Phoenix
It happened yesterday
Today
Will happen tomorrow
When everything swell inside me
Complicate
Coating my being
I resist
To let it go
To shut of the door of misery
But it bang open
Wide and deep
Swelling
Bulging
Bloating my flesh
Rotting my soul
searching
I write
Scribble
All dirty words, you know!
Just like this
There is no beauty
No my dear
But
But
Only this Desperation
And
My inflating misery
Can you smell it
can you hear it
Can you see it when I bend down?
And when I fumble for words
Lurking in those darkest corridors
Again and again
Living out of nothingness
In this lack of self control
I look at my refection
There I found so many eyes
Just like mine
Following my path
Let me reach out
And touch the feeble light
Let me move
And clear path for thousands of them
Let me burn like fire
Swirling
Rotating
Round and round
Rising from my own ashes
Like a phoenix
Fluttering my wings
So desperately
Let me live...
Even though I am flaming ...