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I am SHE. I owe you no explanation!
Dear Readers, I am on murky waters again - Firstly please don't send me bombs and kidnappers or contarct killers for writing this, its just a momentary thought I want to take up upon! I don't support the actions of this character - if she existed in reality, I would have prayed really hard for her early demise :P
But as a writer, I like to go here and there, and write stuff, present each characters point of view, so today I take up one highly hated character - Tanu.
Ok, before you target the rocket launcher on me - assume a situation, where we don't know AbhiGya exists and hence don't love them like crazy either - we just know Tanu, what she did with a couple, I just want to write down and see, will she still be such a horrible character? If we didn't love AbhiGya, will we still judge her thus or will give her a benefit of doubt? Maybe she will be hated as bad, maybe she won't be, let's find out?
Peace and happiness to all!
***
[After all the truth is out and a pregnant Tanu is kicked out of MM, the media goes blaspheming her name, she arranges for a press conference, to clear her stand once and for all]
Camera recording. Roll. Sound. Tanu Mam, you can begin.
You all have stalked me in multiple places and asked me humiliating questions, people have stopped me on the roads admonishing me for cheating on the rockstar, I have been denied work in the industry for wronging the rockstar and his wife, I am in advanced stage of my pregnancy and I have received enormous amounts of hate-mails, I am stressed and harassed the moment I step out of my house, my domestic aids are harassed publicly for working for me - everywhere I go these days, I don't see people anymore, I see questions and today I will answer all of them, not because I owe you an explanation, but because for the betterment of my unborn child's future, so that he or she faces no such questions, I will answer. I need you to see - see clearly - all of you who dare to question.
Yes, I did cheat on Abhi. I did wrong him and his wife and family. I did every one of those things that news channels, like CBI are digging out and running in their channels. I accept every claim. However that doesn't give you the right to shun me - because you see the effect, did any single one of you, question the cause? NO. That's why you don't have the right to question my character - because you don't know the entire story. Let me tell you that.
I was his sister's best friend from the time he was a rising rockstar. Yes I liked him not for who he is as a person, I liked the zeal and ambition in him, is that so wrong? People chose partners on their own, everone has a different criteria, mine was to find an ambitious person who would pull me up - is it unheard of? Haven't women done this before me? Am I the first one? Am I the first celebrity "gold-digger" now? Then why judge me?
When we got together, neither of us wanted it to last - we both saw our value as a couple rise, hence we stayed together - he was as much a part of the decision to be this way - but when the truth came out, has anybody blamed him? No, all calls on me. He wanted to encash on the rumour of re they together, are they not" so did I. Is that a crime now? Didn't people before us do it too?
Yes, before you run me down, he did ask for my hand in marriage, that to before his present wife came into the picture. So that makes him a saint does it? No one wants to question why he did it? Was it out of love for me, or love for his grandmother who with her conservative thinking had forced him to settle down? I refused. You thinking saying no is a crime? Is it a crime to choose your career over you personal life? Hasn't anyone done it before me? If Abhi had chosen his career over his wife, it would be accepted as a career choice, but my taking the same decision makes me a bitch? Why? I worked hard to be here, I want to sustain myself, and delay my wedding till whenever I like - its my choice really. Besides I wanted to wait for a year only, couldn't Abhi wait? Why isn't a finger pointing at him asking why he couldn't convince his daadi to wait for a year more? His sister convinced him that the wedding was necessary for her so he went about with it - a contract marriage for a year - to keep his sister and daadi happy! Now tell me, have you heard of any man doing such a thing in the past? No? Then why weren't questions raised at him? My only participation was agreeing to let him marry the other woman, so that our's could wait for a year.
