Journey towards boundless silent 'sairat' love

Your friend who had a break-up comes telling you, and tells you about his/her X moving ahead in life, all with an agonising pain, you say, 'I know, its brutal'.💔

When one of the best friends, develops one sided feelings for the other, you may say, 'its brutal' 😥

Yes, It is brutal. You feel it as your heart is connected with your friend. But no one causing the brutality here. It is just one's ability pitted against other's inability (to move on) or one's feelings pitted against another's 'no- feelings'

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Virat: Is Virat, brutal with Sai? A rose petal hearted girl, with the dissonance in his words and action? I would say, no, not really. Is it brutal for Sai? Yes, I have felt her on multiple occasions. Sai's eyes, with her heart peeking through them,are like shy plant.The moment you want to read them, they just flicker and look the other way. But, a momentous peek into them tells you her heart's 🫀 story.

Aankhen bhi hoti hain dil ki zubaan

Bin bole kar deti hain

Haalat yeh pal mein bayaan

Her heart all ready to fall for this 'Kismatse mile hue Virat sir' 💫💫💫 asking him with an ache, "Are you really telling my heart to not fall for you?"💔

During the baton episode, after Virat facing his 'Sahi waqt pe galat bolanewali biwi' said, "Mei ladakipe kabhi hath nahi utha sakata.Ye tumhe pata hona chahiye", Sai's eyes were saying "Why? Why with my heart? Just because I can take on challenges, is my 'kismat' challenging my heart to not fall for this nicest, caring man in the world full of mean, lusty people?"

I have felt her eyes asking very similar question during the 'mangalsutra' scene. Her eyes searching for an answer in Virat's eyes," Are you going to let me go, after making me wear the 'mangalsutra' signifying janm-janm ka rishta? Do you really mean what you said?" 😔

My heart goes all out for Sai 💔.Yes, it is brutal but no one is causing the brutality here. One person as of now, is just able to deeply care, protect, shower unconditional love without a strong need of reciprocation. It will be natural consequence that he will have to go through the same longing and pain before having his 'Candy floss' for himself which I will not mind 🍡🍡🍡. BTW for the first time I saw, a twinkle of longing when he wanted Sai to call him without him telling her to do so🧒✋👧❤. But after that momentous flash, he went back to his unconditional care avatar again.

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Pakhi,once angrily confronted Virat, immediately after Virat-Sai marriage, "Tumhe aisa kyun lagata hai ke sabhi vahi kare jaisa tum chahate ho?", "Kabhi socha hai ke dusare kya chahate hai?"😠

Pakhi was saying it in context of Virat wanting her to marry Samrat or her accepting Virat-Sai marriage.

On face of it, it seemed to me that Virat pushes people to do what he wants. That can be one interpretation.

But more than that, I have felt that Virat has this pursuasive nature and ability to convince people to do what he wants.

But in the end Virat leaves the final decision in the hand of the decision maker. Only thing is the decision maker has to be headstrong to stand to his/her decision.

After clearly conveying his inability to marry Pakhi, He said," Aaj raat ghar pe sangeet ka function hai. Mei ummed karata hun tum aaogi"

Virat tried his best, to be by Sai's side after Aaba's death out of many reasons even after being pushed away, accused by Sai. But post one firm outburst by Sai, telling him to stay away from the last rituals, Virat did not attend any.

Similarly, after one firm denial by Sai in the hospital after his repeated request to allow him to be with her till discharge, Virat held himself back from doing so. Later he even said," Chahate hue bhi nahi aa saka, kyunki tumane mana kiya tha."

If one stands strong after his persuation, he will not force it on you but if you give him a chance, he will grab it with both his hands to turn the tide his way. There is no manipulation involved. Manipulation involves ill-will not care,love and selflessness.

Yes, if anything Virat needs to work on is, his kind of 'false consensus effect' psychology, making him think that people share the same values and make same choices as he does.

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If anything, Virat can be brutal with himself. Gulping down the ugliest, vile attacks with utmost composure.

Whenever there used to be a wedding in the house in olden times, there used be one person, who would choose to stay at home, just to look after all the treasures, belongings, and miss all the fun. I felt the same when it came to the 'Virat-Pakhi love' which Virat felt is a treasure to be preserved and protected till infinity.He took it on himself to do so, relieving everyone else to have a happy life.

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Sai: Has Sai been brutal to Virat? The soft- hearted, tough yet vulnerable young lad, with her acerbic words and accussations? Really not. She was not in right state of mind then. Was it brutal for Virat? Yes, yes and yes. It was. Being called a 'Murderer', 'Hatyara' while being an 'ACP' in front of the staff he led, by a young woman he already loves to infinity subconsciously, had shatterred him.

How much ever one tries to understand the state of mind of the person who is angry, the words, as Pakhi rightly said, "Zuban aur chaku ek jaise hote hai!", they cut the heart through and through.

We see devastated Virat, before leaving GC, while packing his bags, recalling Sai's words.

More than words, what had affected him more was Sai's 'disconnection' and Sai telling him to stay away from her.

Virat's 🫀 condition by then was,

doorie sahii jaye na

khamoshiyan yeh sah na sakou

awaz dey k mujhe tu dey ja sakoun💔💔💔

He was not able to take it. Virat had developed such a strong urge to be by Sai's side by then that he had kept even his self-respect aside, returning back to Sai, even after being pushed back repeatedly.

He was not able to handle the 'khamoshiyan' of 'disconnection', so much so that he almost burnt the 'Rose', the only sign of beautiful feeling his heart had felt in recent past as all looked barren to him.

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Neither is brutal but still it is brutal to each of them.'True love' is not easy, neither it should come easy. Each should allow to be sucked in the whirlpool of emotions created at the soul merging of two strong personalities to ultimately find themselves wandering in the paragon of boundless silent 'sairat' love in depths of their hearts! 💖💖💖

-Anamika