's o.k., everything is o.k.'. Gayo speaks softly to Rahul stroking his face her eyes anxious.

'Mum?' Rahul looks at her confused; he looks around the room and sees he's not in their reception room but in his bedroom, on his bed. D.P, Bebe, Sid, Pretti are all there looking at him concerned. He winces as his head is pounding with pain.

'Mum where'. What happened?' he ask confused

'You foolish boy!' Bebe scolds at him 'You think all these rasums are nonsense and looks what happens!'

'Bebe please just tell me!' Rahul ask anxiously; feeling sick, the pounding in his head increasing.

'Ma- Rahul after you broke the matti and stormed off, you slipped on the water and hit your head against the step. We've been so worried Son.' D.P answers Rahul

'You mean the wedding didn't happened? Aman and Kakun didn't get married?' Rahul has flash back of seeing Aman and Kakun married. 'NAINA! Where's Naina? I need to see her now!' Rahul shouts out, trying to get off the bed.

'Calm down Rahul!' Gayo tells Rahul 'Your not going anywhere! As for the shaadi none of them happened; not yours and Naina and not Aman and Kakun. The doctor told us not to move you from the house so how could we have the shaadi?

'You are silly Rahul, how could we have any of the shaadhi; the brother of the 1st groom hits his head and becomes unconscious, you and groom of the 2nd shaadi hits his head and becomes unconscious, what a coincidence?! Ah but that was you again. Amazing hey?- so no shaadi! I feel for you Bro I really do especially once Naina, Aman and Kakun get their hands on you for ruining their weddings!' Sid winks lightening the mood.

'Sid- this not the time for your nonsense!' Bebe tells him off. 'Rahul Puta don't worry these things happen. Lakh, lakh shukar that your o.k. nothing else matters.'

Rahul still dazed, 'I need to see Naina, please Mum I need to see her.' Rahul looks at Gayo.

'Fine I can see that you not going to rest till you see her, I'll call Devi and ask them to come over. We might as well as Pandit Ji to come too so we can find a new morat.' Gayo looks at Bebe

'Teek hai Gayo. Everyone out let Rahul rest.' Bebe tells everyone.

Everyone leaves the room.

Rahul lies back and thinks; 'it was all a dream? None of it happened- Naina murder, Kakun and Aman shaadi, Me in jail, Naina Oberoi and I marrying, Aman being Naina murderer? All was a stupid dream? More of a bloody nightmare- especially Kakun trying to kill herself!' Rahul shudders at the memory still so fresh and real in his mind; he sees her standing at the edge and him trying to reach her; his heart in his throat, trying to calm her, to bring her back to him and then her jumping. He had never been so distort and frightened as he ran to edge and climbed down. Every dua he knew being recited, begging God to save her, for her to be alive. But worst was to come Kakun suicide attempt was just the beginning of the pain, disillusionment, anger and destruction.

Unable to rest, unable to believe it had all been just a dream and not reality Rahul gets up and walks to his window watching 'their chand'.

'God!' he exclaims rubbing his face in his hands, 'just a bloody nightmare! Then why can't I shake this feeling off? This unease? That Aman Bhai is hiding something'.?' Rahul can't complete the thought but in his mind he sees Kakun collapsing to her knees in tears her soul being ripped out as she tells him that Aman killed Naina and had been black mailing her to stay with him using the threat of putting him Rahul in jail if she didn't. And that was not the end, worst was to come that had forced Kakun to take her life- Aman had raped her on his wedding night.

Rahul shudders his stomach clenching, bile rising in his throat at the memory that was so real he could see every little detail, could still feel the pain, shock, rage to Kakun confession even right now, even though he knew it had not been real.

'Rahul?' a voice from behind him.

Rahul turns suddenly at hearing the soft female voice behind him; he runs the short distance and holds her tightly in a hug, 'Naina. Naina. Naina.' he cries into her hair.