You call me a bitch for that? Well, what choice did I have? You think even if I had asked him to not marry her, he would listen? He would pay heed to what I said over his families happiness? I thought the best way was to accept, as that would give me time to honour my modelling contract that needed me to be single for a year - is that so wrong? If I am wrong, he and his sister, they are more wrong, it was their plan! Even his daadi was wrong to emotionally force him to the extent that he took such a decision, even his now wife Pragya was wrong, because she never had accepted the wedlock out of love, but obligation. If they are justified, then how am I wrong? Why am I wrong? Because suddenly I had become the other woman?
His wife knew the truth of their marriage from the very first day, she could go ahead and walk away from the marriage, she didn't because of her families sake, her selfish reasons, that doesn't make her evil, but if I chose to support Abhi to get married for my selfish reason, I am evil? Is that fair?
The world thinks I am the other woman, but when you know your husband doesn't honour your marriage and has clear intent of calling it off in a year, and also has a stable partner, why initiate attachments with such a man? Survival instinct? Isnt that wrong? Falling in love with a man who is her husband only by the books that no-one follows, is that right? Now tell me who is the other woman?
I agree, I wasn't serious about the relationship initially, but when Abhi and I had decided we will marry after my contract was over, I realized this was it, I had started looking up at him that way, our bond was strengthening when she kept getting in between - is it very wrong for me to feel insecure? Yes I emotionally tortured his wife, but cant you see from where it is coming? My feelings were growing stronger and the relationship was growing fader, is it wrong to hate the other woman? If she is justified hating me, then why am I answerable to people for hating her?
Things got worse after her kidnap. Just to clarify, I didn't get her kidnapped, his sister did. I hated her, and kept the news to myself - that is my crime. Even here, his sister is the decision-maker not me. I hated her, but never took drastic actions against her up till this point. But when she got kidnapped, I saw something in my man change, that is when the game changed for me. I could see him reciprocating to her, I could see him missing her, I wanted to divert his attention, but he left me mid-way to fetch her. Agreed I could have been patient then, but I was insecure for ages, I was seeing him fall for him, I was seeing myself love him more, what was I to do? I panicked, I freaked out, I was angry! In that turmoil I met another man, and what happened was a sheer outcome of angry frustration - hasn't anyone ever been through this? We are human, and some moments are weak, it was that, and I conceived. Hasn't anyone else in the world gone through this? Then why is the gun on my head alone?
You may ask why I didn't own up to the truth later? Why should I have? Was what was going on so far, fair to me? Who played a fair game with me? Yes, during the kidnapping phase out of sheer frustration, I wanted to get Pragya killed, but when Abhi took a bullet for her, what do you think I had gone through? How do you think I felt to see the strength of their bond? I should have given up, but I didn't - is that a crime? Is it a crime to try one more time to attain your happiness? That's what I did. Hasn't anyone before me tried to grab their share of happiness? Then why am I under scrutiny?
I was pregnant, and I hadn't thought of bringing it before Abhi until then, but Pragya comes to my home and challenges me, and I lose it. Yes. I lost it when I confessed to her a lie that I was pregnant with Abhi's child. Sometimes you just lose it! Accept it. We all do. We are human. I was pregnant with another mans child and my boyfriend was on the grounds of ditching me, I was stressed and I said what I wanted to without thinking. Again my life took a turn, Pragya now wanted me to marry Abhi, to help me. I wanted to silently abort my child and not get into this mess, but who stopped me? Pragya. Agreed she only stopped me because she thought it was Abhi's child. But think of my situation, I was trying so hard to get Abhi back and she was the hindrance, with this misunderstanding, she, the biggest hindrance in my life, wanted to help me get Abhi - morals would have told me to refuse, but by then I had realized, morals play very little role when ABhi treats me. Until then, even though he had started feeling for Pragya he was still with me - now no one sees cheating here? Why isn't there a question for Abhi too? I knew Abhi wouldn't accept me or the child if I told him the truth, but after all the emotional mess I had gone through I didn't feel like giving him the truth, I wanted to grab my happiness, my life with him.
