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IMPORTANT:

1) 1) The chapters from now on will be in Sanyukta's POV because its easy for me to write like this.

2) The movie mentioned is a made up movie. There is a real movie named that but in this story I just made it up. It has nothing to do with that one.

3) The flashback is of the night Sanyukta tells Randhir about adoption.

4) I wrote it in 3 hours day so please excuse my mistakes.

5) I am so sorry for such a long wait... I'm always sorry. But I dint have my computer. My dad came yesterday so I decided to use his lappy and update it.

ENJOY!!!

Chapter 11: The One with the Sound Of Silence.

[Part 1] Not edited at all.

Listening to music on a 3 hours ride while my hair flows with the wind was something that uplifted my frame of mind. The beat of the drum, the rhythm of the bass, the beauty of the keys and the soul of guitar has always been my gateway to a secret land that makes me calm my head and heart.

And yet today, I was sunk into the pull of Weltschmerz.

With a sigh I took my earphones out of my ears as the music faded in the background and kept it back in my purse. I looked up at my two best friend- Parth driving and Kaustuki's head buried in a magazine and decided not to disturb them. My eyes travelled back to the view outside the car and I pressed my forehead against the window as the dark world slid past me. I was certain it was around 5 since the sun is still not up. The street lights burned an eerie sallow color that did little against the thick fog brewing against the street. It was too early and too dark outside to focus much on anything. I had no idea why the dream team had to start off their journey to the lakehouse this early. I mean even I was excited when we all decided to have two days off from all this drama and have fun. We were deciding to stay in a hotel but when we found out Randhir's childhood friend Danny have a lakehouse and he willing to let us stay there for 2 nights, we were on cloud nine. I was too, until Kaustuki woke me at 3 o'clock in the morning. It just that at this time of the day, my neurons don't work too well.

"Parth stop it's a bakewell!"

Kaustuki's sudden outburst opened my eyes, which till then I didn't realize were close and Parth accidently jerked the wheel to the left and the car swerved into the next lane. After making sure no car were behind us, he pulled the car to the correct lane and shot Kaustuki a look. "Jesus Kaustuki don't do that when I have a pregnant women in my car!"

He applied the break and both of them turned towards me.

"You okay?" Kaustuki asked.

I released my breath and loosened my grip on the seat. "Yeah... I-I'm fine."

"Sorry I didn't mean to startle you but I was hungry and I saw-"

I laughed. "Sweetheart you really don't need to give any justification. It's okay. Plus it's not your fault, Parth is a slow driver."

"Hey!" Parth snapped. "I'm supposed to drive this slowly. You are pregnant."

I said, "Don't use me to cover yourself. We all know how slow you drive."

"Well excuse me for not being Dominic Toretto."

Kaustuki unlocked her door. "Nobody is asking you to be. But for the love of god don't be a snail too." Then to me. "You want something?"

"Anything!" I smiled. I was beyond hungry. The journey started at 4 so I couldn't eat anything nor could I take anything because of the stupid rule of Yoyo's. no food in the car'. Plus the journey till now made me realize there will be no more shops ahead until we arrive to Lakehouse. That was probably 1 more hour ride. Beside this shop from outside dint looked like some worn out shop in which drunk truck drivers make a stop at. It was pretty decent.

"Bring something for me too." Parth said.

Kaustuki gave us a thumbs up climbed out and walked off towards the shop.

Once she out of site I glanced up at the sky. The sun was not up yet but I could see the orange tinting the sky. It was mesmerizing, a treasure in a gray bleak world.

"So how are you holding up?" Parth said suddenly making me turn towards him. "I mean what happened in the morning..."

"What you talking about?" I knew exactly what he was talking about. He was talking about what happened in the morning when we all were deciding the seating arrangement. Yoyo wanted it to be him, Kaustuki, Sahil and Vidushi with him in his car and Me, Parth and Jiggy with Randhir in his jeep. I was okay with the arrangement. Heck I was happy with it and so were everyone. Everyone except Randhir. He denied it saying he rather travel with Jiggy, Sahil, Yoyo and Vidushi. I wouldn't deny the awkwardness that was in the air for 5 counts before I smiled- forcefully- and said it is better if I travel with my 2 best friends since I haven't had much time with them in months. Everyone murmured awkward okay's before climbing to their respective cars. The truth was I wasn't okay. From the day I told him about my decision of giving the babies to the adoption, his ignorance and silence were like taking a gunshot.

