Some looked for it, some asked for it, some got it.
Peace.
Calm.
A break from the tumult of emotions which just wouldn't go away.
Okay, I think I am abandoning the RagBir ship. I should've seen it coming, Raghav is the older guy, the guy who has seen the world, who knows the prejudices and hatred in the eyes of the society for people who defy the norms of society. His fear of getting caught, I could see that. But I love Cabir, I understand him more than Raghav because I've seen everything from his eyes. His fear, his want of freedom, his wish for basic right to love and love freely. I don't know Raghav the way I know Cabir. Which means I don't empathize with Raghav the way I do so with Cabir.
Today they seemed so problematic to me. Raghav wanting to tie Cabir down, to keep him hidden; I said this before. It was right as I had predicted. Raghav has spent his life in the shadows and he likes it there, he wants to keep hiding there. Cabir doesn't. Just the mere thought of being shunned away, to be left to spend his life in shadows has scared him all his life. He wants to break free, he wants freedom. His talk with Manik gave him hope that it need not be what he fears. Manik assured him that he will be free, he will be accepted, he won't be left alone. Cabir clung to that because hope is what lonely people need the most. And he wanted to share that hope with Raghav. It was only right for him to do so. But Raghav, as I said, he's more of a worldly person. He doesn't have the "rose tinted" glasses that Cabir has. Raghav has so long ago left any hope of being fully accepted for what he is that just the mere mention of assurance ke all will be well, it has him shaking his head in disgust.
Once again, brilliant writing by the writers. By giving us Cabir, a young person with more broadened vision, and pairing him with Raghav, an elder guy who has long forsaken his youthful thinking, we can get to see the two clashing perspectives regarding the homosexual community. The people who have faced disgust all their life, they no longer want anything to do with the normal society. But the younger ones, they have begun to see acceptance. For them, acceptance and equal rights don't seem like a dream. And they want to believe that. They want to believe that they will be supported and accepted. Cabir is that. Raghav is former.
But still, I don't quite support Raghav with Cabir. Unless Raghav is ready to let Cabir fly and not force his thinking and perspective on him, I don't think they can ever have a happy ending. This might seem surprising coming from me, who has always liked the idea of RagBir and was the happiest to see them confirmed, but ideas are always different from reality. And the reality is that RagBir, at this point, are problematic. Unless two people have equal say in a relationship, it can't he successful. Any relationship where one overpowers the other and the other willingly lets that person do so, it's not what I personally like to see.
How adorable was Cabir with his mother today? He got the support of his family and friends, both in one day. Of course now he'd want to work to break free. But right now he's in conflict. On one side, there's hope of acceptance. On the other side, there's fact of being shunned. One roots itself in the future, the other roots from past examples. Tough times are ahead for him.
Harshad...thankfully I didn't hate him SO much today. He can be a crap person but the guy is an observant and caring brother. And sibling relationships have always warmed me. The sense of security which a brother brings in a sister's life, it's something I hold very dear. I like Alya-Harshad's conversation. Harshad giving Alya ideas in dhake chupe alfaaz, it was quite nice to see. But I still don't like the way Harshad has gone so blind in his hatred for Fab5. How can he separate Alya from them? I agree, I chuckled at his reckless audacity when he confessed so calmly that the troubles in her life are due to him, but c'mon dude! Your sister would be broken too if anything happens to Fab5. Either he doesn't care too much or he knows that Alya will pull through.
As for Alya, I don't think I'll blame her for whatever she's going to do, pushing Dhruv towards Nandu. As someone said on the forum, Alya doesn't have any definite goal in her mind. She is too used to being by Manik's side that she can't imagine her life without him. I am glad that she hasn't gone on a self-destruct mode, she has taken this breakup quite well considering her. I wish it continues. I think I can forgive her scheming ways...for now. They can go a bit extreme as seen in the past but meh, anything for some drama 😆
Dhruv, my baby, you brought this upon yourself. Stalking Nandini's FB, really? He's so bound by his promise to not have anything to do with her that he can't even like her pic without thinking 100 times about it. Granted that Alya's call interrupted him but c'mon yaar! You are going deeper with every passing moment. Cabir ain't the only one with tough times ahead.
Manik...
MaNan.
*sigh*
Look at how far my babies have come <3
I loved how frustrated he was, with so many things going on in his mind and no one who he could talk to. Not Dhruv, not Alya, not Mukti. Because he knew this secret was not his to share with them. But it was too heavy for him. So who came next? Spot. His reluctance to bother her was only for a second, he was back in his ziddi mode in a jiffy.
Nandini is not the one who gives in so easily to him. I love this fact about her that unless she wants to, unless she's warmed up enough, she never gives in. She never initiates. She either assumes or senses, and then she replies.
Manik totally twisted the "Standing Beneath Your Window" trope xD Had the windows not have bars, I am sure he pakka would've landed in her room. But he just stood there, not even picking her call, not listening to any of her pleas. No, Manik gets what he wants. And Manik right now needed some peace. And he knew that she gives him peace. He can rage on her or he can listen to her, but she gives him peace either way.
Today when he held her hand to stop her from going and she struggled to free herself, I said to myself that if she'd stop looking at his hand which held her arm and looked at his face, she would pakka never struggle again. Today he seemed so desperate when she wanted to leave, he just wanted to make her stay. He wanted to speak, he wanted to listen, and he wanted it all with her only.
The hug, as we had predicted, it was a comforting hug rather than a passionate one. But god, I loved it. I loved the way he felt at ease right from the moment he held her. I love the way she was so shocked at his action. And the way she gave in. Her arms, stopping at first, then moving slowly. Upwards. Around him. The way he flinched when he felt her hands on him and the ease turned to something more...happy. She hugged him back, closing her eyes and finding her place on his shoulder. The way they stood there, finding peace, getting it, from each other.
There, it didn't matter if it was acceptable or not. It just felt right. It was like finding home. The place where no troubles lived and where the world seemed a better, beautiful place. And when the magic broke, I loved how there was no guilt. She always pushes him away, the camera lingering on her hand which gently touched his chest to push him away..it seemed so significant. We've always seen her pushing him away, and him going away at that. I await the day she'll pull him close and he wouldn't go away.
These two, they never talk about whatever happens between them. They didn't talk today either. He chose to walk away, she chose to remain standing. But regardless of them not talking, they do affect each other. They won't admit it, they won't say it, but to them what the other says, it matters.
7 AM. He was there.
(long one and a bit late but expect that from now on xD Actually, load shedding timings have changed so I am without net for an hour but I do have a lappy on which I can type but I can't post. So freely I typed this all. Ab bhugto :P
Also, I didnt know my topics were this much appreciated! :O Truly people, I am super touched by your appreciation! <3)
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