You tell me, after being wronged and forced so many times, if I use sly means to find happiness and stability, is it so wrong? Yes I still love the rockstar more than Abhi, but that's how it is. Everyone loves their partner for very many reasons - if Pragya loves him for his heart, I love him for fame - both are aspects of him, who are others to judge which aspect is worth loving and which is not? I found a way to overcome all the mess with one lie. It was unfair, but I have been wronged too. I did what I thought was the best for me. Everyone has a right to find happiness for themselves - I have the right to, and in pursuit of happiness, I have wronged as many people as they wronged me.
Yes, as fate would have it, my lies came down and theirs remained hidden until now, and hence I am naked to public scrutiny, but I would like to tell you this is all dignity with head held high - I have done what I have done, and I regret doing nothing. I am human, I wanted happiness, I was wronged, and I gave back to people who wronged me - all in pursuit of happiness - at least as I walk out, I will not regret thinking I didn't try. I am a fighter and I fought till I lost.
I am at fault - maybe, but I am only human. I am not a bitch, I have dignity, because I fought - history is proof that whenever a great war is fought, all rules were broken. I am brave that I sustained and I am happy that inspite of all odds, I will procreate, nature isnt shunning me from her best gift - motherhood - maybe because she understands, my fault isnt that great either. Now I care not who the father of my child is, and after this press conference you shouldn't too.
As I conclude a passing thought holds me. In the Mahabharata, after the war was won, funnily the losers were embraced in heaven and the winners punished in hell - maybe the losers were after all victors? Maybe in my pursuit for happiness I am also the loser who got heaven - after I am the mother who is giving birth, I am one with the creator, and I have found my happiness, whereas the "winners"continue to fight the lies that pose their path, sometimes in the form of a loving sister, sometime as a cousin brother.
I hope you all have got your answers now, and you will allow me to lead a life of dignity and grace with my unborn child now. The intent of this conference was to gain just that.
Other than that, I am SHE. I owe you NO explanation!
Signing off,
Super Model Tanu
Dear Readers, I am on murky waters again - Firstly please don't send me bombs and kidnappers or contarct killers for writing this, its just a momentary thought I want to take up upon! I don't support the actions of this character - if she existed in reality, I would have prayed really hard for her early demise :P
But as a writer, I like to go here and there, and write stuff, present each characters point of view, so today I take up one highly hated character - Tanu.
Ok, before you target the rocket launcher on me - assume a situation, where we don't know AbhiGya exists and hence don't love them like crazy either - we just know Tanu, what she did with a couple, I just want to write down and see, will she still be such a horrible character? If we didn't love AbhiGya, will we still judge her thus or will give her a benefit of doubt? Maybe she will be hated as bad, maybe she won't be, let's find out?
Peace and happiness to all!
***
[After all the truth is out and a pregnant Tanu is kicked out of MM, the media goes blaspheming her name, she arranges for a press conference, to clear her stand once and for all]
Camera recording. Roll. Sound. Tanu Mam, you can begin.
You all have stalked me in multiple places and asked me humiliating questions, people have stopped me on the roads admonishing me for cheating on the rockstar, I have been denied work in the industry for wronging the rockstar and his wife, I am in advanced stage of my pregnancy and I have received enormous amounts of hate-mails, I am stressed and harassed the moment I step out of my house, my domestic aids are harassed publicly for working for me - everywhere I go these days, I don't see people anymore, I see questions and today I will answer all of them, not because I owe you an explanation, but because for the betterment of my unborn child's future, so that he or she faces no such questions, I will answer. I need you to see - see clearly - all of you who dare to question.
Yes, I did cheat on Abhi. I did wrong him and his wife and family. I did every one of those things that news channels, like CBI are digging out and running in their channels. I accept every claim. However that doesn't give you the right to shun me - because you see the effect, did any single one of you, question the cause? NO. That's why you don't have the right to question my character - because you don't know the entire story. Let me tell you that.
