I just found this story in 1 of the website..and thought of sharing it with all of my IF frens.This is a real story of a girl named Sapana..but i am not sure if she is still alive or dead.Read it..its really very touching and after reading donot forget to comment how u felt after reading it.š
HERE IT BEGINS...(ITS ALL ABOUT THE DARKER SIDE OF LIFE..)
I have never thought that this would happen to me.Just few years ago my life was full of fun and entertainment ..bunking colledge and enjoying movies,running away from hostel at nite and enjoying parties were my daily routine.Today when i walk through the way of my colledge i remember those days when i was there..those were the most cherish moments of my life.When i was at that stage i was a young teenage girl and i was unknown to the darker side of life.Its true that i am still at my teenage but today i had understood how hard is it to live and it is even not easy to die.Today i am a mother ..but still i cannot let my child to come in this world coz..god had already fixed my date to say good bye to this world..i donot have more than 2 to 3 yrs to be in this world.I donot want my child to be an orphan..nor i have any prove to show this world his father..and above all i donot want my child to be a guest in this world..coz before he could understand and enjoy this life ,he have to leave it forever coz i am an AIDS victim.
I am thousands miles apart from my family..I even donot know if my dead body will reach my hometown or not ....??? and i even donot have guts to return back home after all this.Today..i donot curse at myself that i fell in love with someone who was an aids victim but still i thank him..for the love he have given me and for letting me know how it feels to to loved.Today he is no more in this earth but wherever he is..i just want him to know that i do love him alot and would like to thank him for everything..
When i was a kid..i always used to dream about my family and my world..but i am soo unfortunate that i am going to die before hearning anyone calling me'mom' 'wife'and so on.Although i could give up anything to see my child just once..i cannot let him come in this world.He is still breathing inside me..and i can feel him but i cannot tolerate the fact that i will never be able to see him.For the last time i am feeling him inside me coz tomorrow he will not be a part of my body.I am left with no option..expect abortation.I am sorry my child...forgive me if u can..
Every day before going to bed i fear...wht if i wonot see the next day..although i even donot want to live anymore.
I donot know how can i express my sarrows in words .But i can say 1 thing that although my life started here in earth ..it will end only the day when i will see my child and my love up there in heaven. ššš