"Sanyukta you know exactly what I'm talking about." Parth said now finally turning towards me from the driver seat so he was looking directly at me. "I know you are hurt and it will be best if you let it out."

I shrugged. "I'm not. I'm okay alright fine good."

Parth gave me you-really-think-you-can-lie-to-me look.

Either his skills of knowing if a person is lying has become good after watching the sitcom Lie To Me or I should not have used all that words together because that definitely makes it look like a lie. But these days I have learned it's better to lie than to burden my friends with my problems. Don't they have enough problems in their life already? Beside if I tell him about the stab of pain Randhir denying to travel with me caused me, it will roughen up his mood and that's the last thing I want.

"I'm fine. Trust me."

Parth gave me a sad smile. "Trust you when you are lying to your teeth?"

I chuckled. "You are good."

Parth grinned. "I know!" He took my hand and rubbed it gently, his face turning all serious. "I know its hard going through everything. But I wont you to know I'm here. Kaustuki's here. We both love you and no matter what, you will always be the first in our every list."

"Even in the Top 10 person you want to kill list?" I joked.

"If you want to."

We both laughed and I looked outside towards the shop. Where the hell is Kaustuki? It has 15 min since she walked inside the shop. Sun wasn't out yet, but it was light enough to see everything outside.

"Can I tell you something?"

I looked at Parth and before I could nod, he rushed on. "I know its not the right time with everything that has been going on but I really need to let this out and I really cant tell this Kaustuki, she will freak out."

My eyes started to burn. I realized how selfish I had been all this time with my feeling that I completely ignored my friends. I don't even remember the last time I had normal conversation with them. It had always about me and my problems. Heck I don't even know what is going on in their life. Who are they dating or who are they dumping.

"Anything, Parth." I said showing him my teeth. I needed him to know that I considered their problems equally mine.

"Yeah so-" He began but cut short when we heard the bell chinned. Kaustuki came out with a huge smile on her face and carrying a big box in her tiny hands.

"Holy shit did she kill something?" Parth laughed.

"It's probably a cake or something I guess. But it's a huge box though." I said then turned towards him. "What were you saying before?"

Parth shook his head. "Later."

I gave him a weird look but didn't say anything.

Just then the door opened and Kaustuki climbed in putting the box between us and then unlocking the door.

"You both have to pay 333 each." Kaustuki said.

"What?!" Parth and I said at the same time then gave each other a high five before turning our attention back to Kaustuki.

Kaustuki said, "Yeah maybe it's a little expensive but it looks so damn good!"

"Could you be any more dumber, Kaustuki?" Parth rolled his eyes and I smiled.

"Just look at it once. It looks delicious. No its more than that! Trust me you won't be able to say no once you look at it." Kaustuki argued as she slowly lifted the box open.

And heck, we really couldn't.

After we were done eating the cake, Parth started the engine and once again we were on the road. Once again it was just silence in the car as Parth drove and Kaustuki read her book. I wish I had something to do because as soon as I closed my eyes, I couldn't stop the memory of that night as it crawled back inside her head.

***

(Flashback)

"I get that you are hurt Randhir but-"

"I'm ripped apart!" He shouted flinging the bottle on the bench. It fell on the floor with a thud and I flinched.

I stared at him, hard and unblinking, trying to keep tears from spilling. "Randhir please just listen to me once-"

"Listen to you once?! Do you even know what you're saying or your mind has gone black just like your heart?!"

His eyes held no trace of any emotions. There was just hollowness inside like he wants me dead. I know I've to keep it cool. Anger at this point wasn't healthy for both us. It will just make everything more and more complicated. He'll shout, I knew this when I told him my decision. Heck maybe he'll hit me but I was prepared for all of that. I wont let any of his words get to me.

"I know you- I understand w-what this is doing to you but please-,"

"No!" He shouted. "You don't understand Sanyukta! You are freaking out and I get that, but adoption?! This is not hard, ok? People do it, everybody do it. And its not like you are doing it all alone! I'm there and I will be till the rest. Whatever it takes."