I was his sister's best friend from the time he was a rising rockstar. Yes I liked him not for who he is as a person, I liked the zeal and ambition in him, is that so wrong? People chose partners on their own, everone has a different criteria, mine was to find an ambitious person who would pull me up - is it unheard of? Haven't women done this before me? Am I the first one? Am I the first celebrity "gold-digger" now? Then why judge me?
When we got together, neither of us wanted it to last - we both saw our value as a couple rise, hence we stayed together - he was as much a part of the decision to be this way - but when the truth came out, has anybody blamed him? No, all calls on me. He wanted to encash on the rumour of re they together, are they not" so did I. Is that a crime now? Didn't people before us do it too?
Yes, before you run me down, he did ask for my hand in marriage, that to before his present wife came into the picture. So that makes him a saint does it? No one wants to question why he did it? Was it out of love for me, or love for his grandmother who with her conservative thinking had forced him to settle down? I refused. You thinking saying no is a crime? Is it a crime to choose your career over you personal life? Hasn't anyone done it before me? If Abhi had chosen his career over his wife, it would be accepted as a career choice, but my taking the same decision makes me a bitch? Why? I worked hard to be here, I want to sustain myself, and delay my wedding till whenever I like - its my choice really. Besides I wanted to wait for a year only, couldn't Abhi wait? Why isn't a finger pointing at him asking why he couldn't convince his daadi to wait for a year more? His sister convinced him that the wedding was necessary for her so he went about with it - a contract marriage for a year - to keep his sister and daadi happy! Now tell me, have you heard of any man doing such a thing in the past? No? Then why weren't questions raised at him? My only participation was agreeing to let him marry the other woman, so that our's could wait for a year.
You call me a bitch for that? Well, what choice did I have? You think even if I had asked him to not marry her, he would listen? He would pay heed to what I said over his families happiness? I thought the best way was to accept, as that would give me time to honour my modelling contract that needed me to be single for a year - is that so wrong? If I am wrong, he and his sister, they are more wrong, it was their plan! Even his daadi was wrong to emotionally force him to the extent that he took such a decision, even his now wife Pragya was wrong, because she never had accepted the wedlock out of love, but obligation. If they are justified, then how am I wrong? Why am I wrong? Because suddenly I had become the other woman?
His wife knew the truth of their marriage from the very first day, she could go ahead and walk away from the marriage, she didn't because of her families sake, her selfish reasons, that doesn't make her evil, but if I chose to support Abhi to get married for my selfish reason, I am evil? Is that fair?
The world thinks I am the other woman, but when you know your husband doesn't honour your marriage and has clear intent of calling it off in a year, and also has a stable partner, why initiate attachments with such a man? Survival instinct? Isnt that wrong? Falling in love with a man who is her husband only by the books that no-one follows, is that right? Now tell me who is the other woman?
I agree, I wasn't serious about the relationship initially, but when Abhi and I had decided we will marry after my contract was over, I realized this was it, I had started looking up at him that way, our bond was strengthening when she kept getting in between - is it very wrong for me to feel insecure? Yes I emotionally tortured his wife, but cant you see from where it is coming? My feelings were growing stronger and the relationship was growing fader, is it wrong to hate the other woman? If she is justified hating me, then why am I answerable to people for hating her?
Things got worse after her kidnap. Just to clarify, I didn't get her kidnapped, his sister did. I hated her, and kept the news to myself - that is my crime. Even here, his sister is the decision-maker not me. I hated her, but never took drastic actions against her up till this point. But when she got kidnapped, I saw something in my man change, that is when the game changed for me. I could see him reciprocating to her, I could see him missing her, I wanted to divert his attention, but he left me mid-way to fetch her. Agreed I could have been patient then, but I was insecure for ages, I was seeing him fall for him, I was seeing myself love him more, what was I to do? I panicked, I freaked out, I was angry! In that turmoil I met another man, and what happened was a sheer outcome of angry frustration - hasn't anyone ever been through this? We are human, and some moments are weak, it was that, and I conceived. Hasn't anyone else in the world gone through this? Then why is the gun on my head alone?
