Soul Talk..................

Jodha Begum how did you even think that I will live a life without you? Do you think I will be happy with your sacrifice and enjoy? Then you are wrong, I know you are stubborn and always have your way, but not this time. If you still insist on leaving me here in this barn land all alone and plan to enjoy a peaceful life away in an angel's land on your own (without me), that will not happen. I will be on your toes and you can't stop me. Then how will you claim you fulfilled your promise of saving your husband's life? And how do you think you will have the peace of mind when you have robbed mine? It's a deal, either you come back or I will follow you. I have decided, I will be with you, dead or alive

Shehensha, this is not fair. You can't dictate the terms even now. I have crossed the thresholds of the earthen life and in the entrance of the heaven. It is not that easy to come back. In daze of not being anted and with the satisfaction of fulfilling my duty as a wife, I had the strength to walk into this unknown land. Now when I am about to enter it for good, please don't tell all these words of belongingness and make my resolution weak. I am exhausted and feeling hollow and resource less. More over what is the point in coming back when I have no reason to. Please Shehensha, I had enough and I can't take any more stress, please relieve me from this entire bond. Unless you stop calling me, I may not be able to move ahead and it pains like hell to be stranded...

Jodha begum if not for me and y words, you will have to come back since it is Gods wish. It may not be easy but it is not IMPOSIBLE. Hence Jodha Begum, I can't live without you. You have robbed me of my death and now you can't rob me of my life. You are my life and without you, how do you expect me to live. If love has the strength, then you have that from me and I want you to come back to me with that sheer strength. I am waiting and also tired, need some rest but can't have it till you are with me. Have some mercy on me and grace me some rest.

How can a merciless man ask for mercy? Had you showed mercy on me when you waged war on Amer and asked me as a token of treaty to release my brothers and give some freedom to my land? When you were merciless, why should I show you mercy?

Jodha Begum who said I took you as symbol of my victory on Amer? You are wrong. Jodha Begum, I fought that war for your sake. There was no need for me to occupy the small Amer to show my grandeur. I just fought and won that war, so that I can get you. Yes Jodha Begum, "I had lost myself on the very first day I saw you behind the veil and when I saw your face in the water on the day of Ganghor and forgot this world. But I had my fat ego which stopped me from accepting it. I was looking way and cons to get you and during that moment I heard about your intended marriage to Prince Surya Bhanu. How could I bear that? All along I had all the good things in the world and you were the BEST and how could I lose you to someone else? So as an immediate measure I waged war, won the war and got you to myself. Even now after knowing this fact, do you call me merciless?

Jodha Begum, I can't bear this silence but I can't find ways to talk to you. "When I saw you on that day, I had so many new feelings which are unknown to me. It was like a peacock dance, when it finds the dark clouds on sky. I just could not realize what it was then, but I know that now, Yes, I LOVE YOU and can't think of anything else. But How will I explain this you Jodha, my love...

No Shehenshah, there is no need for you to explain that now. I have seen your wishes and feelings through your expressive eyes. I respect your wishes as they are my commands and reciprocate your feelings. Here I am coming back to you my dear.

Originally posted by: deejagi

Jodha Begum how did you even think that I will live a life without you? Do you think I will be happy with your sacrifice and enjoy? Then you are wrong, I know you are stubborn and always have your way, but not this time. If you still insist on leaving me here in this barn land all alone and plan to enjoy a peaceful life away in an angel's land on your own (without me), that will not happen. I will be on your toes and you can't stop me. Then how will you claim you fulfilled your promise of saving your husband's life? And how do you think you will have the peace of mind when you have robbed mine? It's a deal, either you come back or I will follow you. I have decided, I will be with you, dead or alive

Shehensha, this is not fair. You can't dictate the terms even now. I have crossed the thresholds of the earthen life and in the entrance of the heaven. It is not that easy to come back. In daze of not being anted and with the satisfaction of fulfilling my duty as a wife, I had the strength to walk into this unknown land. Now when I am about to enter it for good, please don't tell all these words of belongingness and make my resolution weak. I am exhausted and feeling hollow and resource less. More over what is the point in coming back when I have no reason to. Please Shehensha, I had enough and I can't take any more stress, please relieve me from this entire bond. Unless you stop calling me, I may not be able to move ahead and it pains like hell to be stranded...