'Rahul! Let me go you big gorilla!' Naina pushes Rahul until he lets go of her and stands in front of him with her hands on her hips. 'I should be so mad at you! Finally nothing was standing in our way, all you had to do were the shaadi ki rasums and turn up'.but oh no not you! You had go and slip and hit your head, causing yet another postponement of our shaadhi! I am so angry at you,' she reaches up and touches the bandage on his head 'but I am glad you are ok. Now what are you doing out of bed? I know the Dr said you are not to move for 2 days and you are to have complete rest now get back to bed.' Naina tells Rahul leading him back to his bed.

Rahul is silent looking his fill at Naina; his best friend, his childhood sweetheart, his love for so long. There were so few of his memories that didn't hold her in them; though he no longer loved her as he once did, though his heart belonged to Kakun, he was still tied to Naina and would always be- the memory of her bloody lifeless body in his arms haunted him.

'Rahul, your hurting me.' Naina says winching as Rahul has gripped her hand tightly

'Sorry Naina. I am so sorry for everything, forgive me.' Rahul says desperately knowing that he was going to hurt her badly once again. Knowing that he could not marry her, knowing he would have to tell her the truth about her Kakun being sisters, knowing the devastation it was going to cause her.

'Rahul..' Naina concerned 'please rest. Your tied and I was told not to exhaust you as the fall was seriously. Please rest now, I'm going as everyone is waiting downstairs with Pandit Ji to re-organise the shaadi ki morat.'

'Shaadi ki morat?'

'Yes we didn't get married today and so another day has to be organised.' Naina leans over and kisses him on the forehead 'just close your eyes and rest, you don't worry about anything Aman Bhai has everything under control downstairs.' Naina gets up and leaves the room.

Fear enters Rahul heart and mind once again he hears Naina words over and over again ''Aman Bhai has everything under control'' If it had all been a just a nightmare then why this fear, this dread within me? Rahul turns his head to the window and looks at the chand seeking comfort in its presence but there is nothing just the pure blackness of the sky; no chand, no sitare, goose bumps run down his body.


'Bebe are you sure?' Gayo ask

'Ji Gayo duno ki shaadi aik din honi hai.' Bebe replies adamantly
Gayo turns and looks at Devi; everyone is seated around the room; bebe and Pandit Ji, D.P and Dinesh, Pretti sitting with Naina, Sid standing behind them, Aman standing next to Kakun and Devi next to her. 'Devi are you o.k with this?'

'Whatever Bebe wants Gayo. It just means a longer wait by having a double shaadi rather then doing them individually but I'm fine with it. But ask Aman and Rahul they may have other ideas.' Devi turns a teasing eye to Aman.

'Devi' Bebe says shocked but a twinkle in her eye, 'they'll do as they are told. 3 months is not that long right Aman Puta.?'

'Not at all Bebe- it is only 3 months; 12 weeks, 91 days, 2184 hours, 131040 minutes and'..'

'Bus Puta' Bebe scolds him and everyone laughs. 'Come lets eat.'

Everyone heads towards the table, Aman turns to Kakun, 'hey you o.k.?'

'Fine Aman, in fact I'm relived for we have more time now to break our engagement. But I just wish Bebe had agreed to separate shaadi then at least we could've arranged for Naina and Rahul shaadi first then have our break up.' Kakun looks at Aman trust in her eyes, 'You've been such a good friend Aman- I don't know what I would've done without you, thank you dost.'

'Kakun.' Devi calls

Kakun smiles at Aman and walks towards Devi.
Aman watches Kakun walk away from him intently and possessively.
Rahul watches Aman from the landing and shivers for the emotion radiating from Aman as he watches Kakun is not of friendship but of something more, much much more.

woooooooooooooooooooooooooooow sis that was brilliant absolutly amazing very well dne

Shasha i love both the parts so its upto u wich one u want write but i dont mind i love both of the parts n cant wait to read more

woah that was awesome both parts i have goosebumps

i chose the second one eventhough both are great