His Shining Star and The Man She Owns.

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"I will choose my friends. Because I need to protect them...like you protect me. You're my shining star."

Aa tujhe inn baahon mein bhar ke aur bhi kar loon main kareeb

Tu juda ho toh age hain aata jaata har pal ajeeb

Iss jahaan mein hai aur na hoga mujhasa koi khushnaseeb

Tune mujhako dil diya hai main hoon tere sabase kareeb

Manik Malhotra. This man. Once upon a time he lived his life like a King. Life and people were his territory and this man, always, completely, entirely, ruled it. He reigned, he controlled, he protected, he used, he scared but he, the man of means and power, never ever gave anybody else that power.

He'd built a cage around him. Once hurt, once beaten, once harmed, once bloodied, once torn apart, he placed barriers between himself and the world that lived outside. You could see him but you could never touch him. You could like him, you could fear him, but you could never go near. If you tried, he'd burn you hard and fast.

And then she came. With her smile and with her fireflies. A small little girl who didn't even reach his shoulders. Who could've ever thought?

But miracles happened.

Magic did, too.

Or maybe, or maybe, it wasn't a miracle.

It was inevitable.

It was fate.

It was his fate.

She was his fate.

That little firefly pushed pass his barriers and demanded, she roared and she claimed and she demanded. Give it to me. All of you. everything. Not a part to be left, not a memory to be hidden. I want it, I want all of you. The good and the bad. Give me your worse, give me your best, give me your life, give me your past, and give me your future.

But he couldn't do it. It had taken him years, his armors were built of steel. To give someone that power over you? To open yourself to vulnerability? To let someone have the ultimate power to crush you? To step back and take an equal? To be open to wounds and pain and...and life?

But she didn't ask him. She took it from him and she proved to him.

She made him smile. She made him care. She made him live. She made him love.

Sometimes, you are so filled with love, so full of it, that you don't even realize that it's breathing through your lungs, it's coming out in your breathes, it's beating in your heart, it fills your eyes when she isn't near, it breaks you when she wouldn't be there.

Sometimes, love is so beyond your capabilities of loving, it possesses you. It doesn't need vocalizing. It bleeds in your actions and your words.

And, it bled from his soul, it bled in his words, it bled from his eyes, it stormed them, it stopped her from leaving. It shone so hard and so bright.

The man who found his solace in stars. Stars who were millions of miles away from him, stars who could never be touched, never be blemished, never be hurt, never be taken from him, stars whose light companied him in the darkest of nights, stars who gave him hope, his sanity, who filled him with life, stars, who were his most loved possession, the only and only one, to whom he looked up. He made her his stars.

He didn't just tell her you protect me.

He tore apart his barriers and showed her the wounded heart that was capable and ready to love again.

He tore apart his cage and showed her the man who nobody could've ever ever touched because he never gave anyone the power.

He showed her the man who reigned like a King but was lonely like a beggar.

He got on his knees, bent his head low, lowered his guards, and gave to her what nobody ever ever could've gotten.

What he'd vowed to never give.

The power over him. The power over Manik Malhotra.

He gave it to her in a heartbeat in that moment. For she is, his shining star, she'll protect him. Not from the world, she'll protect him from his ownself. She'll protect him from the darkness that resides inside him, whom he battles every day. She'll protect him, just because...just because, he's hers to protect. He belongs to her. She owns him.

To the world, he's Manik Malhotra the invincible. They see him from far and gush, and love, and want him.

But only she knows the man who lives inside. The man no girl can ever handle or understand in his complex entirety.

The man who's not easy to be with.

The man who can hurt you.

And that is the man she loves.

And that's why he belongs to her, and only and only her.

He'll protect her too, he'll die for her, he'll kill for her, he'll slay himself for her, he'll love her like nobody has ever done, he'll melt for her, he'll smile for her, he'll bend for her, he'll hurt for her, he'll laugh for her, and he will, this man, so scared and hesitant, he will love for her.

With her.

Like nobody's ever done.

He won't let the fireflies ever go away.

He won't let the world harm her.

And she won't.

She won't let him harm his ownself.

It's not the Monster she's afraid of. It's the man who lives inside. That man who's so vulnerable, so selfless, so lost, so in need and that is the man she'll protect. She'll protect him from his ownself.

