MILAN- The Final Destination
PART- 107
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NOTE: Whole grey text is flashback/past... Bold text is Shreya's letter, in between the text inside brackets are Geet's thoughts.
When Geet met Meera, she didn't wait much before telling. I slapped Maan.
After first not believing her ears Geet kept a hand on her mouth. Oh god! Weren't her mistakes enough that Meera was adding on to it? Why would you do that? Geet cried out.
Yeh kaise question hai? I did it because he deserved it.
No he didn't Meera. He didn't. Geet chin quivered as tears helplessly ran down her cheek. Meera slapped him that was why he was in the gym and he didn't even tell her. He was beating himself silently, didn't even think her good enough to share his pain. Why would he when she was the reason of all his agony.
Geet' Meera held her by shoulders. You were with me all these years. Nobody shot you then. Don't you see it? He will give you nothing but pain n heart break. When will you accept the truth that HE DOESN'T LOVES YOU, never did. Meera only wanted to know the language in which Geet would understand. She wanted nothing but happiness for her friend. Why she had to love that man who broke her apart?
Geet could do nothing but cry more. She had accepted long back that he didn't love her, it was her heart that just wouldn't agree n it was right all along. Meera, he loved me. Geet sank on the floor. When I left him he loved me. I' It was my mistake. I didn't trust his love. Geet looked up; she looked so lost n wretched that Meera couldn't even stare into her eyes. It was my damn mistake. Sab meri galti thi. Agar aaj wo mujhe pyaar nai karte, agar aaj unke dil me nafrat hai mere liye toh iski zimmedaar mai hu, sirf mai.
Geet how can you even say that? Meera didn't know what she was saying. The man had to know black magic to make Geet so vulnerable. He betrayed you for god's sake. What you want to say' that you should have gone to him n begged him for your love?
Geet wiped her tears, a useless attempt that failed and somehow stood up like a dead body. You won't understand. Let me live my life on my own. Please. Geet turned away from her.
Meera had tears in her eyes too but she drank them all n her voice didn't falter even a bit while she spoke. Last time I let you live your life on your own you were fighting for your sanity and life in that government hospital. So don't even think I would ever do that again.
Meera left n it was silence again, how much she would have loved it but the resounding buzz in her head made standing impossible. She was about to collapse on the floor but Rohan held her. Are you fine?
When am I? She tried to smile n Rohan wiped her tears.
I never knew gals fought so much. You both are worse than Maan n I.
I am sorry you had to see that again. Geet lowered her head. They never used to fight but now times were different. Meera shouldn't have slapped Maan. Geet knew that Meera loved her but it was hugely wrong to Maan. It wasn't his fault that the girl he loved was lunatic. She was incredulous though that Maan didn't do anything. Few little taunts from Rohan made him furious n here Meera slapped him n he didn't do anything. He didn't even tell Geet anything, he didn't shout on her, why? Another question that hit her was why he had gone to Meera's place.
It was later that night and Geet was sitting beside Jia as she watched Tangled. The little bundle of joy was jumping n dancing with the characters n was narrating everything to Geet like she couldn't see it herself. The magical presence of Jia always worked but today it didn't make her feel any good. Whole evening her head was paining n she felt dizzy, the familiar weakness making her sick. Only she knew how she cajoled Rohan into not calling a doc. It was usual for her; she knew this pain like an old friend now.
One thing Geet had learned was that to make Jia sleep at night you have to tire her up at day time. If Jia slept at day time she wouldn't let you sleep at night. Yesterday they had played n so she had slept at night early. Today Geet couldn't give her much time n now she was wide awake. Geet looked longingly towards her room where she had kept the letter.
Jia had asked about Maan and Geet had to make stories. With loads of efforts from her mommy's side Jia forget about her daddy though Geet knew it was temporary.
When the movie ended Geet thought Jia would go to sleep but she asked to watch another movie. Geet admitted to herself that Maan loved Jia to no limits. For a woman this was endurable, they are far more patient than a man but for a man to take care of whole business n a little child such that she wouldn't ever feel the absence of a mother was almost impossible. Dadimaa had said that he had lived with Jia in London for nearly a year alone.
Only Maan could do it, he was always patient and loving, a perfect man any girl could just dream of. How could she let go of him just because of a misunderstanding? If once she had talked to him, just once.
Another movie ended n Geet laid a sleeping Jia on the bed covering her with warm blankets. She herself was on verge of blacking out due to heavy dose of painkillers she had taken but her need to read the letter overpowered every other.
Geet came to her room n pulled out the letter from below her pillow and started from where she had left.
I have many corrections to make and this letter is my last n only step towards it.
