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Hello guys, I am back with another OS. Its just a small attempt from my side. Hope you all will like it. Here it goes...
DEVAKSHI OS.: FADING AWAY...
She was standing near the cafe. He was driving his car. He suddenly stopped, seeing her. She was waiting for someone it seemed.
He was seeing her almost two weeks after their misfortune. She was still the same.
Just a little paler. The shine in her eyes was lost somewhere. She was lost somewhere. She was not her usual self. The confident, no-nonsense girl was now looking so...lost. All because of me. Her usual smile seemed to have faded away in the night. She looked no less than a sculpted beauty. But...without a life in it.
I felt so damn ashamed to have been the one, out of all the people in the world, to have made her suffer like this. But I was gone beyond everything now. I felt nothing anymore. I was just a provider to my family, being the only son of the house. I had responsibilities to be fulfilled. All these days I felt almost nothing.
Just that, I still missed a heart beat seeing her, my eyes shone whenever her name lingered in the air, my heart swelled with pride, seeing her achieving her goal in life, and just the pain of missing her everywhere. Other than that I felt nothing. Not even my mother's hand caressing my head made any difference in the situation.
I am still not over her. And maybe I never will be. Because even after all that I did, all that I can feel of the left-over me, is associated with her. My everything is hers. I have nothing left of mine. And it never disappoints me, that I am left with nothing. It makes me feel, that my everything is with her. Right from my every breathe to every fibre of my being.
And I admit it.
I have always loved her. And I will always love her.
No matter what, I will always be loving her, because that's the only thing that I can least give her.
I stepped out of the car, unable to hold myself anymore.
She was at first in deep thoughts. But suddenly something struck her. And she looked up.
It felt like we still had our connect. We could still feel each other's presence. Her eyes were almost giving away her happiness and relief of seeing me after such a long time, but she quickly masked her feelings and stood as emotionless as possible. I knew she wanted to move on. But her sudden change of expression in order to hide the effect I still had on her, did not go well with me. I was determined to see that she still felt for me. I wanted to see that my presence still made a difference to her.
She was standing still, but our eyes were continuously in contact. But no thoughts were exchanged. I was approaching her now, closing on the distance that kept us apart. As soon as I started walking closer to her, she shifted uncomfortably in her place and began fiddling with her fingers, completely avoiding my gaze now.
I was in no mood to take my eyes off her at such a moment.
I finally reached her. And I stood closer than I had planned to. She finally looked at me. She had to look up since I was standing very close to her. We both felt captivated. We did not move for eternity it seemed. Searching something in each other's eyes. She was searching for answers for my unfair decisions that I took on behalf of both, while I was seeking for forgiveness in her eyes. It was a lost quest already, since I did not deserved to be forgiven.
Guilt over-powered me. My hands on their own accord reached to touch her face, her beautiful sculpted face, with a hope of bringing a smile back on it by mere touch. But I had even lost the right of it when I pushed her away for my mother.
I delicately outlined her features, afraid of breaking her. As if she was made of glass. She was about to speak the sweetest thing that my ears heard in days...
"De-" but she stopped.
"Mr. Dixit." Was what she uttered. My heart broke into a million pieces, if that was even possible now after losing her. But my hand continued their play.
But now I had no idea of what I was about to do next. I swiftly pulled her into a corner near the cafe. She was surprised by my move. And trust me, I was too.
"What the hell are you doing Mr. Dixit? Are you in your senses? Don't you-" she was shushed by me. This was definitely not what I had planned.
Just as my finger touched her lips, a jolt shot through my body. And she felt it too, as her eyes gave away. But she swiftly dismissed it again.
"Sonakshi." I said, and a small glow was visible on her face.
One of my arms was on her waist while, she had her both hands resting on my chest, to maintain her balance. I did not like that space too. So I pulled her closer, to feel her completely, and believe that she was in my arms right now for real. She did not mind that. My body was positively responding and I felt alive after a long time. Her face began to glow it seemed. A wave of warmth washed over me, seeing her face. Her features now softened, as we both calmed down in each other's arms.
"Just this moment please. I just want you to be with me." Was all I could manage to say.
She nodded her head slightly as her eyes began to blur. That's when I realized she was on the verge of tears. That was the last thing I wanted right now. I wanted a good memory of her; a good memory of our last meeting. But this, this was not that I ever wished for. But unfortunately I was the only one because of which she was in this state.
I gently kissed her eyes, yet again surprising my own self and her as well. I was breaking all the restrains.
Kissing away her tears, I rested my forehead against hers. Breathing in her scent, capturing every bit of her movement in my senses.
"This is perfect." I murmured. She just hummed' in response.
Looking into her eyes yet again, my hands reached her neck. Holding it in place, I started closing on the only distance that kept me sane. All my self-control going down the drains. I closed my eyes, waiting for the moment to sink in. That most beautiful moment and the only hope of my existence for the next few days.
But suddenly she realised my intentions, and pulled away. Standing far from me, as if afraid of me, she held her hands in air as if in defence.
"Don't. Mr. Dixit." , was all she said before I could take in her retreating figure, fading away, leaving behind the emptiness for me, in my arms and my life as well.
The End
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