"College Randhir!" My voice rose. "I cant attend a college and take care of the babies together! These stuffs are hard and from no angle Im a superwomen!"

"Then just drop out for sometimes!"

Whoa, wait what did he just say? Drop out? Does he know how much my engineering life means to me? How much I did all this time so I can drop out? Does he not know my 1 year will be wasted? How can he even think like that!

"Randhir, just for once at least try to understand what Im-"

He held his hand up cutting me off as he inched closer to me. His voice was above a whisper. "I'm done. This conversation is done. You speak one more and I'll.." He took a step back as if unsure of his actions. "I don't know what I'll do."

Then he started walking towards his hostel room.

That did it. My eyes widened. That's it? He says whatever he wants to but when its my time to explain I should keep my mouth shut? Is walking away every time the solution to everything? Now, I was angry.

I stared at him as he walked and then I heard myself shout, "No!"

He stopped but didn't turn around. I marched towards him angrily.

"Who are they' Randhir? Who are are they' you are referring to?" I cried looking at his back. Why isn't he turning around? "Those dumbs girls you see on TV that shows its easy being a teen mom? Yes, it's hard! Being a teen is difficult and being a teen mom is much worse. When you have a baby, its not just about you anymore. Its about a child and if you think your child deserves a better life then you do need to look into the adoption."

I took a deep breathe wiping the tear that dared escape. "Randhir turn around." He didn't. "Randhir I said, turn around." He still didn't. I gripped his arm and made him face me. His eyes were moist and red. Either he was angry or hurt beyond the line. I took his face in my hand and felt him stiffened at my touch. I said softly, "No child should have to pay for a one night stand. There are plenty of women's out there that are unlucky enough not to be able to have a child Randhir. We can give them what they deserve. We can give our sweet Riley and Smith what they deserve. A life complete with all of the hugs, laughter and lullabies."

Randhir kept looking at me and a tear trickled down his cheek. Before I could swipe it, he shoved my hands away. He took a step back. "S-seems like... y-you have already made up y-your mind."

He voice sounded more of a stranger's than his own and that killed me. I swiped another tear from my damp and swollen eye. "Randhir," I reached for him again but he pulled free.

"You win." He whispered taking another step back taking him further away from me as if his mind has gone numb and turned all action over the body.

(Flashback over)

***

"Sanyukta wake up!"

My eyes snapped open to Kaustuki's voice. I blinked again and again looking at the surrounding, a part of me happy it was just a dream because I wasn't ready to go through everything I went through that entire week. Crying being the top on the list.

"Having a nightmare?" Kaustuki asked.

"The worst one." I answered. "We there yet?"

"Almost. Just 5 min from here.

"Okay."

Kaustuki took out a comb from her bang. "You look like shit."

"Thanks." I mumbled taking the comb and combing my dark locks.

As she had said, we reached to the lakehouse in exactly 5 minutes. My eyes wide and mouth agape as I looked at the house. I knew I wasn't the only amazed because I heard Kaustuki take a sharp intake of breathe and Parth mumble something like, holy shit'

Even words couldn't describe the beauty of the house. It was huge and perfect and looked like a cut out from Architects Today magazine. It stood amidst the manicures lawn as if beamed there rather than constructed. The roof was flat and there was no visible chimney. The front door was metallic and opened with both a key pad and biometric scanner.

"I love this Daisy guy!" Kaustuki said as we climbed out. She shut her car door and came to stand beside me.

"Danny." I corrected laughing.

"Me too. I'm ready to become a gay for him." Parth said his eyes wide as he slowly climbed out of the car.

"Is he hot?" Kaustuki asked me.

"Oh yes he is."

"Is he available?"

"That I don't know."

"Can you set me up with him?"

I stared at my best friend. "Don't you already have 2 guys hanging to your thread?"

"Yeah but this house! Just look at it."

I stared at the house again. It was indeed a house you always dream to have. Danny really is lucky. I didn't even know he was this rich. Randhir never mentioned it. Nor did Danny (who I talked to one or two times on the phone). I wished he was here. I'm sure he would have made this weekend more fun for everyone and probably help me with my problems.

I blinked jerking to life just in time to see an angry Randhir strolling towards us.

"Oh boy." We three said at the same time and we would have definitely high-fived if it wasn't for Randhir who literally shoved Parth and his back hit the car.