Jodha begum if not for me and y words, you will have to come back since it is Gods wish. It may not be easy but it is not IMPOSIBLE. Hence Jodha Begum, I can't live without you. You have robbed me of my death and now you can't rob me of my life. You are my life and without you, how do you expect me to live. If love has the strength, then you have that from me and I want you to come back to me with that sheer strength. I am waiting and also tired, need some rest but can't have it till you are with me. Have some mercy on me and grace me some rest.

How can a merciless man ask for mercy? Had you showed mercy on me when you waged war on Amer and asked me as a token of treaty to release my brothers and give some freedom to my land? When you were merciless, why should I show you mercy?

Jodha Begum who said I took you as symbol of my victory on Amer? You are wrong. Jodha Begum, I fought that war for your sake. There was no need for me to occupy the small Amer to show my grandeur. I just fought and won that war, so that I can get you. Yes Jodha Begum, "I had lost myself on the very first day I saw you behind the veil and when I saw your face in the water on the day of Ganghor and forgot this world. But I had my fat ego which stopped me from accepting it. I was looking way and cons to get you and during that moment I heard about your intended marriage to Prince Surya Bhanu. How could I bear that? All along I had all the good things in the world and you were the BEST and how could I lose you to someone else? So as an immediate measure I waged war, won the war and got you to myself. Even now after knowing this fact, do you call me merciless?

Jodha Begum, I can't bear this silence but I can't find ways to talk to you. "When I saw you on that day, I had so many new feelings which are unknown to me. It was like a peacock dance, when it finds the dark clouds on sky. I just could not realize what it was then, but I know that now, Yes, I LOVE YOU and can't think of anything else. But How will I explain this you Jodha, my love...

No Shehenshah, there is no need for you to explain that now. I have seen your wishes and feelings through your expressive eyes. I respect your wishes as they are my commands and reciprocate your feelings. Here I am coming back to you my dear.

Originally posted by: skanda12

Oh my God, Jaya! What a moving piece of writing!

You know what, Jaya, it has always been my secret wish that he "fell for her even before Amer" and all the rest of bull crap about revenge and panga and all that doesn't wash as the truth.

I want to thank you for this post because in my heart I love the idea that HE WENT TO AMER IN THE FIRST PLACE ONLY TO SEEK OUT THIS REGISTAAN K GULAB that he was already in love with subconsciously ... and he went to Amer to somehow and make her his own!

I want to believe that he went to Amer because destiny pulled at his heartstrings.

I want to believe that it was not even "love at first sight" it was "love even before the first sight" ... like two souls that were already belonging to each other in another birth re-incarnated as Jodha and Jalal and found their way towards each other!

Thanks for this lovely, lovely post.

Whenever there is a crappy episode of separation of angst between them, I am going to bookmark you page ... so that I can return to it and see why I signed up for this love story in the first place!

Hi jaya ,

And you did it again, well to start with ,i believe all of us, every human being has a heart and yearning for love of all kinds . We try to ask for and accommodate all kinds of love we get from parents , kids, siblings,relatives , friends ,even from strangers and what tops the list the love of your lover .
This is what reflects in your piece , the love of your companion makes you come alive and gives you a new definition all together ,more so when we are talking of 16th century when the way of life depended upon relations.

If this story was set in today's times we would not have gasped as much when jalal talked to jodha'a soul but we watched with our watery eyes glued to our tv set and mouths open.Jalal knows now tht he loves her and he felt a nudge towards her since the time he heard her name and lost himself when he saw her for the first time but back then she was just an object and now she is all but an object to him. She is his life , the reason he wants to live and thus asks her to believe him and the words of confession now and not the ones said in dismissal and anger of his ego being hurt.


He wants her to know tht , he has left all that behind to go to the next level of love and compassion for her .Yesterday too he knew that he(his soul) had done his best ,given her enough reason to come back but without his prajas prayers on his side he was weak and could not have fought gods will, he thus thanked god for listening to one and all and also to hs praja which made god return her to him. He thanked them because he knew tht his reasoning would not be enough to get back his love,he needed those prayer to partly please god too...

Jaya , why i love your take is because it has all that needs to be said ,conversations between the people, there remains nothing to analyze and explain after one reads you. You just sit and allow the words to sink , with the characters playing the scene in front of your eyes .

I would love you write more on such topics , something like jodha akbar diaries , something tht all of us who love the show ardently would have to cherish even after the show ends.

Thank you for such a wonderful piece , one gutter paapi and hug to you for doing so...muuuaaahhh and squiiisshhh...you go girl.