You may ask why I didn't own up to the truth later? Why should I have? Was what was going on so far, fair to me? Who played a fair game with me? Yes, during the kidnapping phase out of sheer frustration, I wanted to get Pragya killed, but when Abhi took a bullet for her, what do you think I had gone through? How do you think I felt to see the strength of their bond? I should have given up, but I didn't - is that a crime? Is it a crime to try one more time to attain your happiness? That's what I did. Hasn't anyone before me tried to grab their share of happiness? Then why am I under scrutiny?
I was pregnant, and I hadn't thought of bringing it before Abhi until then, but Pragya comes to my home and challenges me, and I lose it. Yes. I lost it when I confessed to her a lie that I was pregnant with Abhi's child. Sometimes you just lose it! Accept it. We all do. We are human. I was pregnant with another mans child and my boyfriend was on the grounds of ditching me, I was stressed and I said what I wanted to without thinking. Again my life took a turn, Pragya now wanted me to marry Abhi, to help me. I wanted to silently abort my child and not get into this mess, but who stopped me? Pragya. Agreed she only stopped me because she thought it was Abhi's child. But think of my situation, I was trying so hard to get Abhi back and she was the hindrance, with this misunderstanding, she, the biggest hindrance in my life, wanted to help me get Abhi - morals would have told me to refuse, but by then I had realized, morals play very little role when ABhi treats me. Until then, even though he had started feeling for Pragya he was still with me - now no one sees cheating here? Why isn't there a question for Abhi too? I knew Abhi wouldn't accept me or the child if I told him the truth, but after all the emotional mess I had gone through I didn't feel like giving him the truth, I wanted to grab my happiness, my life with him.
You tell me, after being wronged and forced so many times, if I use sly means to find happiness and stability, is it so wrong? Yes I still love the rockstar more than Abhi, but that's how it is. Everyone loves their partner for very many reasons - if Pragya loves him for his heart, I love him for fame - both are aspects of him, who are others to judge which aspect is worth loving and which is not? I found a way to overcome all the mess with one lie. It was unfair, but I have been wronged too. I did what I thought was the best for me. Everyone has a right to find happiness for themselves - I have the right to, and in pursuit of happiness, I have wronged as many people as they wronged me.
Yes, as fate would have it, my lies came down and theirs remained hidden until now, and hence I am naked to public scrutiny, but I would like to tell you this is all dignity with head held high - I have done what I have done, and I regret doing nothing. I am human, I wanted happiness, I was wronged, and I gave back to people who wronged me - all in pursuit of happiness - at least as I walk out, I will not regret thinking I didn't try. I am a fighter and I fought till I lost.
I am at fault - maybe, but I am only human. I am not a bitch, I have dignity, because I fought - history is proof that whenever a great war is fought, all rules were broken. I am brave that I sustained and I am happy that inspite of all odds, I will procreate, nature isnt shunning me from her best gift - motherhood - maybe because she understands, my fault isnt that great either. Now I care not who the father of my child is, and after this press conference you shouldn't too.
As I conclude a passing thought holds me. In the Mahabharata, after the war was won, funnily the losers were embraced in heaven and the winners punished in hell - maybe the losers were after all victors? Maybe in my pursuit for happiness I am also the loser who got heaven - after I am the mother who is giving birth, I am one with the creator, and I have found my happiness, whereas the "winners"continue to fight the lies that pose their path, sometimes in the form of a loving sister, sometime as a cousin brother.
I hope you all have got your answers now, and you will allow me to lead a life of dignity and grace with my unborn child now. The intent of this conference was to gain just that.
Other than that, I am SHE. I owe you NO explanation!
Signing off,
Super Model Tanu
Cricket