"DO YOU KNOW HOW MANY TIMES I'VE BEEN CALLING YOU GUYS?! WHERE THE HELL WERE YOU?!" Randhir bellowed his hand circling around Parth's collar.

"Man, calm down we-" Parth started but Randhir cut him off.

"Why were you guys not picking my call?"

He called? I instantly took out my cell but there was no miscalls from anyone. I turned towards Kaustuki. She had her cell in her hand and her face was white. So was Parth's.

I leaned in to look at their cells. Kaustuki had 5 miscalls from Randhir and Parth had 7.

Ouch, that hurts.

"Randhir we are really sorry!" Kaustuki said, "My phone was on silent."

"Mine too." Parth said.

"Mine wasn't." I said my voice querying. I was angry. If he was so worried couldn't he make the effort of calling me atleast once when both of them didn't pick up? Is this how much he hates me? That even 1 word from my mouth is like a venom to him? It has been 3 weeks since I told him and still we are on the same page we were since that day? That, really does hurt.

"Lets go inside. Everyone's waiting for you all." Randhir said picking up my bag before I could bend to pick it up myself. Without another word he went back inside.

"He's scary." Parth said picking his and Kaustuki's luggage.

"Its okay Parth." Kaustuki took her luggage from Parth's hand. "I'll take it, its not heavy."

We pushed the door and it swung open with ease, a blast of air conditioned cold streamed past us and some light jazz drifted from a room out of sight.

As we slowly walked inside, we looked at every corner of the corner. It was so beautiful that I just wanted to stand here all day and look at it.

But god, the outside beauty couldn't even come in measure of the beauty of the inside.

"Is this heaven?" I muter when we saw the hall. It was huge.

We walked to the dining table where everyone were sitting. They were surrounded by 2 servants and a whole bunch of food on the table.

"You guys made it!" Yoyo hooted walking towards Kaustuki and taking her bag off her shoulder and resting it on the floor. He then took her hand and made her sit on the chair right next to his.

Wait, I'm confused. She with Jiggy right? Though Jiggy didn't look like he cares as he is busy taking a bite from his Pancakes.

"They broke up." Parth said reading my mind and before I could ask anything further he took a seat next to Sahil.

Without wasting any time, I took a seat next to Vidushi and Kaustuki, smiling a thank you to the servant- whose tag read Ahmud as he served me the Pancakes.

Yes, this is Heaven.

***

After we were done eating and exploring the rooms- 10 rooms, we all went outside to sit in the sun in front of the lake. It was nearly winter, the air was chilly and the scorching sun helped in warming our skins. Yoyo, Sahil and Vidushi were swimming, screaming and hooting every minute.

"This is a beautiful house." I said, mostly to Randhir but he ignored me.

"I know!" Kaustuki clapped her hand as Yoyo threw Vidushi, who just walked out of the water into the water again. She screamed and hit him with a bucket lying next to her. Yoyo threw it back at her but Vidushi ducked and it ended up hitting Sahil who screamed ow!

"Loved my room." Jiggy said and I nodded in agreement.

Everyone got a room of their own. I haven't seen their room but mine was amazing. It is en-suite with a plasma screen, a king sized bed and a walk in wardrobe. The window was directly opposite to my bed making it possible to look outside while resting on the bed. The bathroom was huge and after placing all my stuffs in the cabinet I had taken a hot bath that had clearly cheered my mood up.

"Your friend is awesome." Jiggy said as Sahil shouted from the water for the ball Jiggy had in his hand. He threw it and Yoyo caught it. "What is his name again?"

"Danny." I and Randhir replied at the same time. This time he forgot to ignore me as his eyes darted up towards me. I couldn't look away nor did I wanted to. But something in his eyes made my skin scrawl. His lethal stare felt painful and piercing as if his glare was tearing my heart apart.

I looked away, biting my lip. How long will this go on? I can't go to everything with Randhir acting like that. I need him. It's the most important part and I need his support. His and his only.

But I won't back away from my decision. As I had said earlier, I'm not just thinking about my futures... I'm thinking about the babies too. I want them to go to an amazing school, have an amazing life and live with people who can actually make them happy. Their happiness can be the only thing that will bring a smile to my face. Is it too much to ask? Asking Randhir to at least try in understanding what I'm saying. Is it too much?

