Part 7
Flashback Continues
'Armaan can I speak to u alone….' She asked me with tension filled face……I smiled at her tense face and said 'Sure Riddima infact I too want to talk to u……..' he said and they both left to fire escape their usual meeting point……..Armaan's heart felt light ………….he is really happy………..
'Armaan I don't know how to start…..'she said nervously by curling her duppatta onto her finger….Armaan saw her nervousness and said 'Riddima u can tell me anything u wish to and I promise I'll hear it... .dnt be nervous i'm ur Armaan after all……..' hearing 'Your Armaan' Riddima felt butterflies in her stomach some unknown peace…………..'I know Armaan that u can understand me….Armaan I want to say….that….' she shivered……he held her hands and said 'Riddima tell me…..' making her more nervous by touching with his hands………..
'Armaan i….i….' she gulped the lump and said 'Armaan i….i…lo…I still love u…..' she said and turned other side……….Armaan stood rooted……'Ridd….' But Riddima cut him and said 'Please dnt stop me let me complete……Armaan I never loved Sid like I loved u…..i am never Sid's love but only yours…..i am only yours Riddima and will be yours……u r right that I should have waited for u but I was more concerned about my dignity my family and thought less about u……and after marriage also I thought only about u….i am fool to refuse ur love which u gave after u returned……Armaan i was afraid of society what they would think if I return to u leaving sid…..but I never thought about love….now I understood that love is the major relation two should share and me and sid never shared such type of relation except friendship……….i'm never his….and never can be his……………i'm only yours Armaan………
'I tried hard to forget u…the hard that I tried the hard I fell in love with u………….i understood that loving a person is not in our control... it just happens and it happened to me only with u and it can never happen with anyone………after your return I tried to avoid u to make my marriage work but I couldn't armaaan…..i'm physically far away from u but mentally i'm always with u……there is not even a single minute when I stopped thinking about u….when u r with me everything is perfect and when u r away everything messed ……..i need u Armaan…I need ur love more than anything in the world……….if u r there I can handle anything……….i'm in love with u all over again….the same Riddima is in love with u whom u loved………this time I promise I'll never leave u……' she said all this without looking at him…..
On the otherside Armaan is silently hearing her confession….this is what he died to listen from the day he returned and now he listened but is he happy for her confession…….???he smiled to himself thinking about his destiny……..it is always like this, what he want will be snatched way from him when he craved for it and will return when he deicide lo live without it…now he don't want destiny to snatch away his desire, love, life ……he will never do it again…..he is determined to be happy in his life with the person now he loves and want to give his life for her……
Riddima turned and saw Armaan who is in deep thought….'Armaan I can understand what u r thinking…..this time I'll not leave u……and I'll be there for u till eternity…' I looked at her and asked seriously 'are u sure about ur decision…..?' I still cant believe what she told…..'Yes Armaan im sure I want to live my life with u….'
I smiled to her and took her hands in mine and said 'Riddima u know when I returned Sanjeevini I died to listen these words from u…….even after u married Sid I never cared I wanted u that's it……' he said which made Riddima smile….'I know Armaan u still love me….an….' she didn't complete Armaan interrupted her and said 'No Riddima u r wrong i m not in love with u anymore……'
'What………..?' she removed her hands from his and asked 'u r not in love with me…..but…but u said that after my marriage also u loved me………..?' she said with shaking voice she cant digest the word he cant love her…..Armaan always loves Riddima……
'yes I loved u but not anymore……..'
'Are u in love with Shilpa…….???' Riddima sharply asked….Armaan just nodded his head……....he know that he is killing Riddima by accepting his love towards Shilpa but now he cant do anything as he is completely in love with Shilpa…..and now he don't want any complications in his life and love……he don't know when he loved Shilpa but only he knows that he love her and he want her and her friendship and her love….he very well know that Shilpa is in love with him…..
'how could u Armaan…..!!' she said and slide on the steps while crying….she never thought that it would happen….she has seen love in Shilpa's eyes for Armaan but how she didn't see the same love in Armaan…..'no Riddima u had seen but u never accepted……because u love him……' her conscience said……she is crying for her lost love…..yes she had seen the love in Armaan's eye when Shilpa and Armaan returned to Sanjeevini after there trip from panchgani…..thats why she felt insecurity about him…..some where she don't want Armaan to move on with Shilpa….she never like Shilpa because she always see more passion more care in Armaan's eyes for Shilpa …… this made her more insecure…….but after their trip from panchgani she saw love in his eyes for Shilpa……..but she didn't accept that's why she confronted him that day about his and Shilpa's relation…
'I guess I know that….' She said in hurt tone…yes she know that he loved her but somewhere she still think that he loved her…….'but Armaan on that day u said that u made lo…..' Armaan didn't let her complete….'I know what u want to ask but what I told u that day was not true…..when I loved Shilpa I don't no……???… but yes I loved her……and the night I made love to her I know visibly that it is Shilpa…..and I made love to her because I loved her……but I don't know why I didn't accept the truth to u on that day may be i'm confused about my thoughts and u r words being possessive about me…….on that day i was very much upset seeing u cry so I just bluttered out to pacify u but that is not fact Riddima I love her………
These two weeks I thought about my life…..Shilpa made me live again with her friendship her love…….she loved me a lot…after what happened between us any girl would made fuss about it but my Shilpa never pointed me…..she never asked me to marry her or love her or trust her she just gave her hand to support me and to live life once again without expecting anything from me……she held the same hand which is left by u….and made my life wonderful with her friendship……what happened that night between us is not a mistake Riddima its natural…u always say na god made pairs in heaven and send them down I think he made Shilpa for me………….i don't know exactly when I started loving her but it happened even before the night I guess otherwise I would never cross the limit…….and Shilpa is my life………these two weeks I never thought about u….literally u r out of my mind and heart Riddima….i always think about her antics which she used to made me laugh her face which is as pure as her heart…….I love Shilpa…….and only Shilpa………I came here to confess my love to her and take her away from everyone and live with her happily…….
