Chp 11 : First love
Part 3
Love is a great feeling, Nothing costs as much as loving - except not loving.
But its hurt when that love is one sided, looking at the eyes of your love, unable to see the love back, unable to exprese your feeling, just looking at him leaving your life , saying good bye to him like a friends, and thinking " What if ..."
the Flashback ( From the red notebook )
Days after that small meeting with Yash, Aarti start to realize that what she has for Yash will not go easily, she start to look at him chopke chopke on lunch's time, enjoy everytime they me by chance and he say " Hi " and go, even if its for second that small word made her day,a weird smile across her face everytime she think of him,and she just listening to her friends with they start talking about him.
Then one sunday she was at school , working on the mural, but not like last time,the school was not emty since the Sports teams come for practice, she didn't know that Yash will be there too since he is the captain of the cricket's team, she was drawing alone in that Isolated part of school , the Administration close that part every year and only the student who work on the mural and a few art's teachers are allows in, since the mural will be showing on public for the first time only during the school's party of the end of year, not before that, Aarti come so early and start working for hours , the wall was so big but nothing could be big enough for Aarti's imagination, after some time she stop and said
" O god im so tired and hungry but i finish the second part of the work , yeh a lot of parts are still white, but i still have time , i hope the teachers like the way the work is going for now "
She said that and put the Brush dyeing down then , go to her bag take her lunch box
" I will go have lunch on the school's Garden im in this close place since hours"
Aarti wash her hand then go the garden , it was empty , she sit there under a huge tree on one the Seating, she start having lunch peacefully, then when she open her last box that contain her favoret dessert Barfi , her heart start to beat like a crazy again, and she hear his voice
" Hi outsider "
She Lifted her head and she saw yash sindhia standing infront of her , he was Clutching his Cricket bat and smiling, that killer smile that drive her crazy everytime, that smile that he make without noticing everytime he saw her ,
" Hi " Aarti said looking at him like if she saw a boy for the first time on her life
" Your clothes and face are full of colors that mean you start working on the mural right ?" yash said then set next to her
" Yes, you are comming for Cricket's practice, i can see you are holding your bat " Aarti said trying to not look at him on the eye
" Infact the practice is over , im going home now, but i notice that you are sitting her alone, and decide to come and wish you luck "
" For what ?" Aarti
"For the mural, you are now the talk of the school, everybody is surprise by the fact that a first year student will draw the mural this year " Yash said with a friendly smile
"wow Im famous artist of the school now " Aarti said with a small smile
Yash laugh again then he notice to small box that Aarti was hollding " Is this Barfi i love it , can i have some ? "
" Sure " Aarti said before she give him some of it, she was happy to see him enjoying the Barfi , she just get lost on his expressions, then his cell phone ring look at it , then stand up and said
" I have to go , again good luck outsider" then add with a wink
" Keep rocking girl "
Aarti just keep looking at him intil her eyes could see him enymore, after a few seconds a reality hit her
" O my god, i just share my Barfi with him, i dont share my Barfi with enyone "
That night when she go home , she was silenced on dinner's taible but her familly just assume that its because of her worry about the mural, at her room she again take her red notebook , and start Writing " I meet him agin today , and i dont think that my feelings for him are just a crush maybe , maybe im in love..." Aarti keep Writing till she fall asleep holding her red notebook,
months pass , Aarti keep working on the mural, but on her way to her work's place she make sure to pass next to the sports playgrounds, just to look at him from distance, she even end sooner to make sure to be on his way, after he finish practice,
they just chat for seconds, but those seconds mean the world to her,
On the finale party when everybody was clapping at her after they saw the mural ,she feel something missing, yes all the students and teachers were claping for her ,her friends were huging her, her family also come and take pic with her next to the mural, but she feel something was missing, then he come from the Crowd, to congratz her like everybody, and when he said " Thats an amezing mural" she just feel her happiness complete, and while he was going she just smile like all the praisings that she hear was not enough intill he come and say those words.
Almost 2 year passed , Aarti love for yash just graw , she keep waching him from distance, they chat sometimes, but never more than a few minutes, but that was more than enough for Aarti, she keep going to all his matchs, and cheering for him like a good friends, and she is not a cricket's fan but she go eny way just to see him
Aarti was sitting on bed holding her red notebook
" Soon he will be gone, i will not have the chance to see him or talk to him, he is 18 years old now, he Succeed all his finals exams, and i hear that he will complete his study on oxford , he is realy smart, i know he only look at me as his cute little friend, but i cannot stop my heart from loving him, i dont know why, but my love for him just become stronger day by day, we are friends in his world but he is my love on my secret world, no one know about that , his love is my secret , a secret that know one know about it, even him, i dont know why , but i just love him even when i dont saw him i still love him, i stop myself from saying this to him , since i dont want to loose his friendship.
Next week i will saw him for the last time , the school have a goodbye party to all the Graduates, i think i need to tell him that i love him, i cannot keep this secret on my heart forever, even he doesn't love me, even if he reject me , i just need him to know that before we get apart"
Aarti then close her red notebook and go to sleep, next day she shock her family when she ask her mother to help her to shop for a dress for a school party
" Wow, finaly you asked for it, you never wear a dress thats a great day " her mother said
"Maybe Aarti start to grow up ,she is 16 years old now , finaly my sister start to act like girl and ask for a dress " Vidhi said teasing Aarti, Aarti just smile and keep jocking with her mother and sister, so no one will ask her more questions why she want to buy a dress for that party,
On the party day Aarti was looking so cute , she was wearing a long bleu dress , her hair still short but now it Reached her shoulders, her friends keep prising her and said she look cute, but she head to yash who was standing with his frinds
" Hi yash "
yash look at her smile and said " Hi , you look great today"
" thanks, i want to say something to you , i lo..."
before she could complete yash saw on of the Art's student that was taking pictures on the party and said " Lets take a pic together, we are friends for 2 years now , but never take a pic, "
Aarti then smile and said " Yeh lets take one last pic "
After they both smile and take the pic, yash just said with a firndly smile " All the best , and take care of yourself outsider " then he go to his friends that start to call him , Aarti keep looking at him intil he get out of the party , she just fallow him from distance , till he reach his car and go , Aarti just keep looking at his car leaving, then she realize that this maybe the last time she may ever saw him tears start to fall , then she smile and said " Goodbye yash , and i love you " on that moment she feel like a part of her soul leave her body, and that night on her room, she tell all that to her red notebook, but this time pages were full of her tears too, not only her words.
Next day she collect the pic that they took since the student that took it study with her , after she went to her room that day , she put the pic in a red frame, then put it on her desk next to her parent's picture , she open her red notebook
and Started "Thats funny fact , i only have one picture with my real parents, and i only have one picture with him" she look to the both pics, a sad smile cross her face then add " If we ever meet again will he remember me ? "
True love doesn't have a happy ending, because true love never ends. Letting go is one way of saying I love you.
Edited by kholita - 12 years ago
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