"His name is Danny." Randhir voice brought me out of my thought. He was talking to Jiggy. "He is my childhood friend actually and he was more than happy to let us stay here. He would have come to meet you all but right now he's in Canada to meet his family."

"Is he Canadian?"

"No, he is half Canadian. His dad is Indian and his Mom is Canadian."

Oh, I didn't know that. There's so much of him that I don't know. I actually did messaged him an hour ago thanking for letting us stay and complimenting how beautiful this all is. His reply was, Anything for you, green doll. Take care, I'll meet you soon.'

"Hey" Sahil said coming towards us. He wrapped a towel around his wet body and sat beside Jiggy. A minute later Vidushi came followed by Yoyo. They both sat down and started rubbing the towel on their bare back.

"What next?" Vidushi asked.

We all looked at each other.

"What about a movie?" I said. "A scary movie?" It have been months since I went out for a movie. I really wanted to watch 1 with my friends. Plus this house actually looked like one of those haunted house, it will only make everything more fun.

"Yes!" Vidushi and Jiggy said. Parth and Sahil hooted and Kaustuki murmured a small sad ok. She never really liked a scary movie before so I you cant really blame her for being sad.

"I don't wanna watch a movie." Randhir denied. Of course he will. Watching a movie was my idea so he would definitely say no to it. Theres no doubt about it.

"Um, what do you want to then?" Parth asked him.

Randhir looked at each of them, ignoring me obviously, then said. "Karaoke."

I totally forgot about the karaoke room. We had all been really excited when we found out there is one. It is a huge room with Karaoke machine and a screen that displays lyrics.

But I really did wanted to see a movie.

"If you guys want to go its okay," I said standing up. "I want to watch a movie so I'll be in the theatre room. If anybody wants to come..."

Awkward silence. Again. I hated this, leaving my friends to make choices between me and Randhir. Everytime.

"Um we all are here, together." Yoyo said, "Lets do everything together then. Please?" He was looking at everyone but I knew the words were meant for me and Randhir.

"Karaoke." Randhir said at the same time I said, "Movie."

"What about we watch a movie today? And Karaoke tomorrow?" Kaustuki suggested looking at Randhir with a pleading look on her face.

Randhir looked angry, but nonetheless he stood up. "Okay."

We decided since we want to watch a scary movie, we will start it at 8. When it's dark everywhere. So we all ate the food Ahmud and his brother Sharad served us and then decided to take a quick nap, we all were tired from being waken up at 3. In the morning, I might add.

It was around 5 when I woke up and went downstairs only to find everyone sitting in the dining room surrounded by huge boxes of Pizza. I took a seat beside Kaustuki. "Why did we order? Wasn't Ahmud there to make something?"

"No," Kaustuki said with a mouthful. "Randhir told them to take a night-off."

After stuffing my stomach with Pizzas, I mentally cheered as we all walked towards the theatre room. It was a big spacious room with a huge TV screen and a small light, lite enough to grasp the surrounding. There was one sofa and a carpet. I, Parth, Jiggy and Randhir sat on the sofa while Vidushi, Sahil, Yoyo and Kaustuki sat down on the carpet with their backs supported by the sofa. Randhir brought three popcorns box and 7 cans of coke while I decided on the movie- The Dance Of The Dead. It was the scariest movie I've heard and since no one has seen it before, it was a good choice to go. Beside the environment helped a lot in making the night scary. It was totally dark outside, no moon was visible. Thundered echoed giving the night a creepy touch.

As the introduction started rolling, Parth whispered to me. "Any reason you picked such a horror movie?"

I chuckled. "Yes, I don't want my babies to be scared of darkness. So maybe if I watch it they won't be scared."

"I don't see what the point is." My heart literally stooped when I heard Randir's voice, though it sounded rough and angry. He was talking to me! "It's not like you are going to have to worry about it anyways. The strangers will."

Ouch. Double Ouch. I think it was better when he was not talking to me, because words were like a knife in my stomach. Nobody said anything to it but I just knew that they all were feeling sorry for me. It was just silence that followed as we all watched the movie.

***

"Don't you go in there!" Yoyo shouted to the TV. And as much as crazy it sounded, I really wished Jessica- the main character could hear us.