Riddima i want to say u one more thing…….life gives chances and we have to grip the chance when it is available that what happened for both of us…..when I told u to leave everything and come with me u didn't care but now u r craving for it....and same happened to me there was a chance for me to come here before but I delayed……now we both got another chance to live in the form of Sid and Shilpa…..i don't want to loose this chance and I guess u too…..u like Sid but u can't Move on in ur life because of me……..and I don't want that to happen ….Sid is very good for u he is very caring and more than that he understands u very well and respects u……u both can surely make this marriage work Riddima……..and the love ur feeling for me now is not love its just that u don't want Shilpa to be part of my love so u thought to enter my life again…..u r just feeling insecurity about me…..and I want u to be happy in ur life……..so I just want to move from Sanjeevini with Shilpa……
'May b u r right Armaan…..but I don't know whether I can love Sid ever like I did u……but i'm sure u will love Shilpa more than she loves u……..an….' she couldn't speak anymore thinking her love is too late……..she lost everything……….Armaan hugged her tightly and said 'don't cry Riddima our love is not meant to be…….u can surely love Sid…….and i'm sure u will be happy with him…..'
Armaan consoled Riddima….
Beep…beep..
'I'll see u later Armaan its urgent……she said and left the place without anyword………..' Armaan felt bad for her but he cant do anything…..he thought and went to nurse station to find about Shilpa's duty so that he can meet her there…………
'hi sister……..can I know where Dr.Shilpa is….?' he asked…'Dr.Shilpa????' she asked him confusingly……..'Yes ….' ….'Dr.Armaan don't u know about Dr.Shilpa…?' she asked not understanding that how Armaan doesn't know about Shilpa leaving the hospital as they both are best friends……..
'What I don't know about Shilpa…???' now i'm feeling negative vibes……'Dr.Armaan Dr.Shilpa left sanjeevini……..she gave her resignation 10days before……….'
'Whaaaaaaaaaaaaat…????'
'Sister i'm asking about Dr.Shilpa……' he didn't believe what he heard…. Shilpa can't leave me……I cant let that happen ….i cant loose my love again….. he is continuously praying god for Shilpa to be here now……'Dr.Armaan Dr.Shilpa left sanjeevini if u want u can ask Dr.Shashank….' she quietly said and resumed her work……
He rushed to Dr.Shashank's cabin and didn't bother to knock he just rushed into it and asked 'Dr.Shilpa…….' he didn't try to justify exactly what he is asking…….Shashank looked at him 'what' look……'Dr.Armaan I think u forgot ur manners…..u….' he never completed his sentence 'where is Dr.Shilpa ????' Shashank didn't reply just then Riddima entered and heard what he asked and replied 'Dr.Shilpa resigned……' Armaan turned to Riddima to make confirm what he heard and seeing Riddima nod her head he felt again his heart breaking into pieces……….'where…..?' he asked silently hoping that she know where Shilpa is…..but again destiny played a cruel game with him…..'She didn't tell anyone where she is going…she not only left sanjeevini but also her house…..'
This cant be done with him again……….she cant go, leaving him all alone again………….he immediately started to Shilpa's house….he cant accept that she left him….she cant leave him…...she loves him………and im here to love her…….please Shilpa don't leave me….i ……I love u….he continuously prayed god throughout his journey to Shilpa's house….he reached there finding the house locked………he knocked door madly expecting that she may come out….but she didn't……he screamed her name…but she didn't…..he left house with heavy heart……….
Days passed……..He don't know why always fate play with his love life…he jus can't feel d pain all over again....last time Shilpa was there to heal his soul but know she is not there……no one can heal him now……he daily use to come to her house and see whether she would come but he never saw his life there…………….he wanted to leave sanjeevini, Mumbai everything but some where he thought one day she may return this place….so he just waited for her one glimpse....he just want to hug her and melt in her arms and talk to her everything and anything…...he want to know why she left him….what he had done that made her go away from him…he daily use to think about there special night which is unforgettable……….