A lone tear dropped from Shreya dried eyes while she scribbled her heart on the paper.
I was so happy when I came to know that elders were planning our marriage. I mean it was Maan. I had never thought about him in that way but after everyone started the talks of our marriage the seed begin to grow inside me. I had no idea that it would someday develop into a shadowy creeper n would become a loop for both, my n Maan's neck.
Maan told me that he loved you Geet before our engagement. I had no idea what he expected from me. Did he want me to break the engagement n make a mockery of ourselves n our families' dreams that depended on us? Or he wanted me to crush the feeling I had for him because' I couldn't. I was already buried too deep. Kiya had told me beforehand that Maan was in relationship with you but it was just passing. She said you had dated almost every hot shot in the college n Maan was just another addition to your list. If Maan felt something for you it would lead him to nowhere. It was better if he stayed away from you.
Closing her eyes Shreya took in a shaky breath before writing the next line, before writing one of the biggest mistakes of her life.
I believed her I didn't know you but Kiya was my sister n I wanted Maan. It was another thing that I could never get him. I understood that later. Once his studies were done we got married. Not once did he object to it, neither accepted. I talked to Maan's dad, my would-be father in law. He said he knew about you but you were not the right girl for Maan, I was. As for me' love had blinded me to even think like that.
At that moment Shreya felt like slapping herself. At that time she had felt so assured, believed in her love for him that Maan after their marriage would love her too. They would start a new, would live a happily married life.
On our first night together'.
(Geet couldn't conjure up the courage to read next. Maan would have accepted Shreya' he had to after all she was his wife now. With great effort she focused her blurred vision again on the letter.)
On our first night together Maan didn't even look at me. He told me he needed time n started to leave the room. I had to stop him. If someone had seen him outside they would have picked the wrong meaning, in our case, the right one.
Shreya smiled mockingly at her poor fate. It was hard to take rejection. She had spent weeks in choosing her bridal wear, got the best people to beautify her, had planned everything perfectly. But it was all a waste when the person she had done all this for had another girl in his heart n mind.
(She couldn't believe that he didn't' that Maan didn't touch Shreya on their SR and Geet had thought he loved Shreya. Sobs escaped from her mouth and she remembered the letter she had written to him before leaving. How much it would have hurt him to read that she thought he betrayed her. Still he remained faithful. Her Maan was hers n loved her to no limits.)
Maan didn't want to live in London with his dad n also he didn't want to join his family business. He didn't even talk to him n never told me anything. We were married n Maan was my husband but in reality I had even the lost the friend that I had in him. When I asked him the reason for his rude behavior towards his dad he shouted at me n said he didn't had a father. Maan really scared me that day and a part of my heart n hope shattered. He came afterwards n asked me to forgive him. He said he just needed a little more time to adjust n it would be best for me to not bother him until that time.
We came to India just a week after our marriage. Maan had told me that there was no need for me to come with him but how I could not, least I wanted was to lose the little chance I had with him in my eyes. I left my daddy's business, my world n we settled in KM with Dadimaa. Maan joined a company, the Khurana heir working as employee in a company. But I had no problem; until he was there with me I was ready to take it all.
Startled Geet pulled her heavy lids open. Her mobile was ringing continuously. While she stood up her head throbbed n stomach warbled. She didn't even remember when she slept off while reading the letter. Somehow she searched for her phone n pressed the green button.
Nobody spoke but she didn't needed words or eyes to know who was on the other end. Her hold tightened on the phone as she heard the rhythm of his steady breathing.
The whole day was hell busy, went in travelling n then series of meetings n discussions but not once Geet left his mind. On top of that scenes from last night replayed back to back in his mind in a way that he lived each moment umpteen times n yet he craved to feel more, his each cell was crying for her. He wanted her to call to take the step. He wished n prayed that she missed him as much as he did. But she didn't n he had to finally call to check on her, for the calm his heart. Just once he wanted to hear her voice.
It wasn't like she didn't want to say anything but what she could speak. Her entire self was immersed in him and there was no way she could go to him, clutch him to her n ask for forgiveness. How she wished he was there so she could take all his pain. She was ready to die if that erased all the anguish she made him go through. But her dying wouldn't change anything, she had done a mistake which could not be amended, there were only burns of repentance left for her.
The line went dead n she felt alone like never before. Completely abandoned. Just a moment ago he was there n now he wasn't. Maan' She whispered but no one heard. The solitude of her room which she always relished dearly was now biting. She felt her chest tightening n stomach-turning. Running to the bathroom she threw up. She should have eaten well last night before taking such heavy dose of medication. 
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