We all were shivering with fear and were all over each other. Never in my life had I been this scared. Remind me why I had decided to watch this movie again? Worst choice ever!

The thunder echoed again followed by our screams.

"It was just a thunder." Randhir breathed out. I knew he was scared. Heck who wont be?"

We all held each other's hand as Jessica slowly walked into the tent. There was a women inside wailing and dancing like nothing human. Her voice alone sent a shiver down my spine. The worst was her dancing, and she wasn't doing it alone. The women's face was sticky with blood and one of her eyes and ears were torn out. The women stopped dancing as her eye rested on Jessica. My heart stopped and I squeezed Sahil's hand who was sitting beside me. I had no idea when he got up here. He squeezed my hand back as the women smiled wickedly at Jessica who was panting and crying. "No living shall enter! they are coming for you!"

I thought nothing could be more scary. But then it happened.

The visible light in the room and outside the room went out. So did the TV screen.

We all were silent for 3 counts then everyone started screaming at once.

"We are dead!"

"What is going on!"

"We saw them they are going to kill us!"

"OMG!" That was me as we all scrambled up from our seats. Everybody still screaming. The thundered echoed and that made our screaming go into another level. We all were holding each other.

"Power is out. Guys it's okay." It was Randhir. "We will go into another room and search for the cable."

"You go, I'm better here." Jiggy said clutching my arm.

"Or we all go. Together?" I suggested my voice dry. I was beyond scared. I never really liked watching a scary movie in the dark alone and I thought watching with the whole group would be better. But these people turned out to be more scared than I thought. No wonder why Kaustuki was so..

Kaustuki!

"Kaustuki?" I called out.

"I'm here." I heard a small whimper from across the room.

"Okay we really need to find some torches or Flashlight." Yoyo said from somewhere.

"Ok I and Parth will take the upstairs," It was Vidushi, "and you and Kaustuki take the kitchen. Sanyukta you and Sahil go and search in the hall.."

"Ok," I heard everyone murmur a small yes as we started walking slowly touching everyplace so we don't run into something.

"Or we can just use our phones for the torch to look out for the cables?" It was Randhir's bored voice.

We all stopped. I could feel everybody's face turning red. Phones, why didn't we think of that?

***

It took only 10 minutes to repair the lights after finding it. The movie was not done yet but nobody was interested in watching the rest. So we decided to order something to eat. We placed an order for Chinese food which will probably take 1 hour to reach here.

I, Parth and Vidushi are sitting in the hall. Yoyo, Kaustuki and Sahil are out. Randhir and Jiggy are searching for something to eat in the kitchen.

"I want to eat that cake again." Parth whined and I smiled. "We will take one again on our way back."

"What cake?" Vidushi asked confused. "I want it too!"

Parth winked at her. "I'll give you something much better later baby."

My eyes widened as I stared at Parth who was smiling wickedly at Vidushi and then at her. Vidushi was blushing, twisting her hair around her finger as both of them shared a smile that held a lot of secrets.

Ok, what is happening?

I narrowed my eyes at them and before I could say anything, Kaustuki walked in followed by Sahil and Yoyo who was carrying a big bag.

"Where is Randhir and Jiggy?" Sahil asked.

I pointed towards the kitchen.

"Food is here guys." Yoyo screamed and a minute later Randhir and Jiggy walked in.

We arranged the food and decided to sit in the hall instead of dining room. We spread around the table and started eating. I literally moaned when the taste of the food touched my tongue. Everybody chuckled and I smiled too.

"You moaned just like Parth did when he tasted the cake." Kaustuki said laughing.

"Yeah I-" I was cut by Randhir.

"What cake?" he demanded looking at Kaustuki.

"Um... we bought one on our way here." Parth answered.

"What?!" Randhir screeched. Everyone froze.

I had no idea why Randhir was angry. What is wrong with eating a cake?

I got my answer when Randhir's eyes snapped towards mine. His stare was icy cold and it sent a chill down my spine. His slammed his plate on the table and stood up. "Do you not remember what Dr. Kate said last week?!"

My eyes widened. I forgot. I forgot her talk, I forgot her advice and I definitely forgot the pain I had the week before. It was during the class when suddenly my scream echoed. I was instantly taken to the hospital. Dr. Kate after checkup said I was okay but I should definitely take care about the things I eat. I forgot about that when I saw the cake.

