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Heylo!
Well, this is STRICTLY for -Ravjot- as it was her dream or shall I say request that I write a Song-Fic for her. So please note, that this is just a beginner Song-Fic, as Ravs's actual B-Day gift will be coming this week...hopefully if the virus thing is NOT true.😭
And secondly, I would like to clap my hands for all the Song-Fic writers out there👏, I cannot write a Song-Fic and lemme warn you, and I would like to clap my hands because you guys did an amazing job, so please let me off as a beginniner😳
Thank you🤗
~*~
Kab se usko dondhta hoon
Bheegi palko se yahan
Ab na jane woh kahan hai
Tha jo mera aashiyan
Bheegi palko se yahan
Ab na jane woh kahan hai
Tha jo mera aashiyan
I walk on an unknown road, tears rolling down my eyes, as I remember the moments that I had spent with the love of my life, Heer. Heer, with whom I was not able to live in peace with. Heer, who meant everything to me. The one, who told me the difference between a house and a home. The one who decided to start a life with me from stratch. Everything was fading away know. Away from my eyes, away from me, as I walk around with the name tag of Gaurav Sharma. It is a pain to be not able to tell Heer anything and on top of that, I am alone. Without her support. Tears stream down my eyes, as I kick a rock that was in my way.
Aaaaaaaaa'.
Kab se usko dondhta hoon
Bhegi palko se yahan
Ab na jane woh kahan hai
Tha jo mera aashiyan
Bhegi palko se yahan
Ab na jane woh kahan hai
Tha jo mera aashiyan
Babuji, Preet, Veera, Meher, Harman, Ma..Kulraaj di, Jiju...and Heer. The ones that made up my Ashiyaan. I am forced to go away from them, just cus I promised someone else...God, that I would be at his door step soon. I was saved from death to be more closer to death. This death is much worst then the death, I was to recieve on that day. I am dying every moment here, but there, I would have been gone, in just a puff of smoke. Why? I shout. Why? Why was I saved from death in order to be more closer to it? I question God. Why?
Rabba mere mujhko batha, haaiiieee
De mujhe kyon yeh sazaa
Aab sare bandhan todh ke
Yaadon ko tanha chod ke
Mein ghum se rista jod ke
Jaoon Kahan
De mujhe kyon yeh sazaa
Aab sare bandhan todh ke
Yaadon ko tanha chod ke
Mein ghum se rista jod ke
Jaoon Kahan
Why did you punish me so cruely? Why did you make me alive so I could come back to Heer, and tell her that I am dying? Why? Where should I go now? It would hurt Heer if I told her my truth, the fact that I will die, but at the same time, why shouldn't I? It would give her time to prepare for my death...wouldn't it?
Aab sare bandhan todh ke
Yaadon ko tanha chod ke
Mein ghum se rista jod ke
Jaoon Kahan
Yaadon ko tanha chod ke
Mein ghum se rista jod ke
Jaoon Kahan
ohhhh'. maaaaahiiiiyaaaannnn
Where should I go now? My family has already been through alot, haven't they? They have already been through the pain of my death, and what if they have to face it again? What about Heer? She is already living the life of my unmarried widow...and finally, if I tell her the truth now, she will consider herself, married...and then her dream will break again.. I question my heart, soul and mind as I walk along the wide deserted open road, with no idea of my destination.
Ek chota sa jahan tha
Chand khushiyon se bhara
Usko mujhse cheen kar hai
Mil gaya tujhko bhi kya
Chand khushiyon se bhara
Usko mujhse cheen kar hai
Mil gaya tujhko bhi kya
Ohhooo'
Ek chota sa jahan tha
Chand khushiyon se bhara
Usko mujhse cheen kar hai
Mil gaya tujhko bhi kya
Ek chota sa jahan tha
Chand khushiyon se bhara
Usko mujhse cheen kar hai
Mil gaya tujhko bhi kya
I reflect on my past memories of Juneja family. Chori chori cigarette peena, babuji aur Preet ki nok jhok. Mine and Heer's eye talks...our hand gestures...the moment that I had learnt to stand up for myself, for Heer against the whole world, including my father. The proposal, the engagment...everything. What did you get by doing all this? Huh God? WHY? Why ME? I question again, my heart aching from all the pain. Unbearable.