Love
Kashi

Originally posted by: ginco

Hi jaya ,

And you did it again, well to start with ,i believe all of us, every human being has a heart and yearning for love of all kinds . We try to ask for and accommodate all kinds of love we get from parents , kids, siblings,relatives , friends ,even from strangers and what tops the list the love of your lover .
This is what reflects in your piece , the love of your companion makes you come alive and gives you a new definition all together ,more so when we are talking of 16th century when the way of life depended upon relations.

If this story was set in today's times we would not have gasped as much when jalal talked to jodha'a soul but we watched with our watery eyes glued to our tv set and mouths open.Jalal knows now tht he loves her and he felt a nudge towards her since the time he heard her name and lost himself when he saw her for the first time but back then she was just an object and now she is all but an object to him. She is his life , the reason he wants to live and thus asks her to believe him and the words of confession now and not the ones said in dismissal and anger of his ego being hurt.


He wants her to know tht , he has left all that behind to go to the next level of love and compassion for her .Yesterday too he knew that he(his soul) had done his best ,given her enough reason to come back but without his prajas prayers on his side he was weak and could not have fought gods will, he thus thanked god for listening to one and all and also to hs praja which made god return her to him. He thanked them because he knew tht his reasoning would not be enough to get back his love,he needed those prayer to partly please god too...

Jaya , why i love your take is because it has all that needs to be said ,conversations between the people, there remains nothing to analyze and explain after one reads you. You just sit and allow the words to sink , with the characters playing the scene in front of your eyes .

I would love you write more on such topics , something like jodha akbar diaries , something tht all of us who love the show ardently would have to cherish even after the show ends.

Thank you for such a wonderful piece , one gutter paapi and hug to you for doing so...muuuaaahhh and squiiisshhh...you go girl.

Love
Kashi

Very romantic conversation Jaya...Yes like you say I also feel Jalal got attracted to Jo first time he saw her...but at that time he could never have imagined that the attraction would turn into love and he could not live without her...You have explained their journey so beautifully...

Wow Jaya!
I recall my M&B days. I read your post after coming out of a horrible client meeting and now everything looks bright at my end of the world.

Originally posted by: ginco

Hi jaya ,

And you did it again, well to start with ,i believe all of us, every human being has a heart and yearning for love of all kinds . We try to ask for and accommodate all kinds of love we get from parents , kids, siblings,relatives , friends ,even from strangers and what tops the list the love of your lover .
This is what reflects in your piece , the love of your companion makes you come alive and gives you a new definition all together ,more so when we are talking of 16th century when the way of life depended upon relations.

If this story was set in today's times we would not have gasped as much when jalal talked to jodha'a soul but we watched with our watery eyes glued to our tv set and mouths open.Jalal knows now tht he loves her and he felt a nudge towards her since the time he heard her name and lost himself when he saw her for the first time but back then she was just an object and now she is all but an object to him. She is his life , the reason he wants to live and thus asks her to believe him and the words of confession now and not the ones said in dismissal and anger of his ego being hurt.


He wants her to know tht , he has left all that behind to go to the next level of love and compassion for her .Yesterday too he knew that he(his soul) had done his best ,given her enough reason to come back but without his prajas prayers on his side he was weak and could not have fought gods will, he thus thanked god for listening to one and all and also to hs praja which made god return her to him. He thanked them because he knew tht his reasoning would not be enough to get back his love,he needed those prayer to partly please god too...

Jaya , why i love your take is because it has all that needs to be said ,conversations between the people, there remains nothing to analyze and explain after one reads you. You just sit and allow the words to sink , with the characters playing the scene in front of your eyes .

I would love you write more on such topics , something like jodha akbar diaries , something tht all of us who love the show ardently would have to cherish even after the show ends.

Thank you for such a wonderful piece , one gutter paapi and hug to you for doing so...muuuaaahhh and squiiisshhh...you go girl.

Love
Kashi

Aha, thanks for your jappy & puppy.

Originally posted by: skanda12

Kashi, what a lovely idea to write the Jodha Diaries! Jaya, do you think you could do that ... like a record of her private thoughts that show us glimpses of her innermost feelings every day?😲

Originally posted by: elasingh

Very romantic conversation Jaya...Yes like you say I also feel Jalal got attracted to Jo first time he saw her...but at that time he could never have imagined that the attraction would turn into love and he could not live without her...You have explained their journey so beautifully...