I looked at Kaustuki and Parth who were looking down with guilt on their face. I turned my attention back to Randhir as I stood up. "Its okay Randhir. The shop was good and the cake was too. So there is nothing wrong and just... can you just sit and eat your food? Its okay." I tried to reassure him but it failed. He angrily marched towards me. "Ok?! You have to be kidding me! How can you just-" He stopped and laughed. A fake hollow laugh filled with anger. "Oh right I forgot, even if something happens to them who cares? Even if they are dead WHO CARES!? THERE IS NO DIFFERENCE FOR YOU RIGHT ?!"

My eyes widened and my lips parted. No words can explain how hurt I felt because there is no words capable explaining the feeling of feeling dead from inside.

He did it again. Without caring what I was going through he easily made another remark that clenched my heart so hard, all I wanted to do was scream. And before I could process anything, I shoved Randhir hard and his back hit the wall.

He looked at me with wide eyes. "What the-"

I held my hand up, tears threatening to fall but I hold them back. I shouldn't make myself weak. Not here, not right now. "Don't! Just stop!" My voice was way too high and at that second I forgot I was in a room surrounded by my friends, but I couldn't care less. "Just stop Randhir! You have said enough. Do you really peg me as a girl who would keep listening to your shit on and on?" You call me immature? You call me selfish? That is because you are blinded from your fantasy world. Do you think handling the baby is easy? Its not just about playing with them! There is so much to it that you don't know! The thing with you is you never try to understand anybody's point of view! For you if you are right, then hey! end of the discussion! I'm 19, Randhir. Do you know what normal people of this age think about? What movie they'll go, what dress they'll wear, how exams will be and stuffs. You know what I think? I think when I'm going to the doctor or what dress will make me look thinner or how'll I'LL SURVIVE THROUGH LABOUR! Do I not deserve a life? And ok for a minute lets consider the fact that we are keeping the baby. Tell me, Randhir how will be take care of the babies and college together? Because as far as I know you have turned your back on family and mine had turned their backs on me!" I pointed my figure at Randhir. "You are sick and pathetic just thinking about yourself! You know, your this behavior makes me realize what terrible father you are going to be! I'm done trying to convince you, I'm done! You don't deserve them, Randhir, YOU DON'T DESERVE THEM!"

There, the damage is done. I've never meant to say the things I've been venting out in my diary for days. They may have made me feel good while writing but right now, it sounded, to even my ears.

All the anger, guilt and other emotions I felt was gone and it seemed like I was saying everything from the hallow part of my heart I thought I had locked up. I didn't have to look at others expression to know what horrendous damage I've because Randhir's expression was enough.

He squinted at me through hardened eyes that once had been my salvation, but now they brought only hurt. His eyes showed me how badly my words hit him and that made me feel even worse. I cant see him like that. It was too much. Regret washed over me like the long slow waves on a shallow beach. Each wave was icy cold and sent a shiver down my spine.

I knew I was a minute away from crying and showing everybody how wrecked and hurt I felt and that is the last thing I wanted. Before my tears could rush down, I spun on my heels and walked out of the room and into my room banging the door close as I felt a tear trickle down my cheek.

What have I done?

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Res.. Moi first. Yippiii finally update is coming..

FINALLY!!!!
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I love you! M angry that you dint updated for so long but its ok!
Update was amazing like always. I understand sanyu side.. but randhir is right too. I feel sorry for them. But its sandhir v are talking about so I know everything will b well again.
loved yhat movie part! Really funny!

pls update soon!

Thanks for pm

Finally the update is here after a long tym

It was hell long
N i luv long updte

It was really awsme
U penned it beautifully


Sandhir going through a rough phase
Both r rite at their places so its difficult to say who's more rite

Parenting at 19 is really difficult
Sanyu thinking abut her as well as kids
She wants to give them a happy life which she cnt give
She's thinking practically bt rd he is also rite giving up their kids is really tough


He's ignoring sanyu n this is killing sanyu
Still she's tolerating it
Bt she had enough
Her outbrust omg


Really she said so much to rd
He was hurt beyond imagination


Cnt wait to see what hppns next
Update soon


Luv u
Keep smiling