Aab hai fakat sirf jaan
Kar dun mein woh bhi aata
Kar dun mein woh bhi aata
Aab sare bandhan todh ke
Yaadon ko tanha chod ke
Mein ghum se rista jod ke
Jaoon Kahan
Yaadon ko tanha chod ke
Mein ghum se rista jod ke
Jaoon Kahan
Aab sare bandhan todh ke
Yaadon ko tanha chod ke
Mein ghum se rista jod ke
Jaoon Kahan
Yaadon ko tanha chod ke
Mein ghum se rista jod ke
Jaoon Kahan
Now YOU have to show me a way to deal with this mess. You listen to that, now YOU have to show my a way thorough all this un-needed mess. I tried to break all my relationships with Heer, being Gaurav Sharma, but it didn't work. Our relations are strong as ever...you you have to show me a way.
Waqt ke kitne nishaan hai
Zarre zarre mein yahan
Doston ke saath ke pal
Kuch haseen kuch gumjayda
Zarre zarre mein yahan
Doston ke saath ke pal
Kuch haseen kuch gumjayda
Waqt ke kitne nishaan hai
Zarre zarre mein yahan
Doston ke saath ke pal
Kuch haseen kuch gumjayda
Zarre zarre mein yahan
Doston ke saath ke pal
Kuch haseen kuch gumjayda
Tears stream doing my moist eyes again, as I remember the times with my brothers, who were well known to be my friends. The football game, the trophy...that were who we were. We were THE Winners.
Sab hua aab toh fanna
Bas raha baki dhuaan
Bas raha baki dhuaan
Everything is ruined now. We don't have no more of those moments, only memories...and they will eventually fade away...with me. Die as soon as I die...again.
Aab sare bandhan todh ke
Yaadon ko tanha chod ke
Mein ghum se rista jod ke
Jaoon Kahan
Yaadon ko tanha chod ke
Mein ghum se rista jod ke
Jaoon Kahan
Aab sare bandhan todh ke
Yaadon ko tanha chod ke
Mein ghum se rista jod ke
Jaoon Kahan
Yaadon ko tanha chod ke
Mein ghum se rista jod ke
Jaoon Kahan
Why did I have to come back again? I don't want to cause no more pain. No more. But they are happy. They are happy seeing me. They are happy knowning that I am with them, supporting them...but what? What shall I do to make thier pain of loosing me, again feel less? What? Where should I go, that the pain in them will erase and they will start to hate me to make thier life much easier?
Kab se usko dondhta hoon
Bhegi palko se yahan
Ab na jane woh kahan hai
Tha jo mera aashiyan
Bhegi palko se yahan
Ab na jane woh kahan hai
Tha jo mera aashiyan
I turn around and start to walk back to my house. Remembering all the moments that I had spent with my family. My family...my happiness was indeed lost. Lost in the river of sorrows. They say that with every happiness, there are sorrows, and here, with me, that is their happiness are a bucket full of sorrows. I am the happiness for them just like I am the sorrow aswell.
Rabba mere mujhko batha, haaiiieee
De mujhe kyon yeh sazaa
Aab sare bandhan todh ke
Yaadon ko tanha chod ke
Mein ghum se rista jod ke
Jaoon Kahan
De mujhe kyon yeh sazaa
Aab sare bandhan todh ke
Yaadon ko tanha chod ke
Mein ghum se rista jod ke
Jaoon Kahan
Why did you punish me like this? Please answer me. Why did you punish me and my Heer like this? Why did you punish my family like this? Why did you punish my ma? My babuji? "Koi answer hai?" I say, in digust. "Hai koi answer? That you can tell me why you punished me like this?"
Aab sare bandhan todh ke
Yaadon ko tanha chod ke
Mein ghum se rista jod ke
Jaoon Kahan
Yaadon ko tanha chod ke
Mein ghum se rista jod ke
Jaoon Kahan
I come back and stare at the Juneja House, biting my lip as I swallow my sorrow, staring at the house, that was once filled with my happiness, the house that had seen everything from angry faces, to smiling ones, to sad ones. This is my house, it will always be...even if I don't stay here for long. It will always be one of my best memories, I tell myself, before I enter the house.
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BAD!! I know. It is really bad but I am soooooooooooo sorry😳
I am sooo sorry, this is my first or probably my last time writing this😳
~Shifu
