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My gosh.
That was all I could repeat as I watched today's episode. There's this new found darkness in the show (I'm not a sadist, I promise) that I love. Usually the show is a mixture of different emotions, happiness, sadness, anger, weird moments, funny moments, etc. But today all I could feel in my heart throughout the episode was this dull darkness. Everything is starting to fall apart in the show in this complex but amazing way.
I really am loving this new Sona. The one who emits her emotions no matter what. Whether it was how she doubts Ishwari likes her, to how she felt bad about not being in the picture. She's telling about her frustrations and hurt and I want more of it.
On a frustrating note (not RR, whom I hate and am annoyed at to the core) I need to talk about Dev. I don't think I've watched such an oblivious character as Dev since Iris (from The Flash) who never realized Barry loves her. For someone who raves about his bond, his "connection" to his mom, I'd think he'd figure out her by now. He's living in this world (along with Ishwari actually) where they're in his childhood and Ishwari accepts everything of his. He has this illusion in his head of that "unconditional love of a mother" that will make Ishwari love Sona as much as him. This situation is so real, because so many children think that their parents will just accept everything of theirs (not just marriage/ relationships) because that's just what parents do, they give, they sacrifice. But Dev needs to realize that they're not in his childhood anymore, where Ishwari does whatever he want, it has been many years and things have changed. He can't just assume his mom will be happy with everything of his because of "mother's love", she's a human after all. But today I think one second, just one second, he has started to realize this, that his perfect, self-sacrificing mother doesn't love something he loves.
But I also have a feeling Dev is going to change when this hits him. Not in a -oh I hate everyone because love doesn't exist, so I'm an ass now- type of guy (who has a beard, there's ALWAYS a beard). But he going to change in a different way, he's going to finally grow up.
On a positive note, I want to take a moment and just give a big hug to Bijoy. I think everyone in this world deserves a parent/guardian like Bijoy Bose. I mean, I love Asha don't get me wrong, she's a kind and caring mother but at the end of the day she just wants Sona to "settle down". But Bijoy isn't like that, he doesn't care what others think of his kids, or what should be happening to them at their age, he just cares about what they want. He breaks that stereotype of an Indian parent who just wants their son to prosper and their daughter to get married in "a good house". Bijoy right from the starting has always not been for that attitude, that -it's time to settle down Sona- type parent. He's always only and only, told Sona to do what she wants, whether that would be her becoming a doctor, to working at Dev's house, or being a relationship with Dev. I loved that scene of Sona and his today. Someone really needed to question her after the incidents of that day. I loved how he compared his marriage vs. Sona's future marriage. Asha wanted to be a housewife, she wanted to cook for her family, Bijoy never expected her to do this, and if Dev expects this, she should leave him. AMAZING. It was such an amazing moment and I only have increased my amount of respect for him through the this episode. Sona has never wanted that lifestyle, and Ishwari is making her question this. Bijoy noticed that Ishwari is making Sona question her life, well not exactly that Ishwari is doing this, but someone is making Sona question herself. And it kills me to see her trying so hard to impress her. I think Sona (and Dev) need to realize that you can't please someone who's not willing to change their POV and trying is pointless. I can't wait for Sona to stop this whole -I want to know everything you know- type attitude towards Ishwari.
Lastly, can we talk about that scene with Ishwari and the pills?! It really hit me today, as she shakily opened the bottle of sleeping pills, of what's going to happen next week. Not just the fact that she is going to attempt to suicide, but also of how this whole situation is impacting her so much. I've been so annoyed and angry with her that I didn't realize how much this all might be impacting her. She's living in the past, where Dev is her son and he loves her, and her only. She needs to realize he's not ten anymore, he doesn't need her to hold his hand anymore, he's grown up. He has fallen for someone, and the day she finally accepts the reality that her son isn't just a son anymore, but a boyfriend/future husband of someone, I think things will finally work out for everyone.
All in all, sad, but amazing episode! I want more of this type of episodes where there's no ridiculous drama, but real and harsh problems that people are living with in the real world. Sorry for another super long post but I just loved the episode sooo much!
Kabhi Neem Neem Kabhi Shahad Shahad