And if that's not love then what is?

To give someone the ultimate power over you. if that's not love then what is?

Is love only love when it vocalizes?

Or is it love when it bleeds from your soul?

When you wrap your arms around someone and hold them like they're life?

Is that not love?

Simply loving. Is that not love?

If he doesn't love her more than himself then I don't know what love is.

Because, Manik Malhotra, the man of steel, laid low and gifted her the most precious gift he could've ever given her.

He gave her himself. He gave her complete and utter control.

He became hers.

If that's not love then what is?

Tu hi haqeeqat khaab tu, dariya tu hi pyaas tu Tu hi dil ki bekaraari tu sukun tu sukun Jaau main abb jab jis jagah paau main tujhako uss jagah Saath hoke na ho tu hai rubaru rubau Tu hamsafar tum hamkadam tu hamnawa mera

DEDICATED TO MY FIREFLIES <33 Ilovesyouall kay <33

RIDA

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Posted: 10 years ago
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Bhool jao that I am editing. 🤣
Reply turned itna bada that it will need a post of its own 🤣

But let me tell you THAT I LOVE YOU, ALL OF YOU. Bas. End of the story. I be loving you even in our divorce period. ❤️
Edited by Flame.Of.Rose - 10 years ago
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Rida, you beautiful creature, this was so lovely to read. I don't think anyone writes Manik as you do.

You know, 'love' is a strange word between these two. They don't say it to each other, they don't even admit it to themselves in private, but when they think love, they think of each other. And Manik? His love is simple. He loves her with his childhood's faith. He loves her with all the tears he never could shed, and he loves her with all the smiles he never found before her. He loves her with the loneliness he'd never admit to, not even to himself. And he loves her with all the love he seemed to have lost.

So maybe he'll say the word to her one day. Or maybe not. But he'll love her by conscience, and he'll love her by choice. She'll know anyway.
Edited by BoxedIn - 10 years ago
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RES (because I'm tempted to😳)
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First I louuu you for those lyrics. This be one of my all-time favorite songs

Manik saying that Nandini is his star, she is the one who protects him carries so many levels of meaning. For me, it's more than saying I love you'..kill me for saying this but I don't want a confession for now, I don't need one. I feel like the word 'love' is so overused and overanalyzed from time to time that it has somewhat lost the depth, the meaning it originally used to have. I try but often can't associate this overused concept of 'love' with MaNan, because what they have is too profound, too soothing, too beautiful. Manik has a hard time associating the feeling of 'love' with Nandini, but he can associate her with the stars, and I feel through that he gives her more than any person can give their love. He gives her his trust, his dreams, his wishes, he gives himself , because apart from music and Fab5, stars are probably the only thing that defines Manik. For Fab5 he is the protector, the savior; for Nandini, he is just that Manik. Nandini only has the power to make him and break him. He realizes that. He is vulnerable that way to her, and he knows that. Maybe Nandini did too, but she needed that assurance for once. Just like Genie has said in her reply, she didn't want him to choose. She knows how important friendship is to Manik, she herself has admitted it's the first good thing she had noticed in him. She'd never want Manik to let go of his friends because she herself values friendship too much. She just wanted to know what she really means to him, what is her place in his life. She wanted to know whether everything she had felt was real or just something her mind deluded herself into believing. And the way Manik has reinstated her belief through those words, baring himself in front of her, the way he hasn't and probably won't do for anybody else is what makes this unconfessed-confession so, so special to me.

And your words Rida, your words...even you don't know what gem of a post you've written 🤗I love you for this post because I can never say enough to express the beauty of the MaNan scenes today *gushes again* but your post says it all.
Edited by rubys07 - 10 years ago
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Hats off buddy...the intensity in your writing...is tremendous...keep it up...more posts like this...👏
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Posted: 10 years ago
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Kamini , thanks for making me cry again


