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Dedicating my 1111th post to My Barun!
E Baad-e-saba , Hai tujh ko pataa
Mehmaan aanewaale hai;
Kuchh tu hi bataa
Hum kisse bulaane wale hain;
Raahon mein kaliyaa na bichha
Hum Dil ko bichhaane wale hain!
With my favorite morning hot Kuppa giving warmth to my winter slumber... as the cool breeze caresses my cheeks softly...telling me a new day starts, an opportunity awaits...a hope is renewed, ... my heart races inadvertently to the dream of his coming back on our screens...A mirage that becomes a soul soaking elixir for me...an oasis for my deserts... I genuinely start believing that each heart of the forumwaasi will desire his return, will cherish his return the same way as I do... and when so many hearts wish the same thing, will the universe not grant it?
Yet there's no news of his return. Even a hint, a false hope would bring smile on our lips; but there is none...TV feels like a barren desert...the day like deserted times! ...
There are you tube videos circulating as IPK4 coming soon but they don't bring smile, they bring an exasperated anger... will these guys never tire of such things?...I let my anger dissipate a little and then ask myself, why am I cursing them? Have I, as a fan, done enough?
When IPK3 was closing, did I do anything beyond signing few petitions? Why did I not have the ardency to go and bang on the doors of star plus and demand "Give them a chance, Give US a happiness!"
Happiness in just watching this actor perform! His dialogues and his silences, his stillness and his body language, his eyes and his expressions, that hypnotic arch of his palm, the glisten of unshed tears in his eyes, sometimes the fire of unspent anger from his volcano within... an endless list about him.
On July 3rd, IPK3 was not just a mere thrill of a new show... it filled a void in the heart... it stoked new desires...it awakened dreams almost forgotten...it calmed the desert heat burning inside...it was return to the pristine love within!
And he did not let me down, he proved everything true! Just look at him!
That anger crease on his brow! the tight zipping of his lips! those smoldering eyes! They tell you there's much more to come... they convince you this story has huge potential!
He came as a dark anti-hero... that's perhaps norm nowadays in Hindi serials... Yet, in an obstinate non-watcher like me, in a jaded critic like me that urge to believe, urge to hope, urge to dream was rekindled. His anger appealed, all his wrong doings seemed justified, he connected through those god gifted eyes! Whatever they would have gone and shown as their original story, I would have believed in it, I would have hoped for his redemption some day, I would have dreamed of a magical night someday bringing the two eternal lovers together.
I ask myself "why so?" " Why only him and nobody else?" I am unable to decipher the exact answer... articulate the sudden flooding of thoughts in my mind... Then I look at some cap of his and I have all my answers!
He doesn't just open a heavy teak door of a haveli... he opens the stringently kept hidden core of his memories... there's no dialogue, a simple action...his breath sucked in, the muscles of his throat , his clavicle all pulled in... at the apprehension of facing those memories... it touches us even before we are shown those memories... so much in that one posture of his!
Why then why did I not stop, why did we all not stop 6th October becoming the last day of the show! If bashers had the strength to spread negativity around, why did we as unconditional admirers join hands and support the show in such a way that they would continue.
Why? Why does this guy fall down in his popularity rank/celebrity rank of numero uno? Why do I even allow that to happen? Is there some thing more that I can do? is there something more that all of us his fans can do?
If there is, what is it? Come , let's all join hands and discuss, let's bring a new morning that starts with Barun's new show episode!
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