Flashback Ends
Next Morning
Both Armaan and Riddima entered board room and started discussing about the presentation…..
Outside Shilpa's cabin..
'Shilpuuuu why u bought Shona here u know naaa Armaan is here then why u bought……' Abhi asked not liking Shona being where there is Armaan…..he is very possessive about Shilpa n Shona……'haaa what made u bring Shona here shilpu…..' Nikki asked….'Di….and Abhi please be patient yar…….today there is no baby care center so how can I leave her alone in the house……..and u know na she will not stay with anyone except with us and with Ms.Scarlett so as my Shona left no choice I bought her here……..and Abhi don't worry I'll never let Shona meet him……I'll make sure Shona in my cabin only……' Shilpa said 'Ok but be careful I don't want that bas***d anywhere near my angel....' 'Ok baba….now u make a move to conference room I'll just come…….' she said and left to her cabin just to make Shona is comfort or not……..
She saw Shona sleeping peacefully on the small bed that is always is kept in her cabin for little Shona….she kissed her head lovingly and caressed her hair….and left for conference room…..
As expected inside she saw Armaan and Riddima….she sat beside Abhi n Nikki…..Armaan never tear his gaze from Shilpa………..but she never met his gaze…..she is avoiding his eyes knowingly……..he didn't like it a bit………'how could she avoid me….did she really forgot me…..'the thought itself piercing him……..he couldn't be hated by her………he cant take this grief of being hated by her………he never in his dreams thought that she would hate him….infact he hated her because she left him without telling the reason and left him incomplete….
Presentation was over everything was done greatly…all loved Armaan n Riddima's presentation………….'thanq Mr.Armaan we loved ur presentation we surely will merge with Sanjeevini….and u just finish some more formalities and then tomorrow u give final presentation to some more board members….' said dean and left the conference room…….Riddima looked at Abhi n Nikki hoping to make a conversation and Armaan continuously staring at Shilpa……Riddima moved towards Nikki 'Nikki for the old sake can we have a cup of coffee……' Armaan Abhi Shilpa all turned towards Riddima…..'I m sorry Dr.Riddima i m not interested sharing my time with u….so if u please leave me…..' she said and resumed her talk with Shilpa n Abhi….this really made Riddima hurt….Armaan saw hurt n pain in Riddima's eyes he went near her and said 'Shall I have a pleasure to take this beautiful lady for coffee…..' he said forwarding his hand for her to accept his offer….Riddima know that he is making this offer to please her and take away the hurt that was caused by Nikki……she gladly took and both went outside the conference room leaving Shilpa hurt more……..
Both Riddima and Armaan sat in the caf 'Riddima r u ok….' Armaan asked her seeing her tear escape her cheek……'Yes Armaan…i m ok….' She controlled and spoke casually 'So whats the program today….we completed our presentation successfully……..and now what to do….' Armaan looked at her she is same as before never confess her grief to anyone……'Anywhere u want to go …' he asked Riddima and turned when he heard some known cute voice.……
'Shonaaaaaaaaaaaaaa……' Armaan shouted seeing Shona walk towards stairs…he reached Shona but little late and he saw Shona rolling on the stairs……….he rushed to her and took her in his arms and took her to treat...he shouted at everyone who came in middle….he shouted on Riddima who tried to take Shona so that she can treat but Armaan refused and shouted at her and took Shona for treatment…….
Shona just rolled on four stairs as Armaan came and lifted her before she fell on other stairs….and she was hurt a little just small cut on her forehead …..the small cut is very large in Armaan's heart………he took her inside and cleaned her wound….. when he is cleaning the wound whole hospital is in ahhh!!!! Armaan continuously cryed seeing Shona cry….Shona is so afraid and also she couldn't control her pain it hurted her more seeing her like that Armaan is very much worried……………some how he cleaned and applied medicine and bandaged the cut….he kissed Shona lovingly on her forehead to make her stop her cry……
He took shona in his arms and said 'Shona baby nothing happened to u come on look at me….baby nothing happened ur strong girl right…..and strong girls dnt cry…' but still she is crying keeping her head on his shoulder…….' He caressed her head and back making her feel comfort….she is now crying because she is afraid of that incident…Armaan continuously kissed her and atlast baby Shona stopped crying and saw him and smiled which made Armaan day……
'Heelo….haha…' she giggled seeing him and raised her hand and touched his dimple making his smile wider………'I love you heelo.…u always help me…' she said and kissed his cheek………Armaan never in his life felt this feeling of being loved unconditionally by his blood………
(Yes guys Armaan know that Shona is his blood come on how can he mistake his blood and he also know that shilpa will not love anyone except him…..but he want shilpa to confess about Shona……….So lets c how he will do it)
NOTE: I know this is very very boring part but indeed needed part so i gave long explanation....and from next parts no more flashbacks may be on small flashback about SR...and more ArSh(Shilpa n Shona) from next parts.....
And Mel im sorry i didnt give ur much awaiting SLAPPPPPPP in this part also but hope in next part.....wait for it.........
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