(_ ArHi FF_) ~Devastated ~ Note Page 16 - Page 4

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Part 29

"Khushi pehle tou tum aisi nahin thi, phir kya hogaya tumhein? Tum ne tou uss pal to jiya tha na? Tou phir ab kyun pachta rahi ho?"

(What has happened to you Khushi? You lived the moment with me right? Why are you repenting now?)

"Kyunki uss waqt jo humari zindagi ka sabse khoobsurat mod tha who kisi aur ke liye badle ka zariya...kyunki aapke har kadam se humein laga jaise ke woh humaari tareef kar rahe the lekin kisi aur ke liye woh ek kachre ka istamaal the..."

(Because at that time the most beautiful moment of my life was a mean of revenge for someone else...because your steps were something I felt as my praise but they were in reality utilization of a piece of crap on earth...)

"Arnav Ji I never thought I was so ugly until you told me but that doesn't mean I wouldn't have found anyone to live my life with. If...if you really didn't want me then you shouldn't have made me love you either, you shouldn't have encouraged my meaningless stupidities, if you wanted a revenge for what I did you should have...raped..." she choked at what she was saying as she was finding to difficult to digest, "...me not pretend as if you were loving me...cherishing the moment, you shouldn't have given me false hopes of living together till eternity... because it hurts Arnav ji it really does, even though you don't believe me to be a human but a gold digger, a liar but Arnav ji I know that I am not lying, my conscience knows it."

Chote soch samajh kar bola kijiye, aap ko nahi pata ke aap ke lafzon se kisi ko chot pohanch sakti hai...

Arnav had always turned a deaf ear when his Di asked him to amend his habits she had even scolded him when he had years back talked harshly to Khushi but he had been blind in his world to realize the importance of those words.

Since the time Khushi had re-entered his life, his life got disheveled. Before he could even realize the desires that had re waken, he had begun creeping into her room during nights, staring at her moonlight face, that nose which had turned pink those luscious lips that took eternity to be kissed, those doe like eyes which would shine like glitter in happiness, everything he had stared, adored for a few days and then one night he lost control and tried to touch her. She had angered him with that new attire by which he thought that she was behaving as if she had been as if raped, she had only fueled this wrath by stopping him from implementing his desires. He had been angry because she rekindled those desires which controlled him and ASR was a controlling man not the one who was to be controlled. He had lashed out at her in the most brutal vocabulary he had in his knowledge not realizing that she would memorize those words, print them in her memory.

Then he had gone to seek her forgiveness, he had hugged her without her acknowledgement, sans knowing the fact what she had come to think him as her Master. Time passed and they grew close, Khushi began to forget the differences they had, he would kiss her, hug her normally as if there was nothing too grave until the day Shyam struck his plan. The thought itself gave shivers to Arnav, Khushi was his, in any and every way was a fact he taught himself and there was no pondering over it, he would not let anyone touch her not that creep especially no matter what circumstances were. He had grown to be selfish he approved. He had no right legally but every right personally. That night after ridding her of the pest named Shyam, her health had twisted a knife in his heart, guilt overcame him because it was him who had been driven by madness to claim her while she was 19 and then leave her and his children to fate's plans. He had sat beside her and in his efforts to eradicate any problems they had, he claimed her yet again not realizing Khushi's state, their relation's state and not giving a damn to what she wanted. He was not driven by desires but he was blinded, blinded by the urge to erase anything that separated her from him, but when he got back his senses he realized that another grave mistake he had done.

His Khushi was right there in his arms, as innocent as she had been hoping for a brighter future but his mind decided to play with her again, ripping her physically emotionally and mentally. He tricked her into marriage with Dhruv. And not only that but also bad mouthed her without realizing once again that the words would be imprinted.

Why? "Because he was not ready to accept Khushi. Because he didn't have the courage to accept that in their relation, she was the only one to sacrifice. Because he was not ready to change himself for the better, for someone who depended on him and like many others he took a shortcut," his conscience mocked at him.

But fate had some other plans, Shyam once again targeted Khushi, this time not touch her but cease her existence because if not his then she could be no one's.

His plan was a flop as she survived the attack. Arnav was not prepared to accept Khushi even now at any cost because he feared hurting her, feared making her face the past but this promise could not be kept. When Payal had got pregnant everyone rejoiced for the new member who would soon join. Even Khushi was happy but her happiness was overshadowed by her past. It was not that she couldn't tolerate her sister's happiness or was bad eyeing it but that love and pampering her sister received was something she yearned for.

Her pregnancy news had been more of mourning for her family. She had tainted their respect. Worse she had no husband and even the father, the great Arnav Singh Raizada was not ready to accept her. She felt bad because when her children came into this world they were treated as a misery, as a burden except by Garima and this little one who was yet to come brought excitement to everyone's lives.

Karan and Aleisha had already known about this as Payal had told them earlier. They had secretly bought a box of chocolates and made a card for Payal but their naive intentions had been misjudged by Manorama who like Daadi thought them to be nothing more than bad omen. Manorama ruthlessly tore the cards and crushed the box of chocolates and once again bad mouthed the children. Arnav had begun an argument but this time even Naani had stopped him, "Kitni baar bachate rahen ge aap in ko? Sach aap nahi taal sakte Chote, aaj nahi tou kal aap ko, aur bachon kon yeh sach maan na hoga (How many times will you protect your children? You cannot deny the truth. Sooner or later you and the children will have to accept the truth)" he remembered Nani's words.

That was the sole reason he had been moved to marry Khushi. It was the only way left he could secure his childrens' future and protect them from the taunts. However after marriage after securing his children he realized that he had made another person's life a misery. He had lost the original Khushi. She was someone tired of living, who did not lived, rather survived mechanically. He behaved normally to hide the various questions he had but he had to quit that and bring her here because this was the only place he hoped she would vent her feelings.