What Can I say? They have come a long long long way from throwing eggs to giving her the power over him , their journey has been beautiful 😳
Who could have ever thought that Manik would confess that she had power of him, he can be Messiah to everyone else but he himself needs a Messiah to save him from himself, the darkness inside him which can be so consuming and dangerous
No wonder Nandu joined the revenge plan to save Manik from himself, she became his star literally because she gave him that star lamp and also metaphorically because she calmed him down and made him face his fears "Jab tumhare sath hota hun toh andhere se darr nahi lagta"
The person who controls others is controlled by her! And I am so glad that they had this talked before the "I love you" confession. She needed something to assure about her presence in his life and he equated her with his star..the one thing which gave him hope and happiness even during dark phases of his life..that is what her effect is in his life
She is star thats why when he was stuck in that dark drama room she came to rescue him with a flashlight 😳
And they ended this beautiful confession with the perfect hug- the solace, the comfort and the happiness which they find in each others arms
Their safe Haven ❤️
"who could ever love a beast"? And yet we have this simple, innocent girl filled with light and happiness piercing through his dark world and brining out the innate goodness
"pata nahi jab mai tumhare sath hota hai toh..i just change"

"pagal ajeeb hota hai but pyaar toh aisa hi hota hai" "Yeh ishq nahi aasan bas itna samjh lo ki aag ka dariya hai aur doob ke jana hai"

And to all my baes in the AT 🤗
Thank you for making me fall in love again and again with MaNan with your words
Edited by -MKB- - 10 years ago
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Posted: 10 years ago
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UFF Rida...
Can't help falling in love with you...
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I was thinking about this..one meaningful interaction and the forum gets flooded by such amazing writing. Hope the cvs appreciate what a REAL STORY can do.

While I was reading your post I was thinking about the scene where he tells her that this was all a setup and turns away from her. Then he says " to rokh lo Na mujhe", it hit me today the poignancy of those words...

He has to choose his friends above all else because that's who he is but only as long as she understands,stays,watches over him. His weakness becomes his strength because she has to UNDERSTAND. She would never understand till he TELLS her that he comes with limitations,with strings attached,with responsibilities and fears.

The first time he chooses his friend over her,she doesn't KNOW that she is his lucky charm, his amulet,his STAR. She will hence perceive it as a choice not a necessity. But the moment he admitted his fallibility and gave her the REIGNS, his necessity becomes a part of THEIR combined existence.

Well played CVs...Musicana just became a little bearable.

Manik and Nandu are not soul mates ( detest that connotation) neither are they the fix or the perfect solution. They are so imperfect,asynchronous,jagged...it is the perfect relationship because they allow for these human failings and accept it.


Edited by annboleyn - 10 years ago
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I might just die out of dedications. Aaahhh! And this post made me so proud of you bae! You be my star, just there shining and shielding and protecting :'D
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Posted: 10 years ago
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beyond beautiful...the episode, your writting.

Res
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DAMN IT. YOU HAVE WAPP NA. MSG KARTHI. I WOULD HAVE GOTTEN FIRST PLACE.
I H8 U4eve.

Ahem

Res.

-edit-

When I was watching the epi, I was thinking gosh Rida needs to make a post #legit. And you did so #jumpingtwirlhug :')

What can I even say about this episode? That it was amazing? That it was poignant? That it was oh so heart warming? That it made me cry and smile and everything in between? 'Cause it was all this and so much more.

CVs love us. Let me start with that first. All of us have for word to word discussed this MaNan conversation. So CVs I heart you. Thank you. I needed this conversation to happen. And it did and I'm so #canteven

I loved so many things about this episode. Nandini's who's this for and Manik's sly for Soha. The cat and mouse which followed. So MaNan. Such breezy, easy,flowing chemistry.

And yet a simple touch leaves them breathless. Cue swoon.

I swear I LOLed so hard when he asked so what are you going to do with me. Ahem.🤣

The rest of it. The heartbreaking, beautiful perfection of a conversation? I don't think I can justify it with paltry complements.

I'm scared of you says Nandini to Manik. She wasn't scared of the monster. She was scared of Manik. And you could see it genuinely shook him. Then she asked questions, such difficult question. You were never sorry for leaving. She was broken.

But Manik. He's broken too. Always taking care of others. Never caring for himself. That's who he is. And he told her this. And it was beautiful.

Ask me why.

You're my protector.

I was slayed. I was left breathless. The emotion that shown across his eyes. I need you to protect me. Care for me.

MaNan are my babies. Their vulnerability was so palpable today.

Your post was so good it left me as breathless as the episode. Thanks for giving me place to fangirl :') ILYSM.


Edited by Firebolt - 10 years ago

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